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Feels Like Trouble
pairing: Dr. Michael âRobbyâ Robinavitch x F!Doctor!Reader summary: You and Robby have been secretly dating for a while now. Most of the ER is cluelessâexcept the five people who could probably write dissertations on your dynamic. Enter a frat boy med student with too much confidence and not enough self-awareness. Robby? Jealous. You? Oblivious. Everyone else? Watching the drama unfold like it's peak primetime television. warnings: cringe flirting, depiction of boundary-pushing behavior, mutual pining, protective!Robby genre: fluff, slow burn, banter, crack vibes, emotional constipation, robbie's love language is acts of service, strong!reader energy because women run the world word count: 6.3k a/n: robby in his protective, simmering, quietly feral era + men anticipating my needs without me having to ask is my roman empire. p.s. also check out my other Dr. Robby fics (Not Enough | And Through It All) if you're interested <3
It started at the nursesâ station.
You were finishing up notes from a back-to-back shift, hair a mess, sleeves rolled, running purely on caffeine and spite. You barely registered the med student who leaned in a little too closeâJackson, of course. Jackson, who everyone knew had barely scraped through med school with a transcript that looked like a cry for help and a reputation for quoting his frat days like gospel. Jackson, who thought calling women 'Doc' in a tone meant to charm was somehow endearing. So, yeah. Not a great dude, to say the absolute least.
"Hey, Dr. L/N," Jackson said with that ever-present grin, leaning just a little too close. "You, uh... ever take pity on exhausted interns and grab a drink after shift?"
You gave a polite smile. "Iâm not really a spirits person, but thanks."
Jackson blinked. "Huh?"
"You said drink, right? Iâm more of a coffee or tea girl. Caffeine over cocktails."
He opened his mouth like he was going to try again, but you were already turning back to your chart.
"Good luck today!" you said cheerfully, not noticing the groan from your colleagues. Just around the corner, Mateo muttered to Javadi, "Thatâs the fourth time this week. Itâs painful, man."
Javadi sipped her carton of apple juice with focused precision, attention directed solely on your ability to brush off such obvious advances without it getting in the way of your work. "Seventh, actually. If you count the half-made attempt on Monday. She's bulletproof."
"Try Jackson-proof," Mateo scoffed.
Two beds down, King leaned over to Langdon with her gloved hands clasped and asked, "Why does Jackson keep hovering around Dr. L/N like a... rabid mosquito?"
Langdon just smiled knowingly, looking over to the nurses' station where the man of the hour sat. "Donât worry. Robby'll take care of it. Eventually."
Unbeknownst to you, Robby had been watching the entire interactionâand every interaction before that. If any med student so much as breathed near you with less-than-pure intentions, he was up in arms, ready to intervene at a moment's notice.
There was that time Whitaker nearly took your eye out when a patient came in with a nail embedded in his femur; the force of pulling it out snapped Whitakerâs elbow backwardâonly for Robby's hand to catch it mid-swing before it could clock you in the face. Or when Santos nearly sliced your finger open as you gently guided her through her first incisionâRobby had materialized behind her in the span of a gasp, steadying her hands with a calm correction that masked sheer panic. Or when Javadi passed out for the second time during a gnarly pelvic realignment and collapsed straight into you, nearly giving you a concussion from her deadweightâRobby had been there then, too, catching you both with lightning reflexes and barely concealed fury.
At this point, the only person in the hospital who hadnât triggered Robbyâs internal security system was Mel. And that was only because she kept a respectful three-foot radius and shared snacks with you during breaks. The two of you had a quiet little traditionâinviting her out to try the new cat cafĂ© when it opened downtown, or attending weekend adoption events together like it was a team-building exercise. Langdon once joked that she was the third wheel in the most wholesome slow-burn romcom he'd ever seen. Mel's only response was two blinks and a single nod of acknowledgement.
Everyone in the ER noticed your dynamicâthe way you and Robby worked together like a well-oiled machine, never needing to speak aloud to know what the other needed. It was intuitive. Rhythmic. Like watching a dance youâd been rehearsing for years.
Still, only a handful of people actually knew about your relationship. Abbot, Collins, McKay, Dana, Langdon, and Mel.
Abbot had been Robbyâs sounding board from the very beginning. Back when Robby was still pacing around the break room, torn between professionalism and the undeniable, slow-burning pull he felt toward you, it was Abbot who told him to get over himself and ask you out. Life was too short for regrets.
Collins, McKay, and Dana didnât know officiallyâbut they knew. The meaningful glances, the subtle handoffs of coffee, the shared silences that were too loaded to be casual. They never said a word because they lived for the soap-opera-worthy drama of it all.
Langdon and Mel were on the same wavelength. They hadnât caught you red-handed, but their spidey senses were borderline clairvoyant. They never probed, never asked. Just watched it unfold like a plotline they already knew the ending to.
Besides them, the rest of the department remained blissfully unawareâexcept for the way Robbyâs entire demeanor shifted over a year ago. A quiet warmth started to replace his usual stoicism. People credited it to the anonymous private donation made to the ER around the same time.
But the truth was, it had nothing to do with money.
It was you.Â
You, of course, were oblivious to whatever other people thought or saidâunless it had something to do with your patients. Robby sometimes joked that you were pathologically unbothered, something he made a mental note to ask you about, and he wasnât wrong. The rumors from the nurses, the looks from the interns, the knowing smirks from Dana or Langdon? All of it flew over your head like air traffic.
Maybe you just didnât see it. Didnât see how Robbyâs entire world seemed to tilt when you entered a room. How effortlessly the two of you moved in sync like second natureâside by side in trauma bays, tossing instruments, treatment plans, and glances back and forth like muscle memory. Everyone else could see it.
You were always focused on the next decision, the next step, the next person who needed your help. You didnât think about what you needed until the shift was overâif ever. Your well-being came last, always.
But not to Robby. Never to Robby.
He noticed everything.
The slump in your shoulders. The faint crease in your forehead when a headache was starting to set in. He knew when you were on the verge of running on empty, when your patience was thinning, when you hadnât eaten since sunrise. He never made a show of it. He just acted.
He didnât wait for you to ask. He didnât expect you to remember to need anything.
Because he already knew. He just... knew.
Your coffee, brewed and sweetened exactly how you liked it, would be waiting for you at the nursesâ station first thing in the morning. A second cup at lunchâalways packed, always hot, even if you never had time to drink it. Heâd drop it off like it was routine, like it was no big deal, because he knew the odds of you being pulled into another case mid-sip were astronomical.
Your favorite sandwich from the cafeteria, left quietly on your desk with a sticky note that said, âEat this or Iâm calling your mother.â You'd sooner pass out from hunger than remember to eat. He knew that. So he took the thinking out of it for you.
And after the longest daysâthose days where you'd made a thousand decisions, answered a hundred questions, led back-to-back codesâheâd cook dinner at his place. Quietly, without fanfare, and pieced together with the same kind of intention you gave your patients. Heâd hand you a glass of waterâbecause that was one other thing that you along with 80% of the population deprived yourself ofâand steer you to the couch while he handled the rest. Just so you could turn your brain off.
You never asked, never had to, yet he always knew.
Youâd just been snapped back to the present by the sound of an unwelcome familiar voiceâagain.
"Dr. L/N," he said, sidling up to you again with that same confident grinâclearly not deterred by every failed attempt before. "Iâve got a list of mocktails that might just change your mind. Pretty creative, right? I googled it during lunch. Thereâs this one with lychee andâ"
You blinked at him slowly, like you were buffering.
"Jackson," you said, voice firmer this time, "I donât even have time to finish a protein bar most days, let alone entertain another pitch for drinks. Youâre taking time away from my patients, my patients. I sincerely hope you donât treat them the same wayâignoring their boundaries and refusing to take no for an answer."
You didnât say it harshly. Just plainly. Clearly and finite. Like a diagnosis that needed no follow-up.
Across the room, Robby pulled down his glasses as his lip quirked up into a slow, private smirk. Pride bloomed across his face so fast he had to duck his head behind a chart to hide it. He knew better than to coddle you. The mutual discomfort and stifled reactions from the staff were one thing. Watching you handle yourself like that? That was something else entirely.
From across the nursesâ station, the staff collectively cringed like someone had just dropped a post-op surgical tray. Santos and Mateo physically turned away to hide their budding laughter. Javadi buried her face in her sleeve, secondhand embarrassment blooming. Mohan took off at a brisk pace to see a patient. Whitaker closed his eyes and mouthed a silent prayer to the ceiling. Meanwhile, Dana, McKay, and Collins couldnât look away if they tried, pressing down their grins and wishing they'd brought popcorn. Langdon sipped his coffee like it was a box-office premiere. King, ever diligent, kept her focus on irrigating her patientâs woundâLangdon would fill her in later with full commentary. Before you could continueâ
"Dr. L/N," your savior called, tone light but cutting through the air like a scalpelâjust loud enough to interrupt whatever nonsense Jackson was about to say next.
You turned and there he was.
Dr. Robbyâyour chaos compass, your caffeinated partner in crime, loyal boyfriend, favorite soon-to-be roommate, and at the moment, your very composed but unmistakably irritated attendingâhis expression perfectly calm to the untrained eye, but you could read the tension in every line of his face.
"Got a case," he said flatly. "Now. Come on."
You blinked, confused but relieved. "Okay."
You didnât miss the way Jackson shrank a little at Robbyâs tone, nor the way Langdon grinned over his coffee like he'd just won a bet. You caught up to him by the supply closet, where he all but dragged you inside and shut the door behind you.
