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Quick sketch Hua Cheng!

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OOC is OOC

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Kaito Kuroba angst

Toichi is alive, they know he's alive

Except You, Kaito

Planning to do some illustrations on this angsty fic of mine (i chose not to upload it until I'm done with it)

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Still thinking the fact that shen qingqiu is happy that he no longer hears the system when he revived on the plant body but when he and luo binghe come in close contact, the genuine fear when he heard the system's voice again is just real

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Here it is, hope my little brain work until the very end of this fic

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65853445/chapters/169629832

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Let gooo let it goooo

Shang Qinghua ig, i just drew him out of nowhere°<°

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Alright! The Shen Twins fanfic won ovo

Let's go!

Additional info about it ig? Xd

Shen yuan transmigrated as a baby but he can't remember his infant and toddler years. All he remembered is living in the streets with the system guiding him, but the system itself may have put him to situations that he'll never want to go back to. He managed to break free from slavery in the end and months had passed, he met Shi Xuanli.

The daughter of the clan leader of shi clan.

Because of Shi Xuanli, he was accepted as disciple in the Shi Clan ( probably one of the unnamed clans in pidw, shen yuan thinks). To express his gratitude for taking him in, he used his omniscient knowledge of pidw to help the clan but he has to limit of course, he'll be suspicious as hell if he just dumped all knowledge of that world. It was effective and because of that, he was given proper training to be a fine cultivator.

Many many years passed, he got invited by the clan leader Shi Haoyuen to come to the annual event that will be held in Cang Qiong Mountain sect. But upon arriving at The sect, he Met the Xiu Ya sword Shen Qingqiu... Who looks very identical to him.

Shen yuan his whole life in this world.... Never ever thought that he shares an identical face to the scum villain.

Shen jiu is also confused as he never remembered having a twin brother! Yet like Shen yuan, he doesn't even remember his infant and toddler years so there's a possibility that he had just forgotten.

Shi Xuanli is happy at the thought that Shen Yuan and Shen Qingqiu might be brothers, meaning he didn't lost all of his relatives. Shi Haoyuen however, is not happy as he thinks that Shen Yuan might go to Shen Qingqiu and leave Shi Clan, the clan's Treasured disciple.

Shen Yuan of course promised that he'll never leave the clan but that doesn't mean that he stop knowing more about Shen Qingqiu.

Shen Jiu on the other hand, felt bitter that someone who looks like him lives in a loving clan... He hates him at first but then he catches up upon things that Shen Yuan didn't realize in his life in the clan.

Even though shen yuan had grown into Shi clan's best disciple... Jealousy also grew in the heart of the Shi clan's Heir, Shi XuanYing.

Shen jiu will never help him if something happens...

Will he?

Everytime he meets shen yuan on a random mission... Shen Yuan had always shown kindness to him...Like, Even though he knows Shen yuan doesn't like him very much, he keeps his promises and doesn't backstab him. Shen Yuan became his light. He doesn't want to loose this light if something happens inside that clan.

He's also curious of the possibility of their blood connection.

But their journey will never be a smooth journey....

It's funny that im working on multiple fics, idk what to do first lol

Like there's

#1 where jun wu basically snatched shen qingqiu (sy) and made him his deputy God. Shen Yuan decided to stay at the heavenly capital since he has no choice anyways, jun wu is keeping an eye on him... On the bright side, he befriended the tgcf characters:D (crack and angst fic) (tgcf x svsss) (this is no beta, no planning on the plot, just he needs to survive under the possession of jun wu)

#2 Another svsss x tgcf again where after a hundred years of Jun Wu's defeat, the heavenly capital thrives again with Xie Lian as their heavenly emperor. Shen Qingqiu after Pa pa pa to save the world Ascended as the new Wind Master. He performed his duties well and earned lots of respect in the heavenly court. But, it came crashing down when Bingge arrived and shows up when shen qingqiu is on the mortal realm. Shen qingqiu remembered Bingge and of course Bingge remembered this kind shizun. The heavenly capital is at risk because of bingge's Threats just to get this kind shizun. How long will the heavenly capital keep shen qingqiu safe? Will shen qingqiu get through this without his longing for his luo binghe who's currently missing? (unlike the first one, this one is kinda thought well?? Had some help with others so it'll take a while to be posted on ao3)

