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“Perhaps one did not want to be loved so much as to be understood.”

— 1984, George Orwell (b. 25 June 1903)

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“  Flowers and Plants   ”

Photo by Ishikoro. Japan.

Love & Peace!

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before it's gone 🌤️

Day 10—I love sunsets. Also sunrises but I usually wake up late so it's very unusual for me to see them, much less take pics (though I used to. In a certain place, many years ago).

I'm a bit anxious these days. Now that my mom and I aren't fighting so much we have more time to worry about my results and whatever the doctor may say tomorrow. Been trying to just let go and hope for the best but today we just had to talk about it and now I'm overthinkg 🥲 the good thing though is that she's being unusually sweet with me so I'm also focusing on that (it's her way of worrying, going from rage to caring in a few days).

That aside, I'm doing some weird painting experiment today x> kinda nervous but I've been postponing it since a few days ago and I want to make the most out of my lil drawing.

Oh, I also rearranged the blog! (The pc version). It's not the same as the first ver but I like it regardless.

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On A Sunny Afternoon In Spring, April 2024

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Agent Orange wearing concealer makeup, infiltrates the rose garden, to spy on watering schedule; fertilizer type, size and weight; sun exposure; sleeping schedule and musical selections.

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In a place beyond 🌲

Day 9—Pretty much lost count of how many times I've come to write something and left it unfinished. Also in my mind this is always supposed to be day 10 lol.

I've had some awful days. I'm always afraid of letting people know I'm not okay but also suffer when no one asks how I feel. So today I took a step and decided to talk—not the longest conversation or the one I expected tbh but it was okay. At least I feel a bit better now.

Been thinking about the changes I should make in my life to finally get out of this... Probably should make a list at this point too.

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♡

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Pink flower

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“  Flowers and Plants   ”

Photo by Ishikoro. Japan.

Love & Peace!

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quiet ⛰️

Day 8—That thing in the middle is actually my neighbors' house (again) but it's nice thinking it's a mountain... They're right there behind the house anyways.

These days I've been journaling a lot because I got some new stickers and washi tapes and making cute spreads usually helps me cope with rage and sadness. I've been doing a few things irl too which is why I hadn't come here. Oh and I also messed up my blog's pretty aesthetic and the idea of having to do it all over again drains a significant amount of energy out of me 😔

I'll do it though! Just because I love the idea of my cute lil diary photo blog 🩵 that reminds me I've been out too cuz somehow a silly fanart of mine suddenly received a lot of love in my artblog.

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“  snapshot in Japan “

Photo by Ishikoro.

Love & Peace!

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Day 7—While scrolling through the blog I found many different things, including some real pretty pics that I might as well show again with my daily comments (also many bookish posts + original short stories I'll rewrite and post somewhere else).

These days have been somehow peaceful but also I haven't been feeling too well. I went to the doctor today and thankfully everything was ok, though I have some exams to get done...

I'm getting sleepy so that's today's report. Thanks to being sleepy I messed up the blog's pretty theme yesterday and now I gotta check it all over again...

reaching

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“  nature walk   ”

Photo by Ishikoro. Japan.

Love & Peace!

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I'm about five seconds from crying I can't handle this constant need and these feelings of rejection that I bury beneath resolute as I may be to not utter a word I find myself drowning in the tears of thoughts left unheard