"What's up?" you asked, eyebrow raised.
He stared at you, a little too intently, like he wasnât sure whether to scold you or wrap you in bubble wrap. "Are you seriously asking me that after that guy just tried to chat you up in the middle of the ER like this is Greyâs Anatomy?"
You blinked, tilting your head. "Wait⊠was that flirting?"
Robby blinked back. "Youâre joking."
You were. "I thought he just wanted to split an energy drink or something."
He huffed a quiet laugh, some of the tension bleeding from his shoulders as his hands came up to ruffle his hair. "Jesus."
You poked his chest lightly. "Youâre kind of cute when youâre flustered, you know that?"
His ears went red immediately. "Iâm not flustered. Iâm... professionally annoyed."
You blinked. "Youâre jealous?"
"Iâm not jealous," he said tightly. "Iâmâconcerned."
You grinned, stepping close. "Concerned is hot."
"He was twelve."
"He's definitely at least twenty-six."
Robby exhaled through his nose. "Iâve been very chill about this whole 'letâs not tell the hospital weâre dating' thing. But if I see him so much as come within two feet of you again, Iâm submitting a formal notice that you are very much taken and a complaint with HR about his behavior. And if that doesnât workâ" he leaned in closer, voice droppingâ"Iâm dealing with him myself."
You raised an eyebrow, lips twitching into a smirk. "Whatâs that going to look likeâare you gonna slam your clipboard down and tag team him with Abbot? Because honestly, I wouldnât hate that."
Your voice was teasing, but your cheeks were warm. Watching Robby get territorial from a respectful distance? Unexpectedly hot. And now, you couldnât help but push his buttons to see how much more riled up heâd get.
He didnât answer. Just leaned in slowly, deliberately, raising both of his arms to cage you inâpalms flat against the wall on either side of your head. The move sent heat straight to your cheeks, blinking up at him as he leaned closer, so close his breath brushed your lips.
Then he kissed youâhard and fast and possessive, his hands sliding up into your hair, threading through it with the kind of reverence that made your knees go weak. You gasped softly into his mouth, one hand instinctively rising to cup his jaw, your fingers grazing the edge of his beard before curling into the softness of it. He leaned into your touch, like heâd been waiting for it all day.
Your other hand slid up into his hair, tugging gently at the strands at the nape of his neck, and you felt itâthe way his pulse thrummed just beneath your fingertips, the way he shivered just slightly at your touch.
His thumbs caressed the line of your jaw, then drifted down to the curve of your neck, holding you like you might slip away if he wasnât careful.
It was fire and softness, urgency wrapped in warmth. And you never wanted to stop.
When you finally pulled back, you were both breathless. "Is that allowed in a supply closet?" you smirked.Â
"If they didnât want people kissing in here, they wouldnât make it this conveniently located."
You smacked his arm, giggling.
"Iâm serious," he added, voice softening but maintaining a firm undertone. "I don't share."
You looped your arms around his neck. "Good. I wasnât offering."
He grinned, still close enough that you could feel the warmth of his breath against your skin. "That thing you said back thereâabout boundaries, about respect." He paused, eyes scanning yours. "That was... incredible. Seriously. You handled it perfectly."
Your brows furrowed for a moment, caught off guard by the sincerity in his voice.
"It was... commanding," he added a moment later, voice lower, more playful now. "Alluringly so."
You snorted. "You're ridiculous."
"Yeah," he agreed, pulling you closer to pepper your face with kisses. "Ridiculously in love with a woman who knows exactly how to shut down frat boys without breaking stride, resuscitate half the ER, deliver excellent patient care, and still make rounds on time."
His hand slid down your back, warm and steady. "Youâre the whole damn package, you know that? Itâs genuinely unfair."
You chuckled, burying your face briefly in his shoulder.
Somewhere down the hall, Dana's voice rang echoed through the PA, summoning you for the consult. Robby groaned, forehead dropping to your shoulder.
"This is not over," he muttered.
You kissed the corner of his mouth, a smirk following soon after where your lips lingered. "Got any dinner plans?"
Robby raised an eyebrow, but there was a hint of a smile tugging at his lips. "Actually, yeah. Iâve got a dateâwith my incredibly beautiful, breathtaking, beyond intelligent, and painfully witty girlfriend."
You blinked at him, then laughed, delighted. "Wow. Sounds like a catch."
He leaned in and bumped his nose against yours, grinning. "She really is. And I think sheâs about to say yes."
You didnât say anything at first. Just smiled, so full of affection it made your cheeks ache. Then you nodded, brushing your thumb gently along his cheekbone.
"Yeah," you whispered, "she definitely is."
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Breaking Point
Pairing: Max Verstappen x Driver!Reader
Summary: Your rivalry with Max Verstappen is legendary, but behind your fierce performances a chronic condition is slowly wearing you down. When Max starts to uncover the truth he has to decide, win the title at all costs or protect the one person who may have come to mean more than it.
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The crowd was deafening. Cheers, chants, and the rhythmic pounding of drums thundered through the air as you stepped onto the flatbed truck for the drivers' parade. Flags waved like wildfire, and fans pressed up against the barricades, screaming your name with faces painted in your colours. You gave them a wave, heart thudding not from nerves, not exactly.
The season wasnât just heating up⊠it was boiling over.
Roughly a third of the way through the calendar, the championship fight had already narrowed to two names. Yours and Max Verstappenâs. The sportâs fiercest rivalry in years was dominating headlines, youâd traded podiums and paintwork, elbows out at every corner, and now, as you glanced across the flatbed and spotted Max surrounded by cameras your stomach twisted.
This wasnât just about racing anymore.
The rivalry had been brewing for years and had in turn become infamous "the clash of titans," they called it. A new golden age of Formula 1. The media couldnât get enough of the drama: two elite drivers, one championship, and absolutely no love lost. But they didnât know the full story.
Because the truth was, your battle with Max wasnât only happening on the track.
You were hiding something. Something big. And if Max, or anyone, found out⊠you werenât sure youâd even make it to the final race, let alone walk away with the title.
You shifted your weight, careful not to wince. The pain had become familiar, a dull hum beneath your skin, a reminder with every breath that you were running out of time.
Max was only a few feet away now, stepping up onto the flatbed at the last second with his usual casual confidence. His race suit hung open at the neck, fireproofs damp with sweat already, and yet he looked unbothered, cool, collected, irritatingly calm.
As much as you sometimes hated to admit it, youâd always respected him.
âReady for another close one,â he said, flashing you that infuriatingly smug smile, âor are you finally going to give me a little room today?â
You raised an eyebrow, already steeling yourself for the mental game he always played before a race.
âRoom? I didnât realise this was bumper cars Verstappen. Keep pushing me like you did last week and Iâll send you into the gravel.â
Max chuckled, the sound surprisingly light. âWouldnât be the first time someoneâs tried. But we both know youâre going to be glued to my rear wing for half the race, just like usual.â
A twinge of frustration flared in your chest. Max knew how to get under your skin. His self-assuredness, his relentless confidence, it felt like he was mocking you, but that wasnât what really stung.
What hurt was that he was probably right. You were slipping. You could feel it, the sharpness in your driving dulled by something you couldnât control. The exhaustion was creeping in, and the physical pain was harder to ignore with each race. You knew you were hiding it well enough from the cameras, the media, even your team, but for how much longer?
âYeah, well,â you muttered, trying to sound nonchalant, âdonât get too comfortable up front. You wonât see me coming.â
Max studied you for a moment, his blue eyes narrowing just slightly. There was something indecipherable in his expression, a flicker of curiosity or concern, but it was gone before you could pin it down. He shrugged and gave a nod.
âWeâll see.â
As he turned away, you felt a wave of relief wash over you. Max didnât know. No one did. You still had time to figure things out, time to win this race, this championship, before everything came crashing down.
The race had been brutal.
Maxâs Red Bull stayed just barely ahead, the gap flickering between eight-tenths and half a second, a cruel reminder of how close you were, and how far. Every time you lunged, he countered. Every time you found grip, he found more, but as the final laps closed in, it wasnât the tires or the fuel or even Max that started to wear you down.
It was your own body.
The first flare of pain hit you under braking at Turn 6 a stabbing bolt in your ribs that nearly made you lift. You ground your teeth, forced your foot down harder, trying to drive through it. But it didnât go away. It spread. Fast. Each breath felt like knives slicing through your chest, stealing oxygen, focus, control.
Your hands clenched the wheel in a death grip, sweat slicking your gloves, vision starting to grey at the edges. You were spiraling.
Not now. Not here.
You clenched your jaw, gripping the wheel with white knuckles. Youâd been fighting this for too long. Too many sleepless nights, too many doctorâs visits in secret. The diagnosis had been a shock, a harsh reminder of how even the strongest athletes could be brought down by something they couldnât control.
Chronic pain, theyâd said. Something to manage, not to fix. And no one could know, not your team, not the press, and certainly not your rivals. If they did, it would be seen as weakness.
Weakness wasnât an option.
âCome on, come on,â you muttered, the corners felt tighter, your vision slightly blurred at the edges, but you couldnât afford to back off. Not now.
Max was just ahead, his rear wing taunting you down the straight. You pushed harder. Too hard.
On the second-to-last lap, you misjudged the corner. A split-second of lost focus, and your tires hit the curb too hard, sending the car into a brief spin. By the time you regained control, Max was already crossing the finish line.
The race was over.
Max had won.
