meimeimeirin

[meimeimeirin]

Hi! ..apologies for the random msg alskkd but I just wanted to say tysm for all your works from your previous blog @zhongrin !!

I’ve always admired and been fascinated in the way you write, in both your portrayal of characters and your way of wording a story/scenario. I may not be able to speak for everyone else, but the comfort your creations bring is really incomparable :)

I do feel some sense of accountability for not having done my part and being a passive reader and I’m sorry we didn’t do better. I hope this doesn’t deter how you feel about writing and continue to create in your own ways, even if it means moving past this platform and doing it for your own eyes only.

Again, I hope this doesn’t come off weird and in a bad way!! This is by no means meant to be bearing any negative intentions whatsoever. I’m glad to know you’re doing alright and living out your life, wishing you all the best and to continue creating at your own pace! 🙆🏻‍♀️✨

thank you for your kind words, nonnie ᰔᩚ

[meimeimeirin]

Hi hello! I hope you're doing great, just a quick question...

If I have saved a post from the privated acc in my drafts, can I still reblog/publish it? Or would you prefer that I publish it privately?

For context, I'm one of those users who uses my drafts as a tbr list, and my drafts are....a lot (I'm having trouble chewing through them haha,,,) so there are a lot of your stuff from that account in my tbr list

Also also, posting doesn't affect the private blog. It shows your acc but no one can access the profile/username, it just shows 'missing page' when you click it

....Or do you prefer I don't post them at all? I'm sorry if I'm being weird/rude, I just wanted to come in and make sure

Anyway I hope you have a nice day!

yeah, you can reblog them, i don't mind at all!

if i want to be honest, half of the reason i made it private instead of deleting the blog entirely is because i still wanted to appreciate people who reblogged. big, and i mean big thank you for yall who show proper support to writers and artists. you keep the fandom and community alive.

and don't worry, you're not being weird/rude + i understand how it feels to not have the energy to chip away at the 'to be read' lists. you're good, nonnie. thank you for checking!

[meimeimeirin]

still on tumblr break, but since i just logged in and saw several asks, i thought i'd clarify a few things here.

regarding me and @/zhongrin

in summary:

zhongrin is privated and archived permanently.

for the two people who asked, yeah, i'm alright.

more utc, but you can skip.

to expand more on the 'sudden' archiving/privating:

i've been debating to archive the blog since last year. to tell the truth, the new theme that appeared in zhongrin since september last year was actually the theme of a new writing sideblog i made. honestly, i had contemplated archiving it since july ー and i've lost count over how many times i created a 'blog archived' post only to delete it, over and over again. i just held on like an idiot and kept telling myself to just post and dip out.

don't look at the activity bar, it's just going to be full of likes. don't look at the notes, i'll just be full of more empty likes. don't look at the reblogs, it won't have any feedback anyway. don't look into your inbox, you won't find any feedback whatsoever anyway. don't look at your dash, lest you'll see other people getting interactions and start wondering if you're the weirdo for not getting any. don't look. don't look. don't look.

i'm just so tired of being disappointed.

it's like writing out a play and 10k people reserved seats to your free performance, yet all you see are thousands of absent seats. all you receive are silent smiles. a few applauses. and less than ten people commenting on the play, most of which are your own friends.

every time i post, i start questioning why did i even bother sharing this. or if i'm even actually good enough at writing. or if that comment was just there out of pity. or if i should have used the time i spent writing, proofreading, and editing to do something else. something that would have brought more joy. something that would result in more than a few strung words on a digital screen that no one thinks is worth sharing.

every time i post, it just feels like i just did something meaningless. every time i do events or bring my ocs to the spotlight, every time i'm having so much fun, people leave and it gets even more silent. my thoughts? my expectations? my joy? my sadness? meaningless. they're all meaningless to these ten thousand people.

why should i keep sharing and doing something that feels meaningless and hopeless?

so i stopped caring and archived. that's all there is to it.

i do have that new writing blog set up. way back since last year. because as much as i loathe the silence, i still love writing. sometimes.

as of today, that blog is still devoid of original posts. i don't know when or if i'll feel comfortable posting my own 'content' again. or maybe i never will. who knows. but if i do, this time, i'm setting things up so i can just be the 'content creator' that readers expect me to be and distance myself from everything.

call me childish. call me jaded. call me a bitch. i don't care. i don't want to try connecting with my readers anymore because tumblr as a community has stopped being a system that can do this. i'm just going to give myself the option of making content and dipping out whenever i want. i'm going to spend my energy having fun with my friends who does care - on a separate, more controlled environment altogether.

this will still be my main since i don't want to bother setting up a new account and re-following people again. but i won't be active here. i foresee i'll be more 'present' in my private blog. for those who does have the url ー please keep it a secret. thanks.

bye, zhongrin. it started out fun. it's a shame it ended on a bitter note. i truly wish it hadn't turned out this way.

signing off once again, meirin.

