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ive written so much in my vacation it is borderline embarrassing

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i NEEDED to see abby with her hair down in the game,, i feel physically ROBBED shes so beautiful i cant

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cold truths ─── abby x reader

✧˖*°࿐ content warning ─ a little bit angsty toxic!abby toxic!reader ykwim! [sorry i did this in a train a little bit drunk so i hope it's not terrible enjoy !!]

the room felt heavy with tension, the air thick with unspoken words. although you were just rooms apart, the distance felt overwhelming. you were alone in the living room, sitting in the couch, reminiscing about the evening. a casual conversation started off innocently enough, but suddenly spiraled into a heated argument. and then you found yourselves locked in a battle of wills.

"you just don't get it, do you?" abby's voice was laced with frustation. her eyes flashing with anger. "you always have to make everything about you."

your jaw clenched, a surge of defensiveness rising within you. "i'm just trying to express how i feel, abby."

she scoffed, her tone dripping with sarcasm, "oh, of course. because you're the martyr that does no wrong."

you gritted your teeth, your patience wearing thin, "that's not what i'm saying."

"then what are you saying?" abby's voice rose, her anger escalating. "that i'm the one who's always at fault? mhm? that i'm the one who has to cater to your every fucking whim?"

"that's not fair," you shot back, your voice tinged with exasperation.

abby's gaze bore into yours, her expression a mix of frustration and hurt. "no, what's not fair is that i constantly have to tiptoe around your feelings. i can never do anything right in your eyes."

your chest tightened, a knot of guilt and hurt forming, "that's not true, abby. at all. i appreciate everything you do."

she rolled her eyes, her disbelief evident. "oh, i'm sure you do. just not enough to actually listen to me, right?"

"are you serious? you're just straight up lying!" you insisted, your voice strained.

"really?" abby's tone was biting. "because it seems to me like you only hear what you want to hear."

the room seemed to close in around you, the weight of the argument suffocating. your gaze hardened as you pushed back. "and what about you, abby? you're so fucking quick to point fingers, but you never take responsibility for your own actions."

her nostrils flared, her anger reaching its peak. "you're unbelievable. you always find a way to turn things around on me."

"maybe because you never take ownership of your mistakes," you shot back, your words laced with bitterness.

abby's face turned red, her voice seething with anger. "you know what? i'm done with this."

she stood up abruptly, storming out of the room, leaving you alone with your racing thoughts. the echoes of the argument hung in the air, a toxic mixture of hurtful words and unresolved emotions.

and that's leads to now. you're still sitting in the couch, the minutes ticking by, the silence becoming unbearable. you both knew the argument spiraled out of control, fueled by both of your insecurities and frustrations. it had pushed you to a breaking point, and the toxic dynamic you have didn't helped at all.

with a heavy sigh, you got up from the couch and headed towards the bedroom, finding abby sitting on the edge of the bed, her shoulders slumped and her face buried in her hands.

"i'm sorry," you said, your voice soft and sincere.

abby looked up, her eyes red from tears. "i'm sorry too."

you sat down next to her, your gaze filled with regret. "we can't keep doing this, abby."

her expression softened, her guard coming down. "i know. it's just..."

you sighed, the weight of the moment sinking in. "we need to figure out how to communicate better," i mutter. "how to support each other instead of, well, tearing us down, you know?"

abby took a shaky breath, her figure getting closer to yours, taking you in her arms. "i love you," she muttered, close to your ear.

tears welled up in your eyes, leaning in her warmth. "i love you too."

as the two of you sat there, holding onto each other, the toxic cycle of jealousy, insecurity, and blame began to unravel.