#3 Third fic is a shen twins fic, this one is not yet fully constructed but the brief summary is shen yuan was found by a cultivation clan after he escaped his buyers. The Shi clan made him as their disciple and became one of the best in the clan. When the clan got invited to an event in Cang Qiong Mountain Sect, shen jiu and shen yuan meets. The problem is, Both of them didn't know they are Twins... Shen jiu didn't know he's a twin nor does shen yuan. Both of them are strangers to each other, yet it's not too late to know and to love a family.

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It's funny that im working on multiple fics, idk what to do first lol

Like there's

#1 where jun wu basically snatched shen qingqiu (sy) and made him his deputy God. Shen Yuan decided to stay at the heavenly capital since he has no choice anyways, jun wu is keeping an eye on him... On the bright side, he befriended the tgcf characters:D (crack and angst fic) (tgcf x svsss) (this is no beta, no planning on the plot, just he needs to survive under the possession of jun wu)

#2 Another svsss x tgcf again where after a hundred years of Jun Wu's defeat, the heavenly capital thrives again with Xie Lian as their heavenly emperor. Shen Qingqiu after Pa pa pa to save the world Ascended as the new Wind Master. He performed his duties well and earned lots of respect in the heavenly court. But, it came crashing down when Bingge arrived and shows up when shen qingqiu is on the mortal realm. Shen qingqiu remembered Bingge and of course Bingge remembered this kind shizun. The heavenly capital is at risk because of bingge's Threats just to get this kind shizun. How long will the heavenly capital keep shen qingqiu safe? Will shen qingqiu get through this without his longing for his luo binghe who's currently missing? (unlike the first one, this one is kinda thought well?? Had some help with others so it'll take a while to be posted on ao3)

#3 Third fic is a shen twins fic, this one is not yet fully constructed but the brief summary is shen yuan was found by a cultivation clan after he escaped his buyers. The Shi clan made him as their disciple and became one of the best in the clan. When the clan got invited to an event in Cang Qiong Mountain Sect, shen jiu and shen yuan meets. The problem is, Both of them didn't know they are Twins... Shen jiu didn't know he's a twin nor does shen yuan. Both of them are strangers to each other, yet it's not too late to know and to love a family.

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SVSSS AU/fic prompt where Shen Qingqiu and the entire sect find out about Luo Binghe being at Huan Hua palace much sooner.

Shen Qingqiu panics and goes into mini qi deviation as how is so soon, oh god he going to come for me and kill me so soon, the bodies won't be ready!

The sect however see this as a qi deviation at the betrayal at Luo Binghe defecting and not returning to his Shizun, especially cause Shen Qingqiu keeps mourning him and is always at the sword mound, he's still not eating or sleeping and it seems to have even got worse!

The peak lords are honestly ready to storm Huan Hua palace and demand answers or drag Luo Binghe back (they have had to stop Ning Yingying from doing so multiple times) the only reason they haven't is because oh god what id they drag him back and he leaves again? It'll be so much worse! Will Shen Qingqiu even survive?

When sowers mission comes up Shen Qingqiu is not sent because he's in such an awful state they're pretty sure he'll drop into a qi deviation at any time, and Ning Yingying Ming Fan are so protective they probably won't be able to get him off the peak.

So Luo Binghe doesn't meet his Shizun in the city but a lot of very pissed of peak lords who are giving him death glares, he's pretty sure they must know he's a demon and that's why.... until he mentions Shziun and they go off on him. That Shizun has been in mourning for years? IS not eating? There's a sword mound? And that he's gotten even worse after finding out Luo Binghe joined Huan Hua palace?

He kinda just freezes and is so confused, he can't believe it until he sees there dreams and oh gods his shizun is suffering so much, he misses him, he must miss him and he thinks Luo Binghe left him, that he escaped abyss and then abandoned him!

