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Upbeat

I write a lot of my more negative and anger filled thoughts here. I think it's high time I put something positive. I've put my best effort into trying tho help out at my job but to no avail. The silver lining to this is that I'm finding my motivation returning. I'm on the hunt for a new and better job. Also while I'm not sure what the future holds for my love life but I'm single for the moment.

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My Rage

Trying to conceal my anger seems so futile. People can tell that I'm upset but they have no real concept of the depth of my fury. As I keep my temper in check I wonder if that's half of my problem in being able to relate to others in a healthy manner. I worry though that revealing my rage will only scare those that I care for the most in my life.

Feeling trapped as I do only makes things all the worse for me. Even my daughter has me conflicted. She is tired of a lot of the same things but I know she is terrified of the change that is inevitably coming. Upsetting her little world just infuriates me further.

I wish I could come up with a solution that would make all parties involved happy but this needs to end and I seem to be the only one strong enough to put a stop to the madness. So be it. I will bide my time but I will move once everything is in place, I will act. For her good and mine.

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Seriously?!

Time for another rant. Males… Why does my gender have to be so fucking heartless and stupid?! I’m tired of seeing the people I care about upset by supposed men. A real man does not put someone in a position where they feel uncomfortable, or like they have to be someone or something they are not. Selfish people perform those kinds of actions. More often than not males are the perpetrators of this in my experience. I can’t stand most ‘men’…

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Cruelty...

There are times I wonder why certain people are just so damned viscous. It seems to me that people have become cruel through conditioning. We are told to do to other as we would have them do to us, but then shown the opposite. It appears to condition us to seem nice but really be uncaring and aggressive.

Not really sure why but there also seems to be a correlation between intelligence and how mean an individual is on any given day. The more intelligent the person, the less likely they are to be cruel for no reason. The smarter the person, the less tolerant of stupidity. This also seems to be true in most cases.

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Good times

I have to admit my trip to Cincinnati tonight was a lot of fun. Got to see some old friends and do one of my favorite hobbies, larping.

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For those that can appreciate it, the full song of the fall of Erebor.

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Couldn't resist for my first post.

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First official post

Never really posted anything up here but figured I'd use this as place to post my thoughts and opinions. I don't expect everyone to agree with me and really care if they do or not. This is where I will express myself freely. Funny things and serious. It's all going on here.