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there are 2 different ways i can imagine you and ellie falling in love.

one, is the slow burn. lingering looks and touches, stomach erupting in butterflies when she throws a smile your way. you can’t help but lay awake and think of her at night, what it would be like to just hold her hand and kiss her lips. little do you know, she’s doing the exact same thing, two hundred feet away in her own bed. you can’t help but notice the way she acts around you though, it’s different than the way she acts around dina and jesse. almost like she’s shy and flustered, nevertheless you just brush it off. you talk to each other about mundane things, anything and everything, as both of your hearts unknowingly pound in synch. ellie would look at you as you laugh and sip your drink at the tipsy bison, her eyes grazing over your face and soaking in every feature. they would roam from your eyes, to your hair, your hands, legs, and everything in between. she can’t help but feel like a creep, because certainly you don’t feel the same way and she’s just gawking at you from across the table as you and dina ramble on. unfortunately for her, but fortunately for you, you catch her in the act. her face flushes a dark crimson as she looks away and takes a sip of her drink. you bite your bottom lip, trying to hide the smile that’s creeping up onto your face. while both of you have admitted your feelings to yourselves in your sleepless nights of reveries, neither of you make a move on the other. the days and weeks pass, you placing a hand on her shoulder and letting it linger a little longer than you probably should; her holding eye contact with you more than the average person would. eventually, when one of you finally admits your feelings (most likely you because ellie is a LOSER. sorry that’s harsh but she is :( she never thought you’d feel the same about her), your curiosity of what it would be like to run your hands across her skin and kiss the spots only seen by you are finally fulfilled. the sleepless nights are still sleepless, though now they’re spent together and filled with gentle whispers and grazes. an “i love you” is mumbled in the middle of it as you gently place kisses on one another. a slow burn love that one can only daydream about.

the second, is a quick and passionate love. the second ellie lays eyes on you she knows: you’re hers. she approaches, hands shaking slightly but determination set deep in her green eyes. as she introduces herself, you immediately think the same as her: you’re hers. while neither of you admit it out loud, it’s unspoken. instead of countless weeks and months of lingering touches and grazes, it’s shameless flirting between you two. maybe after one too many drinks at the tipsy bison you would find yourself giggling as you drag ellie out of the building and to a secluded area. hushed whispers and chuckles are exchanged as your hand travels down her neck and her arm. her gaze piercing directly into your soul and her soft smile making your heart race a thousand miles an hour. “you have no idea how badly i’ve wanted to do this…” she whispers in between kisses, you can only laugh in response because you do have some idea. afterwards, you two are inseparable, attached at the hip practically. while it happened quick, you know your feelings for her are true, and so are hers for you. “i love you” comes quickly afterwards, neither of you sure who said it first as it was said when clothes were being ripped off and lips were crashing together. this love is quick and hard, hitting you like a brick wall.

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cold truths ─── abby x reader

✧˖*°࿐ content warning ─ a little bit angsty toxic!abby toxic!reader ykwim! [sorry i did this in a train a little bit drunk so i hope it's not terrible enjoy !!]

the room felt heavy with tension, the air thick with unspoken words. although you were just rooms apart, the distance felt overwhelming. you were alone in the living room, sitting in the couch, reminiscing about the evening. a casual conversation started off innocently enough, but suddenly spiraled into a heated argument. and then you found yourselves locked in a battle of wills.

"you just don't get it, do you?" abby's voice was laced with frustation. her eyes flashing with anger. "you always have to make everything about you."

your jaw clenched, a surge of defensiveness rising within you. "i'm just trying to express how i feel, abby."

she scoffed, her tone dripping with sarcasm, "oh, of course. because you're the martyr that does no wrong."

you gritted your teeth, your patience wearing thin, "that's not what i'm saying."

"then what are you saying?" abby's voice rose, her anger escalating. "that i'm the one who's always at fault? mhm? that i'm the one who has to cater to your every fucking whim?"

