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me dealing with my trust issues

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If someone punches you in the stomach,“ he says, “it’ll hurt whether you were expecting it or not. So if the person you love stops loving you back, you’re going to feel the blow even if you saw it coming.

S.Z. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #195 (via blossomfully)

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do you think he misses me like i miss him sometimes?

I don’t know sweetheart. Maybe he does. Maybe some nights he misses you so much he can’t sleep. Maybe he tosses and he turns and he picks up his phone and thinks about dialling your number. Maybe when he gets drunk on the weekends he calls his new girlfriend by your name. 

Maybe he still thinks about you every day. Or, every other day. Maybe he regrets ending it. Or he wishes he hadn’t let you go so easily. Maybe he still has your t-shirt. Your scarf. Something else you left behind. It doesn’t smell like you anymore, but he thinks it does. 

Maybe he still talks to his friends about you. Dreams about you. Wishes you would get in touch. Maybe he wonders how you are, whether you’ve found love. Maybe he hopes that you haven’t. 

So yes, maybe he does miss you. Maybe he misses you with every fibre of his being. 

But maybe he doesn’t. 

And probably, he doesn’t. 

In any case, you owe it to yourself to stop living in a world of maybe’s. You deserve so much more. 

Sweetheart, stop chasing a ghost. You deserve so much more. 

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Listen, you do not have to love yourself, you don’t even have to like yourself, but sometimes you’re all you have. Sometimes, at 4 am when the world is too loud and you can’t sleep, you have to tell yourself that you’ll be okay. You may not like yourself, but you have to have your own back.

things no one told me, so i’m telling myself #2 (via lettersto-savemyself)

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You don’t tell people you’re not okay,“ she said, “because it’s hard watching them not know what to do. “Then you end up comforting them, even though the one who needed comforting was you.

S.Z. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #222 (via blossomfully)

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Ask him about his favourite memory. Remember it. It’s important. It might not make sense at first but it will with time. The more you get to know a person the more their favourite things become self-explanatory.

Sue Zhao (via blossomfully)

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You did the worst thing: you broke my spirit. You made me love you and then you dismissed it. You made me trust you and then you broke it. You hurt me. You hurt me, and worst of all, you made me believe that I deserved it.

Sue Zhao (via blossomfully)

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You cannot fix me,“ she said quietly. "Not now that you have broken me. "You may try, and I may try, but the truth remains: I cannot look at you anymore. I cannot let you touch me without it hurting. I cannot breathe.

Sue Zhao (via blossomfully)

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It would have been so easy to go back to. So easy to relapse into it. So simple. It would almost feel like going home. To let it consume you. To let it take over. To give into it. It was only a small part of you that stood up and said ‘no’. That said, ‘you’re better than this.’ That said, 'choose happiness. Even if it’s hard. Even if it’s the hardest choice you’ve ever had to make.’

Sue Zhao // Relapse (via blossomfully)

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Should we make homes out of people?

Perhaps. But even homes are temporary sometimes.

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Sometimes, it will be easy to feel out of control. Small things will affect you greatly. At these times, take a deep breath and remind yourself that you are doing better than you think and that you have this figured out. You’ll be okay. You’ll be okay.

Sue Zhao

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my kink is when ppl actually care abt my feelings & what I have to say

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I hate small talks, I wanna talk about atoms, death, sex, magic, intellect, the meaning of life, faraway galaxies, the lies you’ve told, your flaws, your favorite scents, your childhood, what keeps you up at night, your insecurity and fears. I like people with depth, who speak with emotion. A twisted mind.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (via pearlyeye)

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― Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004) Clementine: I’m always anxious, thinking I’m not living my life to the fullest, taking advantage of every possibility, make sure I’m not wasting one second of the little time I have.

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