The car coasted to a stop, and all you could do was sit there, helmet still on, pulse thudding in your ears, pain radiating like a siren call through your ribcage.
Youâd lost. You slammed your fist into the steering wheel, the pain in your ribs now radiating with every breath. It wasnât just the defeat. It was the knowledge that you werenât at your best. That you might never be again.
As you climbed out of the car, you could feel the weight of disappointment settle over you like a cloud. The team surrounded you, offering words of comfort and encouragement, but none of it really sank in. Your mind was elsewhere, consumed by the fear that had been growing in the back of your mind for months.
Max approached, still wearing his helmet but with a glint of triumph in his eyes. He pulled it off, sweat-drenched hair sticking to his forehead, and gave you a nod.
âHell of a race,â he said.
You forced a smile. âYeah. You got me this time.â
âThis time?â He raised an eyebrow, his usual teasing tone creeping back. âIâve been getting you quite a bit lately.â
You laughed, but it came out more like a cough. âDonât get used to it.â
Maxâs gaze lingered on you, more intense now. His eyes flickered down to your waist, where youâd been subconsciously holding your side. You quickly dropped your hand, straightening up.
âYou alright?â he asked, his voice lower now, a little less casual.
âYeah, just⊠just tired,â you lied, trying to sound convincing. âLong race. Long seasonâ
Max didnât say anything for a moment, then he shrugged, a small smile returning to his face. âRight, well, rest up.â
But the way he looked at you, you knew he didnât entirely believe your answer.
The following weeks were grueling. Training sessions were harder than theyâd ever been, your body refusing to cooperate despite your best efforts. Every stretch, every weight rep, every sim session pushed you closer to the edge. What used to be routine now felt like punishment your body refusing to respond, refusing to bend without protest.
You spent more time in physiotherapy and doctor's offices than you did on the track, always in secret, always through back doors, under fake names on appointment logs, always careful to keep up the facade of strength. You couldnât afford questions. Couldnât afford whispers.
But the cracks were showing. And Max⊠Max was noticing.
At first, it was nothing, just the way he watched you more closely during press events, his eyes narrowing whenever you winced or shifted uncomfortably. The casual questions about your health, disguised as jokes. You tried to brush it off, deflecting with humor, but Max wasnât stupid. He was as sharp off the track as he was on it. He saw patterns. He felt when something was off. And now, you were off and he was tracking it like telemetry data.
âLose a fight with your seat insert?â heâd ask when you sat down a little too slowly.
You brushed it off every time. âJust sore from carrying the team,â youâd quip. But his eyes would flick to your side, or your hand when it rubbed a phantom ache across your ribs, and he didnât laugh like he used to.
One evening, after a particularly brutal qualifying session where youâd barely managed to secure P7, Max found you behind the hospitality motorhomes, still in your race suit, half hunched over with one hand braced on a railing, trying to catch your breath without drawing attention. You straightened when you heard his footsteps, but it was too late.
âYouâre not okay,â he said bluntly, his usual playful tone absent.
You blinked, surprised by his directness. âWhat are you talking about? Iâm fine.â
Max crossed his arms, his expression hardening. âNo, youâre not. Iâve seen you, the way youâve been moving, the way youâve been driving. Somethingâs off.â
âIâm just tired Max, itâs been a long day,â you sighed, trying your best to divert the conversation, but Max wasnât having it.
âCut the crap. This isnât tired. This is different. Youâre hurtingâ he said, his voice firm. âWhatâs going on with you?â
You hesitated. No one had pushed this far before, not even your team. The truth burned on the tip of your tongue. You wanted to say it. Just once. To let someone else hold the weight of it, even for a second. But then you saw the season flash in your mind, what youâd risk, what youâd lose if it all came crashing down.
âI donât know what youâre talking about,â you lied, turning to walk away.
Max grabbed your arm, not hard, but enough to make you stop. âYou can trust me, you know,â he said quietly, his voice softer now. âIf somethingâs wrongâŠâ
His words hung in the air, and for a brief moment, you almost caved. Almost.
But then you remembered what was at stake. Your career. The championship. Everything.
You pulled your arm away. âIâm fine Max. Let it go.â
Max looked at you for a long time, his eyes searching yours. But eventually, he nodded, stepping back. âAlright. For now.â
You turned and walked away, but the pit in your stomach only grew, because Max was getting closer to the truth, and you werenât sure how much longer you could keep running from it.
The race in Monza was supposed to be your redemption. After a brilliant quali this was a chance to prove you still had what it took to win, to show Max and everyone else that you werenât done yet. That the whispers, the doubts, the endless speculation about your decline were nothing but noise, but it quickly became clear that your body had other plans.
The pain was worse than ever, radiating from deep within your chest and flaring through your ribs every time you hit a kerb or took a high-speed corner. You gritted your teeth and kept pushing, but by lap thirty your arms were trembling. Sweat clung to your skin beneath the race suit, and your hands shook as you tried to keep a steady grip on the wheel.
Max was behind you, closing in. Not just with raw pace but with that ruthless, unrelenting pressure he was known for. He was waiting for a mistake.
Your vision began to blur somewhere around lap forty. It took everything just to stay on the racing line, and then suddenly the rear snapped. The car spun. Your world whipped around in a blur of colours and screeching tires before the impact came, jarring your entire body and sending pain lancing through your ribs like a knife. The barrier caught you hard on the left side. The engine cut out and smoke billowed. Your hands were trembling as you ripped off your gloves and undid the harness.
As you sat in the wreckage of your car, the pain in your chest now unbearable, you couldnât help but feel the crushing weight of defeat. It wasnât just the end of the race. It was the end of the illusion. You werenât okay. And no amount of pride or stubbornness could mask it anymore.
You felt tears pricking at the corners of your eyes, but you blinked them back. This wasnât the place to break down. Not here, not now.
By the time the medical car got you out, you were biting the inside of your cheek to keep from crying out. You waved off their questions, said you were fine, but you werenât even sure what fine meant anymore.
The walk back to the paddock felt longer than the entire race weekend. Your helmet dangled from one hand, your other pressed tightly against your ribs beneath the suit. But later as you walked back through the paddock Max was already there, he was leaning against a stack of crates just outside the Red Bull motorhome, arms crossed, cap pulled low, but when he spotted you, he straightened immediately. His expression shifted the moment your eyes met
You barely had time to react before he was in front of you, one hand reaching for your arm, the other hovering like he wanted to touch you but wasnât sure where it wouldnât hurt.
âCome with me,â he said under his breath, glancing around.
Before you could argue, he was already steering you gently but firmly into a quiet corner away from curious eyes.
âWhat the hell were you thinking?â he asked, voice sharp with worry. âYou shouldâve pulled into the pits. You could barely hold the car straight by the end.â
You opened your mouth, tried to say something, anything, but no excuse felt good enough. So you said the only thing you could.
âI didnât want to stop.â
Max ran a hand through his hair, pacing half a step away before turning back to you.
âYouâre done hiding this,â he said firmly, stepping closer. âWhatever it is, Iâm not letting you keep it to yourself anymore.â
You opened your mouth to protest, but the words didnât come. Instead, you just stood there, the pain and exhaustion finally catching up to you.
Max looked at you for a long moment, then took another step closer. âYou can barely stand,â he muttered. âJesus, I knew something was wrong. I could see it in how you were driving, you never make mistakes like that.â
âIâm fine, this is none of you business Maxâ you tried, but the words were weak, barely more than a whisper. They sounded pathetic even to your own ears.
âNo. Youâre not,â he snapped, louder this time. âYouâre not fine. You couldâve been seriously hurt. Or worse, do you not get that? You put the car in the wall going 200 mph and then walked back here like nothing happened, like you didnât just scare the hell out of meââ His voice caught, and for a moment, it was like the weight of what he wasnât saying hung between you. âDo you even understand how close that was?â
âI didnât meanââ you started, but he cut you off with a frustrated breath.
âYou didnât mean to? Thatâs not good enough,â he said, voice sharp with emotion. âYou drove knowing you werenât okay. You risked your life because what? You didnât want anyone to know youâre hurt?â
He exhaled hard, stepping back like he needed to breathe or else he might say something he couldnât take back.
âI thought I was going to see you being pulled out of that car unconscious,â he said, his voice low now, broken at the edges.
You stared at him, your own throat tight, unsure what to say.
His expression softened, as his hand came up, hesitated, then landed gently on your shoulder. Warm. Steady. âCome on, letâs get out of here.â He watched your eyes flicker, like you were on the edge of bolting, and his voice dipped, almost pleading. âPlease.â
For the first time in a long time, you didnât argue.
It was late that night when you finally told him. You sat together in the shadows, tucked in a forgotten corner behind your hospitality unit, your back against the cool metal wall, your legs stretched out.
Max still hadnât left your side. Not after the crash. Not after the walk back. Not even after you tried to brush him off the fifth time with a tired excuse.
He just stayed.
And maybe thatâs why the words finally came.
Of all the people you could tell, Max Verstappen probably wasnât the smartest choice. He was your fiercest rival. The one person youâd spent the better part of your career trying to beat, trying to outdrive, outlast, outdo in every possible way. You had a whole history of near-misses and podium scuffles and tension thick enough to choke on. So why him?
You should tell your physio. Your team principal. Your family. Your press officer even. Anyone but Max.
But instead here you were, in a dark corner of Monza, unloading your deepest vulnerability to the one man whoâd spent the year trying to beat you.
And yet⊠something about it felt right.