"that's not fair," you shot back, your voice tinged with exasperation.

abby's gaze bore into yours, her expression a mix of frustration and hurt. "no, what's not fair is that i constantly have to tiptoe around your feelings. i can never do anything right in your eyes."

your chest tightened, a knot of guilt and hurt forming, "that's not true, abby. at all. i appreciate everything you do."

she rolled her eyes, her disbelief evident. "oh, i'm sure you do. just not enough to actually listen to me, right?"

"are you serious? you're just straight up lying!" you insisted, your voice strained.

"really?" abby's tone was biting. "because it seems to me like you only hear what you want to hear."

the room seemed to close in around you, the weight of the argument suffocating. your gaze hardened as you pushed back. "and what about you, abby? you're so fucking quick to point fingers, but you never take responsibility for your own actions."

her nostrils flared, her anger reaching its peak. "you're unbelievable. you always find a way to turn things around on me."

"maybe because you never take ownership of your mistakes," you shot back, your words laced with bitterness.

abby's face turned red, her voice seething with anger. "you know what? i'm done with this."

she stood up abruptly, storming out of the room, leaving you alone with your racing thoughts. the echoes of the argument hung in the air, a toxic mixture of hurtful words and unresolved emotions.

and that's leads to now. you're still sitting in the couch, the minutes ticking by, the silence becoming unbearable. you both knew the argument spiraled out of control, fueled by both of your insecurities and frustrations. it had pushed you to a breaking point, and the toxic dynamic you have didn't helped at all.

with a heavy sigh, you got up from the couch and headed towards the bedroom, finding abby sitting on the edge of the bed, her shoulders slumped and her face buried in her hands.

"i'm sorry," you said, your voice soft and sincere.

abby looked up, her eyes red from tears. "i'm sorry too."

you sat down next to her, your gaze filled with regret. "we can't keep doing this, abby."

her expression softened, her guard coming down. "i know. it's just..."

you sighed, the weight of the moment sinking in. "we need to figure out how to communicate better," i mutter. "how to support each other instead of, well, tearing us down, you know?"

abby took a shaky breath, her figure getting closer to yours, taking you in her arms. "i love you," she muttered, close to your ear.

tears welled up in your eyes, leaning in her warmth. "i love you too."

as the two of you sat there, holding onto each other, the toxic cycle of jealousy, insecurity, and blame began to unravel.

matildareddx © || 𓆩♡𓆪

please like and repost it if you like it!! big kisses have a good day [✎ (❁ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈) ༉‧ ♡*.✧]

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till it melts inside me

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dream machine — chapter eight

(＞。☆) content warnings: confessions and swearing

(＞。☆) note: two more left and were finished! a lot of you predicted this so surpriseeee!!! i feel like this was the best option in order to please everyone but we'll see. like always, thank you for all of the support and don't forget to like/reblog! <3

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kinda domestic!abby x reader

[ warnings: very brief mention of ow*n,and that's pretty much it this is just pure fluff honestly,,,, enjoy!]

the soft glow of the lamp casts a warm, comforting light in the dimly lit bedroom. lying in your back, you watch abby's back rise and fall as she sleeps peacefully, her head resting against your shoulder, you can feel her warm breath tickling the skin of your neck.

it's one of those days, were she comes back late in the night, completely exhausted from a particularly long shift at work. she didn't utter a single word, simply undressing to her underwear, and getting in bed with you, crawling into your arms. and you were more than happy to oblige, gently undoing her tight braid before wrapping her in a warm embrace.

tracing delicate patterns on her back, relishing the feel of her warm skin under your touch. you move your hand up, her soft blonde hair feeling like silk between your fingertips, as you gently run your fingers through it. you feel her arms wrapped tightly around your waist, not even thinking about letting you go a minute sooner than she has to.

holding her close, you look at her calm expression, deep asleep, and your mind travels a few years back, reminiscing about your journey together. the difficulties you encountered, and her previous relationship with owen, when you truly believed you would have to bury your feelings for her six feet under and never be able to be honest about how much love you had for her. you smile warmly at the bittersweet thought, because you couldn't have been more wrong. now, she's here with you, happily snuggled into your safe embrace, and you can't help but feel immensely grateful about how far you two have come together.

