marimo-vie

[marimo-vie]

flashbacks

silence is a virtue

violence as a mean to control

damaged goods

thoughts repeating over and over

pasting itself onto the old wounds

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Disappointed.

I am. Disappointed.

All the dreams that came over me.

Who whispers the truth?

[marimo-vie]

feels like a dream of what happened to me

feels like a dream of what I did with them

feels like a dream of what I used to do

feels like a dream

[marimo-vie]

She came over as we are preparing for a feast. Found me in a crowd. Kissed my forehead as if Im still a child. Caressed me as if I’d move further away. She asked about the films as if curiosity struck her to fill the void between us. She was there. And we walked. I barely saw her head. An embarrassment. Tenderness. Pity.

I no longer want it.

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추접한 찐따 새끼

[marimo-vie]

they werent here when i was struggling

they werent here when i was crying alone

they werent here when i was puking my guts out in the toilet

they werent here when i was hurting the most

they werent here when i slept alone

they werent here

so

why should they have the right to reclaim me?

[marimo-vie]

나무에서 떨어진 잎이

물 위에 만나 서로를 위로하네

봄 바람 불 듯 무렵

겨울 바람 따라 헤어져버리네

[marimo-vie]

s에게 몇년 만에 다시 연락이 왔다.

이번엔 절대 실수하기 싫다.

[marimo-vie]

L o n e l y

o n e l y

o n e

y

[marimo-vie]

i am wanted for who I am. What i am.

Let me be loved for what I am. Who I am.

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im glad.

Finally

Drifted

[marimo-vie]

she is obsessed with me

she says she is in love with me

when did it start?

what do i want with her now?

[marimo-vie]

너가 뭘 하겠니

이딴 생각, 이딴 말을 하시는 분,

어릴 적에 받은 트라우마,

손가락질하는 내 성격 탓

그게 다 누구 때문에 그런건데,

지 말만 지꺼리고

언제까지나

본인이 맞다 생각하는

그렇고 그런 사람

[marimo-vie]

“If it is destroying you then it is not love my dear.”

— Unknown

[marimo-vie]

So it is over.

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어떻게 되는 걸까

글쎄.

S는 날 진심으로 걍 친구라고 생각한다

나는?

글쎄, 친구라고 하기엔 만난 루트가 애초부터 이상하다

관심있나?

딱히. 내 타입 아니다. 두근거리지도 않는다.

근데, 왜 갑정뚝인가?

글쎄,

더 이상 궁금한게 없다.

[marimo-vie]

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