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say what you will about jensen ackles but in 2005 he made the active decision to pitch dean’s voice lower not because he felt like dean’s voice was naturally low but because JDM’s voice was low and he thought dean would try to talk like his dad

he’s the ultimate dean studies enthusiast. he said dean is a performer from day One.

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CLAWING AT THE WALLS

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breaking the news to everyone i know

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in terms of baby cow eyes, these are the biggest and the wettest

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a lot of folks on this website will specifically describe people as Cis or Neurotypical to signal someone is boring/basic when I think the word they're truly looking for in their heart is "normie" but they won't say it because it makes them sound like a 4chan user

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🎂♥️

2/3/4/5 👉 无字的版本/我其实还是更喜欢草稿/乱画但是可爱的samulet/画过用时最短的的baby

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Sam, at six years old, is excited to go to school. He thinks he'll meet new friends. John tells both him and Dean to watch their backs and walk to school. Monday to Friday. Dean is only ten but he walks Sam to class and picks him up too. Sam holds Dean's hand tight, and Dean just smiles at him with no words said.

Sam, at eight years old, finds out why John is really always out. He thinks school is his only escape from home, and as long as Dean is there, no matter how many schools they go to, he'll be okay. Dean is twelve now, and he's hanging out with girls more than usual, but Sam can understand it. No one likes boring, and Dean is supposed to be cool. Sam thinks Dean is cool. Dean doesn't pick him up anymore.

Sam, at fourteen, hates school. Dean tries to coax him out by telling him he'll be by his side all the time, and Sam only curls further into the balled up position he's pushed his skin and bones into, for warmth, he says. For familiarity. Dean is eighteen now, and this is the first time in a week that he's come back home. Sam can't bring himself to look at Dean.

Sam, at seventeen, realizes that nowhere is home enough, and he'll never be able to fit in. His dad rarely comes home and Dean is out for weeks now; in bars picking up girls, scamming people for their money at pool. Sometimes both Dean and Dad are home, and Sam thinks it'll be much easier if he did it when both of them are here. He confesses he's going to stanford, and John tells him he has no place in this family. He's free. He feels it in his gut.

Sam, at twenty-three, has a knife lodged in his spine, and he wishes he could curl back into his balled up position. Dean tries to coax him out one last time, and Sam doesn't answer just like he did at eight. Dean cradles him like he used to when he was six, and Sam's hand comes up to squeeze Dean's. Dean let's out a sob. Sam isn't warm anymore, just like when he was seventeen.

Dean, at twenty-seven, lays Sam down on the old worn bed, lifts his cold arm up and shovels himself underneath the space he made to be closer to his little brother. There's the silent flick of the safety going off. And Bobby finds them that way.

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peeta mellark, casanova supreme

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Whenever an artist who makes dark content gets outed as a sexual predator people will be like 'aha it was obvious something was up because their work was so dark and nasty' and whenever an artist who makes wholesome content gets outed as a sexual predator people will be like 'aha it was obvious something was up because their work was so aggressively wholesome' and it's like you know I think maybe you can't tell whether or not someone is a predator based on their artistic output.

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blocked because your interpretation of that character doesn’t match the way they act in my bedtime narrative i imagine when i’m falling asleep every night

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martyr lamb

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SUPERNATURAL: 2x21 // 9x23

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creation and forgiveness

Mitski, I Don't Like My Mind | Ada Limón, Banished Wonders | Carmen Maria Machado, In the Dream House | Keith Harring | Hanif Abdurraqib, It’s Not Like Nikola Tesla Knew All of Those People Were Going to Die | Mark Rothko, on The Recipe for a Work of Art | At A Window, Carl Sandburg | Dave Malloy, Refresh | various dream tweets and quotes

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dean winchester in the kitchen you are everything to me

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Genuinely what is the point of continuing to watch Supernatural if not to see Sam and Dean become worse and worse until they’re so terrible and horrible that they are unrecognisable from their S1 counterparts, abandoning all morals except the one; putting each other above everything