Maybe it was the way he looked at you, not with pity, not even surprise, but understanding. Quiet and real and grounding. Like he got it, in some strange way. Like there was some unspoken language between you, forged through years of competition and split-second decisions and shared silence in the paddock long after the fans went home.
You hated how easy it felt with him.
And God, that scared you.
Because you didnât want to need anyone, especially not Max, with his impossible standards and his cutting sarcasm and the kind of intensity that could burn through stone. Youâd built entire walls around yourself to survive in this sport, and Max Verstappen was one of the only people who had ever seen behind them.
âWhy are you even here, Max?â you asked before you could stop yourself. âYou didnât have to stay.â
He turned to you, eyes meeting yours in the dark. âYeah,â he said simply, âI did.â
And damn it, there it was again, that thing. That something between you that neither of you ever named, never acknowledged, but always felt. It lingered in the way you pushed each other harder than anyone else. In the way he always found your eyes on the grid. In the way you could never quite root against him, no matter how badly you wanted to beat him.
âI have chronic pain,â you admitted, your voice small, barely audible over the distant hum of a generator. âIt started last year. Nothing major at first, twinges, tightness⊠easy to write off, but it got worse this season. Iâve been hiding it, trying to push through, but⊠itâs not working anymore.â
Max didnât speak. He turned slightly to face you, legs bent at the knees, arms resting loosely on them. He didnât rush you, he just listened quietly, his usual brashness gone, didnât interrupt, didnât ask questions, he just let you talk.
âIâve been hiding it from everyone. From my team. From you. Iâve been managing it or trying to, physio, meds. I thought I could push through, like always. Just grit my teeth and keep racing. I thought for a while maybe it was all in my headâ You let out a hollow laugh. âItâs not.â
Maxâs jaw tightened, but still he said nothing.
âI didnât want anyone to know. If the team found out, theyâd pull me. If the media knew, theyâd crucify me. And you⊠I didnât want you to think I was weak.â
Thatâs when he finally spoke.
Max frowned at that, shaking his head. âWeak? Youâve been racing like this all year and you think that makes you weak?â
You laughed bitterly. âI havenât won in months, Max. I can barely finish a race without screwing up. I put it in the wall today. Thatâs not strength. Thatâs pathetic.â
Max sighed, leaning back against the wall, his gaze fixed on the night sky. âYouâre not weak,â he said after a long pause. âYou shouldnât have been in the car today. Hell, you shouldnât have been in the car for the last few races. Youâre stubborn as hell, but not weak.â
You let out a breath. Your whole body ached. Not just from the crash, but from months of pretending.
Max sighed, leaning back against the wall, glancing up like he was searching for the right words. âYouâre not weak,â he said again, softer this time. âYouâre just tired. And in pain. Thatâs not the same thing. Youâve been shouldering something most people wouldnât even start a race with. And you kept going. Alone. Thatâs not weakness. Thatâs something else entirelyâ
You looked away, jaw tight, trying to keep the emotion from spilling over. It was one thing to admit it. It was another to have someone see it.
Max moved closer âYou shouldâve told me... or someone at least.â
âI didnât know how,â you whispered. âI didnât want to make it real. Saying it out loud makes it feel like it wins.â
He shook his head. âNo. Saying it out loud means youâre still fighting. And you donât have to do it alone anymore.â
You smiled, a small, grateful smile, but it didnât last long.
âSo whatâs the plan?â He asked.
You blinked. âThe⊠what?â
He shrugged, but there was nothing casual in the way his eyes locked onto yours. âYou said itâs getting worse. You canât keep racing like this. So whatâs next?â
You looked down, chewing on the inside of your cheek. âI donât know. I havenât figured that part out yet.â
âThen letâs figure it out,â he said, like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
You shook your head. âMax, this isnât your problem.â
âYou think I waited for you after every race, checked in between flights, watched you limp through interviews because I was just being nice?â
You looked up, and he was right there, eyes blazing.
âI care about you, and you trusted me enough to tell me,â he said, softer now, like it hurt to say it too loud. âThat means this is my problem. Whether you like it or not.â
Your throat tightened. âItâs not that I donât want you here Max. Itâs just⊠Iâve been carrying this for so long, I donât know how to let someone else in.â
He gave a small, almost sad smile. âThen start with me.â
You hesitated. âEven if the plan means stepping back? Even if it means disappearing from the grid for a while?â
âNone of that matters,â he said. âWhat matters is that youâre okay. That youâre healing. That youâre not destroying yourself just to prove you belong, because you already do."
You swallowed, the weight of his words sinking in. He was right, of course. Youâd been fighting this battle on your own for too long, and it was killing you. But asking for help⊠it still felt like admitting defeat.
Max was quiet for a moment, then he looked at you, his expression serious. âYou need help. Real help. You canât do this alone anymore. Taking time for yourself doesnât make you weak either, please believe that.â
You let out a shaky laugh, blinking back tears. âYou make it sound easy.â
âItâs not,â he admitted. âBut Iâll be there, every step of the way. If you let me.â
âBut if I stop nowâŠâ you whispered, ââŠitâs over isnât it? I stop, and theyâll replace me. And even if I get better⊠what if I donât get the chance to come back?â
Max shook his head. âNo, itâs not. You take the time to get better, to figure out what you need to do. And when⊠when not if you come back⊠youâll be stronger.â
You looked at him, surprised by the sincerity in his voice. For all the years of rivalry, the banter, the competition, you hadnât expected this.
You let out a shaky breath, blinking back tears. âYou really think Iâll get the chance?â
âI think youâre one of the best drivers on the grid,â he said, without hesitation. âAnd I think anyone whoâs seen you drive knows that. This isnât the end. Not if you donât let it be.â
You dropped your gaze to your hands, suddenly overwhelmed by how much you'd just given him. âYou know this changes things right? You knowing.â
âI know,â he said. âBut not in the way you think.â
You looked up at him again.
âIâm not gonna see you as anything less because of this,â he said firmly. âIf anything, I respect you even more⊠if thatâs possible. Even if I hate that you didnât tell anyone sooner.â
âYou could use this against me, you know,â you said quietly. âIf you tell anyoneâŠâ
Max met your gaze, his blue eyes steady. âI wonât.â
You raised an eyebrow. âYou wonât?â
Max shrugged. âIâm competitive, not cruel. If Iâm going to beat you, I want to beat you at your best.â
You stared at him, searching his face for any hint of deception, but there was none. He was being honest.
For the first time in months, you felt a flicker of hope.
Maybe you didnât have to fight this alone anymore.
âThank you,â you said finally.
He gave you a small nod, then reached over and nudged your knee with his own. You rolled your eyes, but you didnât stop smiling. Not this time.
The decision to step back wasnât easy.
It didnât happen in one dramatic moment. It was a slow, aching acceptance, drawn out over sleepless nights, quiet tears in hotel bathrooms, and the gnawing worry for the future that refused to be silenced. It took soul-searching. And honesty, the brutal kind. With yourself. With your team. And, surprisingly, with Max.
Somehow, over the course of the ordeal, Max had become your anchor. The rivalry that once defined your relationship had softened, twisted into something far more complicated. He listened without judgment, pushed when you needed it, and called you out when you tried to pretend you were still invincible.
âI think youâre brave enough to admit it,â heâd said one night, âand I think youâre strong enough to come back.â
That stuck with you.
So when the decision was finally made, it wasnât with fireworks or fanfare. Just a quiet nod to yourself, a shaky breath, and the understanding that sometimes stepping away took more courage than staying in the fight.
You announced it publicly just before the next race weekend, standing in front of a press room full of cameras and microphones that never seemed to miss a tremor in your voice. You told them a half truth, the version of it you were ready to share.
You needed time. Time to heal. Time to breathe. Time to come back stronger.
The media response was predictable. Headlines spun into chaos. Speculation ran rampant. Some questioned your drive. Others called you finished. They debated what was âreallyâ wrong, but through it all, Max stayed silent.
Not once did he give the press a quote. Not once did he betray what he knew. Even when reporters tried to bait him, digging for scraps of scandal or sympathy, he deflected effortlessly changing the subject, shutting it down with a single look.
Youâd never been more grateful.
As the weeks turned into months, you watched the races from the sidelines. At first, it felt like slow torture. Your body rested, yes, but your heart ached. Frustrated because every fiber of your being missed the track, the competition, the sheer thrill of racing. And yet, there was relief too, quiet and unfamiliar. You were no longer holding yourself together with adrenaline and fear. For the first time in ages you were breathing without pretending.
Max of course continued to dominate the championship. Beneath the cold stats and glowing headlines, there were moments that didnât make it into the press, moments that were just for you. Heâd call or text, checking in, making sure you were doing okay.
Heâd text after qualifying, sometimes just a one-liner:
Trackâs a mess. U wouldâve hated it.
A call between flights, memes sent at 2AM with no context, only to be followed by a simple you okay? And sometimes no words at all, just a photo of the garage, or the view from his balcony, or his cat curled up on a travel bag, like he was reminding you that life was still moving and you were still part of it.
He didnât ask invasive questions, he never pushed, but he always checked in. Subtly. Consistently. Like clockwork. Like he was making sure the world hadnât swallowed you whole while he was out there conquering it.
It was strange, at first, getting used to the version of Max who wasnât trying to out-qualify you or bait you in press conferences. This Max was⊠patient. Steady. A little sarcastic still, the texts always came with a dose of dry humour, but there was warmth beneath it, a quiet sort of care.