Luo Binghe nopes out of Huan Hua without a second look and basically tells peak lords he's coming back with them they don';'t trust him but Luo Binghe is not running off to Shizun's side immediately is to show peak lords how strong he is and that he will be returning to shizuns side no matter what they say.

Shen Qingqiu jut standing there in shock after peak lords return with Luo Binghe who instantly begs to be accepted back as a disciple and that he never officially joined Huan Hua and he is still his disciple and please let him stay.

He has no idea what is happening

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A little doodle of Shen Qingqiu standing in the middle of the mobei clan's hall in the holy Mausoleum. Half of his robe covered in blood of his own with Xiu Ya in hand

Waiting for tianlang-jun and Zhuzhi-lang to enter his trap

I just like how he outsmarted them with his pidw omniscient knowledge xd

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okay but I kinda need read a fic where Shen Yuan is wife plotted (AGAIN) by some random papapa plant (dammit Airplane--) and he basically falls into a floating coma or something. on a hunt for some rare herbs with liu qingge, he's lured by the sound of his Binghe's (his lost little lamb) voice and ends up ensnared.

okay, imagine that he's being held high in the air by these vines, just asleep, and nothing can wake him, even after liu qingge cuts the monster plant down to get him. he's just sleeping, rosy-cheeked, unwakeable.

peak lords panic, and start trying to figure it out what this rare plant is. sqh wracks his brain somewhat and somewhat remembers this plot line.

they come to the conclusion that its the everlasting dreams flower or some shit. basically traps the victim in their dreams while it sucks out their qi until the person dies of dehydration/starvation or qi loss, whichever kills them first (sometimes, its not the latter, and if the person is a cultivator, they can last a while before their qi is fully drained enough that they can no longer practice inedia but also haven't died yet). meanwhile, the person won't even care because their dreams are so sweet, that they don't want to leave.

the only way to cure it? true love's song. someone who truly knows and loves the sleeper needs to sing something from the heart, and if it's pure enough or something, it can pierce through the pleasant dreams of the person and wake them up. yqy and lqg instantly become flustered, but both of them can't help but secretly wonder how it would feel to have Xiao jiu/shen-shixiong wake up at their song.

they confer with the rest of the peak lords a little outside of shen yuan's resting rooms on the Qian Cao peak, and yqy decides to sing a little lullaby he used to sing to Xiao jiu when they were still on the streets. he goes in, his voice is a steady but a bit nervous, but he croons that shit out. airplane can't believe his fucking ears. yqy could honestly be an idol its not fair wtf-- only, sqh knows he can't dance to save his fucking life, so.

when yqy finishes, he waits, but his heart sinks when Xiao jiu doesn't so much as stir. he hurries out of the room but sqh notices how the tips of his ears are red in embarrassment. of course, even when he still had his memory, Xiao jiu wanted nothing to do with him, why did he think it would change now, he just--

lqj goes in next. he murmurs a song that he constantly hears sqq sometimes strumming on his guqin, thinking that means sqq must love the song. he's not sure what else he can do, he doesn't know how to sing from the heart, but the feelings he has for his shixiong... he has to at least try to wake him.

he doesn't wake. lqj walks out in defeat.

airplane who has been wracking his brain all this time because he was trying to think of requirements for awakening so he wasn't paying attention suddenly jumps up. he doesn't mind the startled glances that the other peak lords give him.

he just remembered!

the song didn't have to be a romantic song or anything. the love for the sleeper didn't have to be romantic love, at all! he remembered this plot line that he added about binghe trying to wake one of his wives, but it was one of the wives' sisters that woke her, because she truly loved her sister deeply. causing binghe to realize that his love was becoming shallow, in that it wasn't enough anymore or blah blah blah. he scrapped that plot line and that plant after he got a ton of bad reviews for even suggestion that lbh's love (pillar) wasn't big enough and so he had lbh fix it with papapa, but whatever!

he shivered.

