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PHOTOS: Inside Jeffrey Dahmer’s Apartment

Dismembered body parts were found in the 55 gallon blue drum (dissolving in acid), the white freezer and his refrigerator. Skulls were found in his refrigerator, closet and the black filing cabinet beside his bed (also where he kept 74 polaroids of his victims).

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April 20th, 2019:

20 years since the Columbine High School Massacre.

Please remember this day for those who lost their lives too soon. For the 13 innocent victims, and the families who’s loved one will never get to come home. As well, remember those who were injured and live with the pain of April 20th, 1999 to this day. Where the sadness, shock and terror from that tragedy will last forever.

Today is for remembering these beautiful souls:

Cassie Bernall, 17

Steven Curnow, 14

Corey DePooter, 17

Kelly Fleming, 16

Matthew Kechter, 16

Daniel Mauser, 15

Daniel Rohrbough, 15

William David Sanders, 47

Rachel Scott, 17

Isaiah Shoels, 18

John Tomlin, 16

Lauren Townsend, 18

Kyle Velasquez, 16

—————— 🕊 Rest In Peace 🕊 ——————

As well, remember those who took their lives after Columbine.

Carla Hochhalter

She was the mother of paralyzed injured survivor, Anne Hochhalter. She took her life six months after the tragedy.

Greg Barnes

He was a student at Columbine and a star basketball player at the school. Greg was 17 at the time of the shooting. His best friend, Matthew Kechter died in the shooting. Greg also witnessed coach Dave Sanders die. He took his life two weeks after the first anniversary of Columbine.

Carla Hochhalter Greg Barnes

—————— 🕊 Rest In Peace 🕊——————

The beautiful and strong injured survivors:

Brian Anderson, Richard Castaldo, Jennifer Doyle, Stephen ‘Austin’ Eubanks, Nicholas Foss, Sean Graves, Makai Hall, Anne Hochhalter, Patrick Ireland, Michael Johnson, Joyce Jankowski, Mark Kintgen, Lisa Kreutz, Lance Kirklin, Adam Kyler, Stephanie Munson, Patricia ‘Patti’ Nielsen, Nicole Nowlen, Valeen Schnurr, Mark Taylor, Dan Steepleton, Jeanna Park, Kasey Ruegsegger, Evan Todd (24 total)

Do not forget these angels and this day ♥️

Please be kind to one another ♥️

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dylan klebold: all mentions of love

recently, i had been asked to share more information regarding dylan klebold’s sexual preferences. the following are quotes with short analysis taken from his diary. grammatical errors, except for spelling, have been left in.

girls are first briefly mentioned in his first entry on 3/31/97, or jc-001-026388: 

“think… think… that’s all my life is just shitloads of thinking… about girls i know (mainly [redacted] & [redacted]), how i know i can never have them, yet i can still dream…”  

the second time is in 4/15/97′s entry, or jc-001-026390:

“i don’t know what i do wrong with people (mainly women), it’s like they all set out to hate & ignore me, i never know what to say or do…”

months later, between 7/23/97 & 9/5/97, on an undated entry, or jc-001-026395, dylan finally ‘gets it right’ in an entry he titles ‘my 1st love???’. here is the entire piece:

“oh my god….. i am almost sure i am in love… with [redacted]. hehehe… such asta strange name, like mine… yet everything about her i love. from her good body to her almost perfect face, her charm, her wit, & cunning, her not being popular, her friends (who i know) -some- i just hope she likes me as much as i love her. i think of her every second of every day, i want to be with her, i imagine me & her doing things together, the sound of her laugh, i picture her face, i love her. if soulmates exist, then i think i’ve found mine. i hope she likes techno…. :-) [redacted], i love you, dylan.”

in the next entry, on 9/5/97, things fall apart. take a look:

“the one i thought was my true love, [redacted], is not. just a shell of what i want the most… the meanest trick was played on me- a fake love. she in reality doesn’t give a good fuck about me… doesn’t even know me….. i have no happiness, no ambitions, no friends, & no love!!!”

love is then mentioned, yet again, on 10/14/97, or jc-001-026398:

“possible girlfriends are coming then [redacted]… want true love…. i just want something i can never have.”

on 11/3/97, or jc-001-026401, a new love interest appears:

“my love.. if she even exists. she probably hates me… finds a [illegible] or a joke who treats her like shit… i don’t know my love: could be [redacted], or [redacted], or [redacted], or [redacted], or anyone.”

he compiles a list on ½/98, or jc-001-026402, of “all the people i’ve loved, or at least liked (or thought i loved)”. since all of this is redacted, there is no reason to share it. he does go onto explain a new girl. 

“[redacted] is the newest… the purest, (for now)… seems perfect for me… i seem perfect for her.”

on 2/2/98, or jc-001-026404, nbk becomes a reoccurring theme, but he still has time for love. 

“so close to my love - [redacted]… either i’ll commit suicide, or i’ll get with [redacted], & it will be nbk for us. my happiness. her happiness. nothing else matters… god i love her!!! it’s so great to love.”

on jc-001-026406, an unnamed & undated entry, he writes:

“i love you [redacted]. that’s all i think about anymore… but i love her. we are soulmates.”

on jc-001-026408 through jc-001-026409, he writes a letter to his beloved. 