And you found yourself replying more than you expected, telling him small things. That your shoulder finally didnât ache when you lifted your arm. That you missed the smell of burning rubber. That youâd accidentally called your physio by your engineers name out of habit. That you'd tried your first ever Red Bull drink and hated it much to his chagrin.
The friendship that formed was easy in ways nothing else in your life was.
It didnât demand anything of you. There was no pressure to be strong or fast or okay. With Max you didnât have to pretend, he never told you what you should be feeling, he was just there in anyway he could be, again and again, until you started to wonder what life had even looked like before he was in it this way.
One evening, late after another one of his perfectly executed wins you picked up your phone and typed out a message. You hesitated before pressing send, unsure why you felt nervous. Maybe it was because lately your heart beat faster than it used to when you saw his name light up your screen. Maybe because this was all still new, this version of you, this version of him, this version of you and him.
Because youâd spent your whole career learning how to stand alone. How to keep everyone at armâs length. Rivals were rivals. Friends were rare. And Max⊠well Max had never fit neatly into either box.
Congrats on the win. Just donât get too used to it alright? Iâll be back soon.
You hovered over the send button for a second longer, wondering if heâd see through it. If heâd hear what you werenât saying.
I miss it.
I miss you.
I donât know what this is, but itâs starting to matter.
The reply came almost instantly.
Looking forward to it. But seriously take your time. Weâll settle this on the track when youâre ready.
There were no fireworks in the message. No confessions, no overreaching sentiment.
But it meant more than he probably knew.
You leaned back on the couch, phone still in your hand, the hum of the television playing highlights in the background. For the first time in months, you felt something like peace settle over you.
You didnât know when youâd be back. Or if youâd ever be exactly the same driver you were before, but you didnât feel alone anymore.
The new year and the new season came around quick, and finally after what felt like a lifetime of recovery, rehab, and soul-searching, you were ready to return to the grid.
It wasnât easy. It never would be.
The pain hadnât vanished. Some days were better than others, but you knew by now that it would always be there, lingering under the surface like a shadow. What had changed was how you dealt with it. Youâd learned to listen to your body, to recognise the difference between pushing your limits and hurting yourself.
Telling your team hadnât been easy either. There were long, uncomfortable meetings behind closed doors, doctorsâ reports and second opinions, legal clauses and moral dilemmas. Everyone had the same questions: Was it safe? Were you sure? Could you handle it if it went wrong again?
You didnât pretend it was foolproof. There were no guarantees in motorsport but there never has been. You looked them all in the eye and told the truth, you were ready, and more importantly you promised that if it ever got too much again, youâd say something. No more silence. No more hiding.
What surprised you most was that they said yes. That they took the risk on you. And somewhere in the mess of nerves and determination, that gave you a quiet sort of strength.
By the time race week rolled around, your nerves were frayed and your heart was racing before you even set foot in the paddock. But the second you did, something clicked. The smells, the sounds, the adrenaline in the air it all came rushing back.
And then there was Max.
He was one of the first people to spot you as you walked through the paddock gates, your jacket tied around your waist, race bag slung over your shoulder. He made a beeline towards you grinning like a kid.
âAbout time you showed up,â he said, his usual cocky tone back in full force.
You rolled your eyes. âMiss me that much Verstappen?â
He stopped in front of you, eyes glinting. âMaybe. Or maybe I just got bored winning without any real competition.â
âCareful,â you said, nudging his arm with your elbow, âyouâre starting to sound sentimental.â
He grinned. âDonât get used to it. Iâve got a reputation to uphold.â
But then, softer, barely audible beneath the bravado he added, âItâs good to see you back.â
You looked at him for a moment longer than necessary, trying not to let the warmth in his voice get to you. But it did. It always did now.
The race that day was one of the hardest of your career. Every lap was a war between muscle memory and the cautious voice in your head. Every corner was a test of discipline, control, trust in your body. And when you crossed the finish line just behind Max you didnât care that it wasnât a win. You didnât care that your suit was soaked with sweat. Youâd made it. Youâd done it.
You were back.
As you climbed out of the car, your chest heaving, Max was already striding toward you. He didnât wait for the cameras to move. Didnât play it cool. He pulled off his helmet, a wide grin stretched across his face and pulled you into a crushing hug.
âNot bad for your first race back,â he said, cheeks flushed, eyes alive with adrenaline, âbut next time I expect you to give me a real challenge.â
You shot him a look, wiping the sweat from your brow. âOh, donât worry,â you said, breathless but smiling. âI will.â
The weeks following your return were a whirlwind, races, press conferences, back-to-back simulator sessions, long nights with your physio, and an endless stream of media narratives. They called it the comeback of the season, painted you as the fighter, the underdog, the miracle story. But you knew the truth.
It was hard. Every lap still demanded more from you than it ever had before. And the only constant, familiar and infuriating, was Max.
The rivalry between you had never been sharper. He didnât go easy on you. If anything, he pushed harder, drove aggressively when you were in his mirrors, blocked with precision that made you curse into your radio. But even through the heat of battle, there was something else brewing.
It was in the way he waited for you after races now. The way his calls came after rough weekends without needing an explanation. It was in the long glances across the paddock. The casual shoulder bumps that held just a little too long. The way you both kept pretending it was nothing, even when it clearly wasnât.
Max had always been your toughest competitor, but now⊠now, he was something more. He wasnât just the guy pushing you on the track. He was the one who had stood by you when things had fallen apart. He had seen you at your worst and hadnât walked away. He was the one who knew how bad your ribs hurt when the track leaned right. The one whoâd stayed the night when you cried after a brutal practice in Singapore. The one who never once told you to be stronger, he just reminded you that you already were.
A late evening, after a draining Friday practice session, you found yourself next to him on a concrete wall in the far end of the paddock, away from everyone you sat shoulder to shoulder. The track was silent now. The stars were barely visible, but the moon hung low and bright, casting long silver shadows over the empty circuit.
âYou ever think about how weird this is?â he asked.
You looked over at him, brow raised. âWhatâs weird?â
He gestured vaguely between the two of you. âThis. Us. Sitting here. Talking. Not trying to rip each otherâs heads off. You didnât even call me a smug bastard today. Iâm starting to worry.â
You chuckled, shaking your head. âYeah it is a little strange. Guess weâve come a long way.â
âSeriously though,â he said, his smile fading into something quieter, more sincere, âI never expected this.â
You tilted your head. âExpected what?â
âThis... us. Iâve always kept people at armâs length. Easier that way, you know? Just focus on racing. Keep everything else out.â
You swallowed, something catching in your throat. âWell, to be fair you were kind of an asshole when we first met.â
He let out a soft laugh, the sound light but a little sad. âI still am sometimes.â
He looked at you again, longer this time, the silence stretched on, not awkward, but heavy
âI think about it sometimes,â he murmured. âIf things were different. If we werenât in this job... or if we didnât have to pretend...â
âDo you?â you asked, barely above a whisper. âPretend?â
He hesitated for a heartbeat too long. âEvery day.â
The air between you crackled. Your hand was resting next to his on the wall, your pinkies brushing lightly, and neither of you moved away. You swallowed hard, unsure of what to say.
âMaxâŠâ you began, not sure if it was safe to say what had been sitting on the tip of your tongue for weeks.
âAnyway,â he said, standing and stretching, slowly as if reluctant to break the moment. âWeâve got a race tomorrow better get some sleep.â
And as he turned to leave, his hand brushed against yours, deliberately this time and he let it linger just long enough to send your pulse racing.
You watched him disappear down the paddock, your heart a tangle of adrenaline, but this time it didnât feel like an open ending. It felt like the beginning of something that had been slowly building, quietly, stubbornly, undeniably and now, finally, it was starting to take shape.
Your first win of the season felt like a dream. The chequered flag waved, the crowd roared, and for a moment, the entire world blurred into a rush of relief and triumph.
Youâd done it. Youâd won again.
You didnât even get your helmet off before Max was there, grinning like he hadnât just spent seventy laps trying to ruin your life.
âYou actually made me work for that one.â
You pulled off your helmet, shaking out your hair, heart still pounding from the final laps. âAdmit it you were sweating.â
âOh, I was sweating,â he said, stepping closer. âJust not only because of the race.â
Your brows lifted, a smirk tugging at your lips. âWow. Bold move, Verstappen you flirting with me now?â
He shrugged, eyes dropping to your mouth for half a second too long. âBeen doing that for a while. Youâre just slow.â
You let out a breathy laugh, half exhausted and half completely wrecked by the way he was looking at you, like you were the finish line and heâd been chasing you all season.
Later you stood on the top step of the podium, champagne dripping down your fireproofs, heart pounding as the anthem played. And right next to you, among the flashes of cameras you caught Max looking at you. Not with envy. Not with rivalry.
With something else entirely.
Pride. Awe. Maybe even something dangerously close to love.
You thought that was it. The end of a perfect day, but long after the night fell silent there was a knock at your hotel door.
You opened it to find Max standing there. Freshly showered, hair damp, hoodie half-zipped over a Redline t-shirt, eyes impossibly blue in the hallway light.
He didnât say anything at first. Just stood there, hands in his pockets, gaze flickering from your face to your bare feet, then back up.
âYou gonna invite me in?â he asked eventually, a lopsided smile pulling at his lips.
You stepped aside, pulse quickening as he walked in.
The room was quiet. You were still in the oversized team tee you wore to bed, the one that fell to your thighs and smelled faintly of fuel and champagne.
âYou okay?â you asked, closing the door gently behind him.
