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june 20 2025

have to stop snoozing my alarm and sleeping in for i am meant to be awake at 6AM. shook how i felt small pain on my groin and it turned out the boils are back huhu so i spent the morning researching about it, checking out betadine and pressing hot compress on it. thankfully, the pain subsided sooner than i expected. wag na po sana bumalik. cancelled plans this weekend and worked passionately with 70 new transactions under my squad. thank you Lord kasi ang simple lang ng mga dealbreakers kaya halos na-qualify ko. moments like napapaisip ako na what if may incentives kami sa mga edgeprop. forda motivation rin kahit papano. hehe. but jk lang Lord i'm good with what i have right now. got hyped af in the afternoon listening to my ikon endorphins playlist that never fails to do its purpose - lagi ko talagang naaalala yung saya nung concert. iba talaga ikon!!! 🥹 finished rewatching INSIDE OUT 2 and the anxiety scene still made me tear up :((( then yung green bones sa netflix na ang ganda rin pala. 😌 also yaaaay dumating na yung sticker paper and i was able to test printing the laptop stickers hehehe. i was able to read the 2nd chapter of "think like a monk" for the 2nd time and was amazed with how effective that one activity (to be discussed in my journal)

thank you Lord

🌻 for the pain of my boil is gone

🌻 for i manage to practice the spot, stop and swap technique which is much better than lashing out with negativity

🌻 for the pretty laptop stickers :))))

🌻 for the clear healthy skin

🌻 for the healthy meal we have for today

🌻 for that huge laugh i made while watching a korean show that featured youngk and damn it felt good to laugh like a fool over these

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Forgive me, I am soft and warm, but cruel and a coward, I know nothing but goodbye

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june 19 2025

morning spent with the maine's music i wish to hear live once in this lifetime. (it will) today's shift is the quietest one since there's an issue with our system, i only got to take a transaction before our 5pm meeting (sabay unqualified rin lahat hehe) so for almost the entire shift i just went on other tabs checking mnl to icn flight ticket updates, review my salary transaction (and was relieved na lower than usual lang yung last sahod ko bcs of the tracker adjustments made hehe), played at canva canvass for my laptop stickers project and watched episode 17 of misaeng. it was simply a good day of gratitude, a bit of drowzy minutes and determination to keep this job while my future business is taking its time to find me. hehe. put "inside out 2" on during dinner which reminds me as well how i watched it last year, on my birthday. reread the 2nd chapter of "think like a monk" before bed. and oh, it's packy's 4th birthday today i'm sure he's celebrating in catheaven. 🍀

thank you Lord

🍀 for still having a clear vision despite my screentime hours

🍀 for the fresh air in my lungs

🍀 for how alive our street looks like with kids playing every afternoon

🍀 for guiding me to stay in the present

🍀 for my mindset being more positive and better and healthier

🍀 for me simply choosing gratitude

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june 18 2025

for some reason this day felt slower than my usual done within a blink kind of rest day. with me waking from another interesting dream i've been getting for number of consecutive nights. i think it's because of the vitamins i take every night which makes me excited before sleep, wondering what kind of world or story line i am about to explore. as in, it feels like entering my other alternate universe and last night left an impression with me feeling deep emotions i can't fathom with words and experiencing a kdrama scene. hays, i demand for the next scene.

tindera duties after breakfast wherein i spent some time researching for the pinterest affiliate marketing i swore to pour my heart and soul out to. not until day6 announced a cinema event this incoming august which i can't wait to attend!!! then afternoon i got lost track of time as i dived into pinterest boards to get cute pngs inspo for laptop stickers. within 3 hours of scrolling i managed to collect some with my faves on it and i believe this is better option than checking out of them from shopee. hoping to be able to print them out before our canva acct expires.

made healthy wet food for the mimings as i airfried the waffled fries for our meryenda. that was already dinner for me as i continued watching tangled with my brother. ayun naghugas ng pinggan pati sa dirty kitchen bago nagbantay muna ng tindahan kasi bet mag exercise walking ni mama. did zoomies first with porsha (my all time fave pag hinahabol niya ako hehe) before taking a bath. journaled few pages and fell in love with lee mujin. btw, may sahod na thank you Lord!!!!

gratitude list

🍀 healthy family!!!!

