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no, you are not "running from God". He's in front of you

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What do me and this website have in common???

We're both a tumblr

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I tried to log into my Ellipsus account the other day and wasnt able too because it had to many active users. Its working for me right now though to transfer some of my things. I've considered going back to physical notebooks like when I was a kid.

I don't want my files deleted randomly! I don't want my files fed into AI! I don't want to associate my writing with a company that uses or endorses AI in ANY WAY because their use of AI shows how much they respect creative work and proves I CAN'T TRUST THEM WITH MINE!

But now I can't write at all. I guess I'll have to save my files and email them to myself after EVERY MINISCULE CHANGE if I want to access them across devices because cross platform availability is easy for WATTPAD and FREAKING TUMBLR but not BASIC OFFICE APPLICATIONS!!!!!!

I'm done! I give up! I GIVE UP!

What do you guys use? How do you access your work across devices? Do you literally have to save your stuff as word documents and redownload them for EVERY CHANGE? Is that how people do things without Google Docs???????

This may seriously make me give up writing, I'm so mad.

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My mother: Maybe homeless people deserve better. Maybe they shouldn't be rounded up and carted up and institutionalized/committed with the potential of forced medical treatments on unconsenting individuals. We should probably keep funding for housing and feeding them because that's more effective, and we don't have enough psych hospitals to contain literally millions of people.

Cousin: Maybe you should shut up or get up and do something, Trumps trying to make America great again.

My mother: *is disabled and literally the same day she posted that she had been out for actual hours manning a charity organization to cloth the poor and just simply doesn't have a formal job in favour of raising her children and not working herself sick* ???

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People get so hung up on politics that they're willing to insult and ostrasize their own freaking family over it

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When the illness you have causes symptoms

This isn’t the gif i was looking for but I’m kind of enamored by it. Die white boy

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a lot of loving and being loved by people is recognizing when they're sincerely trying to help or comfort you even if their words are clunky and unhelpful at best and holding onto the sentiment that they are trying to reach for you at all. and a lot of the time that has to be enough because it's all you're going to get

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one thing to remember is that God did send His son to die for the sins of the whole word!

and He does desire a personal relationship with you!!

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Christian sisters and brothers please pray for my friend, she attempted tonight and is in the hospital. She has 3 children, and her partner had a breakdown when he found out (they’re going through some very difficult times atm). Their entire extended family has been going through some very rough stuff and this is just the latest thing.

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I'm a person who doesn't swear but there are some swear words/terms that just have no non-cuss translation

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Here…… take this…..

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I wish all men converting to catholicsm for fetishy traditional gender roles/ wanting a trad wife reasons a very repent and truly come to Jesus

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I heavily disagree with whatever random person just decided they could erase negative backrooms levels from existing and will be opting to ignore this decision. Negative levels are still an official part of the lore I decided. It's not my fault they're wrong.

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I was looking for a Varian image for…reasons. And found this wiki page and it has to be for a fic I’ve never heard of because what?

Fuck Mandee and Jackie

Damn sorry Foop

Goddamn

I tried to find a fic but couldn’t, as far as I know it’s…just a wiki...

If anyone has context please let me know because I’m obsessed. There’s a whole ass storyline going on and there’s just…so much to unpack.

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After feeling like abdolute booty for the last month, I finally got to see my doctor and she says she thinks I have fibromyalgia. And Ive been ordered a tilt table test (I did not have to request it) and referred to a genetisist to check for POTS and hybermobile disorders (primarily Ehlers Danlos) BUT I have to wait two months for the tilt table test and it's gonna be a bit before I know anything about the genetisist

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anxiety will have you thinking things like "will everyone hate me if i order coffee at the coffee shop" and "will people think i'm crazy if i work out at the gym"