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why do I feel like I'm going to regret this whilst it also being the right choice... hard decisions that shouldn't be hard. it was never meant to be, I know this for a myriad of reasons and indications. maybe it's just the fear of waiting for me. that's always been difficult for me. combined with me absolutely hating to hurt someone I actually seem to care about me. that makes me care about them. and you don't really ever want to be hurting someone you care about. in any way, all your red flags aside, thanks for the very least having me feel greatly appreciated, like truly appreciated - even if I fear it's for the wrong reasons you do so. reasons being to lure me in. thank you, still. I needed it and you should know that I do indeed appreciate you as well. you are dealing with issues that I know you'll see through some day soon. I just can't be there to have you see them through, that's a journey you must take on your own accord. I hope you take the right lessons from all of this with you. you do indeed have the value, you have the heart. if not, then you already have me fooled. but focus on your insecurities. your tendencies for projecting. these are qualities that frighten me. I've been with women whom posses those qualities and it's not necessarily defining but it is, however, ingredients for the recipe of toxicity and I've come to find that I simply am not mentally strong enough for such things if, or when, their aim turn onto me. should they never do so, it can still just be so draining to be around. you've specified that you are aware of them. this means you are on the right track. now it's just removing them from the equation. for a lot of people, you possessing these qualities would be a major fair pay. especially when one takes into account all the energy you put into the ones you like and love. in many ways, more than I even dare to count, you are seriously too good for this world today. and my oh my have you been given a bad hand. this is also my detriment. i've really grown fond of you. losing the friend part of the situation hurts me the most.  god that's why I feel so prick-ish saying this. doing this. but when I feel like something's off it's just best to follow intuitions. you are all a man needs but I'm in search of something different. it hurts letting a good thing go and it's scary as fuck. I don't know if this is going to turn out as a good choice as I've never done something like this before. I don't know if I'm just neglecting the moon and shooting for the unreachable starts. but when I'm at a point in my life where I'm not even sure if I should be dating ANYONE, then it's best if I don't. exactly for the reason and fact that I'm hesitant. and that you and I are different in ways more rooted in what I'm looking for. this is the worst part because it's not true. but then again, it is. no it's not. and even if it was it would be cowardly. and that's not me. it's also dumb seeing as I'm aware about all of the ways that we ARE compatible. but here's to us and the intensity we got to within a month. and for the hurt I brought you, I'm sorry. I really am. I'm just sitting here. starring. I'm sorry.

søn. 19. feb. 20:53

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We made a hat for Echo Beach in Bali! Have you been to Canggu? It’s one of the best spots for digital nomads around the world. This hat was made for the beach I lived near while launching my brand

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