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IS IT RAINING, OR I'M DROWNING AGAIN?

TW: dissociation symptoms, mention of torture, swearing, angst, hurt/comfort.

PAIRING: Nikto x F! Reader

A/N: I love angst. That's it.

Nikto hated the rain.

And no one would believe if he said that, because surely a ‘person like him’ would prefer when it rains, the peaceful sound of the raindrops against a window that would give a calming effect.

For Nikto, every raindrop was a bomb setting off inside his brain. It was like an explosion, making him dizzy and unable to move. Like all those days tied to that creaking chair, his head covered by the hood while it rained outside that cold cell he was confined. He remember vividly how it was raining, between the screams of that motherf—

“Nikto?”

Then, he felt a cold shower inside him, holding his breath as he turned around. A hand was open towards him, your figure under the rain, your shirt sticking to your skin.

Fuck. He dissociated again. It wasn’t happening anymore, and now that he was back with the only person who treated him like a human being, he was having those episodes again.

“You’ll catch a cold if you stay outside too much. Let’s go back inside, yeah?” How he loved your voice, the way you offered your hand, giving him a choice.

He could see how the rain was soaking your hand, the raindrops falling on both of you, the cold seeping through his bones. His eyes wandered around, assessing the reality. He was outside in the middle of the backyard. He was listening to the sound of raining, then…

He blinked rapidly. He hated the rain, so why he was outside and letting the rain fall on him? He started to count in his mind, one, two, three… and you were still there, still standing in front of him, your hair sticking to your face. You were shivering, but why were you smiling as if you were saying that everything was going to be okay?

He finally takes your hand, the skin clammy and cold, letting you lead him back into the house. He doesn’t speak, he doesn’t need to anyway. He lets you change his clothes. He doesn’t complain for the water that’s soaking the floor, or the towel that you’re using on him to dry off his skin.

But he can still hear the rain outside, bombs setting off on his mind, making him dizzy and unable to run for cover.

Why he was outside, and why he was letting the rain fall on him?

He was drowning, and he wasn’t fighting it.

He observes you as you stand in front of him between his legs, holding his head and placing it against your chest. He lets you move him, not that he wants to fight your touch. But what he hears drowns all the sounds overloading his mind, making him rise to the surface again. He can hear your heartbeat: the rhythm isn’t steady, it beats fast. But it’s there. And it’s real.

It’s calming, enough that when he tentatively grip the soft skin of your thigh, he can feel it, sensing the skin on skin sending to his brain signals of home, of safety.

He doesn’t speak, and neither you do.

But that’s all he needs.

[milkteahood]

I’ve really meant to write a second chapter for “a ghost for a knight” and I was so out of ideas. But thanks to my bf I know have some so I will be working on it tonight

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Lol I told him I made this post and he just said “yeah you do that about literally everything”

Me and my bf are watching Fallout together and I keep asking “who’s that” “what does that mean” “why did he do that” as if he isn’t seeing this show for the first time too lol

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Me and my bf are watching Fallout together and I keep asking “who’s that” “what does that mean” “why did he do that” as if he isn’t seeing this show for the first time too lol

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I think the new update won’t let me use my links. I can’t get to my writers list 😭😂

So that’s what it was! Since this morning no links worked for anything and I thought it was just a bug or something on my end

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♥️ love train! send this to all the blogs you love! don’t forget to spread the love! ♥️

Awwwww. Thank youuuuu

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Have you seen the movie Childs play?

Not yet :))

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Why is this so true?

meme by: @Inknopewetrust

[milkteahood]

15 questions for 15(?) friends

thank you for the tag @nyxianthe!

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Nope

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Probably recently. Life, y'know?

DO YOU HAVE KIDS? I do!

WHAT SPORTS HAVE YOU PLAYED/DO YOU PLAY? No sports. I was in the marching band.

DO YOU USE SARCASM? Only when I'm breathing

FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Eyes or hair, usually

WHAT IS YOUR EYE COLOR? Blue. Kind of a darker, gray-blue

SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? I can't choose. I love scary movies, but I also love me a happy ending.