🍀 sapat na sahod para mabuhay ako

🍀 having travel plans

🍀 new music to fell in love with

🍀 cute things on pinterest

🍀 moments like this when i possess all the passion and enthusiasm in the world. when my artist self is so alive and screaming!!! (but still not writing)

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june 17 2025

spent half of my rest day in a coffee shop i haven't tried before with an old time bestie over nachos and cool drinks. my first time to try mocktail and soafer 👍👍👍. it's already a big miracle for me and kat to be reunited for the 2nd time in the same year, tossing back random stories and chikas from highschool and life and kpop and everything. triboa coffee shop kinds give the cozy vibe sabay bigla pang bumuhos ang ulan. may bagyo pala. sayang kasi niyaya namin si jaja kaso ayan napaka OA ng ulan. mga 3 oras ata kami dun sa coffee shop bago naghanao ng dessert. nabudol ako ng journal sa may mister diy. nang walang mahanap sa ayala, nag gangnam noodle na lang kami. had bowl of ramyeon and plate of kimbab as we get mesmerized watching kpop girl group music videos. hehe. sa totoo lang dami ko pa gusto ishare kay kat kaso uwian ko na naalala. hehe. may next time pa naman.

gratitude list

😌 7 hours of sleep

😌 safe, dry and warm home

😌 waking up everyday

😌 long lasting friendships

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june 16 2025

i woke up again from a dream that felt like being in someone else's world. forgot the details pero dami talagang ganap, parang naalala ko pa ngang kasama ko si kristel fulgar don na bagong kasal lang daw tas invited ako. pero ayun last shift for the week and i really appreciate how it feels like a normal day - unlike during my bpo days when last shifts feel like the only days we feel alive. now with my remote job, each and every day is lived with no hate and anxiety at all (before joining meetings lang hehe). galing Mo talaga, Lord. tindera duties until before lunch then just like yesterday, shift today was quiet so i was able to watch an episode of misaeng. love how i really took the time to watch this series with my own pace and able to remember the names of the characters for it feels like i'm really going to work with them everyday. hehe. ayun i was also able to figure out how to backread the old posts of my tumblr blog na 2017 ko pa ni-create. excited to bakcread this baby. dinner was spent watchinf tangled on the side. then my bdsy gift from mama has arrived - a new luggage!!!! so ready na talaga for vietnam 2025!!! then journaled a few pages before sleep.

gratitude list

🧳 my past self stories and lessons written for me to look back at and learned from

🧳 for my last shift is as good as the other days with more relax feelings

🧳 for the afternoon rain

🧳 for the book i am reading in order to think like a monk

🧳 fow how gratitude makes everything better

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june 15 2025

woke up to the sound of "darling hold my hand" that has been my jam for days now i love how it makes me feel alive as if i'm inside an instagram reel. legs quite sore from yesterday's walk. a bit disappointed for not being able to remember every detail of my dream last night featuring a beautiful, white gay man giving me the warmest back hug. huhu. fried eggs for breakfast and taylor swift playlist kind of sunday morning. i found myself watching one of sungjin's vlog for i really missed digesting their content. today's shift made me experience for the first time to have completely no transactions at all. partially na-qualify/unqualify ko na at partially mga deals na pinull-out. kalurkey as in, today was really petiks so i managed to watch 2 episodes of misaeng in the afternoon and realized how more attractive assistant manager kang than his team's newbie (kang haneul's character). as in grabe shet lang kasi yung quiet charisma niya't extra pogi factor whenever he puts baekki-ssi on a test or something. hays mag work on office na ulit ako if may ganito sa company hays pogi so much inistalk ko na siya online ahjussi na sya pero mas okay nga yun talaga oy HAHAHAHA. stayed in our terrace after feeding the mimings for the afternoon sky was so bright and neighboorhood kids were playing every bit of it outside for today's the last day of their summer break it kinda made me nostalgic of the days you get to transition from just being a kid back to a student. when in the adulting world, there is nothing in between now but breathe and work. so yep i think i only received 2 transactions for today then prepared tacos for dinner. watched first part of shrek 4 while eating because why not.

thank you Lord

✨️ for i get to spend a simple, mudane and blessed day everyday

✨️ for teaching me to not overthink the good parts in my life to hold bad ones in return

✨️ for teaching me to be in the present and not care if current feelings won't last because so what, might as well just enjoy it while it's here. sitting with me.

✨️ for teaching me to complain and critize less

✨️ for i'm no longer questioning the things i don't have but rather appreciating the ones i receive

✨️ for there's still more into this life

✨️ for there's nothing wrong with choosing to look on the positive side and having a better perspective in life no matter how imperfect it is