He nodded. âYeah just... couldnât sleep.â
You tilted your head. âYou? The king of sleeping through debriefs?â
He gave you a look. âThat was one time.â
You smirked, walking over to the small kitchenette to grab a bottle of water, needing something to do with your hands. âSo whatâs really going on?â
Max didnât answer right away. He moved toward the window, looking out over the glittering city lights, his arms crossed over his chest. âIâve been trying to figure out what the hell to say to you for weeks,â he said finally.
You froze, the cap of the bottle halfway twisted. âYeah?â
He turned, and the look on his face was... different. Unarmored.
âYou winning today,â he said softly, âit made everything harder.â
You frowned. âHarder?â
âBecause I keep telling myself to keep this simple,â he went on, walking toward you now, slow and careful. âJust racing. Just rivalry. Just⊠whatever itâs always been between us.â
Your heart pounded louder with every word.
âBut itâs not that anymore,â he said, stopping just a few feet away from you. âHasnât been for a while.â
You swallowed hard. âSo what is it, then?â
He looked at you like he wanted to memorise every inch of your face. Like saying the next words out loud might break him open.
âI think Iâm in love with you,â he said, voice hoarse. âAnd it terrifies me.â
The air left your lungs. The words hit you like a gut punch not because they hurt, but because they were so impossibly vulnerable coming from him. For a second, you just stood there, blinking at him.
âMaxâŠâ
âI didnât come here expecting anything,â he said quickly, âI just⊠I needed to say it. Because watching you win today, watching you come back from everything and still be that fucking brilliant made me realise that if I donât say it now, I might never get the chance. When you won all I could think about was how much I wanted to be the first person you saw after you crossed that line.â
The room felt suddenly too small, the silence between you too loud.
You swallowed again. âMaxââ
âI know what youâre gonna say,â he interrupted, stepping closer. âThat itâs too complicated. That thereâs too much at stake. But you canât stand there and tell me you havenât felt it too. Donât do that to me.â
His voice cracked at the end, and it shattered something inside you.
Silence stretched, thick and fragile.
Of course you had felt it. You felt it in every late-night phone call. Every text that made your chest ache. Every glance across the garage. Every time his car sat just ahead of yours on the starting grid and you felt more pride than envy.
You stepped closer.
âI was afraid,â you admitted. âI didnât want to ruin what we already had. We worked so hard for this friendship, for trust, and wanting more felt greedy. Like it might cost me the one person who never looked away when things got ugly. You reminded me who I was when I forgot. And IâI didn't want to risk losing that. Losing you.â
He gave a breathless laugh, almost disbelieving. âYou think I could ever go back to before⊠to pretending?â
Your hand brushed against his.
He didnât pull away.
Neither did you.
âI feel it too, of course I do.â you whispered. âYou were there when everything fell apart. And you stayed.â
He reached for you then, not to kiss you, not yet, but to cradle your face in his hands, his thumbs brushing gently along your cheekbones.
âIâll keep staying,â he said. âAs long as youâll let me.â
And that was it.
You leaned into him, your hands gripping the front of his T-shirt, and kissed him like youâd been holding it back for far too long. It wasnât rushed. It wasnât desperate. It was deliberate. His hands found your waist, gentle at first, then firmer, like heâd been holding himself back for so long, unsure if he was allowed to want this. But now that the dam had broken, he wasnât going to pretend anymore. You kissed him like you meant it. Your lips moved with his like you already knew the rhythm, like your bodies had been waiting to catch up with what your hearts had already decided.
When you pulled apart, foreheads pressed together, he was smiling.
âSo,â he murmured, brushing his nose against yours, âdoes this mean I can stop pretending I only text you for tire strategy talk?â
You rolled your eyes, and kissed him again just to shut him up.
And just like that, the noise of the world faded, the lights outside blurred, and for the first time, your heart wasnât racing because of fear, or pressure, or pain.
It was because of him.
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playgrounds and playdates.

pairing single dad!lando x single mum!reader
synopsis in which meeting a single dad and his son turns your whole life upside down.
authorâs note this story has taken me so long to write and iâm so sorry for that!! as always, thank you to @clovermoters for the constant help, support and encouragement. i love you all, hope you enjoy <3
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àż àż*:ïŸearly spring, march 13th
the green canopy of the trees held back most of the sunlight and the last drops of warmth youâd soak up before fully submerging yourselves in the forest.Â
your little one, a three year old girl named stevie, was happily running along the track, her youthful laughter echoing through the silent forest. it just became warm enough to finally go on walks again and visit her favourite place.Â
though, the girl had many favourite places. if youâd ask stevie, sheâd name at least four before finally deciding on the playground.Â
âmum, look!â stevie beamed, her tiny finger pointing towards the end of her path and the playground that came into view the farther she ran.Â
you smiled at her, not needing to walk too fast to keep up with her pace. ïżœïżœïżœi see, sweetheart. you wanna swing?âÂ
ânuh uh,â the girl shook her head, stopping in her steps to look up at you. âsandbox.âÂ
âah, how could i forget,â you nodded in approval and your little girl took off running again. âdonât eat the sand, angel.â you warn as soon as you two make it to the sand pit. thereâs already some toys there but pull out the pink sand toy set from your bag and hand it to stevie.Â
as the little girl plays, you watch and wonder how you got so lucky with stevie, as she was already so independent for her age. she was smart, resilient, empathetic and everything you wouldnât expect a three year old to be.Â
you wanted her to remember her childhood as best as possible, so you made a scrapbookâ called it âstevieâs adventuresââ and marked down bits and pieces of her life. so far, youâve added the hospital bracelet you wore during labour and some of her infant stuff, like socks, a few onesies and even a few binkies.Â
you decide to snap a picture of her in the sandbox, now playing with a blond, curly-haired boy who couldnât have been much older than her. taking a picture of a stranger's child would go against everything youâve been doing to protect stevieâs personal life from online creeps, so you look around to try and find whoeverâs responsible for the kid.Â
the only other adult person on this playground is standing a few steps away from your bench, navy sweatered arms crossed across his chest, white cap adorning his curly haired head. he looks intimidating and cold, like heâd shatter you with just a glance.Â
eventually, you muster up the courage to speak to him. âuhm, excuse me?âÂ
the man turns to you like he was expecting you to speak to him, moustached lips turning into a welcoming smile. âwhatâs up?âÂ
âis that your child in the sandbox?â you point to the boy, although you could already tell they were relatedâ the subtle curls sticking out from under his cap matched the boysâ ones perfectly. the man nods, a little confused. âokay so this is really random, but i like to take pictures of moments in my daughterâs life and i was wondering if youâre okay with your son being in it?â
the stranger seems to let out a sigh of relief, a little less anxious about your line of questioning. âyeah, thatâs fine.âÂ
you give him a slight nod accompanied by a small smile. he watches as you pull out your camera, bring it up to your eye and get your perfect shot before putting it back into your bag. when your eyes flicker back towards him, he hesitantly extends a hand. âiâm lando.â
you blink at him twice before getting up and shaking his hand. ânice to meet you, lando. iâm y/n.â
he lingers for a moment, just watching you when you turn your attention back to the kids in the sandbox. the little boy is sharing his dinosaur bucket with stevie and sheâs shovelling sand into it, babbling on about something you canât hear.Â
àż àż*:ïŸmarch 27th
âstevie!â
your head whips towards the source of the sound, coming from a young boy. it takes you a few seconds before you notice his dad and both of you smile at each other.Â
stevie runs up to the boy and gives him a tight squeeze. âtheo!âÂ
over the past two weeks, you had come to the park a few times and met lando, and his son theo, there each time. not on purpose, itâs just that your park schedules just seemed to match up.Â
stevie became very fond of theo over such a short time and it warms your heart to see her beaming face as they play tag around the swing set.
âis your kid a picky eater?â lando suddenly asks, trying to break the unnecessarily awkward silence. âtheo doesnât eat carrots, all of a sudden. used to be his favourite snack until literally this morning.âÂ
you try to hide your laughter when lando pinches the bridge of his nose, jokingly frustrated with his son. âstevie doesnât eat the crust on bread or broccoli stems.âÂ
âtheo would agree with her about the importance of crustless bread in their diet,â lando hums, nodding at your answer. âsometimes i wonder if heâs even my kid, âcause his taste in food is so different.âÂ
âheâs the spitting image of you, lando, i figured he was yours before we even spoke.â you roll your eyes, playfully. âand i donât think taste in anything is genetic. at least i hope not. god forbid stevie goes through the awkward teenage phase of wearing strictly skinny jeans and band tees.âÂ
lando chuckles. âyeah, i couldnât see teenage theo rocking straight and damaged hair.âÂ
âdid you straighten it?â you tilt your head to the side, curious as to why anyone would want to get rid of their curls.Â
âused to,â he nods. âmet theoâs mum and she taught me the proper techniques and products to use to get my hair healthy and curly again.âÂ
ah, theoâs mum. you had wondered if lando had a partner. not for any particular reason, it was just because you only ever saw him at the park with theo and never the boys mum.
