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Costume is the wrong word because I know people who would wear the accessories I'm thinking about as apart of their everyday outfits. They just aren't my personal style because I dress very low key and am not accessory heavy, and the accessories I do wear I don't want to be "statement pieces" if that makes sense? Idk.

I wish I could find wing themed stuff that isn't "costume-y" or angelic themed. It doesn't even have to be where my wings are, I just want a reminder of their existence ya know

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I wish I could find wing themed stuff that isn't "costume-y" or angelic themed. It doesn't even have to be where my wings are, I just want a reminder of their existence ya know

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Was just thinking like. Huh. It's weird how I sort of use the Christian imagery to associate with even though I don't really feel any strong draw towards it besides its connotations that I have gained over this lifetime and not my past one. I wonder if I had any symbols or imagery that I was associated with.

Then remembered how ive been drawn to spirals, eyes, and other concentric circle-like imagery for over a decade/half of this lifetime.

Oh boy oh gee I do wonder.

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Okay reprhasing that serious style.

I don't ever really feel like I have traits that are not physically on this body, but I feel the shocking lack of them. My back feels empty. There should be something there where there is not. I feel almost naked and overexposed at times. It's weird. I don't like it.

Throwing a little temper tantrum over not having wings WHERE ARE MY WINGS RAHHHHHHHH

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Throwing a little temper tantrum over not having wings WHERE ARE MY WINGS RAHHHHHHHH

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I should make myself an altar. I'm doing that when I go back to school.

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Wouldn't it be beautiful if in your past life you were a god and you temporarily gave up that from and put a little piece of yourself into humanity and now are a college student experiencing the beauty of this world while still being desperate to go back or what

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So "I get mean when I'm nervous like a bad dog" coded it's UNREAL

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showering:

pros: you get to feel clean. you get non greasy hair, non oily feeling skin, it just in general makes you feel better, more energised, refreshed.

cons: there are so many steps. oh my god are there so many steps. before getting into the shower there are steps. during the shower there are steps. and once youve gotten out of the shower? guess what!!! more fucking steps!!!!!!!! UGHHHH

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They should invent hrt that gives you fangs

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When you get so stressed you momentarily loose your human

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How the fuck do y’all deal with getting sick bc something has been fucking with my body for MONTHS and Ive never felt less like me. This body why does it do this shit.

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Not human. Not animal. Secret third thing (nothing)

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Vent / seeking advice. Description of what I’ve been calling a “shitty/bad kinshift” but might be species dysphoria of some sort? I don’t entirely know.

Real talk is there a way to intentionally trigger a positive shift bc every time I accidentally kinshift I just feel overwhelming dread and pain and a sensation I can only equate to when you’re wearing old dirty clothes that are too big for you and bunch in all the wrong places. Like I feel like I’m wearing a human skinsuit and am desperately trying to crawl out it’s deeply upsetting and it also makes it very hard for me to form cohesive thoughts so I just ramble super long and it’s not fun! Where’s the fuckin. Where’s the euphoria and running in the woods and wagging your tail I keep hearing about why do I just feel claustrophobic in my body.

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The warrior cats to otherkin pipeline I’m sure is real but I somehow missed warrior cats as a kid and my friend convinced me to read them now so im a grown ass thing incredibly invested in Yellowfang.