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“You can’t control everything. Sometimes you just need to relax and have faith that things will work out. Let go a little and just let life happen.”

Kody Keplinger (via naturaekos)

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Day 4

Waking up today is extra heavier. It’s as if my feels are choking the hell inside of me. I dreamt of you, but even there you were pushing me away. Everything hurts. I’ll never be used to this kind of pain. I wake up to a variation of pain intensity everyday.

I just want us to be okay again. I pray you want that too.

Not a good morning for me, but I hope it is for you. I miss you so much. I woke up today loving you more.

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Day 3

I woke up feeling different today. I woke up a little bit more hopeful. I woke up knowing that I am a day closer to your homecoming. I feel it. You’re coming home.

I can’t wait any longer. Come home now.

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mahal, 

sana alam mo kung gaano mo ako pinasaya ngayong araw. sana ayusin natin to. sana piliin mo pa rin na ayusin to nang kasama ako.

iintayin ko ang paguwi mo. 

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sana umuwi ka na. 

miss na miss na kita. 

ikaw lang ang gusto kong makasama. 

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gusto ko lang naman maging masaya.. ako, ikaw, tayo pero bakit ganito? ano ‘to? wala na ba talaga ‘to? hanggang dito nalang ba talaga tayo? kasi hindi ko alam. gusto ko pang ilaban ‘to pero kung isusuko mo na, wala na talaga akong magagawa. sobrang mahal kita at gusto ko lang maging masaya ka. sana sa akin parin pero kung hindi na talaga, iintindihin kita kasi mahal kita.

umuwi ka na sana. inaantay pa rin kita.

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Don’t be so hard on yourself. It’s okay to rest :))

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di ko na kaya.

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you make my heart feel like it’s summer when the rain is pouring down

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Day 2

Today, I woke up with a really heavy heart. A heavy and breaking heart. I woke up longing for you. I woke up wanting to be wrapped in your loving arms. My love, I don't know how days turned into a feeling of year-long missing you. I woke up wanting you back. I wanna say these words to you but I won't. I won't because I don't want to bother you. I won't because you seem to be so fine without me. I won't because what good will this do? You're not going home anyway. 

But if in case you change your mind, know that I will always be waiting for your homecoming. I love you. Without reservations.

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Day 1

I struggled getting out of bed today. It is my only haven right now but I had to get up, keep everything together--even for just a while, and face the reality of the painful world that today may be the first day I will not be able to talk to you anymore, that today may be the first day of not being able to see you and all of your imperfections, which I thought was perfect, again, that today may be the day for the tragic plot twist of the greatest story I've ever known. 

I woke up wanting to hold you and hug you. I woke up wanting to be filled with your love. I woke up not wanting to lose you. 

I hope you wake up feeling okay. I just want you okay. Good morning, I love you, my KJ.

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good night.

i love you.

i miss you.

please come back home.

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BE OPTIMISTIC

Thanks for the inspiration @healingsuggestions :)

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You got this, okay? :))