âmum!â stevie runs up to you, out of breath. âthirsty.â
your daughter wasnât a fan of using many words in her sentences and, at first, you had begun to worry about it, but after many doctors visits, they confirmed that it was just a quirk she had adopted.
you open your bag and take out her water bottle. stevie basically rips it out of your hands, urgent to get as many gulps down as she can before she continues to play tag with theo.Â
the boy was stood by his dad, hugging him around the waist as lando pushed theoâs curls out of his face. âyou tired yet?â he asks, already knowing the answer.Â
ânuh uh,â theo shakes his head, instantly. âi like playing with stevie.âÂ
âi know you do, bud, but we have to make dinner. you said youâd help me make that cheesy pasta you like.â lando raises his brows a few times, trying to pique his son's interest.
theo sighs. âi know. could stevie come over someday, then?âÂ
landoâs eyes flicker up to yours, âcould she? i host the best tea parties in town.âÂ
you turn your head back to stevie when an excited gasp leaves her lips. âtea party?â she practically squeals as she repeats what lando said. âmum, can we go? please, please, please!âÂ
the expectant look on stevie, theo, and even landoâs, faces makes you laugh. âi donât see why not.âÂ
àż àż*:ïŸapril 4th
âand would the princess like some biscuits with her tea?â lando asked, clad in grey sweatpants, white shirt⊠and a superman cape. apparently this tea party turned into a costume party, and you didnât get the memo.
your daughter giggled before tipping her head and lifting up the sides of her cinderella dress. âyes, please.â
theo sat between them, happily smiling at the exchange between lando and stevie. âi want some too, dad!â
âbiscuits for batman and cinderella coming right up!â he smiles at them before looking at you and nodding his head as an urge for you to get up. you follow him into the kitchen.Â
âhad no idea you were superman, i feel like i should bow down to my hero or something,â you smile over the rim of your cup.Â
ânah, itâs a sidegig.â lando shrugs, nonchalantly, as he pulls out a few different types of biscuits from a cupboard. âis stevie allergic to anything?âÂ
ânope,â you shake your head. âbut she likes to say sheâs allergic to cucumber peel.âÂ
âah, the famous excuse for not eating food they donât like. been there. theo was trying to convince me that he was allergic to tomatoes until i told him what ketchup was made from.â lando laughed.Â
you smile at how fondly he speaks of theo. âwhereâs theoâs mum?â you suddenly blurt, eyes wide as you cover your mouth. âsorry, thatâs such a personal question, i didnât mean to.â
âwell, you were clearly curious about it.â lando looks at you. âand thatâs okay. but iâd rather talk about something else.âÂ
âyes, sorry.â you nod. âwhat do you do for work?â
âi work at a karting place. i own it, actually.â lando spreads the biscuits out nicely onto a platter, adding a few cut up fruits from the fridge to make somewhat of a charcuterie board.Â
âoh, so thatâs why you can afford karting for theo,â you hum, before taking a sip of your coffee, remembering one of the first conversations you had about your childrenâs hobbies. stevie likes to draw and play pretend, meanwhile theo finds joy in racing.Â
âthat and his godfather being an F1 driver,â lando smiles fondly, eyes darting up to yours for a brief second before he goes back to assembling the snack board. âi used to race, too, before theo.âÂ
âdo you miss it?â you watch him closely, noticing the slight wince in his face.Â
eventually, he shrugs. âsometimes. other times, i realise how little energy fatherhood takes out of me compared to sitting in a small, hot space for hours at a time.âÂ
âmm,â you hum again, nodding. you canât really imagine anything harder than motherhood. âbut thatâs cars versus raising and nourishing a whole other human and personality.â
âyeah, true.â he agrees. âi guess i just got lucky with theo.â
âor he got lucky with you.â you and lando share a glance that lasts a little too long and seems a little too fond for just acquainted parents. you clear your throat and look away, instead choosing to watch whateverâs left in your mostly empty cup.
àż àż*: may 23rd
after a few more weeks of playdates at each otherâs houses, theo saw it fit to include stevie in one of his favourite things in the worldâ karting.
the young boy pestered his father endlessly, using his puppy eyes technique to get what he wanted. âplease?â he asked, dragging out the last syllable of the word to be a little more annoying and convincing.
âiâm sorry, bud. i donât think sheâll like karting.â lando watched his sons face turn from hopeful to frustrated. the little boy crossed his arms over his chest, turning himself away from lando and facing the nearest wall to their couch.Â
âi wonât go if sheâs not there.âÂ
the simple yet strongly made statement forced lando to hold back a snort. âfine, iâll call and see if sheâd like to come. but iâm not promising anything.â
when friday afternoon rolled around, lando was delightedâ and relievedâ to see you and stevie making your way over to where he and theo were waiting.Â
âdad, itâs stevie!â theoâs face lit up as stevie ran over to them. âhi!â
âhi, theo!â stevie smiled and hugged him. she waved at lando. âhey, dude!âÂ
âstevie, what did i tell you about calling people dude?â you say and playfully roll your eyes before looking at lando. âshe randomly picked it up from who knows where and now everyone is dude.âÂ
lando chuckles. âthatâs funny, dude.â he looks down at stevie with an excited grin. âyou ready to race?âÂ
âheck yeah, dude.â stevie giggles and balls her hand into a fist, bumping it with landoâs. her hazel eyes look intensely at his open palm when he offers her a hand, confused as for whether or not heâs safe to walk with.
stevieâs seen and spent time with lando multiple times now, but everytime she did, you were there. in this moment, she was stood alone next to theo and lando, and even though you were only a few steps behind her, she felt like she was all by herself.
she turns her blonde head of hair towards you, eyes glancing up to look at yours. she was looking for any sign of disapproval or worry, but instead she saw you nodding your head encouragingly. âyou need to get your helmet on, baby. lando will help you and then you can meet me back here, okay?â
stevie bites her lip with a glint of worry in her eye, but swiftly turns around and places her tiny palm in landoâs. lando gives you a small smile and the three of them make their way into the building.Â
stevieâs worries seem to lessen the more lando jokes around with her. first, he puts his balaclava on backwards, making both the kids laugh at how goofy he looked while flailing his arms around in the air. secondly, he tries to put on a helmet too small, which again results in a fit of giggles from theo and stevie. eventually, when he finds the perfect size helmet for stevie, he gets theoâs oneâ obviously designed with his favourite animated characters and coloursâ and leads the kids outside.Â
you watch as stevie runs to you, looking like a bobble-head because of how huge the helmet seemed. âwoah, look at you.â you gasp as you squat down to be her height. âyou scared?âÂ
ânuh uh,â stevie shakes her head. âlando said iâm a rockstar and iâll do great.âÂ
your heart swells a bit. just as youâre about to speak, theo runs up to you both. âsorry, but my dad asked to bring stevie over to get her ready. he said you can go make coffee inside, though!âÂ
âthank you, theo,â you smile softly and get up, watching as the two kids run towards lando with their hands held.Â
while you navigate through the building and try to find a place where you can secretly watch stevie and theo racing, lando explains how everything works to stevie.Â
âokay, so,â he places a hand atop her left foot, âyouâll have to push this foot forward to move, and this one,â he places the same hand on her other foot, âto slow down and stop. okay?âÂ
âjust like a car?â stevie tilts her head to the side, her interest piqued despite her never even seeing how a kart drives.Â
lando smiles and nods. âjust like a car. if you get scared, you can slow down and stop, and iâll run over to help you. you can go as slow as youâd like but donât go too fast, you could hurt yourself or get dizzy.âÂ
âokay, dude,â stevie nods, trying her best to retain as much of the information as she could. her eyes follow lando as he walks over towards theoâs kart, the two talking about something that made theo laugh.Â
you watch from inside the building, worried eyes following landoâs every move. when he starts up stevieâs kart, you can briefly feel your heart stop beating. youâve never been so scared for her, and even though lando assured you thereâs no way she could hurt herself, youâre not sure if you could forgive yourself in the case of an accident.Â
lando finds you holding a hand over your chest as you watched the two kids drive around the track. âhey,â he said, calmly, trying his best not to startle you.Â
you gave him a weak smile. âhi. was she nervous?âÂ
âa little, but thatâs normal.â he walked up and stood next to you, before placing a reassuring hand on your shoulder. âi explained to her how it works. sheâs a smart kid and a fast learner.âÂ
âyeah,â you nodded. âwhat if something goes wrong?âÂ
âit wonât.â his voice was calm as you leaned into his touch, his arm sneaking down your back and around your waist to pull you into a side-hug. âi asked theo to let her pass him a few times so she gets the full experience of karting. maybe youâll have a little racer on your hands.âÂ
your head subconsciously lays on his shoulder as your crossed arms stay firm against your chest. âyeah, donât think iâd be able to afford it, but i guess her and theo would get to have more playdates.âÂ
âiâd help you,â he hummed, his own head resting atop of yours. âi mean, the competitions would probably cost a bit but iâd provide her with a kart and helmet. max would also love to pitch in.âÂ
âdonât be silly,â you laughed a little. âshe already does ballet in the mornings.âÂ
âwho said she canât be a ballerina and a racer at the same time? sheâd be the coolest kid on the planet if so,â he softly smiles, eyes looking down at your focused face. âbesides, iâd get to spend a little more time with her mum.âÂ
âmhm,â you bit back a wider smile. âwho says you canât do that regardless?âÂ
landoâs heart skips a beat when you turn your head to look at him, only then realising how close you two actually wereâ his nose brushed yours when you raised your head and his breath fanned your face. he felt his stomach drop and he froze before finally giving in.Â
just as you felt his lips inch closer to yours, an employee of his knocked on the doorframe to the room. âone of the kiddos stopped in the middle of the track and sheâs asking for lando.âÂ
the curly-haired man jolts away from you, as if he was caught doing something he shouldnât have been and turns around to awkwardly say, âuh, okay, iâll go and, uhm, check.âÂ
you canât help but shake your head with a small laugh as you watched the man leave the room at record speed.Â
meanwhile, lando was trying to keep his composure in front of the kids. heâs sure theyâd blab to you if they noticed him smiling like an idiot. âeverything okay, kiddo?â he kneeled in front of stevieâs kart.Â
stevie tries to pull the helmet off, but the buckle keeps it tightly situated on her small head. lando helps her unbuckle it and pulls the helmet off, watching as she takes off the bright pink balaclavaâ her choiceâ and sighs. âiâm hungry.âÂ
lando snorts at how random her request seemed. âalright, letâs go get theo and ask your mum if sheâd like to join us for dinner, yeah?âÂ
àż àż*:ïŸ
âno, stevie, we donât throw the food.âÂ
the little girl halted her movements, her hand in the air as her eyes focused on yours. she had a fist full of vegetables, ones that she clearly wasnât enjoying, and was getting ready to throw on the floor and an evil glint in her eye. instead of doing as she first intended, she opened her fingers and the vegetables fell all over the table, a few of them landing in landoâs lap.
