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I only got one commission and was able to get one bag of cat food but thankfully my dad bought a bunch of bags, they were cheaper but it's enough to get us by. Now unfortunately college starts in less than two weeks and I have a huge list of *essentials* that I do not have and I'm panicking because it's stuff I genuinely need (like soap and breakfast and medicine etc) and my mom just got a vet bill of $1,200 and my nana just had to pay all the bills and no jobs I applied to have responded. If someone can commission or just donate please do... My dad thinks I might not be able to go to college again but I already went one year and it would just be for nothing if I left now...

EMERGENCY PLEASE HELP!!!

I am literally so desperate right now. These aren't 100% my cats, they're my mother's rescue cats and she is sick and can't take care of them as much anymore and thanks to the president changing the prices on tariffs the shipping prices are well...you can see for yourself on the second photo. Everything is a lot more expensive and my mom is a sanctuary rescue. So she rescues them and they stay on the 7 acres with a bunch of buildings and fenced fields/"catios..." Things have been great for about 5 years and now suddenly we have no food left for them. We have one bag left and nobody wants to donate anymore because 1. Tariffs/prices and 2. A "rescue" on Facebook has been bullying my mom relentlessly and spreading rumors about her and another rescue... It's making my mom severely depressed and it's getting so bad people don't want to help my mother because they believe this lady instead - if you heard about the recent tragedy with save a fox rescue.. the founder committed su1c1de because of bullying. I'm trying to prevent my mom's depression and hopelessness from getting worse by helping her get food for the cats. If you don't want a drawing please at least donate something. I will draw anything except NSFW(sexual I mean, blood and stuff is fine) you can choose your own price but please not only a dollar, I am struggling to help my mom and she's pretty much on the edge of giving up. She can't get the cats homes we live in an area where everyone gets cats to breed them or hurt them. And everyone who DOES want a cat wants a kitten. Please just help, you can donate a dollar, ten dollars, literally whatever you want every penny helps. And I will draw whatever for $3+ .. I don't wanna draw for this small of an amount but if it helps the cats so be it.

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EMERGENCY PLEASE HELP!!!

I am literally so desperate right now. These aren't 100% my cats, they're my mother's rescue cats and she is sick and can't take care of them as much anymore and thanks to the president changing the prices on tariffs the shipping prices are well...you can see for yourself on the second photo. Everything is a lot more expensive and my mom is a sanctuary rescue. So she rescues them and they stay on the 7 acres with a bunch of buildings and fenced fields/"catios..." Things have been great for about 5 years and now suddenly we have no food left for them. We have one bag left and nobody wants to donate anymore because 1. Tariffs/prices and 2. A "rescue" on Facebook has been bullying my mom relentlessly and spreading rumors about her and another rescue... It's making my mom severely depressed and it's getting so bad people don't want to help my mother because they believe this lady instead - if you heard about the recent tragedy with save a fox rescue.. the founder committed su1c1de because of bullying. I'm trying to prevent my mom's depression and hopelessness from getting worse by helping her get food for the cats. If you don't want a drawing please at least donate something. I will draw anything except NSFW(sexual I mean, blood and stuff is fine) you can choose your own price but please not only a dollar, I am struggling to help my mom and she's pretty much on the edge of giving up. She can't get the cats homes we live in an area where everyone gets cats to breed them or hurt them. And everyone who DOES want a cat wants a kitten. Please just help, you can donate a dollar, ten dollars, literally whatever you want every penny helps. And I will draw whatever for $3+ .. I don't wanna draw for this small of an amount but if it helps the cats so be it.

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Why am I alone even when I was kind to everyone.

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I'm mostly done with defending Ragatha because it's making me tired and ruining my mental health how much hate she's been getting (despite yk... Jax being worse and everyone loving him...) I relate to her so the hate feels very personal. One last thing I will say and then I'm just gonna have to block everyone on everything that hate her because it's making me hate myself and think I'm a bad person how everyone is treating her... Is that she wasn't sad when Jax and Pomni walked off bc she was friends with Pomni? Where did people get that I just saw a TikTok saying "I hate Ragatha not because she crashed out at Jax but because she sighed at them walking off? Girl you and Pomni were not close!" YEAH I KNOW THATS WHY SHE SIGHED!!! She was upset because EVERYONE walked off not just Jax and Pomni and that she was left alone but the reason it pointed out Pomni first is because Pomni is new and Ragatha was trying SO HARD to be her friend but her efforts did nothing. Shes sad BECAUSE they're not close. It has nothing to do specifically with Jax except the fact that Pomni chose the jerk over her kindness she tried to show constantly.

