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[PM] I have an idea of how bad they were, at least. I don't think you let me in right away to see it all. I still don't know if you let me know everything, but I hope you know you have a judgment-free friendship ready for you whenever you need it. I haven't gotten very far in it yet, but I'm enjoying Breeze Spells and Bridegrooms by Sarah Wallace and S. O. Callahan. Maybe we could all spend some time reading that together?

[PM] Me too. I don't know if you know, but things were pretty bad back when I first got here. Knowing I could go to your place and read and just be safe was just about the best thing. Oh, and I need a new book rec. I haven't been reading much lately.

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[PM] You and I both know that sleep issues aren’t anything to be embarrassed by, but it’s different for Noah. He’s very concerned by anything that he thinks is outside the norm. I think he judges himself more than anyone ever judges him.

PM: I'm sure and considering there is no pressure may help. We all have difficulty with sleep at times, sweet boy, and some of us more than others or more often. It's nothing for him to be ashamed of, but I'll be sure to not make a big deal of it or simply offer him some chamomile tea. I've seen or helped you make it enough that I'm confident I can do the same. Consider me prepared and aware. We will cross whatever sleep issues bridges when we get to them.

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[PM] If you stay a second night, maybe we take the spare room then? Really, Noah, it's no trouble at all. I'm just glad we're doing this again. I've missed our sleepovers.

[PM] That sounds cool. I don't think I will, but thanks. Sorry to be so much freakin' trouble just for a sleepover. Brains are so dumb!

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[PM] Exactly. We can plan on the slumber party in the living room, but if you change your mind, no big deal. I can understand that. Our minds make up all sorts of awful things in the dark.

[PM] Oh yeah, that makes sense actually. You wouldn't offer something that was off the table for y'all. I just hate waking up in the dark, you know? That's the worst part of it.

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[PM] It's our house, but we're offering you options that we're happy with. I'd feel like a terrible host if you didn't choose the sleeping arrangements that made you the most comfortable. Everyone has different sleeping preferences. A lot of people who grew up with a night light find it easier to sleep with one as an adult.

[PM] Yeah, that would be awkward. Well, yeah, I guess, but it's your house so you know I think that's more important. Thanks. Ugh, I hate that I'm like this. Fucking 22 and I need a night light. So dumb.

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[PM] I'm sure he'll learn to feel comfortable around you over time, Sir, and I have no doubt that he'll feel welcomed in our suite. As a heads up, though, you should know that Noah has some trouble sleeping. He usually sleeps better when we're sharing a bed, but I don't know if the new space might negate that. If he does have trouble sleeping with us, he won't want you to make a big deal about it. Just let him be if you notice, or maybe offer some chamomile tea. I don't know if he has nightmares--like I said, he sleeps well when I'm there--but that might be a concern, too. I just want you to be prepared, whatever the case may be.

PM: You're sweet, my darling boy. I'm hoping that even as a Dominant that I can make him feel welcomed. I fully anticipate him being uncomfortable at first, but we'll give him time and even if it's not this weekend, perhaps as time goes on he'll start to feel more at ease. You know I've got patience, so there isn't any rush.

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[PM] I'm honored.

[PM] Definitely not our bed bed. I don't think any of us would enjoy that. It's about what you're most comfortable with, not whatever Jughead and I think is best. I'll talk to him, though, and I'll make sure there's a night light in the spare room if you decide to sleep in there. We can do some fake tea light candles for ambiance in the living room.

[PM] I will. I pretty much tell you everything that's going on in my weird life. The serious stuff anyway.

[PM] Whatever y'all think is best. I'm fine with any of that. Just not like y'all's bed bed. Living room sounds fun. Can you do me a favor and tell Jughead that I don't sleep good though. It's embarrassing to talk about. It's been better lately though so probably not an issue. Except do you think I can bring like a little light or something? Shit that's embarrassing. Nevermind.

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[PM] Let me know how it goes.

[PM] Great! Think about sleeping arrangements and let me know what you’re comfortable with. Jughead and I talked about creating a fort of sorts in the living room for all three of us, but we can also set you up in one of the spare rooms if you’re not comfortable sleeping in the same space as someone you don’t know that well. Or I could join you in the spare room.

[PM] Exactly.

[PM] Speaking of invitations, what are you up to this weekend? Jughead and I would love to have you over for a sleepover or two.

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[PM] Exactly.

[PM] Speaking of invitations, what are you up to this weekend? Jughead and I would love to have you over for a sleepover or two.

[PM] Planning out a talk is awkward. It's not just you. Creating opportunities for the right time to come up on its own, though... I've found that to be the least awkward way about it.

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[PM] If that’s conceited, then it’s an attitude well earned, Sir. If there’s any Dominant who can create a welcoming environment for Noah, it’s you. There’s a decent chance he’ll be uncomfortable at first no matter what we do, but hopefully he’ll be able to relax before too long.

