Itâs just like college graduation all over again. That part where youâre feeling pressure from all fronts, with people asking you what your plans are after this.
âGo to law school,â a well-meaning aunt tells me. Kaya mo man.
Why, though? I whine internally. I wouldnât want to go through all that stress just to prove that I can endure stress.
I donât have the heart to tell her upfront, but IâŚ
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Dry Season
The past few months have been an exercise in patience and persistence.
Work has been slow since February, and with no savings to fall back on, Iâve essentially been running in the red. Iâve been looking for a second job since March, and luckily I heard back from two companies. But after passing the initial exams and going through the required training, Iâve yet to hear back from either ofâŚ
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Thoughts on Ellie's Moving-up Ceremony
Last week, we celebrated Ellieâs moving-up ceremony to minimal fanfare. After the program, we bypassed the obligatory picture taking on stage and had an early lunch at a Chinese restaurant, followed by dessert at Frogurt. Later, feeling a little guilty for not giving in to her request to buy her a garland or a bouquet, I dropped by Goldilocks and bought her a cake.
âDoes this mean Iâm done withâŚ
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Kabuang
Last night I came across a random post on my news feedâyou know, those posts Facebookâs algorithm chooses for you based on posts youâve liked (or messages youâve sent to other people on Messenger . . .).
Surprisingly, it wasnât a meme or showbiz news about Kim Chiu and Paulo Avelino (I really donât know whyyy I get these a lot) but rather a motivational video on small tweaks you can make to yourâŚ
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Motherâs Day is in a few days. While the younger me would have scoffed at it as a capitalist marketing ploy Hallmark designed to drive up greeting card sales, I now hold a more poignant view of it, now that Iâm a mother myself.
I am so very blessed to have my Mama.
Mama, who, ever since I was a child, has always been workingâand still chooses to, even now.
In the company where she worked forâŚ
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Hello, 2024!
Note: This was a draft Iâd written at the start of the year and that Iâd neglected to finishâuntil an hour ago because I had some extra time off work.
Day one of 366. âCause I read itâs a leap year so we get an extra day in February. (I donât know why I had to say that when every person whoâs gone through second grade already knows that.)
In the tradition of the first of January, we start theâŚ
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Make a Wish
Thirty-seven now.
Iâve spent more than half of my life as an adult. Grateful to be alive and to still be here at all, but a little terrified to be honest.
My life seems to have been at a standstill the past few years, and it seems like Iâve been doing more existing than living.
And so, for this year, I held up an imaginary cake in front of me and whispered a short prayer: âLord, help me findâŚ
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Civil
After blocking my husbandâs phone number and on Facebook/Messenger, we now primarily communicate through email.
It just now struck me how funny (and maybe passive-aggressive) our correspondence sounds, with each of my curt replies ending with my auto-signature âBest regards.â
Sometimes when Iâm feeling petty I delete my sign-off before I hit Send, but I donât think he gets the hint.
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What I've Learned So Far
One time in homeroom class, back when I still taught in senior high, I remember sharing to class how, whenever weâre faced with setbacks or difficult circumstances, instead of wallowing in self-pity, blame, or what-ifs, a more proactive response would be to ask, âWhat lesson(s) did this experience teach me?â or âHow can I grow from this?â
Nearly two years since, but I still hesitate to share toâŚ
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Allow Me to Introduce MyselfâAgain
Where do I start?
Almost a decade since my last post. I read a few, and marvel at how eloquentâand how brimming with positivityâI once was. If anything, the years have certainly proven that getting older doesnât necessarily equate to growing wiser.
Between 2014 and now, Iâve amassed a wealth of experiences. But mostly Iâve just accumulated a shitload of debt. Oh, and I got married at thirty,âŚ
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The Day's Order
The Dayâs Order
I just came from attending the Lingkod Weekend, the culminating activity for those who joined our Christian Life Series these past few Sundays. While itâs been almost a year since Iâve taken my commitment vows, I have not had the opportunity to join this activity, so with curiosity and excitement in tow, off I went to the St. Charles Borromeo Retreat House last Saturday.
Aside from the commitmentâŚ
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My Life So Far
My Life So Far
Iâm supposed to be working on a proposalâgratis, as a favor to a former boss, but I just canât resist temptation of scrolling through and clicking Refresh on Facebook every five minutesâwhich is turning out to be a disappointing activity, with very little worthwhile turning up.
How convenient then that I suddenly remember I still have a WordPress account and resurrect my resolve to start writingâŚ
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1. Be aware of how you feel.
As soon as you sense that you are tense, obsessed or conflicted, pay attention, advises psychologist Jennifer Crocker of the Ohio State University. These emotions signal that your motivations may be tangled with self-esteem.
2. Ask yourself âWhy?â
As you think about your situation, ask yourself: What am I trying to prove to others? What do I want to gain? What am I afraid to lose? If your answers revolve around either a fear of failing or the success, status and rewards that will arrive once you have accomplished your goal, you are likely chasing self-esteem.
3. Change your outlook.
Instead of focusing on your own success, think about what you might want to create or accomplish, how your efforts might benefit others or what you might learn from the experience.
4. Embrace empathy and vulnerability.
Be honest with others about your fears and challenges and listen openly to their concerns. Leadership coach Shayne Hughes of California-based consultancy Learning as Leadership says such actions allow you to cultivate compassion. Reorienting your goals in a more compassionate way can make you feel more clear-headed and at peace.
How to stop chasing self-esteem â four tips from Scientific American. Pair with Martin Seligman, father of the Positive Psychology movement, on learned optimism, Philippa Perry on how to stay sane, and philosopher Roman Krznaric on empathy. (via explore-blog)
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When my parents ask how I can even pay my bills
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On Being Vulnerable
We always have to appear so strong to others, so put together. Such that when others point out our shortcomings, we go on the defense and immediately start to plot revengeâhow dare they act like gods when they are no more flawed than us?
But what some ofâŚ
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30, or 35
For all the drudgery that it entails, such as checking pile after pile of homework and computing grades, I love teaching. Teaching brought me out of my shell and gave me an appreciation for the nobility of this profession. I treasure the relationshipsâŚ
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