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Just realized most if not all my friends don't know I write. They know I can try to write a nice love story, but they don't know about me pouring my feelings out in short paragraphs. Are they poems? I don't really consider them poems. There more like short rants. Some of them happen when its really late and im having a mental breakdown amd NEED to write. Well, that's it for my 1:28 Am rant. Im going to bed (no im not).

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Cheating

WHO IS SHE? I didn't say could drag a fucking slut I to our home but you know what's another. Yeah, I aimed that at you. YOU'RE A SLUT! I can't be with someone who cheats in me. Yeah, you come clean about it but yiu shouldn't be doing it in the first place. I thought I was enough. I THOUGHT WE WERE ENOUGH. I guess not so leave. Stay with your little whore of a girlfriend.

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Walls

I spent years building my walls up and he tore them down, ripped my heart out, and tore it into pieces. Now I have to start over again. So I will build my walls higher, thicker, and more sturdy so no one can hurt me like that again.

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I Don't Know

Ha, you thought I was playing when I said I hated you. I wasn't. You turned my world upside down and it wasn't for the better. I fell in love with what you disguised as love but it wasn't. It wasn't love for me, it was love for what I would give you because I was weak.

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Stand By

Stand by her in the bad times and you will thrive in the good times

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Ex

You hurt me and I let you do it multiple times. Now we see each other in the hall and make awkward eye contact. It hurts because I know we could still be friends if it wasn't for the things that happened while we were together. I was going to try to today but the only time I saw you it was too weird and I was too frustrated with life. Now Im here regretting every division I made last year because of you. Stop being so hateable and loveable at the same time it's really not fair to my feelings and emotional state.

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Sister

Please, oh please come back. It's hard without you here. Nobody gets anything I talk about or cares. You did though, but now your states away and I don't know the next time I will see you. Please at least come and visit so I don't have to be here alone for so long.

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How Life Works

Sometimes I want to throw something at you and others I just want to be your arms but I guess that's just how life works

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I Love You

No matter how many times you say it I don't believe you. I probably never would have. Now you're out of MY life. No more panic attacks because if you. Or at least that's what I thought. Do you still love me? Or am I just going crazy? It seems like you ignore me on Purpose. Not like you used to when we ere together more like an I miss you but it hurts to be around your kind of ignore.

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You

The longer we argue about staying up the more tired and winey you are. But when you're tired and winey it's cute so when you finally win and go to bed I'm left with just the memory and your sweet tired winey voice stuck with me but no you.

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Presence

Just your presence makes me smile

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Three Words

I love you...

I miss you...

I hate you...

I want you...

I'm leaving you.

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Third Wheel/Support Corgi

I know we gave you these names but they were just jokes. Don't think that is all you are to us. We are here for you like you were here for us. You are just as loved like everyone else in the group.

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Parents (all four)

You wonder why all of us don't tell you about things that go on in our life. You make hurtful comments or don't care. Sometimes we do and you don't listen and then yell at us when other people tell you. There is a reason we act out and you notice that it's for attention you just don't give it to us. We are completely neglected and you don't care. Don't be surprised when another one leaves states away and doesn't what to come back.

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Stepdad

I know you're not as bad as you make yourself seem. It's just that after a few beers you get that bad. It scares me when I don't know what happens when I fall asleep. I have had dreams about it and now its close to my reality. This abuse is more than emotional and mental it's becoming physical.

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Hard Times

I thought you were supposed to be there when stuff like this happened. You're not supposed to block me when I blow up your phone crying about something you don't care about. Panic attacks and suicidal thoughts are something you supposed to help me get through not create.