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I’m scared that I’m too fucked up to deserve love.

But when I’m with you all I can feel is that I’m enough.

You feel like rain.

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I’m still scared to walk to my car in the dark

I still wake up in straight panic

I still screen all my calls

Scared that you’re waiting to take me.

When will it go away.

It’s not fair that you get to live a normal life

And i have to be all fucked up.

It’s not fair that the medication doesn’t work and I can’t be touched like I want to be sometimes because all I can see and feel is you and it’s not fair that I’m blamed and not you.

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Untitled haiku 12/27/22

Creeping along ribs

Like ivy or a wildfire

feelings consume me.

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relationships don’t have to be all about sex or making out and i feel like a lot of people don’t realize that.. like i don’t care if you don’t kiss me, i just care that you feel loved and happy. a healthy relationship is like crying together, helping your partner clean their room, going shopping together.. doing normal people things but still having them there because it feels nicer or is more fun... we don’t need to be all over each other but if thats what you like it’s just an added bonus, ya know?

- sincerely, a greysexual

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Add a little bit of ✨spice✨

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You’ve kissed me so many times no amount of scrubbing would ever get rid of them all.

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I want to stain your skin with my passion so thoroughly that every time you see the ink blotches at the therapists office you think of me for the rest of your life.

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“Learn to say ‘no’ without explaining yourself.”

— Unknown

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“Make sure you don’t start seeing yourself through the eyes of those who don’t value you. Know your worth, even if they don’t.”

— Thema Davis

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"You're asking me what I want for breakfast and I'm telling you about how when the worst thing happened, I didn't even cry. You're handing me a receipt from the laundromat down the street and I'm passing you a bundle of letters that I wrote to God when I was fourteen and scared. You're passing me the milk after you drip it into your coffee and I'm half laughing about my psychiatrist's office and how there's actually a couch and it's made of blue tweed. You're trying to do the normal things and I am throwing up dull pieces of truth onto our kitchen table. I can't lie anymore. These are the things I've done and they're mostly sad. These are the places I've been and they're mostly awful. This life has woven itself into the notches of my spine and I hear it creak every time I stand."

– "Dull Pieces Of Truth" by Fortesa Latifi

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“Sometimes you meet a person and you just click - you’re comfortable with them, and you don’t have to pretend to be anyone or anything.”

— Alexandra Adornetto

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"I am destroying myself so other people can't," she said, "and it's the worst kind of control but it's the only form I know."

— (via sofijasofia)

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— James Allen Hall, from “I Liked You Better Before I Knew You So Well.”

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It’s a vibe

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Love bites are the perfect accessory.

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Scalemail bikini love <3

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“As long as we don’t die, this is gonna be one hell of a story.”

— John Green; Paper Towns