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june 14 2025

a day full of chika as i spent my saturday shift carrying my laptop from a korean food place to a fancy looking, crowded coffee shop. together with my girlies with lots of chika and strong eagerness to be in south korea before the end of time. chz. ayun thank you Lord talaga kasi sa first part lang ng shift super naging busy tas mga 1230 na ako nakasakay ng jeep buti na lang nag volunteer man si kuya jeff na bantayan lang muna yung cancel pending chats. nakapag chika ng walang filter while eating lunch at hwasubun. di pa nakuntento ang mga bakla na tinuloy ito sa 727 coffee shop sa may sbma. kaso once again maaga pinauwi si danielle sa kanila. hays. kaya kami na lang ni anneka naiwan with our girly talk na kahig paulit ulit lang di kami nagsasawa tas very random from the usual may balak ka ba mag asawa talk to hating men to planning a trip within 3 hours of talking. nalimot ko na name ng drink ko basta fruity taste siya since di na ako nagkakape. cute lang kasi part sabi ko na di pa ako nakakapunta ng vietnam pero gusto ko nang bumalik kasama naman ang family sa sobrang mura huhu thank you Lord as always. may nakita kaming dating pbb housemate dun sa 727 yung kambal na ilonggo ayun cute lang. kasama ko rin pala sila donmarie at bangmarie. tas dinala ni anneky si jaebum at pekke. pasensya na wonpil kung poca mo lang dala ko hehe. nakakaloka yung jeep na sinakyan ko pauwi kala ko sasabog na kaya grabe bababaan kami sa jeep. tyL buhay pa po ako as an OA. mention ko din yung cute happening this morning na may taga saksi ni jehova na nag bible study ng very quick saken na may halong work from home chika hehe limot ko na name nya.

thank you Lord as always

🌱 for the bright and cleae sky today

🌱 for i am able to earn money without sacrificing my mental health

🌱 for i have friends. long lasting ones. has the same feather as mine.

🌱 for my home

🌱 for this life

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Daylight eyes. What to draw and how to draw it. 1913.

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june 13 2025

there's no such thing as friday the 13th being an unlucky day for i feel nothing but blessed everyday. the power of gratitude and His grace, indeed!!!! pwera biro talaga everydah i realize how my mind feels lighter when i chose to live this way - away from negativity. 🥹 anyways, i can't believr my dream last night which waa pasb theme. kaming mga ex-pasb, bumisita sa office ni madam na iba na ang itsura tas naalala ko pa pag ppractice ko if ever tanungin ako ano na work ko ganern tas ayun naalala pa daw ako ni madam vsd nagulat rin ako. nalimot ko na ibang details.

it's been awhile though since i got inspired to write a story. this morning while playing my "rock and roll is dead" playlist and the song "push" ny matchbox twenty came, a story prompt was formed in my head. pwedeng si dowoon ang maging main male lead. wish me writer's mood and lots of good ideas kasi kinikilig na ako sa naiimagine ko. hehe. friday shift was okay. soafer tumal na after lunch natapos ko na yunt movie nila dahyun at jinyoung na "you are the apple of my eye" then episide 13 of misaeng. sana ganito rin katahimik bukas since mag gagala ako. nagpabili na lang ng ihaw ihaw kay dwaine for our dinner. 🫶

🧘‍♀️ for today's a sunny day

🧘‍♀️ for my family is blessed enough to live everyday

🧘‍♀️ for the healthy skin

🧘‍♀️ for i have nails to bite 😅

🧘‍♀️ for everyday still feels special even if it's mundane

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june 12 2025

thank you Lord ang sarap matulog. napanaginipan ko si packy. basta parang nilalaro namin siya't pinapakilala siya as facundo. miss you packy. 😔 today was a chill one, gratefully. both work and life wise. felt proud as i assessed new tickets na mabilis rin nabawasan throughout the day. tas umagang chaters kami nila anneka na pinupush si danielle na mag korea na lang talaga kasi naiimagine ko na talaga kaya grab na while we still can. emote ang badeng as i played the old exo songs on my phone' sd card mostly mga old radio cover songs nila tas shemay ngayon ko lang nagets na vietnam pala yung fave cover ko nila sa music bank sa hanoi. huhuhu gagamitin ko yun sa ig reels pag nasa hcm kami hehe. during avail in-edit ko yung resume ni ate yanna with the help of chatgpt ofc. alam ko din kasi yung struggle ng walang work at job hunting jusmiyo. tas ayun tuluyan nang gumawa ng gc kaming tatlo forda south korea spring 2026!!!! maexcite pa ako kasi magmeeting kami uli this sabado hahaha chikahan nanaman ang mga badette. i also like how the thought of doing pinterest affiliate marketing stays in my head kaya isa yan sa aasikasuhin ko. so kilig rin sa part na once lang kami mag meeting until next week hehe. also decided to read a chapter of "think like a monk" twice para ma-digest ko talaga plus reflection paper at the end.

thank you Lord

🌱 for good days always outnumber the bad ones

🌱 for a healthy mind, body and soul

🌱 for i get to dream and achieve them

🌱 for i get the luxury to save money for a planned trip for my family

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Charlotte Brontë, from “Jane Eyre”

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