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I’ve received a lot of letters from artists asking to check out their artwork and their blog, and I’ve noticed that a lot of them openly write unhealthy amounts of negative comments about their artwork, it was super depressing, honestly.  :( Confidence plays a very very important role as an artist, it’s what helps us learn and grow without the constant feeling of doubt and jealousy!  You are a unique individual who must go down your own unique path, and as scary as it sounds, you can’t rely on others to hold your hand all the way through.  You are the only one who can get yourself to where you need to go, and beating up your artwork is not the way!  Trust yourself and your abilities to make a change, and you can do anything!! Love your art, love yourself!

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For every Reblog 1$ will be donated to my autistic brothers fundraiser :)

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99% of people won’t reblog this because they think it’ll make their blog look as shitty as their heart.

Reblogging because I care, not because of the guilt trip ^

Same as above.

I think it’s good tumblr is being used to raise money for someone with a disability =).

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I don't get paid enough for this. @stella_the_cockypoo #stellashoot #iflookscouldkill #overworkedandunderpaid #cockapoo

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Follow my beauty...don't judge me lol

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I think I'm a bit of both!

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I'm still ALIIIIIVEEEE

I haven't been on in ages and I apologize. A lot has happened.

Work Update In march I was hired as a supply T.A ( helping kids with special needs). I supplied for a few weeks then worked a 2.5 month contract with a girl in kindergarten who was non verbal, high needs with a Globally Mental Delay and Aprexia. I would like to work with kids a bit older but I loved that little girl. Then I had a bunch of interviews and I got a perm half day with grade 1 students at one school and a year contract in the PM at a different school. I am so nervous but hoping I will learn more about the students I will be working with SOON so I can prepare and not stress out as much. Health Update I am still in Crohns remission and on Imuran. I have been struggling with high blood pressure and as a 23 year old thats effed. So I did some tests- waiting for results and have a fam doc appointment next week but I really dont want to be on meds. I was having pain in my abdomen so I went for an ultra sound and depending on those results I may have to go for a colonoscopy to check my colan ughhhh or my 3rd mri of the last 6 months. I also went to a neurologist and I have carpal tunnel in both wrists so I sleep with these hand brace things and will be going back to check my feet in a few weeks.

Tomorrow I meet with a personal trainor. I figured I need to get in shape and be happier with myself and since I am too embarrassed to go to a gym I will have someone come to me. I am very hopeful and hoping I will finally get my ass in gear and stay motivated. Love Update The past while my relationship wasnt as great as it could be due to many things but mainly and mostly because of what I mentally was dealing with due to Crohns, Prednisone and Depression. I am still seeing a therapist buuuuut happy to report that things are going well and we are very happy :) We have been taking my dog to classes and are probably moving in together in the fall. Woo

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A year ago I was graduating and now I have a permanent job with the school board as a special needs teaching assistant! #success #thisismytime #spacialneeds #autism #teachingassistant

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Some of my best work. #sisters

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My girl is ready for the pool to be opened #stellashoot

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My girl did amazing today! Finally scribbled and did the atrium stairs up and down! #teachingassistant #developmentallydelayed #progress

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Ah Ha moment

Today I went to see Terri ( SW I talk to) and we were talking about my current relationship, past, intimacy issues etc. And I realize that with some people I talk to them partly hoping I will get a compliment because I know I have a great personality but prednisone ruined and scared my body that I want to know that other people still find me attractive.  SO something big I need to sort out.. too bad Terri is gointg away for 3 weeks. But good to know

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Time to be a big girl

I will be supplying for the first time tomorrow! Ahhh anxiety

Surprisingly enough I chose a school with grades 6-8 and in a class with kids who have autism. I have more experience with kids with behavioural issues and other mental health illnesses and the experience I do have with ASD is with younger kids. But it is a 15 minute drive from home and its in a spec ed classroom so there will be a teacher to give me some direction and most of the other posts didn't specify if they needed a TA supply in a classroom, one on one with 1 or more students etc. So i do have a general idea of what I'm walking into.Of course after rereading my options a million times and refreshing the program so I could see if any more jobs were added. Time to be confident and do a great job!

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Mentally Preparing

I am all about mentally preparing. Which is basically me coming to terms and accepting things. Like, right now that I have to start a new job. I got hired with the school board as a supply teaching assistant. It has been a few week process with an orientation etc but now I have my employee # and work email which means I can start supplying. I got my work email 2 days ago... But I didnt tell my family because I need time to process and I know they'd just force me to go in the next day. Today I lied and said I didnt get my work email info in the mail.   I am trying tell myself that I will start on Friday. I did sign up with the phone system and online so I will be able to see and receive supply opportunities. Now I want to ease my way into it. I have more experience working with younger kids who have a behavioural or mental health issue. So I am hoping to start in some behaviour classrooms. I do risk being abused but at least I know I can handle the situation. Its a process. Not sure how everyone else does it. Some people are probably awesome at diving in and all excited about a new job. Despite being outgoing and chatty, I have some social anxiety and I just graduated school last Spring- My first big girl job. 

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