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Trista Mateer — "Ask Again Later"

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Okeeeey... I have now been banned from making dinner for the Hex without fully disclosing where I got my ingredients. I guess not everyone is a fan of (as the Kid puts it) "Wall Meat"

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The change in seasons is still so.... weird to me. The Zariman didn't have changing seasons, we barely had s day/night cycle; but to watch the world fade from biting cold and blinding white into blooming green will never not be weird

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Anyone else's Arthur annoyingly insistent on learning about Duviri? I've been subtly hinting that its *not* a topic I'm open to discussing right off the bat but he won't back down

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Quincy pulled me aside and offered advice to help me get closer to Amir... for "a price" of course. I'm still at a loss on how to proceed with the flirting and gestures so I took him up on the offer... but now I'm left wondering what favor he wants in return

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Since I couldn't have the pineapple pizza he wanted to make me, Amir brought out a whole bunch of foodstuffs out for me to try; a lot of which I'd never seen before, not even in the community snack pile. Arthur saw and started teasing him about how he must "really like me" if he was sharing his own personal secret stash of snacks so... methinks the feelings I have might be mutual :)

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Tried flirting with Amir today... but I'm not sure if calling him "sexypants" was the best approach

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That style of pizza has pineapple. Have you told anyone about being allergic to pineapple?

Uh, Loid's message mentioned something about pineapples, but that was honestly the last thing I was paying attention to...

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Amir and I have been hanging out a lot more, doing Hellscrubs and Face-offs together. I don't know if I should try any of the "flirting techniques" Aoi recommended since I'm still not entirely sure if he likes me back that way, or if he's even aware I like him that way; but being with him feels so... normal, comfortable.

He offered to make his favorite pizza for me to try, and I'm trying really hard not to get my hopes up but... it might be a date

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So this is what Aoi meant when she said Lettie's idea of a fun night would be grilling me for my medical history...

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Telling Lettie I "figured out" what these feelings were was a mistake, because now she's giving me what she called "the talk" and I have never been more flustered and embarrassed in my life

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PROMPTS FOR PEOPLE WHO AREN'T USED TO KINDNESS *  assorted dialogue, adjust as necessary

what are you doing?

i can handle that myself, you know.

you didn't have to go out of your way to take care of me.

i'm not used to this. this caring thing.

thank you. don't ever do that again.

i thought you hated me, to be honest.

i didn't ask you to love me!

no one's ever actually just... sat down and listened to me.

i didn't think people like you existed.

is this normal for you? going out of your way like this?

i told you i had it handled. you didn't have to bother.

i... should probably thank you for that.

i don't know what to say. this has never happened before.

wait, that's mine. you fixed it?

you did all of this... for me?

that was the nicest thing anyone's ever done for me.

i'm kinda at a loss for words.

i wasn't expecting this from you.

you did all this for me?

i had it under control.

when did this happen?

how long were you planning this?

i'm not sure what to say. i'm not used to this.

i owe you one.

that was... very kind of you. thank you.

i'm just not used to people going out of their way to help me.

usually people just look the other way, but you actually care.

this is weird. is this what caring about someone feels like?

i could have handled it.

this must have taken you forever to arrange. and you did it all for me?

it would be easier in the long run if we went our separate ways.

i hate being in other peoples' debts.

i didn't want this to happen.

people around me don't last very long.

i feel like i'm screaming and screaming and no one hears me.

i'm in your debt.

how did you find that? i lost that ages ago.

you actually... listened to me?

no one's ever paid attention.

no one's ever put that much time in effort into something for me.

when did i say that?

i didn't ask you to care about me!

i'm easily missed. people don't pay attention to me.

i'm invisible most of the time.

it's easier for people to look the other way.

do you do this often? help people?

i'm surprised you're still here.

if you're expecting something in return, forget about it.

you came back?

why do you care about me so much?

i'm a lost cause. you should just forget about me.

what's the use? there's no point.

i don't even celebrate my birthday. no one cares.

you can't just make someone care about you.

i thought you left.

what is it about me that has you so worked up?

you're making a big deal out of nothing.

thanks for patching me up.

you... brought this here for me?

but i didn't ask for this! i didn't ask for any of this!

stop smiling at me like that.

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I have been told that these feelings are a "crush". I have a "crush" on Amir...

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Amir stayed with me most of the day and we just... talked; about random things like what he thought tech would become in the future verses what it actually became, and all the shows and games he thinks I'd like (specifically the Forward From The Past movies that my 'Marty' nickname came from) and wanted to share with me. He didnt seem to mind that I didn't have much to contribute to the conversation and got weirdly... flustered(?) when I told him I liked listening to him even if I didn’t understand everything he was saying.

It's true, I do like listening to him, I like visiting him in the Arcade and hearing him ramble on and on about anything and everything. He's kind and funny, insanely smart; he wears his heart on his sleeve even when it hurts. He makes me feel something I don't have a word for yet, but it make me all warm inside....

I like it

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Amir came by the backroom earlier... apparently word spread about the "incident" because he wanted to make sure I was okay since I've been holed up in my room for almost two whole days.

He said everyone wanted to give me some space because it was clear I didn’t want to talk about what had happened and that it has shaken me up, but at some point he decided he couldn't stand the idea of letting me dealing with ... "the goblins in my head" alone. He told me that I had helped him with is own issues, and that the least he could do was return the favor however he could, because he... he cared about me and wanted me to feel safe.

It was a little... overwhelming? I admit I cried a little at the gesture, and then he hugged me, and that just made me cry more... and he hugged me tighter.

I'm not used to any of this... being, and feeling taken care of; or the whole "human connection" thing, but with Amir... I think i could get used to it

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The nightmares I'm somehow able to not wake up from in a screaming, terrified mess were still so loud and intense that Eleanor had to force me awake... because that was all she could hear n the entirety of the wartorn city. The Hell in my head was loud and big enough to drown out the fucking techrot, she told me...

I didn’t stick around long enough to explain what she saw; I don’t think I could even if I wanted to. What happened in Duviri is my burden to bear

I don't think I'm going to be invited to "Girls Night" again any time soon...