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listening to the movie version of One Short Day and I can't help but feel like the overlapping whispers of "one short day, one short day" at the start are a quiet warning to Elphaba and Glinda, a warning that their beautiful and happy time together is almost up, that very, very soon they will be parted from each other it's like

you've finally found each other, you're finally together, make the most of your shared excitement and joy and love for each other in this city because it'll only be for one short day

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But only one that mattered.

WICKED: FOR GOOD 2025, dir. Jon M. Chu

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SINNERS (2025) dir. Ryan Coogler

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Sinners dir. Ryan Coogler | 2025

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mutual pining simply never misses. the yearning. the stupidity. the desperation while also thinking themselves alone with it. the rattling relief at the revelation. the way it works in so many scenarios— friends to lovers? a banger every time. casual hook-ups/friends with benefits while they both want more? show-stopping, spectacular, incredible. enemies who are so deep in denial it just makes them madder at each other? utterly unmatched every single time. slow burn, fast burn, burning while already fucking. mutual pining really just is that girl like truly who does it like her

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IDGAF if the women in my fiction are empowering or aspirational, I'm an adult, I don't need role models, I want the women in my fiction to be interesting, and if that involves being pathetic, hypocritical, amoral, or trapped in a delightfully dysfunctional relationship so be it

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My skinny scientist guy of choice

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okay I've started writing the sex stuff and I feel kinda depraved cause I'm going all out on the concept of this kinky lil foursome and like... how do people have the confidence to post this stuff??

ngl i'm so glad i have tumblr and AO3 though, idk where i'd be without a safe place to play around

so uh for the first time ever I'm having a wee go at writing a short smutty fanfic cause the ACOTAR series really did a number on me and i'm obsessed with all the characters but esp the bat boys

and I've written all of the preamble, the set up is good to go, I just need to write the actual sex part

and I'm explaining that here because I'm really tempted to just give up and not do it, I'm worried that once I go to bed (imminent) I won't want to pick it back up tomorrow and I'm worried that I'll be too scared to share it which is silly cause I'm writing it so that other people can enjoy the fantasy too so this is just me rambling to say that I'm going to try and actually do something that I want to do and not give up on it

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so uh for the first time ever I'm having a wee go at writing a short smutty fanfic cause the ACOTAR series really did a number on me and i'm obsessed with all the characters but esp the bat boys

and I've written all of the preamble, the set up is good to go, I just need to write the actual sex part

and I'm explaining that here because I'm really tempted to just give up and not do it, I'm worried that once I go to bed (imminent) I won't want to pick it back up tomorrow and I'm worried that I'll be too scared to share it which is silly cause I'm writing it so that other people can enjoy the fantasy too so this is just me rambling to say that I'm going to try and actually do something that I want to do and not give up on it

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my most toxic trait is i fucking love work gossip. i play neutral not to be the bigger person or take the high road but to hear slander and hearsay from every side. two coworkers complained about each other to me in the same afternoon and i nearly blacked out from the rush

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so

i haaaaaated War of the Rohirrim

I wanted to like it SO badly and I didn't read or engage with anything about it beforehand so I went in with an open mind

but I just thought it was so bad. I liked Hera and her brothers, I liked the animation... but so many of the characters were so one-dimensional and there were a MILLION moments where it was like "could've killed him there. could've killed him then. EASILY could've killed him right there" to the point that it just got annoying to watch

so many stupid moments that weren't epic enough to be forgivable

disappointing :(

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“You could’ve picked me”

I AM STRAIGHT UP NOT OK OH MY GOD

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"Glinda! Is it true you were her friend?" "Friend? Yes."

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Pink.

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this weeks doomed yuri pairing running around in my brain 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

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always felt super guilty if I had to take time off work because of depression, anxiety and fatigue but I've now been signed off work for the rest of this week and next because I probs have hypothyroidism so symptoms like those absolutely will not get better until that's treated which is like... such a treat for me??? I don't have to be guilty or try really hard to feel better asap cause until I get medication it is what it is and I just have to focus on resting and relaxing rather than work??? like, I'm depressed but also quite happy at the same time because for now I just get to reeeeeeest and let the doctor sort it out once my bloods come back which won't be for a little while so yay????