6/8/98, or jc-001-026410, he writes:

“i love [redacted]! i love her to infinice… she is my soulmate, my love… i will follow our hearts, to the halcyon, loving her.”

the next entry regarding love is on 1/10/1999, or jc-001-026414, the only mention of his foot fetish:

“i’m forever sorry, infinitely, for the pornos. my humanity has a foot fetish, & bondage extreme liking. i try to thwart it, sometimes to no effect, yet the masturbation has stopped.”

I’ve heard speculations that dylan referred to his penis as ‘humanity’. the previous, & following, serve as examples:

“my humanity is blocking me again… love her.” 

“i exist as a less… my humanity.”

love is mentioned, either extensively or briefly, for many more entries. mostly yearning, never having, filled with lovesick complaints. no girls or new crushes are mentioned, but he seems to be clinging onto the idea of ‘true love’, through what seems to be the same girl. 

his final entry, jc-001-026521, an undated occurrence with the title, ‘do shit for nbk’, has no mention of love.

so, what does this mean? was dylan a lovesick r/niceguy, or a twisted individual? it’s hard to separate his love from his anger, his poetry from his justifications. at the end of the day, dylan was who dylan was. he battled with love, with anger, with fear, & with so many of the same emotions thousands of people go through every day. but the difference, the turning point in who dylan was, is what he did. yes, he wrote these entries. yes, he pined after girls he could never have, but the piece that defines him, whether or not any of us would like it to, is that on april 20th, 1999, he assisted eric harris in shooting thirteen people before they took their own lives. 

I know this isn’t the summary the majority of you were looking for, & perhaps this ending will make this post something to be shunned, something unreadable, but since i have you as my audience, i’d like to remind you that dylan, someone even i hold so dear, was more than the boy in these entries.

if any of you have any questions, or ever need anything, my inbox is open! have a wonderful day. 

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Brooks Brown the day after Columbine

“Are you gonna be okay?” (News Reporter)

“Probably not…I know I’m not gonna be able to go back to Columbine…ever. Two of my really good friends…shot and killed people there. And I have another couple of friends on the missing list. And I have a number of friends in hospitals, right now, in surgery. I’m never gonna be able to go back there.”

-Brooks Brown

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LITTLETON, CO - AUGUST 16: Columbine High School students cheer at a ‘take back the school’ rally 16 August, 1999, before the start of classes in Littleton, CO. With cheers and words of hope, nearly 2,000 Columbine students, many wearing T-shirts with the legend 'We are Columbine,’ returned to school for the first time since last spring’s deadly rampage.

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Do you think Eric and Dylan regretting the shooting during the time they wandered around the school after the massacre at the library?

while i’m absolutely certain they would have regretted it had they lived and had time for it to sink in, i’m not sure if enough time would have passed at the library stage. i don’t think they regretted the shooting at that point in terms of feeling anything for their victims or realizing they’d thrown their lives away, but i do think they were very disappointed. they had been planning for this for over a year. everything had been leading up to it. it was supposed to be horrific to a level we thankfully didn’t have to comprehend. but it wasn’t.

columbine was supposed to be a bombing. first and foremost, it was supposed to be a bombing. eric and dylan banked on the fact that their large propane bombs would explode in the crowded cafeteria - unfortunately, we now have an idea of what that would have looked like. potentially hundreds could have been killed: the bombs were large, the library above could have collapsed down into the cafeteria, and had their car bombs detonated as planned, worried parents, press reporters, and emergency services could have been killed as well. it would have been absolute carnage. they were going for a timothy mcveigh kind of scenario, rather than what they got. and of course what they got was terrible - columbine became iconic as a school shooting, an example of how terrible things had become, and even now its shockwaves are felt constantly. but it was not what they wanted.

i think they wandered around the school because they were at a loss. the adrenaline was wearing off, the bombs had failed, and they weren’t sure what to do. they had hoped for more: for explosions, for shootouts with the police, to die fighting. but none of that happened. the bombs had failed and that was a huge embarrassment. their preoccupation with the bombs shows in their return to the cafeteria, where eric can be seen trying to shoot the bomb to set it off. once it became clear that they weren’t going to succeed, they returned to the library and killed themselves. it was nothing like what they had planned.

while the world was watching, horrified, at that very moment, eric and dylan knew what it was supposed to be. their aimlessness was due to disappointment that the bombs had failed, and perhaps disbelief, too. for two boys who seemed to believe themselves to be gods, how could they possibly fail? it was perhaps the only upside to the day that they did.

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Some of the evidence entered against Casey Anthony, who was found not guilty of murdering her 2-year-old daughter Caylee in 2011.

-The trunk of Casey’s car smelled strongly of death. Casey’s own father, a former police officer, even remarked as such when he picked it up from a tow yard. Further testing determined that air samples from the trunk contained chemical compounds consistent with decomposition.

-A photograph of the ‘Bella Vita’, meaning ‘the good life’, tattoo that Casey got while her daughter was missing.

