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I am so tired...

You know Troye Sivan’s “I am so tired” ?

That is my exact emotion at the moment. The thought of having myself being so engrossed with work most of the time makes my passion famished, declined and leaped down. Don’t get me wrong, it is not that I hated on the mountpiles of work, but sometimes the non-friendly environment is the main factor. No matter how much you wanted to help or do good, when things don’t seem so forgiving, you feel tired. 

I thought as years gone by I shall have a better fate. I was wrong though, my oncalls have been literally routine, regardless if it falls on a weekday though. My calls are very exhausting. I won’t whine much because I take it as my learning opportunity, however; the daily work itself exerts so much negative pressure on me. Now I kinda know why not many would want to sacrifice their life pursuing masters / specialty training anymore. 

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Kuching Wedding Essentials... (post wedding review options)

I have an agony in deciding for the basic checklists or to-dos for a wedding ceremony. For an anxious person like me, it would definitely be a huge momentum and an exploding mind boggling dilemma. But nonetheless, I would like to share a few interesting vendors especially to those who are planning to tie the knot in Kuching.

But let’s not forget, Malay weddings (typically) can be more like “I do”, as far as forever with you (and the bank loans) 

Here’s a fantasy pelamin decoration that most of us (girls) die for. 

But here’s first, after choosing a phenomenal date for the solemnization, the next thing in line is definitely the venue and the budget ! 

In contrary to the long-list of vendors in KL, there are a few eye-catchers that you can get good offers here in Kuching. 

As for me, my preference was to get the different vendors myself cos i personally find the wedding packages in Kuching is slightly limited.

Let’s start off with the :-

1) VENUE

I would prefer a small scale, there’s no other better place than home sweet home. But here’s a good catch for those who are surveying potential places for the sweet ceremony.

a) Dewan Baitulmal 

b) Dewan Sri Bunga Rampai

c) Dewan Pustaka

d) Borneo Convention Center, Kuching (BCCK)

e) Dewan Hikmah (yes, they have renovated)

f)  Dewan Belia dan Sukan 

g) Cats FM

h) Sarawak Club

I) Penview Convention Center

J) CIDB hall (New, in the vicinity of madrasah)

P.s. i always wanted KTS garden (my concept was the see through glass night kinda view, but unfortunately they don't cater halal food ☹☹☹)

Me being the normal class person, forking my own savings was really burning my pockets, and considering the amount of guests (which i already eliminate some) 😭😭😭

For mosques, i found out new ones - Masjid Terapung and Masjid Puteh.

No harm going for the hotels though (if you are willing to fork out that amount of money) and i guess here are the among few you could survey for the packages.

Pullman hotel

Riverside Majestic hotel

Hilton hotel

Grand Margarita hotel

4 points by Sheraton

USCI hotel

The Waterfront hotel

Merdeka Palace hotel

2) PELAMIN @ DAIS

I have browsed through the glorious decorations (to die for) and they are not bad eventually. One thing for sure, they offer their services according to your budget and wishlist. (Mind you guys, the listings are not based on their prices okay)

a) Ard Design

b) Khai Pelamin

c) As Great Ideas

d) My Pelamin By Alex Suib 

3) MAKE UP ARTISTS 

This can be easily searched by any hashtags of MUAkuching in Instagram, just to name a few. You can either use this for yourself +/- bridesmaids plus family.

Verdict(s)

1) Do ask the specifics of the total amount and deposit needed for reservation. Make it really clear for once and for all. Make sure there are no hidden charges.

2) Ensure the MUA prioritized you. Just you per schedule. You should be their priority. They usually could accomodate to their time but then again preferably try not to share your MUA with the rest of your bridesmaids / family because make ups do take time.

a) ipaintpeopleface

b) Gebriel Padan 

c) Make Up by Seri

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Kuching Wedding-things

Wedding updates coming right up.

So here's the thing. 4 months has passed by. As a typical Kuchingite, we have limited and common few places to organise a wedding (and hence making it too mediocre)

But planning a wedding especially on a long distance, in masters program per se... well it was honestly tough (with exams going on)

Here's the eccentric trait i have.

I don't fancy having "things" in common. I'm a "deviator, adventurous-taking-the-risk" kinda person.

I believe in giving chances to the "not so common" team at the same time giving them new opportunities to the other side. Well i shall elaborate.

I guess my list of to-do things are as the followings.

Let's start with the venue.

Either you opt to do it in your house, a banquet hall or at the hotel. Your pick.

I opted for a small solemnization ceremony at my home, just for my small knit of family and friends.

As for the venue, i thought Dewan Sri Rampai was uniquely vintage, with the night open view through the glass windows (correction... i really wanted KTS garden at first but unfortunately they don't cater halal food ☹ hopefully, they will do something about it) --- can't really deal with hotels as my guests (whom i have already limited 😑... but still)

But fret not. Here are the lists of halal-catered venues i could figure, depending on your time and day :

Dewan Baitulmal (very commonly used by our locals, at city center hence it is strategic)

Dewan Hikmah (near Masjid Jamek)

Dewan Pustaka

Dewan Cats FM

Penview Convention Center

Borneo Convention Center

CIDB hall - new one guys, just adjacent to Madrasah !!