anyway, the story has been so warped over time that its only told that it has to be a romantic lover. but it didn't have to be.

he had an idea. he loved Shen Yuan! despite the rocky start, their shared transmigration and experiences led them to form a closer relationship, and Shen Yuan was his best friend. he knew him wholly, both in his bitchiness of Cucumber-bro of their old lives, and in the snarky-masquerading-as-pretentious SQQ he was in their new lives. He knew him as a whole of Shen Yuan, not as Xiao Jiu, or as the original goods.

and also, both he and Shen Yuan had discovered they both liked some similar songs during one of their weekly private meetings a few weeks ago, while Shen Yuan was there under the guise of planning their eventual escapes, but was actually just drinking up all his wine and ransacking his snacks.

he's got this! (he hopes.) (he would quite not like his bro to die from an unwakeable coma.)

confidently, with incredulous stares following him, he walks into the room and sits at shen yuan's bedside. and proceeded to sing, as smoothly as he could, a vocaloid love song. if nothing else, it might shock Shen Yuan awake to hear a random ass vocaloid song in his dreams. the lyrics are actually pretty sweet and soft, but he can't stop imagining the music behind it, making it funnier than it should be to sing it.

[Shen Yuan, whose dreamscape has become completely synchronized to his current living conditions and so he dreams of the serene bamboo hut: *sitting at his table with binghe pouring him more tea* *sudden hatsune fucking miku disturbing the atmosphere*

Shen Yuan: 👁️👄👁️]

while he tries not to giggle as the song comes to an end, the stares of the other peak lords boring into his back from the doorway (he can just hear them thinking, "yqy and lqg couldn't wake him up but you think you can?" but maybe that's just his imagination. or maybe they think the song is shitty, what does he know--), shen yuan's eyes flutter open.

airplane, who didn't think this would actually actually work (though he hoped), gapes at him. Shen Yuan, eyes half lidded from sleep, gazes back.

"uh..."

"The everlasting dreams flower, really? That was a really good plot line, can't believe you, ah," Shen Yuan yawns, "dropped it in favor of more papapa as always, you shitty author." He can't catch a break. Why did he wake this guy up again?

"he's awake!?" multiple voices cry out.

THUMP. yqy has fainted.

they both have forgotten their audience. liu qingge has goes outside to punch a tree. the other peak lords are in various states of disarray, disbelief, and discomfort. liu minyan has appeared out of nowhere to take notes. mu qingfāng rolls his eyes and comes in to check shen-shenanigans's meridians.

"Can't believed that shit worked, honestly," Shen Yuan says, eyeing one of the older disciples try to drag YQY to a cot. he is starting to rouse. "hatsune miku, really?"

"aw! well now you know how deeply and purely I love you, shixiong!"

THUMP. YQY has fainted again.

more sounds of breaking trees from outside. mu qingfāng warily calls out a warning to avoid his good medicinal trees, thanks.

after a while of conversation, with eyes closing a bit once more, from exhaustion, rather than the plant poison, Shen Yuan gives Shang Qinghua a small smile. As his eyes flutter shut again, he says, "I love you too, bro."

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I didn't managed to capture the exact expression but

Sqq donghua expressions are iconic lmao

Here's the expression i used as reference

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Please pinch me if i am still dreaming,

FEI RUNE???? no way

I miss this rabbit, ah long time no see

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Modern scenario

shen yuan is a Luo Binghe Fan so he decided to make his hair longer and when it got long after a long time, he realizes he doesn't look like his favorite character and he looks more like somewhat like a relative of Shen Qingqiu

Shen Yuan feels so salty about it.