ANY TALENTS? I can sing, play trumpet, poke at a piano (bass clef my beloathed), and write things.

WHERE WERE YOU BORN? The South, USA!

WHAT ARE YOUR HOBBIES? Video games, scary movies (does that count as a hobby?), writing.

DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? Two dogs.

HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5'7"

FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? English and Psychology

DREAM JOB? I like Nyx's answer before me ----> not sure, anything that get the title 'job' seems sus.

Tagging @every-raindrop77 @wandereringray @anosrepasi and @madstronaut

[milkteahood]

15 questions for 15(?) friends

Thank you for the tag @murder-hobo!

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Ish. My parents both liked this tv celebrity, so they took inspiration.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? I cry all the time. I’m a crybaby. It’s my thing

DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Nope. And don’t want any either lol

WHAT SPORTS HAVE YOU PLAYED/DO YOU PLAY? I used to do swimming and judo

DO YOU USE SARCASM? Not usually actually. I used to but I noticed not many people get it and it makes things awkward lol

FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Eyebrows

WHAT IS YOUR EYE COLOR? Turquoise

SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Scary movies. All day everyday

ANY TALENTS? Nothing too special. I can learn pretty fast lol.

WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Eastern Europe

WHAT ARE YOUR HOBBIES? I like baking and cooking in general. Reading, writing and working out.

DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? 3 dogs and 5 cats

HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5’6 ish. 169 cm

FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? Pathology

DREAM JOB? Well, after uni, I would like to start residency in either pathology or psychiatry

No pressure tags: @stygianoir @teh-vampire-bunny @fandomhell97 @megangovier and anyone else who would like to try!

ps: forgot to reblog the main post and add mine lol. And I don’t feel like redoing the whole thing. So I will leave this as a separate post but reblogged the main too so it at least looks nice lol

[milkteahood]

Oh this is gooooood

what about a fic where he 141 are dealing with something Big; information is doctored, intel is wrong, enemies have infiltrated and fucked up the TFs intelleigence. they're in danger, the mission is compromised, their safety is compromised. someone is feeding them false information and they don't have any idea until it'll be too late.

up on the screen is your face, big red letters plastered over a picture of you indicated that you're a threat. you're associated with the enemy, how could that be possible?

simon is reeling - you're not even involved in the military or anything. you're a civilian, a librarian. a shy, quiet little thing that had looked like you were gonna faint right then and there when simon riley stood at your counter with a stack of books for the first time.

you couldn't possibly be involved. but the intel couldn't be wrong.

soap, gaz, and price all give him sickeningly pitiful looks like they feel sorry for the fool for falling for your tricks. simon is seething.

when you're awoken by a loud crash of your front door being broken down, you don't even get the chance to see who your assailants are before a black hood is shoved over your head. the ringing in your ears and your utter panic keep you from hearing the familiar voice of your husband calling you a traitor. you don't hear the sounds of the men you've grown to love na trust over the years discussing how they have to punish you...torture a confession out of you for this vile act that they have no idea is false information ):

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play fighting is so fucking hot, oh no I got pinned down by you on the bed we better not fuck or anything that would be crazy

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the "oh. oh." moment in fan fic but instead of a character realizing they're in love it's them discovering they have a specific kink at the worst possible moment

[milkteahood]

Are request open or closed?

They’re open :)). Replies might be a little slow due to school though

[milkteahood]

Yeah, but that was an apparently cause I don’t know if that’s true or not but I’ve seen things that are kind of expensive and I’m like dang it😂😭

Yep, not a chance I’m paying that much. Doesn’t matter how much I like it lol

[milkteahood]

You can find Gen 1 on Mercari, and Etsy I think but they’re really expensive sometimes because like I heard one in box is like $600

Oh gosh, that’s really insane lol

[milkteahood]

Do you collect monster high dolls?

I wouldn’t say collect since I only have 5 of them lol

I’m not even sure if you can find gen 1 anymore