mewhenimhidin

[mewhenimhidin]

not to sound bitter but i hope hurting me haunts you for years

[mewhenimhidin]

goddamn

really goin all of 2033 without kissin a single person smh

[mewhenimhidin]

funny,

I started today feeling really weirdly like, Content? with all of the shit surrounding my ex (plus a few other heart aches over the past year that are Very Prominent still) and had the thought while i was driving to school that I couldn’t think of one thing that would actually like Override that contentedness? even the stuff like running into my ex or smth that i thought might usually overwhelm me a bit seemed like things i could deal with?

and then as i got to school ended up walking the whole way in like Directly behind me ex…

el oh el

but it was also literally fine, like Genuinely didn’t kill my vibe or anything, And Then,

they like,,, casually talked to me??? j like saying they didn’t want to go to class (real) but still like idk we have Not been on like Casual talking terms. but it was chill? idk the lack of tension was nice ig

even though i feel a little guilty for feeling ok about it, like they did some stuff to people i really care about that is Truly abhorrent,, and like at the same time i wish there was direct tension all the time i guess

it takes too much of me to hate them

me when i’ve cried about my ex from a year ago like twice in that last week

but actually its Ok because olivia rodrigo is still out here releasing songs about joshua bassett and that shi happened years ago el oh el

[mewhenimhidin]

if i am saying “drive safe” to you it is not a wish or command btw. i am casting a spell. Get fucking cushioned and shielded and protected idiot

[mewhenimhidin]

me when i’ve cried about my ex from a year ago like twice in that last week

but actually its Ok because olivia rodrigo is still out here releasing songs about joshua bassett and that shi happened years ago el oh el

[mewhenimhidin]

the commodification of friendship is the most annoying thing to come out of the internet in ages. like actually i love to break this to you but you're supposed to help your friends move even if it's hard work. or stay up with them when they're sad even if you're gonna lose sleep. you're supposed to listen to their fears and sorrows even if it means your own mind takes on a little bit of that weight. that's how you know that you care. they will drive you to the airport and then you will make them soup when they're sick. you're supposed to make small sacrifices for them and they are supposed to do that for you. and there's actually gonna be rough patches for both of you where the balance will be uneven and you will still be friends and it will not be unhealthy and they will not be abusive. life is not meant to be an endless prioritization of our own comfort if it was we would literally never get anywhere ever. jesus.

[mewhenimhidin]

me when i havin breakdown. me when touch

[mewhenimhidin]

the commodification of friendship is the most annoying thing to come out of the internet in ages. like actually i love to break this to you but you're supposed to help your friends move even if it's hard work. or stay up with them when they're sad even if you're gonna lose sleep. you're supposed to listen to their fears and sorrows even if it means your own mind takes on a little bit of that weight. that's how you know that you care. they will drive you to the airport and then you will make them soup when they're sick. you're supposed to make small sacrifices for them and they are supposed to do that for you. and there's actually gonna be rough patches for both of you where the balance will be uneven and you will still be friends and it will not be unhealthy and they will not be abusive. life is not meant to be an endless prioritization of our own comfort if it was we would literally never get anywhere ever. jesus.

[mewhenimhidin]

me when im so done

[mewhenimhidin]

me when i experience any minor inconvenience

[mewhenimhidin]

anyways the real tea: me when i be fuckin pining man

[mewhenimhidin]

me when i cant get my fuckin header to work so i guess its just Like that now

[mewhenimhidin]

me when i make a second account for the first time