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CHALLENGERS (2024) dir. Luca Guadagnino

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TINY WRLD (2020)

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need my brain to stop acting like a teenage girl pleeeease

I am happily married but this really attractive older guy that I work with (who is also married and has a kid) got drunk and told me that he thinks I'm really hot (and then when he was sober we had this awkward conversation where he apologized for being inappropriate but then proceeded to tell me that he thinks I'm a "very attractive young woman")

and it's so stupid but I'm really struggling not to think about it quite a lot?? And obviously I do NOT want anything at all to happen and I'm certain he doesn't either and I wouldn't even consider any misbehaviour because I love my husband and my marriage but it's just really hard not to get wrapped up in this feeling and fantasy of "woah someone hot thinks I'M hot"

like, it's such an exciting feeling so it's hard to let it go, even though I wish I could just be like "okay, move on from that moment!"??

But the thing is I also get so so so self conscious around moments like this so it's made me super hyper focused on myself and my appearance and whether I really am attractive or not, I keep thinking like "is it just him or do other people think that...?" which is so vain and conceited but I think I'm just so insecure and I want to be "perfect" so whenever someone says something like this it just heightens all of my concerns about myself and I haaaaate it

so it's not like I'm even thinking about *him* I'm thinking about what someone else thinks of me and it is messing with my brain uuugh

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I finished my first ever playthrough of Baldur's Gate 3 today and now I am EMOTIONAL

and I can't wait to start again asap. I think this is the best hyperfixation I've ever had

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If you like frogs. Or possums. Or cool builds. Or happiness. This is the video for you.

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BEN AFFLECK Jan 04 2024

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"Passing curiosity", a Good Omens very silly comic.

I regret nothing.

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Lee Pace for Thom Browne and British GQ (July, 2023)

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Baws

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Thus Wendy first laid eyes on the dark figure who haunted her stories. She saw the piercing eyes and was not afraid, but entranced.

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Hi again

spoke to my other ex manager about this today while we were both drunk and she confirmed that this guy definitely only flirts with me and not other team members and is definitely invested and although I do not need to do a single thing with this information because I already have someone I'm still like.... "omg really??? he likes me??" fuckin cringe teenage nonsense

hi hello I have a problem

I have crushes on people (colleagues) sometimes, no big deal

but as soon as someone else points out that they think my crush actually has a crush on me too I get so wrapped up in thinking about it and thinking about it and it's like

bitch?? you're happily married??? it doesn't matter if they also fancy you or not??

tbf in this instance the emotional side is complicated because he's my manager at the job I literally just left and we went through something so tough on Saturday's shift that he called me on Saturday night and ended up crying down the phone to me and being really open and like it's SO hard not to get caught up in thinking about him a lot even though it's legit just a bit of a crush and I would never wanna do anything to wrong my husband?? why do feelings about other humans have to feel so big all the time

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hi hello I have a problem

I have crushes on people (colleagues) sometimes, no big deal

but as soon as someone else points out that they think my crush actually has a crush on me too I get so wrapped up in thinking about it and thinking about it and it's like

bitch?? you're happily married??? it doesn't matter if they also fancy you or not??

tbf in this instance the emotional side is complicated because he's my manager at the job I literally just left and we went through something so tough on Saturday's shift that he called me on Saturday night and ended up crying down the phone to me and being really open and like it's SO hard not to get caught up in thinking about him a lot even though it's legit just a bit of a crush and I would never wanna do anything to wrong my husband?? why do feelings about other humans have to feel so big all the time

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Hassan Ragab: Recycled Plastic Art Nouveau Facade Chairs (2023)

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In uksies, Spot Conlon is referred to exclusively with they/them pronouns ie:

“When I get there, there was Spot and all their cronies…”

“You seen Spot Conlon right, what did they say?”

“Sure we seen ‘em.” “Yeah them and about 20 of their gang.”

Now one might believe this is a choice on the directors part to keep the surprise of the Brooklyn newsies being girls, but in actuality this is showcasing a non-binary Spot Conlon, ruler of Brooklyn. In this essay, I will—

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#TRIANGLES ARE THE STRONGEST SHAPE

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the bisexuals are normal till the man with long hair shows up then they lose it