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the work for a zine i was finally given a permission to post yooo

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I love the brotherly bond they have 🥹

shen yuan likes yue qingyuan, the post

i've documented 19 moments featuring sy!shen qingqiu's feelings for yue qingyuan with the express purpose of showing those who think that sy!sqq doesn't like yqy that they are factually WRONG

this is a long one so buckle up, grab a snack, get a drink, etc etc

number one

as it's the usual with shen qingqiu, the first thing he notices in a man is whether he's handsome or not. and here you go: the first thing he sees upon waking up from getting isekai-ed is a handsome, elegant young man looking at him with concern. we do know how shen qingqiu likes that look on pretty men (he likes it a lot)

i also want to point out that yue qingyuan is the first pidw character shen yuan meets. he's already linked to him, not only because he's shen qingqiu's martial sibling, but he's also intrinsically tied to shen yuan's rebirth, to the moment he opens his eyes to the pidw world for the first time. keep this in mind.

number two

upon getting up to date on wtf happened to him and learning his new identity, the second thing shen qingqiu does is worry about yue qingyuan's fate. he doesn't even know him yet and is already giving him the blorbo treatment. why is that? oh, maybe because he likes him???

do you know how many characters shen yuan was "rather fond of"??? not that many i tell you. he's only derailed from worrying about whether he'll cause yue qingyuan's death because the system gives him a little sneak peek of the human stick scene.

so up to this point sy!shen qingqiu has characterized yue qingyuan as a brother type, an amicable, elegant and handsome man, a bleeding heart, too good for this world.

number three

now we add 'considerate' to the many praises shen qingqiu extols on yue qingyuan. the man has to be really busy with all the sect leader work he has to do and yet he makes time to visit shen qingqiu regularly. we know why yue qingyuan does that, but shen qingqiu won't learn about qijiu's backstory until much later, and right now it doesn't matter. the fact remains: shen qingqiu is grateful to the point of tears to have yue qingyuan. even if he doesn't talk about it, we can theorize that he feels a bit lonely: he's a stranger in a new world, like a newborn baby. he may be obsessed with luo binghe but at this point of the story he still hasn't got time to bond with him. so the person shen qingqiu first latches on immediately after his transmigration is yue qingyuan.

number four

"how dare that scumbag shen jiu not treat his shixiong like the god he is, with the kindness and respect he deserves? well i'm not the same, so i WILL treat yue qingyuan better!"

(it's the intention what counts, okay? we know he kind of fuck ups a few times and gives yqy much stress)

also love how shen qingqiu says "brotherly covenant", he really values familial bonds, and he'll come to treasure his bonds with all his martial siblings really quickly.

also, may i point out that shen qingqiu decides to be a good shidi for yue qingyuan and treat him well without any "ulterior motives"? it's not even tied to his survival. he's a kind person by nature, yes, but he doesn't even try to convince the reader that he's going to be a good martial sibling for selfish reasons, which was the case with liu qingge. he just up and decides that yue qingyuan deserves his respect and consideration. he officially adopts yue qingyuan as his big brother.

number five

"at home in the atmosphere of brotherly love", do i need to say more? yue qingyuan makes him feel at home in this new world, he's comfortable around him. his presence soothes shen qingqiu.

number six

furthermore, yue qingyuan reminds him of the brothers of his first life, but the sorrow he feels for losing them is overpowered by a "comforting sense of warmth" so great it makes him feel cheerful. this is the scene where yue qingyuan welcomes him back upon his arrival from the skinner demon incident. in that scene, the first thing they do is smile at each other. shen qingqiu is happy to see him.

he's surprised when yue qingyuan takes his wrist to examine his spiritual circulation, but when he notices what yue qingyuan is doing he instantly relaxes. yue qingyuan's touch doesn't bother him at all.

see how yue qingyuan's presence is often linked to feelings of comfort, warmth, home, brotherly love, joyfulness? keep this in mind too. don't you dare to forget it.

number seven

this is post-demon invasion, while they are discussing the effects of without a cure. shen qingqiu is making good on his word of treating yue qingyuan better than his predecessor, by tamping down yqy's tendency to blame himself for everything.