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wanted to talk ab this little detail in this scene that i find Sad

ragatha’s first instinct here was to panic and brace herself for some kind of verbal backlash because of the outburst earlier. pomni didn’t even sound mad or irritated in her delivery, but ragatha’s expression still 100% reads “she must be upset with me for yelling”

whoever said that her feigned optimism is a fawn response instead of toxic positivity hit the nail Right on the head i think.

her mom must have been pretty awful

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Letters to all my supernaturals friends ✉︎

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A little Spyro for today 💫

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inspired by this post

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I like Jax too but if I see someone hating on Ragatha and calling her manipulative or fake I'm blocking them I'm tired this is just like the group of Gangle haters that appeared after her episode... People can't let a people pleaser with repressed emotions get mad for once or be too nice... And they can't let a bipolar girl have a manic episode...💔

Sorry for all the negativity on my account by the way - @ people who follow me,, I'll stop now I just really don't like when characters I care about a lot get hated on ESPECIALLY ones I relate to.

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Last thing about the new episode, I'm gonna binge Markipliers FNAF playthroughs to hopefully push away the TADC hyperfixation for my own mental health bc every hate towards Ragatha feels directed to me due to how I act just like her so now I think I'm a bad person ..

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EXACTLY THANK YOU

I was called "fake" by an ex friend, but I'm a people-pleaser due to my trauma from my mother and ex-friends. She reminded me of my mother too honestly which is why I grew to hate her after my friendship. Probably why Ragatha dislikes Jax so much now I think they were friends at first and then she grew to hate him because he reminds her of her abusive mother.

Had a night of sleep to collect my thoughts and calm down a bit,, so this morning I saw a Twitter post that explains Ragatha so well. They say she is "fawning" as a trauma response from her mother.. I had no idea this was a thing, and reading it is 100% what I do as well and this is definitely Ragatha. The people-pleasing.. difficulty saying no(ex: saying sure to Kinger in the beginning of the episode without even knowing what he was asking her to do), loss of personal identity so nobody knows who she is except "she's nice", trying to avoid conflict(her saying sorry after everything)...

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Had a night of sleep to collect my thoughts and calm down a bit,, so this morning I saw a Twitter post that explains Ragatha so well. They say she is "fawning" as a trauma response from her mother.. I had no idea this was a thing, and reading it is 100% what I do as well and this is definitely Ragatha. The people-pleasing.. difficulty saying no(ex: saying sure to Kinger in the beginning of the episode without even knowing what he was asking her to do), loss of personal identity so nobody knows who she is except "she's nice", trying to avoid conflict(her saying sorry after everything)...

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I like Jax too but if I see someone hating on Ragatha and calling her manipulative or fake I'm blocking them I'm tired this is just like the group of Gangle haters that appeared after her episode... People can't let a people pleaser with repressed emotions get mad for once or be too nice... And they can't let a bipolar girl have a manic episode...💔

Sorry for all the negativity on my account by the way - @ people who follow me,, I'll stop now I just really don't like when characters I care about a lot get hated on ESPECIALLY ones I relate to.

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THANK YOU. I've always loved Ragatha and had a bit of annoyance but curiosity towards Jax. And after this episode I like analyzing both of their coping strategies and not being mad at either of them... The amount of people I've seen angry at Ragatha makes me so upset? Because why is everyone fine with Jax's coping strategy hating on others yet Ragatha being overly nice is a problem? I get people kinda being upset at saying "not anymore" about the friend thing but I don't think she meant any malice she slipped up, she holds in so much anger and negativity that when she says something mean it really hurts and she doesn't even mean for it to be that bad it just happens because of how much she keeps hidden. Just like Jax says mean things constantly but it's never TOO mean where it'll hit someone deep in their heart.

kinda messed up that people are more forgiving of Jax for his own coping strategy and not Ragatha for hers... like they're all trapped here together, they all have problems, and sometimes people clash over opposite coping methods.

Its not about taking sides, Pomni wants to be on good terms with everyone. She even brought up Kinger's wife, hoping it would be an opportunity for everyone to know more about him.

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kinda messed up that people are more forgiving of Jax for his own coping strategy and not Ragatha for hers... like they're all trapped here together, they all have problems, and sometimes people clash over opposite coping methods.

Its not about taking sides, Pomni wants to be on good terms with everyone. She even brought up Kinger's wife, hoping it would be an opportunity for everyone to know more about him.

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Ragatha just casually admitting that her mother constantly berating her is the reason she’s such a people pleaser who pretends to be infallible and positive as a defense mechanism

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It makes me so sad, I relate to Ragatha so much and this makes me think is this how people think of me? I try to be nice all the time but people think it's fake. But if I'm mean then people get mad at me and make me be quiet? I don't understand... I just end up not talking because it's the middle ground but then I get completely forgotten.

The way Jax vents about Ragatha perfectly lines up with how Gangle described her to Pomni! Both have grown frustrated to Ragatha positive attitude as it feels like she's less so being genuine and more so playing a facade. Even if her intentions are genuine, it's the way she constantly acts like things are fine that annoys them.