this kind of moments with you, quiet, peaceful, comforting, filled with love and affection, make abby's world warmer, brighter, as she never thought someone could love her as purely and selflessly as you do. and as you bask in the warmth of her love, you can't help but feel utterly blessed to have her in your life.

matildareddx © || 𓆩♡𓆪

[alright first serious post i'm totally not nervous (i'm actually dead on the floor) hope u like it i love abby i love fluffy abby i love her i love women]

please like and repost it if you like it!! big kisses have a good day [✎ (❁ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈) ༉‧ ♡*.✧]

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through me — chapter five

(＞。☆) content warnings: swearing

(＞。☆) note: part 5 WOO! ellie is a little confuse but i'll take care of her so don't worry! i can't wait to finish this fic and not bc i want it to end, but i just love writing it so much and i'm excited to see the ending :3 let me know who y'all are rooting for! thank you for all the support and don't forget to like/reblog <3

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[matildareddx]

kinda domestic!abby x reader

[ warnings: very brief mention of ow*n,and that's pretty much it this is just pure fluff honestly,,,, enjoy!]

the soft glow of the lamp casts a warm, comforting light in the dimly lit bedroom. lying in your back, you watch abby's back rise and fall as she sleeps peacefully, her head resting against your shoulder, you can feel her warm breath tickling the skin of your neck.

it's one of those days, were she comes back late in the night, completely exhausted from a particularly long shift at work. she didn't utter a single word, simply undressing to her underwear, and getting in bed with you, crawling into your arms. and you were more than happy to oblige, gently undoing her tight braid before wrapping her in a warm embrace.

tracing delicate patterns on her back, relishing the feel of her warm skin under your touch. you move your hand up, her soft blonde hair feeling like silk between your fingertips, as you gently run your fingers through it. you feel her arms wrapped tightly around your waist, not even thinking about letting you go a minute sooner than she has to.

holding her close, you look at her calm expression, deep asleep, and your mind travels a few years back, reminiscing about your journey together. the difficulties you encountered, and her previous relationship with owen, when you truly believed you would have to bury your feelings for her six feet under and never be able to be honest about how much love you had for her. you smile warmly at the bittersweet thought, because you couldn't have been more wrong. now, she's here with you, happily snuggled into your safe embrace, and you can't help but feel immensely grateful about how far you two have come together.

this kind of moments with you, quiet, peaceful, comforting, filled with love and affection, make abby's world warmer, brighter, as she never thought someone could love her as purely and selflessly as you do. and as you bask in the warmth of her love, you can't help but feel utterly blessed to have her in your life.

matildareddx © || 𓆩♡𓆪

[alright first serious post i'm totally not nervous (i'm actually dead on the floor) hope u like it i love abby i love fluffy abby i love her i love women]

please like and repost it if you like it!! big kisses have a good day [✎ (❁ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈) ༉‧ ♡*.✧]

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my gf!abby hc's <3

contains : sfw hc's , long/medium haired reader implied , fem!reader implied , readers skin tone/eye color/sex/body type not included! , modern au bc I'm sick in the head pics r always just 4 inspo!

gf!abby drives a black jeep wrangler !

gf!abby has the comfiest pillows in her car for u <3

gf!abby who bought u a dyson airwrap after u got a professional blowout for a mutual friends engagement party - abby was starstruck.

"how are they supposed to do that at home, too???" she listened so intently to the hairdresser bc she was obsessed w this look on u

gf!abby made a playlist abt u for HERSELF. she listens to it when shes not able to be around u :(

gf!abby lovessss reputation by taylor swift !

gf!abby associates graceland too by pheobe bridgers w u

gf!abby has several different flavors of gum in her car

gf!abby has SERIOUS baby fever.