[meimeimeirin]

Cough

Oh neat new theme <3

[ link: (spoiler) mydei in-game model + animations ]

👁️🫦👁️

[meimeimeirin]

did (breakfast) meal prep and thorough cleaning of the kitchen & bedroom today and i think i'm just made to be a housewife fr

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YELLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! COME ON BLADE RERUN BLADE RERUN BLADE RERUN BLADE RERUN BLADE BLADE BLADE BLADE BLADE

[meimeimeirin]

hsr just crashed my ipad orz

[meimeimeirin]

Me falling in love everyday again (with him and the drawing <3)

HADAHSDLAHJSLHDALKSHDAS OH MY GOODNESS HELLOOOOOOOO MY FAV OTP 🥹🫶🏻

[meimeimeirin]

Good it works here ehe

https://www.reddit.com/r/HonkaiHusbandos/s/VwPjBiyBMr

[ x src ]

....... damn he's big big................ 👁️🫦👁️

[meimeimeirin]

me: so can i do (method 1)? or do i need to do (method 2)?

🤓: Sure

me: (inwardly) what. what does that mean. wh-

me: could you please elaborate on that?

🤓: (proceeds to mansplain other additional features i should add into the app that has nothing to do with my original question)

me:

at this point i just have to ask ー do men these days have ANY reading comprehension at all??

[meimeimeirin]

summary of today's work:

men 🤦🏻‍♀️

[meimeimeirin]

i just really want to start packing already for the move before work starts to pick up, but i don't even know where i would put the boxes orz

[meimeimeirin]

........ i think i broke vivi-

[meimeimeirin]

meirin!!! hope you're doing well!! i was wondering if you could indulge me in sharing some thoughts you have about zhongli's personality (strengths and weaknesses, in particular), even if it's smth super small or niche! i'd love to hear your interpretations of his character!!

no worries if not lol btw i know this is a long and arduous question,,,

anyway, catch!!! 𑁍ࠬܓ

wahhh hello carrot!!! i'm SO sorry this took quite some time for me to answer hsjdjsjd i think he's a very multifaceted character that can be interpreted in various ways... but to me he is:

stubborn. in both a good way and a bad way. on the top of my head, the whole havria quest showcases this most i think. thankfully he has a good head on his shoulders and has accumulated a good deal of wisdom throughout his life. but i still. i still fear. *glances at my geo dragon sovereign idea*

with that being said, he is not merciless or apathetic to other people's feelings - he may have his principles, but he doesn't try to mindlessly enforce them to people willy-nilly.

i think hoyo also likes to paint him as this 'father' figure of liyue, and i love that. he grew up to become a leader and i think aside from the simple things like tea or leisurely walks, he does get his joys from seeing people succeed and grow (i mean the whole point of his archon quest is him being the mama bird who's trying to nudge this baby bird of a nation which he has raised so lovingly, out of the nest). whenever he appears in events and such, he's always giving advices, helping, encouraging people to pursue their interests and be better (poetry event, lantern rate with gaming, etc). i think he genuinely loves humans and just wants the best for them.

his patience is also a big core of his personality, i feel.... maybe it's a given considering the amount of time he's lived. but he's just... he's just a grandpa enjoying his retirement. it's so endearing to see.

also, we can't forget his mischievous side. so cute. literally instigating a discussion/debat about himself to the historians? absolute comedy. to this day i still can't believe how he made us go through the whole spiel of finding rex lapis' favorite perfume scent... like, sir.... ffs.... i will bite you /aff

also my headcanon is that he could be a little bit ocd, especially when it comes to specific routines (i want to say he's still doing regular training on his own and the habit never really goes away) and tidiness (like how specific things should go/be in specific places). he seems like the type shfhshd

tldr, this man is the epitome of a beautifully weathered yet sturdy pillar of stone. i just hope hoyo treats him right when it comes to the end game, because he clearly is still holding out on us about himself.

[meimeimeirin]

I have more but this is the only one i managed to download atm i am gonna send the rest later lmao (the quest was so fun with lil akitsu suddenly playable my heart melted at this little saurian)

Sorry thats not all of it (thought i copied it all, weird) but your hubby being freaking Apollo- 🫣

Any thoughts on pulling for anyone? Have you given into temptation for your pulls considering your hubby? (Why do i have memories of you telling me that- sry if this is repeated i have a lizard brain)

i wouldn't be surprised this man is an onion and is hoyo's favorite male character, i do think there's a lot more to him that we'll eventually discover at the end game.... all the wild theories omg hsdfhshdhf

i did pull for zhongli and got him to c4. will probably c6 him on his next rerun ー as of now i just don't see any interesting characters that i might want to pull. also wtf ifa is 4 stars?? orz...... still no male 5 stars in sight, huh.... ☠️

[meimeimeirin]

as the holidays are getting nearer more and more weirdos appear in the night. it's been a constant few nights of music and chatters lately, along with drunk people gathering till early morning. there was a drunk woman and a man fighting yesterday; i'm pretty sure things got physical because i can hear someone getting shoved into one of the shops' shutter. and now there's an insane guy talking and gesturing threateningly at no one with a block of wood in his hand. it's been 30 minutes now. i just really wish it can all just stop.

please stay safe this festive season.

[meimeimeirin]

Get attacked!! ✨🌈SEND THIS TO OTHER BLOGGERS YOU THINK ARE WONDERFUL. KEEP THE GAME GOING🌈

*is attacked* ?????????? wat did i do- oh-

/silly