"i understand that yue qingyuan is genuinely worried about me, unlike SOME PEOPLE, so i have to reassure him in case he decides to be more stressed than normal"

bonus: 7.5

("the three of them" refers to shen qingqiu, mu qingfang and yue qingyuan)

i want to quote this part too, because i can, and because this scene in the donghua was 100% faithful to the novel. just another reminder that shen qingqiu likes martial siblings.

number eight

now we're coming to the siblings-coded moments

exhibit one: "oh oh i figured it out so i'll say it before you do"

i want to point out that shen qingqiu says "obviously", because from his POV yue qingyuan only does things for a good reason. shen qingqiu idolizes him.

number nine

siblings-coded moments exhibit two: "i know how to make you let me do what i want"

we've jumped 3 years, this is the prelude to jinlan arc, and this is how their relationship has evolved. shen qingqiu knows what he has to say for yue qingyuan to allow him to go to jinlan. this is a method he's used the past, of course, because this isn't the first mission he went on after getting poisoned or after the IAC.

+bonus: 9.5 yqy being a mother hen

(this is the day after lbh chased him around jinlan)

number ten

shen qingqiu has just been accused of abusing his disciple, consorting with demons, murder, and being demonic cultivator wu yanzi's disciple. yue qingyuan almost starts a fight right there and there because they want to take his shidi away, but shen qingqiu stops him and his other martial siblings before it can escalate.

he gives yue qingyuan a deep bow. we've already established he respects yue qingyuan a great deal. he's ashamed that he's caused yue qingyuan so much trouble and grief, because he really cares about him, and his opinion of him, and he genuinely didn't want to be like the original who made yue qingyuan suffer a lot. shen qingqiu cares about his sect, about his martial siblings, and about yue qingyuan to the point that he GIVES HIMSELF UP to be imprisoned.

this is plot relevant! remember it, because shen qingqiu only feels ashamed and guilty when he thinks he has wronged the people he loves!

on that note:

number eleven

(this is when luo binghe is laying siege to qiong ding to recover sqq's stolen body and sqq, in the mushroom body, sees his sect siblings for the first time after five years)

number twelve, AKA THE ULTIMATE QUOTE

"the one who placed first" YOU HEAR THAT? YUE QINGYUAN IS THE PERSON HE ADMIRES AND REVERES THE MOST. AND NOT BECAUSE HE LOVED SHEN QINGQIU, IT'S NOT AN ADMIRATION BORN OF A SELFISH FEELING. it's because yue qingyuan is The Protector. THE BLEEDING HEART. he admires his kindness, his self-sacrificing nature, and even if shen qingqiu doesn't know, this are traits they have in common.

number thirteen

siblings-coded exhibit 3: when your other little brother tattles on you to your older brother and you're planning revenge

Remaining seated, Yue Qingyuan looked at him. “A lot of nonsense you’ve stirred up these days,” he said mildly. “Are you done?” Yue Qingyuan had never assumed such a severe attitude when speaking to him before, even going so far as to use a word like “nonsense.” This was already the equivalent of a flogging. It seemed that Liu Qingge had badmouthed him quite thoroughly. Shen Qingqiu swore that one day he’d steal Cheng Luan and use it to chop all the pork hock in all the kitchens of the Twelve Peaks. He’d chop until the oily sheen smothered all its sword glares!

so yue qingyuan being mad at you feels like the equivalent of a flogging. i get you sqq. like when my mom or my brother are mad at me i really feel like crying. anyway. it's hilarious that sqq is planning on stealing chen luan because liu qingge allegedly tattled on him to yue qingyuan.

it's obvious that shen qingqiu recognizes yue qingyuan as a figure of authority in his life, he respects him and as i said before, he cares about what yue qingyuan thinks of him.

number fourteen

we know that shen qingqiu's unconscious actions say a lot about him as a person, and the fact that he unconsciously took a step towards yue qingyuan speaks volumes. he's practically wavering between following yue qingyuan or staying with luo binghe.

this will not be the first time he hesitates to go with luo binghe on the face of yue qingyuan's request/order to stay with him. and in this case, he does stay with cang qiong because the situation has gotten pretty bad.

