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God? Are you there? Do you hear me? Did you hear me, tonight, crying instead of throwing up, for the first time in a month? Did you see me? Did you see the way I stared at the wall, while terrible thoughts passed through my mind? God? Are you there? Can you remind me, please, just this once, can you remind me of all the promises? There are stars in the sky, God. There's sand on the shore. But God, please. Are they for me? God? Are you there? Do you hear me? I'm sorry. I am so, so sorry for all the things I do, and the person I've become. I'm sorry that all I can think is that it means I should die. I know my friends, my family, wouldn't want that. God? Are you there? How do I stop feeling forsaken? I'm not even depressed, God. You brought me through that. But I'm still in the valley of the shadow of death. If they take me to the hospital, God, I'm scared I won't get a choice. I'm scared the only choice I have is the one I must not, cannot, take. God? Are you there? Do you hear me? Do you weep for me? Did your Son die for me? And, God? If that's true, why? God, I have scars that might not go away. I didn't mean to go that deep. Not with those. Unless I do something, God, I will never be able to wear shorts again. I've worn them with scarring, yes, but not that scar. God? Are you there? God? Do you love me?

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All I do is try and support you. All you do is make me feel worthless.

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“There are a few great souls in my life. They are not many. They are few. You are one.”

— Anne Sexton

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Jeanette Winterson on Substack

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My parents named me Light because their lives lie in shadow but I’m a poor example of joy. Sometimes I get so sad I think about eating a quesadilla, or assembling a tire swing, or taking off my bra. Instead I dream of the big dumb heart my mother hands me. She tells me to carry it. I drop it every time.

— Noor Hindi, from “Broken Light Bulb Flickering Away,” in DEAR GOD. DEAR BONES. DEAR YELLOW.

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“I like to see people reunited, I like to see people run to each other, I like the kissing and the crying, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can’t tell fast enough, the ears that aren’t big enough, the eyes that can’t take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone.”

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“Men have been found to resist the most powerful monarchs and to refuse to bow down before them, but few indeed have been found to resist the crowd, to stand up alone before misguided masses, to face their implacable frenzy without weapons and with folded arms to dare a no when a yes is demanded.”

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“All rules for study are summed up in this one: learn only in order to create.”

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“Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does.”

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“Passion makes a person stop eating, sleeping, working, feeling at peace. A lot of people are frightened because, when it appears, it demolishes all the old things it finds in its path. No one wants their life thrown into chaos. That is why a lot of people keep that threat under control, and are somehow capable of sustaining a house or a structure that is already rotten. They are the engineers of the superseded. Other people think exactly the opposite: they surrender themselves without a second thought, hoping to find in passion the solutions to all their problems. They make the other person responsible for their happiness and blame them for their possible unhappiness. They are either euphoric because something marvelous has happened or depressed because something unexpected has just ruined everything. Keeping passion at bay or surrendering blindly to it - which of these two attitudes is the least destructive? I don’t know.”

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You told me you were the bravest when you’re in love, so don’t you dare stand there and tell me you’re afraid.

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“And then my soul saw you and it kind of went “Oh there you are. I’ve been looking for you.””

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The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.

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- Nicoisa,cypruss

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