Masjid Puteh

Masjid Terapung - gotta update on this one, they are brand new.

As for hotels :

Pullman hotel

Riverside Majestic hotel

Grand Margharita hotel

Hilton hotel

Waterfront hotel

Merdeka Palace hotel

And also, Sarawak River Cruise (this is also very romantic 😍, they offer packages on their own)

Just before i continue. I did not opt for a wedding planner and coordinator because i personally feel the wedding packages in Kuching are limited (and not to mention i am very picky).

Now starting with my dais.

Like i have mentioned before, i go for the "less used" ones. You see... the thing about Kuching. Everyone knows everyone and so...

People tend to use, reuse, revamp to the same new brand old thing. From dais, photographer to videographer and also venue. I sorta got used to that mentality, especially among Malays. So i did my maths and surveyed, until i found abang Khai.

To make it short... he is the epitome of my exact within the budget and decoration i needed. He made everything perfectly for me. Here's why : 😏

His wedding designs are significantly personalised to your ideas and thoughts. They don't resemble with each of his dais he ever created. So his designs perfectly fit into mine.

Rekateemor (yes, the famous wedding deco in KL) followed him in Instagram ! That is how well i studied him. P.s. i love you bg Khai.

Despite him being well known around the city, he is very friendly and down to earth. The first who wasn't even nosy to me (perhaps my appearance sometimes). Do check his IG.

A picture tells a thousand words, ain't it ?

See i always told myself i wanted e.g. JV to be my videographer once i got married etc etc. But again, like i said cos in Kuching, everybody knows everybody.

... until a friend of mine introduced this.

Yes, my candid moments were captured by CCC photography and Motion Foundry.

For those who are not aware of them, they have established for quite a while, hmmm mostly not for Malay weddings.

Wasn't i supportive to my "own kind" - some would presumed that.

Look. I think you should browse this first before i utter any word. It would be bias if i judge him solely !

I comprehend that now you could interpret his images properly... right right right ???

Now next. My honourable videographer is *drumrolls*

Here's why for Motion Foundry, cos they are also known for not only wedding events but also for any other agendas like governmental-related, advertisements and so forth.

To be continued.

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Coming to Malaysia soon yeay !!!

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Alhamdulillah we are one now.

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Less than a month away.

Insha Allah it is really crazy how time flies. Been over a year now since we last got engaged and here we are after crazy pavings, less than a month now. How do I feel about this whole thing ? I think it has been a crazy ride with the work aside. Preparations have been massive, as we did not include any planner inside. But insha Allah I hope that things will be smooth sailing for both of us. 

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Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri ! Syawal 1439H. Insha Allah my final raya being single. Well i wont lie to you that it held me a bucket of mixed feelings as for the most times of my life i celebrated them being single with the family.

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Pic : courtesy if a friend's wedding. I dont know how to feel like right now. Like i am utterly cringing myself, in disbelief that time is encroaching faster than my brain could ever digest now. For a typical woman, the idea of getting married itself is exciting.

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Chocolate protein nice cream topped with blueberries, coconut chips and mulberries. SOO GOOD! (IG: aspoonfulofhealth_)

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James Arthur - Naked

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What is marriage ?

For someone who finds another significant soulmate in a hard way (like me) would substantially find this post interesting to ponder.

If you ever follow my once-in-a-blue moon blog, I am pretty sure you figured how many mountains have I ever climbed figuratively.

It is true when the elderly of your surroundings used to tell you that Allah's timings are always perfect.

I just came back from a premarital course which lasted a day and a half, and despite all the things (negative ones) people tell you on how dull the course was, I personally feel that it functions the most as my eye opener for a new chapter of my life.

For someone who used to have a thought of eloping before, the fact hits me hard. Little did I know that a father is a much more powerful to your presence. He is your wali. He owns you indirectly. His role is definitely big, and as a muslim - daughters have always been their full-blown responsibility to take care of.

Marriage may sound simple - yes. It is indeed a continuation of the love, romance of a boyfriend-girlfriend, just like other lovey dovey ordinary couples errr "things". Like in medical terms - it means continuation of care. But no one has ever told me before, it is a transfer of contract between a father and his son-in-law. This contract lies and consists of the continuation of care of her needs, continuation of the responsibilities. A father is her first love, who carried her blessings and her burden of sins. The one who provided most of her needs. But now when the transfer of contract commences, it literally means that huge responsibility will be now taken over by his new son-in-law. From her financial and daily needs now will be taken over by someone new. This someone new here not only carries the whole package but also includes his capability as to whether he could guide his daughter to be a better person, a better worshipper to Allah. Because he is about to give away his daughter to a once stranger, whom he believes highly of his potential. So is it too sinful for him to be highly selective in this ? I thought it was the most judgemental, ignorant and selfish remark ever. ): I thought he was being too picky, selfish that he would rather see me tormented in my own jungle of sadness when the only thing he ever wanted for me is happiness the right way.