He didn’t know how long he could hold the others off, and he absolutely couldn’t abandon this mess of a situation and escape with Luo Binghe. Yue Qingyuan and Liu Qingge had been brazen with their show of bias, and Wu Wang was already furious. Either Shen Qingqiu or Luo Binghe had to stay behind, or open conflict would erupt between Zhao Hua Monastery and Cang Qiong Mountain.

yue qingyuan and liu qingge just protected him in front of everyone, so he chooses to stay with them. shen qingqiu is incredibly loyal to them, and most importantly, he doesn't want cang qiong mountain to get into trouble because of him.

this is as good a moment to remind you all that in a lot of instances cqm = yqy in shen qingqiu's mind. obviously there is also the other peak lords and the disciples, but this is important. it isn't just because yqy is the sect leader. yue qingyuan was the first martial sibling he met, the one that welcomed him to the world of pidw and the one that kept him company those first days post-transmigration.

+ bonus: siblings coded exhibit 4:

yqy, out loud so others hear: you're grounded also yqy, whispering: let's have dinner and watch a movie once we get home, what do you want for dessert?

i can't stop laughing

+ bonus 2: parallelisms

(this moment is right after shen qingqiu has learned of shen jiu's past and woke up after being unconscious for 5 days)

When he next opened them, what filled his vision instead was a white bed curtain, its corners decorated with tassels. At the sudden change in scenery, Shen Qingqiu froze in place, surprised and unable to react—at least not before he heard Yue Qingyuan’s voice beside him. “Awake?” Shen Qingqiu mechanically blinked a couple times. His throat felt a bit dry, but he forced out his voice. “Zhangmen-shixiong.” (...) Shen Qingqiu awkwardly sat up. Suddenly, he thought this scene was a little familiar. The first time he’d woken in this world, Yue Qingyuan had also been at his bedside, watching over him.

number fifteen

so shen qingqiu knows he can get away with disobeying yue qingyuan and doing whatever he wants because yqy will forgive him anyway, and yet he chooses to respect yqy's decision and authority. of course he'll later convince yue qingyuan that he should allow him to go, like he's done many times before, but he won't deliberately disobey his zhangmen-shixiong.

so later, when they're on their way to maigu ridge, he tries to convince yqy that he must go with them. this is when yue qingyuan gets THIS CLOSE to locking him up in qiong ding hall.

now this is officially the only time yue qingyuan has done something remotely yandere-y adjacent. and not without reason! shen qingqiu died by self-detonation, then he returned after 5 years, then he was taken by a demon emperor, then he spent 5 days unconscious etc etc. he's admittedly very worried that shen qingqiu will die on him again, this time without a miraculous return. and the best thing? shen qingqiu doesn't know what to do. he didn't know whether to reach with his sword or not, whether to fight yue qingyuan on this or not. he wants to listen to yue qingyuan, but he also wants to go save the world.

and EVEN when he's finally allowed to go to Luo River, he hesitates again when he notices yue qingyuan may be struggling!

number sixteen

the reveal at maigu ridge's scene is really long, quoting it all would be a complete nightmare. so i'll just tell you to go read it because it reiterates some of the things i've already pointed out:

-shen qingqiu worrying about yue qingyuan

Thinking he was fine, Shen Qingqiu let go, but once he did, Yue Qingyuan didn’t remain standing for long before he unexpectedly collapsed again. Shen Qingqiu blanched with shock, then hurried to help him up again. “Zhangmen-shixiong? Zhangmen-shixiong?” After a brief examination, even with his superficial medical knowledge, he could tell that Yue Qingyuan’s current condition was horrible.

-shen qingqiu feeling guilty for causing yue qingyuan trouble

-shen qingqiu almost crying because of qijiu's tragic story and because it breaks his heart seeing yue qingyuan like this

number seventeen

i pointed out earlier that shen qingqiu idolizes yue qingyuan, and this is the first time he sees him so weak, which understandably makes him panic a lot. shen qingqiu thinks yue qingyuan is being talkative because he's dying, but shen qingqiu is having none of it

sobs shen qingqiu is so desperate to keep him alive.

