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Apologetic CNC is so underrated and is honestly my favorite way to think about it with Hawks.

Because ohhh, that boy has so much guilt and shame swirling around in his belly. Plus, he has his big, bright, little morals as a hero.

That doesn’t stop him from being hungry for you in every way he can have you, though— including when you’re prey.

Keigo wouldn’t be the one to bring it up with you first. In fact, he never even considered it as a kink until you brought it up. In that first conversation, his eyebrows were a bit raised, but he’s an open-minded guy, sexually speaking. And the discussion does start slow, giving him a bit of time to familiarize himself with a little bit of dubcon roleplay. He can also get behind waking you up with oral sex, of course.

Keigo blows his load prematurely the first night.

Not uncommon when discovering new and exciting kinks, of course, but something about this feels different to Keigo. It’s mouthwateringly taboo, like he’s not supposed to be enjoying the chase like this.

So of course, he babbles his little angel apologies during the act. When he catches you and pins you face down, he says:

“Fuck, babe, m’sorry. Need this.”

“Can’t help myself, need to have you, need to have you, please.”

“It’s be over in a minute. Shush, baby, you want me to feel good, yeah? Love me? I love you, fuck, I love you.”

“So cute when you do, struggle more. Oh, fuck me.”

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Apologetic cnc. Oaaaaag. Oagh. Oaghhhhhh…

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This is exactly how i feel about dark fic by the way. Like the blonde girl is literally me if you even care. https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8M1wG2S/

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I have no idea what is wrong with me but. Covering my face blushing kicking my feet. I love when he is a creep. Like. Creepy, off-putting, gross.

I think there is something so incredibly erotic about cognitive dissonance. Pretty boy who acts in ways that are genuinely off and gross. Perverts who try to hide it to themselves, even. Repression. Pretty boys who perform normalcy so well that no one would ever guess that they think degenerate things that make most people uncomfortable. Men in suits who get off on shame and taboo, who want to explore that with you in whatever way makes you and them feel the grossest.

Yanderes who breathe funny with their head in the clouds. Sticky, honeyed stockholm syndrome.

CASE IN POINT! I am not joking when I say this is the most sexually attractive Hawks panel to me.

Like. There’s dirt on his face. I would like him to fuck me from behind wearing that suit out in the forest with his slacks around his ankles and my face shoved into the dried leaves and dirt. And I would like him to whimper “sorry” for being so rough and genuinely mean it, but he still keeps going. And I want to suck him off after patrol when he hasn’t showered, and I want him to point that out to me. And I want to drag him to the bathroom every time he has a social faux pas and people are put off by his behavior and think he is cringe.

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Whines. Thinking of delusional!yandere Hawks. It’s so fucking good. I adore him being mean and obsessed. I adore the concept of him getting hot and bothered for things he shouldn’t be, yet still retaining those sweet puppy love feelings.

I just think he should be happy and get whatever he wants always and have fun.

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Iiiiiii am thinking about Hawks and cnc. I am thinking of him pretending to be a sleazebag “after” a scene (it’s still part of the negotiated scene).

I just. Like the idea of his jeans down his thighs, you still hastily half-undressed. And how he grunts when he cums inside you from behind, gripping your hips like a whore.

But most of all, I am obsessed with that little moment where Keigo pulls his jeans back up after he finishes and zips up, sighing out a phew that says, god, I needed that.

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Sits here poking the ground with a stick. I miss thinking about cnc with Hawks. Predator/prey dynamics. Etcetera.

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Hiya! Announcement!

Announcing now that I actually am changing the age limit of this blog in particular from 20+ to 21+.

Have been reflecting. And I think my point of gaining more self-boundaries in your 20s to navigate darkfic safely and responsibly still stands. But I honestly think I'd feel more comfortable bumping it up to 21.

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The way people get about fauxcest on here is crazy like "what the fuck is wrong with you? That's incest you are literally disgusting" idk how to break this to you, but Keigo Takami from my hero academia is not my step father, guys. I'm really sorry to break the news and I know this must come as a shock but I am not actually related to Hawks from my hero academia. The jig is up.

Anyways, same with, like. Fauxcest roleplay as a kink irl. Idk maybe it's because I am too literal-minded. But I see people losing their shit over it like pointing at a couple and saying "THESE PEOPLE LIKE INCEST" and then you look over and it is two clearly unrelated people standing next to each other and I want to be like I don't think you know what that words means...

I don't think two unrelated people who met in their 20s can perform incest like I'm 99% sure that's not how it works

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Hawks voice: I'd never hurt you, you're my baby. Wouldn't even want to. I'd never want to! (Is so fucking hard at the cognitive dissonance that it hurts).

He wouldn't, but Hawks could so easily get away with hitting you. Like it wouldn't be a challenge at all. Sometimes he looks at you, ditzy and dumb and clinging to him on the couch, and the realization hits him.

His baby... Poor thing. He strokes your hair instead.

Hawks would never hit you— would never want to, even. It's just the knowledge that he could, at any time he wanted, that gets him hard.

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He wouldn't, but Hawks could so easily get away with hitting you. Like it wouldn't be a challenge at all. Sometimes he looks at you, ditzy and dumb and clinging to him on the couch, and the realization hits him.

His baby... Poor thing. He strokes your hair instead.

Hawks would never hit you— would never want to, even. It's just the knowledge that he could, at any time he wanted, that gets him hard.

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Head in hands. I want him to take advantage of my disposition.

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Read a comment about hawks wrong and thought it was about stepfather!Hawks. I have never been so deflated from excitement so fast.

Okay I guess I'll go stare at the wall then.

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Haa wow I'm such an Awful Bad Villain I am So Evil And Bad And Mean and it would just Be So Horrible if a number two winged hero named Hawks with blond hair and gold eyes and red wings were to be of the belief that ., that heroes (being the good guys) deserve a reward for protecting civilians (the innocent) and .,.. that villains (being the bad guys) belong to the state after they're captured and thus um. If one were to . quietly go "missing" from prison due to some mysterious paper signing and prisoner transfer for "parole" because surely the number two hero would be such a good influence and most definitely not take advantage of the pretty little villain he has at his disposal who shows up in public sometimes unbruised and unscarred so of course he's obviously being good to them like everyone would expect him to and of course he doesn't bring them outside like a trophy and fuck them beforehand so his cum is left dripping beneath the clothes he so graciously loaned them and.

What was I saying again

- magpie anon ✦

Head in my fucking hands.

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But like. Stay with me STAY WITH ME.

That idea (from my last anon before this so read that first) is So. GHRGHHGH.

Parole officer Keigo who basically just keeps villain!reader as a pet.

He fucks you when he wants, but he's nice to you, he likes you, so it's really not that bad.

Keigo spoils you, buys you whatever you want short of weapons, definitely doesn't condition you to get horny when he walks in the room or his interviews play on TV.

It's a cushioned life, a life anyone would be jealous of—the number two hero's roommate, prisoner, sex toy, lover. Hey, he might love you; he does. He just shows it in interesting ways.

You have to take good care of your property, right?

And God knows—Keigo knows—that you belong to the state.

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PROPERTY OF THE STATE TS DMF......S.XKCMC.C.... AGDUDHXJNC.... AUGGHHH.

Hi yes hello call me a national park the way I'm owned by the state. Call me an endangered species the way my rights are protected (controlled). I'm about to be whatever the opposite of a sovereign citizen is.

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Man i wish the creepy dude in nosferatu was my type. If he was hot-creepy and not weird-creepy that would be so awesome

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Damn the narrative is fucking thomas up