"baby, PLEASEEEEEE. honey, we could have matching outfits with the baby!!"

gf!abby fucks w a iced chai latte and it HAS to be made by a queer person

gf!abby gets cuteness aggression w u. she'll be hugging u then suddenly she LOVINGLY throws u onto the couch and starts screaming

"YOURE SO ADORABLE I LOVE U SO MUCH I WANT TO EAT U IM IN LOVE!!!!"

gf!abby is typically a good driver but when she brakes hard she puts her arm out against ur chest and a string of "I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry" come out her mouth and she's genuinely soooooo sorry :((

gf!abby loves stephanie soo videos. all her content. shes a stephanie soo stan.

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vision talk — chapter four

(＞。☆) content warnings: swearing, sudden realizations and mentions of unrequited love and rejections

(＞。☆) note: here's part four as promised! six more chapters left and i already have a new story plotted LOL this one might be a new fan fav though....anyways thank you for all of the supportttt (like always) and don't forget to like/reblog!

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i wanna give her the most vicious, vile, gut wrenching, toe curling, hottest, sloppiest, disgusting, feral, atrocious, shameless, violent, nuclear, rude, disrespectful, mouth watering, eye opening, mind blowing, earth shattering, sheet gripping head

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remember how i said long-distance situationships are hard? yeah i’m still in the trenches.

☾ ⋆*･ﾟ:⋆*･ﾟ☾ ⋆*･ﾟ:⋆*･ﾟ☾ ⋆*･ﾟ:⋆*･ﾟﾟ☾

when you and ellie are going through long distance, she would beg you to send lil updates throughout your day, what you were doing…any random thought that pops into your head…literally anything. and then at night, she always asks to facetime so she can see your face and hear your voice.

you’re both on your bed, your head squished up against a pillow as you listen to ellie ramble on about whatever the fuck dina and jesse have been up to. she stops suddenly and looks at you, “did you hear a word i just said?”

“no…was too busy thinkin’ ‘bout somethin’ else…” you mumble, mouth halfway on the pillow. ellie raises her eyebrows slightly, “and what is that?” she puts her hand to her ear knowing full well what you’re about to say. “you…everything about you…” she smirks and nods her head slowly, “i figured.” she chuckles and lays on her stomach so you’re not just staring at each other face to face, the only thing separating you is the tiny glass wall (and however many miles are in between you, but don’t worry about that).

“i miss you,” you grumble “not the same without you here, els. i wish you could’ve come with me.” ellie’s eyebrows furrow lightly and she smiles “i know, baby…i miss you too. i love you so much, just remember that i’m always with you. literally, like, in your brain. i’ve set up shop in there, so if you think of something funny trust it was me,” she smirks and you laugh out loud, always grateful for her humor to lighten your melancholy. “i thought i felt a tickle in there earlier. guess it was you, huh?”

“yup!” she says, popping the “p” and chuckling for a bit before she settles back in and looks at you. “we’ll be together before you even know, i swear.” you smile weakly at her and kiss your phone over and over again, “hope you felt those, they were for you,” you giggle with a wink.

the rest of your night is spent talking nonsense, until you fall asleep still on call. ellie watches you for a bit before going to sleep herself, not daring hanging up and accidentally waking you up.

☾ ⋆*･ﾟ:⋆*･ﾟ☾ ⋆*･ﾟ:⋆*･ﾟ☾ ⋆*･ﾟ:⋆*･ﾟﾟ☾

extra: some texts y’all would probably send each other throughout the days (are these mine and said situationships you may ask? mind your own business…)

you decide who is who

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she’s the only thing i’ll get on my knees for

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the stalker half gave me physical nightmares

will never forget abt that dumbass rat king battle in tlou. abbys game play was frustrating omg

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I’m SORRY? But if Mommy Dina says “come back to bed” YOU GO BACK TO MOTHERFUCKING BED BITCH

i’m talking to you, Ellie Williams #justiceformommydina