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i will never stop thinking about this poem my greek professor showed us

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FLEABAG (2016) Created by Phoebe Waller-Bridge

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life truly does go on. you truly just have to keep swimming.

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"who are you without the media you consume" bitch ask who i am WITH IT. I am the hoarder of stories, the ancient sphinx carrying the wisdom of generations, the ophanium with an all-encompassing gaze. My mind is the modern Library of Alexanderia, containing tales of countless universes. I watched the worlds rise and fall, and i changed them to my will. I sympathized with the villains and condemned the heroes; I was the hero and the villain. I've seen love in a million ways and I've bathed in the rays of its beauty. Grief, pain, wrath, sorrow, hatred, numbness — I've seen it all. I explored those worlds, holding them in the palm of my hand. I exist in all of them, and they exist in me. I am in the past and in the future; I am nowhere and everythere.

turn around.

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And I find you all unwoven

Trying desperately to sew

And I know the kindest thing

Is to leave you alone

When your seams have come unknitted

And you cry out to the sky

I've run out of my words, my song

Just let me die, me die

The rockrose and the thistle

Will whistle as you moan

I could try to calm you down

But I know you won't

The Rockrose and the Thistle - The Amazing Devil (2020).

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Fallen Angel – Alexandre Cabanel // The Horror and the Wild – The Amazing Devil

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Council of the Gods – Cornelius van Poelenburgh // Children’s Dance – Berthold Genzmer // Battle Cries – The Amazing Devil

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this is so comforting but oh, how i wish for a novella sometimes

I became a happier person when I realized that my life is more of a collection of short stories than a novel. There doesn’t have to be one overarching plot. 

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Still Life – Carstian Luyckx // Still Life with an Imaginary View – Laurens Craen // The Horror and the Wild – The Amazing Devil

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YOU’RE NOT A COWARD BECAUSE YOU COWER

YOU’RE BRAVE BECAUSE THEY BROKE YOU

YET BROKEN YOU STILL BREATHE

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i‘m bi, actually.

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life be SO hard atm but i’m also loving it <3

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I WISH THAT I’D BEEN BRAVE.

richard siken, crush // christopher healy, a hero’s guide to saving your kingdom // the amazing devil, ruin // j.d. salinger, raise the high roof beam // susan sontag, as consciousness is harnessed to flesh: journals and notebooks // claudia rankine, don’t let me be lonely: an american lyric // the avett brothers, i wish i was // frank bidart, the war of vaslav nijinsky // nicola toon, everything, everything

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as something holy

Danez Smith, The 17-Year-Old & the Gay Bar

Jorge Luis Borges, The Meeting in a Dream

Jeanette Winterson, Written on the Body

Hozier, Take Me to Church

Radclyffe Hall, The Well of Loneliness

John Keats in a letter to Fanny Brawne, c. October 1819

Tosca, Ho Amato Tutto (trans. from Italian)

Richard Siken, Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out

Lord Alfred Douglas, Two Loves

Zolita, Holy

Ethel Cain, Sun Bleached Flies / @toothachebench​

Mabel (2016–), Episode 22: Eternal Return

Fall Out Boy, Church

Sarah Kane, Phaedra’s Love

Sappho (attrib.)

Richard Siken, Saying Your Names

Dante Émile, After Abel

Mary Lambert, She Keeps Me Warm

William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet

Natalie Diaz, These Hands, If Not Gods

Danez Smith, The 17-Year-Old & the Gay Bar

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I am both self-destructive and self-loving. Both seem very romantic to me.

Romantic, Juansen Dizon

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merry fucking christmas

fuck covid.

fuck covid.

fuck covid.

fuck. covid.

FUCK. FUCKING. COVID.

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The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde