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I used to count down the days until a new episode of 9-1-1 aired—this show was my comfort food. I even had plans to rewatch it from the beginning, prior to Lab Rats. But ever since they killed off Bobby, watching it feels less like a treat and more like a chore. It feels like something’s missing—and surprise, it’s Bobby.

I still enjoy parts of the show and have love for the remaining characters, but Bobby's death left a hole in my heart that just can't be filled. I'm not sure how much more of my time and sanity I can give to this.

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HAPPY STAR WARS DAY May the Force be with you, always. (insp)

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I feel like Buck really took Bobby’s last words to him to heart—trying to be strong and holding it together for everyone else. He was so calm this episode. Like… suspiciously calm. Sedative-level calm.

On one hand, I respect the growth. But on the other? I need more Buck and Athena trauma bonding. I need Athena to step fullly into her role as his adoptive mom.

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I have never in my cold and detached life been this emotionally tortured by a character death. I thought last episode was a gut punch—this one full-on drop-kicked me like a Tekken character.

Dead Bobby saying “you knew me-past tense” to Athena?! Might as well resign from my sanity now.

Athena selflessly burying her beloved husband with his other wife and other children all the way in Minesota because she actually does know him well enough to know that's where he would want to be?! Excuse me while I scream into the void.

Athena crying over the casket? Toss my heart into the shredder.

I have the emotional depth of a goldfish and refuse to cry over fiction and yet, this episode had me blinking aggressively to maintain my composure.

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So was that episode their way of aknowledging those that are still delulu that Bobby is alive and giving them a big ole middle finger to say that yes, he is in fact, dead? Because it was handled poorly. I'm firmly in the "he's dead" camp because I am too fragile to get my hopes up but they still left the window open for the hardcore "he's alive" believers. They did not have to mention that his body was not released. They did not have to mention that his body was being held by Fed, State, and local authorities. They did not have to coinside this with the woman who believes her dead baby is still alive storyline.

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happy april 30th!

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# every Monday at the office

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The way this man KNOWS his wife, he said baby go get that girl and she said SAY LESS

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I don’t know this person but she puts it better than I ever could…

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Tim Minear: I just wanna talk...in the parking lot...with a baseball bat.

The thing that make me most upset is that this was all Tim Minear's idea. Peter didn't want to leave the show. The rest of the cast and crew didn't want him to leave the show. It wasn't like his death was necessary for story or for his character. Just shock value. Bobby survived being shot, a cruise ship capsize, radiation poisoning, a building colllapse, TWO homes on fire, just to go out like this?!

I also hate that the show tried to frame his death as some kind of penance for the apartment fire. He had already spent years carrying that guilt, rebuilding his life, and making amends through how he lived. They could’ve just let his final act be what it was: selfless and brave. A choice born out of love, not punishment. Bobby didn’t need to "atone" anymore—he has been redemed.

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This HURTS

I have gone through the first four stages of grief.

Denial: "They ain't gonna kill him. He's number two on the call sheet. He's an executive producer. They are going to lose a lot of fans. What about the script that said he was burried alive? Oh they are playing upbeat music while everyone is exiting the lab. No way they kill him now."

Anger: "F you, Tim Minear! I can't belive they killed him. I am never watching this show or any other Tim Minear show ever again. Why would you take a beautiful, loving couple who have already been to hell and back and say: 'Let’s make him suffer some more.' You sadist."

Barganing: "Ok, if somebody absolutely has to die—like the plot gods demanded a sacrifice—why couldn’t it have been someone else?! At this point, I would’ve taken literally anyone else. (Except Athena) I'm sorry Chimney, Buck, and Hen - I love y'all, but I love me some Robert Wade Nash with the firery passion of two suns."

Depression: "Why, Bobby, why?! I woke up in the middle of the nightwith this ache in my chest. And I couldn’t go back to sleep. I am fighting tears. And I ain't no cry baby. It feels like someone I actually know—someone I’ve loved—died. And now… he’s gone. Just like that. It felt so abrubt. I'm in mourning."

It’s gonna take me a while to get to the acceptance stage of grief. Honestly, I don’t even know why I’m pretending like I’ll ever get there. I’m accepting that I’ll never accept this. I'll just be bouncing back and forth between anger and depression.

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I AM NOT OKAY

The whole reason I started watching 9-1-1 in the first place is because I found out Peter Krause was on the show and his character was married to Angela Basset. Bathena is THAT COUPLE!! Their love is LEGENDARY. Their relationship is the emotional anchor of the show.

Bobby Nash is the man and husband that all men should aspire to be. He is flawed but he is still the definition of a good man. He exudes calm strength, compassion, and integrity. Whether he's leading the 118 through chaos or supporting Athena through every high and low, Bobby shows up and leads by example and with love.

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I absolutely loved seeing the Athena and Buck duo teaming up to break the rules and take on the system! It’s wild to think back to the early seasons when Athena would get frustrated with Buck’s recklessness—and now she’s his partner in crime. Their relationship has come so far. I love to see it! Buck following her around like, “Okay Mom, what’s the plan? How are we gonna save Dad and the 118?" - my favorite part of the whole episode.

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Nice going, cowpoke.

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Is this anything?

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I need someone to make a gif of Bobby telling his mother their house was burned down and her saying "not by you, I trust." That woman is savage!!