Marriage will never always be beautiful. The journey comes in waves. It might not be easy to sustain a ship from wrecking, but there will always be a solution. Who conquers our hearts ? My lover's love-he-will-be-with-me-forever ? No. No. No. Only if we found peace pouring ourselves out, worship ourselves to Him.

Now the question of why my father used to be so particular with this (stringy?) needs are all answered gradually.

My heart aches. Imagine the wrath, the anger, the ruthless feelings I used to have for my father when he once disagreed of my choice - they were all worthless. I could have gone against his advices, and happily eloped to another country and be with the man I thought once my world. But I was careless. I did not take religion, blessing of my parents into account. All I could think of was merely love, and that would be suffice to counter the world. Future children back then ? I thought it was okay, they could follow my lead. But I was damn wrong about this. How could I guide a newly converted man when my own Imaan is easily friable, as fragile and tremble ?

And now i am beyond syukur and grateful that He grants me more than what I expected, insha Allah.

The main message(s) I was trying to convey here is that

1) Never settle for less. There is no need to rush in settling down. Who ever said women at 25 whould have 2 kids already, screw them.

2) Allah's timings are perfect. Although sometimes I ponder why I met him late, it is better late than never. He wants you to be the last and the best version of yourself.

3) Wait for the one who will complete your deen. Insha Allah, he will make the best husband, and make the better best marriage in Islam.

4) Do not invest in weddings, but invest in the marriage itself. (this is hell another topic)

Alright. I guess that is enough for now.

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Had.

Have you ever blundered on the fact that sometimes, you were so damaged in the past and when you met someone new you felt and subconciously compared them to your past ? It is like when your brain tells you these horrible memories that you have always wished to demolish, but unfortunately they lingered like waves.

I am not being whiny because I fully agree that all these haunting pasts make you who you are now. You closed one book and you open another.

But sometimes don’t you ever wonder why the person you might love now can be sometimes bitter, egoistic and the list goes if you want to,,, when they were once expressive, needy, so lovingly caring with so much public display of affection. 

and either you are equally damaged as that, now eventually treating your partner the same.

I know actions speak louder than words, hands down. 

Then this strikes in. Don’t you ever wish that you were his first when he was least damaged ? Now you both became hard to deal because of what past created you. Being the last would be the definition of everything, no doubt, but you also had to deal with the downside of the amount of the damaging effects which have submerged so deeply within one’s soul. 

Okay nada nada nada. 

Just a light bulb kinda process. 

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Jonas Blue - We Could Go Back ft. Moelogo

Should not find love on the first day.

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I am that particular.

Just wait. 

1. Just wait for the man who would love you for who you are. 

2. Just wait for the man who accepts your pasts, your flaws and imperfections and despite all that, he will be right there smiling waiting for you. 

3. Just wait for the man who decided to meet and acknowledge your parents first before your agreement or even your acknowledgment. Wait for the man who did not hesitate to talk to you about your future well beings, the number of children in the future on your 2nd or your 3rd official date.

4. Just wait for the man who would drive you back and forth despite the hectic jam and the terror of driving long hauls, just because he cares. 

5. Just wait for the man who endures your turmoils of the horrid PMS (plus minus) , especially the rantings after a rough day at work. 

6. Just wait for the man who again, refer to point number 2.

7. Just wait for the man who did not shut you out every time whenever the plateau of arguments happened. 

8. Just wait, wait for the man who appreciates every little thing you do, even the unnoticed ones. 

9. Just wait for the man whom you would wanna wear his initials on your neck, not because he owns you but because he knows you. 

10. Now just wait for all the points and you will know, he is the one.

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Do not forget because i am also a human.

Sometimes i wonder if people or my surroundings could remember that i have feelings too. But unfortunately i guess they have this mindset that perhaps i am always okay when i am not. I may be giggly or friendly as usual because i keep things to myself. Little do they remember that hence i was always made as a dumber punchbag. I know this pain that i am feeling is temporary. This is just a part of the training. But i cant seem to rationalize now because i am drowned with emotions. I cannot comprehend people who call themselves doctors, but prefers to take the shortcut and leave the rest to others to swallow the bitter pill. Well i guess perhaps only in Malaysia. All i feel after work was mostly fatigability and disheartenment. So i became very moody. The only thing i wanted to do or to care for are obviously my loved ones. But in this world it is normal. If you can talk well you can make people like you especially the superiors regardless of your impromptu skills. I hope i could disregard that component but to my agony it is so normal to see that every single day. Why ? Why is it when you devout yourself to purely work, genuinely intended to but people seems to take them so mischeviously ?