-A photograph of a sheet of heart shaped stickers from Casey’s room, similar to a sticker that was found on Caylee’s skull

-A photograph of Casey at a ‘hot body’ competition hosted by a Florida nightclub while Caylee was missing.

-A strand of hair which was found to be microscopically similar to Caylee’s was found in the boot of Casey’s car. The hair had a band around it which is formed only after death.

-Records of Google searches performed on the Anthony family computer included searches for ‘neck breaking’ and ‘how to make chloroform’.

-Caylee’s body was disposed of in a laundry bag which came in a set of 2. The other laundry bag was discovered in the Anthony home.

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A few of Dzhokhar Tsarnaev’s hand written notes asking for a lawyer whilst in hospital during his FBI investigation.

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Ted bundy’s Volkswagen

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preach this shit. blog for educational purposes, blog to better yourself and your community. don't blog to excuse, condone, or support monsters.

dear tumblr/tcc members/columbiners

uuuhhh where do i start. i like yall. a lil bit of fanfiction, puns, crazy stuff, halsey and lana del rey, worshipping middle aged british actors oops. i like it to spend time here. there are some things i roll my eyes about, because its cringe and doesnt make any sense, but ok.

today i found out about a different side of this platform. it’s called True Crime Community or sumn. atfirst i thought it was about people who liked crime series, but then i started scrolling and had a panic attack of what i saw.

i know yall a little crazy. thats ok. i like some dark, edgy humor. but this goes too far.

school shooters. literally serial killers. boys who went to school one day, pulled out a gun in a crowded hallway and just started shooting around, killing hundreds of teenagers. no one knows why.

imagine standing in a school hallway. its crowded, so yall are pushing each other in the right direction. a boy walks past you, reaches for a gun and kills someone you know. maybe its your closest friend. maybe your sister. or someone whose face looks familiar. for one moment straight there is a silence, as if the world comes to a stop for ine split second.

then, the panic kicks in. everyone screams. some people faint by seeing all the blood. the shooter doesnt care emotionless, he keeps pulling the trigger, and with every loud bang a heart stops beating.

there are fanfictions about these shooters. fingers that pulled over triggers trace your body in those stories. some people seem to enjoy these.

im gonna be honest. this is sick. so sick. they feel sorry for the SHOOTERS. hundreds of familiy members and lovers and friends miss their loved ones and these people care about the ones who had the choice not to do this.

‘he’s human too!’ is something i hear people say.

no. they are not. someone who could prevent the deaths of fifty people at all tumes while buying the gun, putting it in his backpack, walking into school, pulling it out, but still went on, is not human. face it.

why dont you write fanfiction about you, losing your lover because of those boys.

when i read about the school shootings in the newspaper my thoughts went directly to the dead and the wounded. there must ve something fucking wrong with you if your thoughts go to that monster who created a living hell instead.

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literally nothing anyone says will ever convince me that casey anthony did not kill her daughter.

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bringing this back because i care about you all <3

to all the true crime blogs out there

it’s ok to take a break from your blog. it’s ok to take a break from this community.

the subject matter that you deal with on a daily basis is a lot to handle. it’s dark and disturbing and it can weigh so heavily on your mind and your shoulders and your heart that you start to lose sight of who you are. when your mind is consumed by serial killers and mass murders, it starts to fuck with you. 

when it starts to bother you, take a step back. when you start to become desensitized, take two.

take care of your mental health. your blog will still be here when you get back.

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It was National Missing Persons Week in Australia not long ago. The police put out a PSA for it.While it is powerful, you have to admit they are trying to manipulate the audience emotionally. Using a father and young daughter as the ones left behind, rather than a father and young son. It'd be interesting to see how the dialogue would've come off had they had a different kid in the role. Particularly the bit about wanting a new car. youtube(.)com(/)watch?v=EBfldQhYfBg

hmm. this is interesting, and i do get where you come from. of course they’re emotionally manipulating their audience, every commercial or psa does that in some way or another. it’s all part of the marketing process. they want you to respond in some way, be it positive, negative, or sometimes even neutrally. every singly commercial you see is designed to make you think one way or another. for example, product commercials are trying to make you feel like you want that product. some appeal to reason (i.e. this car gets the best gas mileage ever!) or to more superficial desires (i.e. this car will make you popular!) so you can’t really fault them for emotionally targeting an audience. they want you to feel sympathy, pity, or sadness because those feelings will make their message stick better.

 i’m not so sure that the message would really change too much, were it a boy instead of a girl. i think that any kid who gets picked on is going to react that way, regardless of sex. i closed my eyes and i could picture it being a little boy instead of the girl. i do understand your line of thinking, and there’s definitely a certain reason they picked a blonde haired blue eyed little barbie doll and dressed her in pink- the epitome of childhood innocence and naïvety.

 thank you for sending me this ask!  

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Ted Kaczynski’s cabin being transported from Montana to California for evidence at his trial. This photo is courtesy of artist Daniel Joseph Martinez.

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« I have taken myself a body, the same one that has walked on the ancient plains….of whom Solomon said his hair was black as a raven…I come with the black hair of a raven! I come as God socialist! » - Jim Jones

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People running over Rachel’s body. This video is just crazy