[PM] I'm honestly still not sure how we got to this point, Sir, but I'm so glad we did. I'll talk to him and will let you know how it goes. I think it'll be good for him to have more friends he can be relaxed around, especially someone who's a Dom. As long as he doesn't feel like a third wheel with us, a group slumber party might be just what he needs right now.

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[PM] I'm honestly still not sure how we got to this point, Sir, but I'm so glad we did. I'll talk to him and will let you know how it goes. I think it'll be good for him to have more friends he can be relaxed around, especially someone who's a Dom. As long as he doesn't feel like a third wheel with us, a group slumber party might be just what he needs right now.

PM: Just like I'll never stop being grateful that you trusted me in the beginning, sweet boy. I think your trust in me is what gave me the courage to trust you and, in the end, let you in and see me for who I am and not just what I show the world. He's still young and as long as he has positive role models like you in his life, he'll do well. Give him options and see what he says. I'm willing to do whatever will make him more comfortable, so I'm going to trust you and your judgement. Tell him that I'm okay with anything and you have my permission to speak for me in terms of sleeping arrangements. Just tell me what you two decide on so I know.

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Of course, Sir.

[PM] I'll never stop being grateful that you let me in and saved yourself from that fate. I hope Noah can use you as a bit of an example, once he figures things out for himself a bit more. I'm not sure what he'll think about the sleeping arrangements. He'd likely feel guilty if I chose to sleep away from you, and he'd feel guilty if we all camp out in the living room. I think the group slumber party is probably going to be the best option in the end, and it sounds like a good time. I'll keep all of the options open so we can figure out whatever works best for him.

As long as you know that, sweet boy. That is my main concern.

PM: As someone that never anticipated finding someone and was fully prepared to live their life until they were sent to the auctions... I do understand that a bit better than I probably should. Which is why I'm more than happy to speak out when I see it and... I don't want to say correct it but correct it. I was planning on letting you sleep in the spare room with him if he wanted. If you don't think he'll mind having me there then we could easily push the couch and table out of the way in the living room and camp out there. Grab some blankets, pillows, and such and just hang out with movies, if he wants to bring games to play, or we can read. It leaves room for options.

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I know you know that, Sir. I was being a bit glib.

[PM] He truly doesn't see his worth, and it makes my heart ache every time I realize just how little he sees in himself. The more people he hears it from, the better, absolutely. I'll reach out to him and ask about this weekend. But first, what are you thinking in terms of sleeping arrangements, Sir? Do you have any thoughts on this being more of a slumber party, where we all camp out together? I'm not sure he'd be all that comfortable sleeping in a spare room alone.

You wouldn't. Which is why I have no problem in trusting what you said, sweet boy.

PM: All the more reason for me to step in occasionally and say it myself. Maybe having someone different tell him will help it to sink it a bit. Trial claims are meant to be an example of what a claim and future will look like. Unless you planned to kick him to the curve-- and I know you would never-- all the more reason for him to be there. A short while afterwards.... that I could understand. He wanted to give us a bit of space to celebrate and enjoy our claim, but it's June now. Why don't you invite him to stay for the weekend, if he doesn't have plans. Then he can spend time with you and we can see how he fits in with our evening routine. If necessary we can make adjustments as needed. He can choose any of the spare rooms and we can dub that one Noah's room. So he'll always have a place to go if he wants.

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Would I ever lie to you, Sir?

[PM] I can't begin to tell you how many times I've told him that he's not a burden and that I enjoy his company. I think he finally realized at some point before our trial claim that I enjoyed his company as much as he enjoyed coming over in the evenings. Since then, though, he just thinks that he's in the way. Honestly, I think he'd fit in quite well with our evening routine for the most part.

I'll trust you on that, sweet boy.

PM: I don't disagree. I've noticed he's got his struggles and tends to feel he's... a burden, to put it lightly. If reinforcing what you've been telling him may help him then I am happy to do so.

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[PM] Planning out a talk is awkward. It's not just you. Creating opportunities for the right time to come up on its own, though... I've found that to be the least awkward way about it.

[PM] Or maybe Arch. He's the mother hen of them. Maybe he'll have some idea of how to approach it all. I don't know. Talking is awkward! Or maybe that's just me. Maybe I'm the awkward!!

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[PM] Maybe just you and Dominic then? What makes it awkward?

[PM] Not specifically to talk. More like a slumber party, with food and video games or whatever you all would enjoy. Then you could see if an opportunity to talk presents itself.

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[PM] Not specifically to talk. More like a slumber party, with food and video games or whatever you all would enjoy. Then you could see if an opportunity to talk presents itself.

Thanks.

[PM] Really? Like just invite them over to talk?