+ bonus 3: yet again shen qingqiu's heart breaking for yue qingyuan

number eighteen

shen qingqiu, post-maigu ridge, wakes up, and upon remembering that he'd left zhangmen-shixiong in a pretty bad situation, he runs out of the lingxi caves in a panic.

you don't know how much this scene makes me feel

like, the moment luo binghe is out of the picture, yue qingyuan's safety becomes his main worry

then when he finally sees him, he's so happy that yqy is fine!

number nineteen: the goodbye scene

But even though he was the sect leader, Yue Qingyuan didn’t go with them. Instead, he stood in place, silently staring at Shen Qingqiu. For some reason, it became comparatively more awkward. As if testing the waters, Yue Qingyuan said, “Xiao-Jiu…” “Shixiong,” said Shen Qingqiu, “it’s Qingqiu.” Even though it would be too difficult to tell Yue Qingyuan the truth, Shen Qingqiu still hoped he could demonstrate the difference in other ways. Yue Qingyuan was stunned for a bit, then gave a small smile. “It’s Qingqiu. Qingqiu-shidi.”

i think this is the first time they've ever been awkward with each other. shen qingqiu says it would be difficult to tell him the truth, whether because the system won't allow him or because it'd be emotionally stressful for him to do so we don't know; but he still wants to mark the difference between the original and himself anyway, because he doesn't want to deceive yue qingyuan.

“What are your plans for the future?” asked Yue Qingyuan. “I have no plans for the time being,” said Shen Qingqiu. “First I’ll wait for Luo Binghe to return and see how he’s doing.” Yue Qingyuan smiled. “You truly adore that disciple.” Shen Qingqiu was searching for a way to answer when Yue Qingyuan said, “Shidi, Cang Qiong Mountain will forever be a place to which you can return whenever you tire of wandering the outside world.” These words were said with utmost sincerity and solemnity. Yue Qingyuan had always been this way. Whatever he promised, he would definitely deliver. And what he couldn’t deliver, he would endeavor to make up for, no matter the cost.

after learning of his past, after all that's happened, shen qingqiu's admiration remains unwavering. their relationship has become more complicated on account of the ghost that haunts it, but if anything, shen qingqiu's feelings for yue qingyuan have only deepened with this new understanding.

After assuming the role of this novel character, Shen Qingqiu had always refused to become the scum villain from the original work. He’d drawn a clear boundary between them and taken great pride in walking the opposite path. So never before had he felt such a powerful and impulsive thought: If only he really were Shen Jiu. If only that person could really hear these words.

but his heart still breaks for yue qingyuan and shen jiu and what they have lost.

[Luo Binghe] stood utterly alone, without a single person beside him. When the people walking past saw his face, their own faces filled with all sorts of expressions. Shen Qingqiu involuntarily ran forward a couple of steps, then turned his head to look at the person behind him. “Go on,” said Yue Qingyuan. He stood behind Shen Qingqiu, silent and with good grace. It was as if one was the past and the other the future.

this is the last interaction between shen qingqiu and yue qingyuan in the main novel. before leaving with luo binghe, he turns back and silently asks for yue qingyuan's permission, his approval.

it's like getting your family's blessing before running off with your paramour.

this is yue qingyuan to shen qingqiu: the person that stood by his side from the moment he was reborn into the world of proud immortal demon way, the steadfast, strong and reliable older brother that gave him a family and a place to call his, that has fought for and defended him against all his enemies to the detriment of his own reputation. shen qingqiu respects, admires and will try to do what yue qingyuan says, because he's the only authority figure shen qingqiu recognizes in this life. even if yue qingyuan's care was born out of his feelings for shen jiu, shen qingqiu can't stop caring for him, being grateful for his presence and the comfort it gave him throughout all these years. even after learning the truth, his only regret is that he can't bring shen jiu back so yue qingyuan and him can get some closure.

that's love, my dudes.

[mayaibarra]

I just read the svsss extra: Deep dream and I really love it

It's painful but it's heartwarming at the end

I love these two qvq