âsorry, sometimes she just-â you were already making up excuses for your daughterâs childish behaviour when lando cut you off.
âitâs okay, sheâs probably overstimulated from an eventful day. it happens.â he shrugs as he picks the peas off from his lap. âyâknow, theo threw up on me once after karting, which is why he refuses to eat before he goes on track anymore.â
you stifle a laugh before sitting back up from collecting the vegetables that fell to the floor. stevie was in active conversation with theo and seemed to have forgotten about the vegetables. a few minutes pass before lando speaks again.
âthank you,â he notices the confusion in the tilt of your head. âfor coming. it means a lot to theo and, well, to me.âÂ
the sincerity in his voice made all the blood in your body rush to your cheeks, tinting them the gentlest shade of maroon that lando didnât miss. âno worries, weâre happy to join you anytime.âÂ
lando ignores the feelings brewing in his chest and continues eating. you follow his lead and all four of you were done eating in another half hour.Â
the waiter came to your table and before you could even ask to split the bill, lando was handing hera a few paper bills and she had scurried off to get his change.Â
âwerenât we going to split?â you ask, a little confused.Â
lando shrugged. âitâs on me, donât worry about it.âÂ
you had already felt bad that he didnât accept your money for the karting that day, or the ice cream he had bought for stevie a week or so ago, but dinner? you felt the guilt bubble in your stomach growing. âlando, itâs not fair on yo-âÂ
âcan you just accept that you donât have to do everything by yourself?â he reasons. âi asked you to come to karting, i paid for it, same with dinner and that extra hour at the park so the kiddos could get ice cream from the ice cream truck. i did it because i want to and i donât expect anything in return.â
when you look up at him, your expression clearly less upset than before, he decides to crack a joke. âexcept for maybe a kiss or two.âÂ
you roll your eyes and the waiter brings back his change just as youâre about to make a witty comeback.Â
lando, being the gentleman that he is, offered to drive you both home and you couldnât deny it after seeing how sleepy stevie had gotten. she fell asleep on the ride home and after lando pulled into the driveway of your small home, you got out to unbuckle her and carry her inside.Â
theo waited patiently in the car, listening to a podcast about dinosaurs in his earbuds while lando walked you to your door.Â
he smiled down at the sleeping stevie in your arms, bringing a hand up to gently caress her cheek with his finger. âwe mustâve wore her out.âÂ
âshe hadnât had a nap today,â you looked down at your daughter. âpretty sure sheâll sleep through the night.âÂ
landoâs gaze had shifted to your face subconsciously and he didnât realise how close you were getting when you looked back up at him. you pulled him in with a soft hold of his jaw, your lips gently pressing against his.Â
landoâs hand came up to hold your cheek. the kiss lasted way longer than you intended, but you werenât complaining. when you finally pulled away, breathless and pink, lando was speechless and in awe. âthank you for today.âÂ
you closed the door behind yourself, watching through the window of your living room as his car pulled out of your driveway. stevie covered her mouth with her small hand as she giggled. âooo, mama kissed cool dude.â
a small gasp left your lips as you looked down at stevie. âyou saw that?â she nodded her small head. âoh, god.âÂ
àż àż*: may 28th
you were making dinner in the kitchen when stevie yelled for you from the living room.Â
âwhat is it?â you walk down the hall while wiping your hands on a dishrag. stevie points at the window, landoâs car coming into view when you step closer. âoh, whatâs he doing here?âÂ
stevie watches from the window as you make your way outside to greet a disheveled lando and a smiley theo.Â
âhey, everything okay?â you ask when the man finally looks up at you. âi didnât know you were coming over, i wouldâve doubled up on dinner.âÂ
âiâm not staying for long,â he says, hastily. you could tell he was stressed out and rushing somewhere. âcould you watch theo for tonight?âÂ
âwhat?â you blink.Â
âitâs max, he, uhm,â lando turns to theo and tells him to run inside to see what stevie was up to. when the young boy is out of earshot, lando continues. âmax isnât eating or sleeping. heâs had a bad race and the mediaâs giving him shit for it. iâm going to visit him and check up on him, and iâd usually bring theo but i donât want him to see max like that.âÂ
âoh, god.â you place a hand on landoâs shoulder and he just pulls you into a tight hug. âi canât imagine how stressed you are. you go take care of max, okay? theo will be okay with us.â Â
âthank you so much,â lando pulls away and pecks your lips. âiâll be back tomorrow evening.âÂ
and before you can even register that he just kissed you, heâs in his car and halfway down the neighbourhood.
when you make your way inside, the kiddos are on the floor in the living room, theoâs backpack open with half of the content spilled out.Â
âwould you like to have dinner with us, theo?â you ask the boy and he shakes his head, explaining that lando had given him his dinner before hastily packing his sleepover bag. but when you offered a snack of crackers and cheese, the boy happily agreed.
you turned on an animated film for the kids to watch as you did your washing up for the night before bed. a small smile creeped up on your face as you heard the two little humans giggling about something that only existed in their own world.
as the evening progressed and the kids grew more tired, you laid them both to bed. stevie had a second bed in her room as her cousin often comes visit during the summer, which ended up being perfect for a kid theoâs height.Â
routinely, you were obligated to switch on the starry night light and read a story. theo requested a bedtime story about dinosaurs, meanwhile stevie wanted one about princesses, and you somehow managed to make both work.
once you heard the familiar tiny snores escape stevieâs lips, and when theo had turned to his side, you left the room and kept a small crevice of the door ajar.Â
the next morning, you had already begun to prepare pancakes while dulcet sounds of jazz music filled your kitchen, when theo gently tugged on your apron.Â
âyou okay?â you kneeled down to his height and theo rubbed his tired eyes awake before pulling you into a hug. âoh.âÂ
âdad always gives me morning cuddles,â he explained, a certain sadness in his voice that broke your heart to hear.Â
you picked the boy up in your arms and gently caressed his back. âyou miss him, huh?âÂ
theo just nodded, nestling his head onto your shoulder as his arms laid draped over your biceps. âi knew you were as nice as dad said.âÂ
you canât help but softly smile at his comment. âthank you, theo. he talks about me?âÂ
you knew it was wrong to ask a kid such a question, but the words had already escaped your mouth before you could catch them.Â
âsometimes,â he hums, a yawn threatening to make its presence. âi think he likes you a lot.âÂ
âyeah? how so?â you poke his side as a tease.Â
theo straightens up a bit, to see your face. âhe gets shy when he talks about you to maxie and pietra. and he gets all red like you are right now.âÂ
you shake your head and tickle his face with the hair that flings around you both. âam not.â
âare too,â he giggles.Â
you place him down on the ground and give him an encouraging tap on the back. âhow about you go wake stevie up for pancakes?âÂ
âcan you cut it into a pterodactyl?âÂ
 âcan i cut it into a pterodactyl?â theo giggles when you scoff, displaying faux offence. âof course i can.â
the little boy runs back down the hallway and towards stevieâs room. your heart bursts a little when he calls out for your daughter.
âstevie! your mumâs making dinosaur pancakes!âÂ
àż àż*: june 10th
you expected your first date with lando to be somewhere fancy enough for you to wear a dress you bought while still pregnant with stevie.Â
fortunately for both of you, lando offered a night in and you were far too big of a romcom lover to deny his request.Â
âthank god you agreed to this,â lando slumps his shoulders when you pry open your front door. you take a second to admire his simple attireâ a light blue zip up hoodie with matching sweatpants.Â
you move to the side and open the door a little more to let him in. âthank god to max and pietra for agreeing to watch both the kids.âÂ
âoh, yeah, theyâve been begging me to bring both you and stevie over since the first time you four met.â he sets the bags of stuff down on the dining table. âi think pietra adores you a little.âÂ
âi hope she knows the feelings are mutual, sheâs so cool.â you smile softly.Â
âhey, she said the same about you!â lando laughs and when you come close enough, he wraps an arm around your waist and pulls you into a hug from behind while unbagging.Â
âi bought way too much ice cream but i didnât know what flavour you liked best so i chose five that i hoped you liked.â he explains as he takes out the third box. âoh, and wine.âÂ
you lean back into his chest and turn your head just barely to place a kiss on his jawline. âthank you.â
landoâs heartbeat speeds up in a brief second and he hopes you canât see the blush on his face. he quickly recollects himself and, without letting you go, brings both of you to your kitchen. of course, both of you being so close against one another means that you nearly trip and fall with every step you take.Â
eventually, through many giggles and bumps into furniture, you two find yourselves in the living room, spoons and ice cream in hand.Â
lando takes a seat on the sofa, arm draped over the back of it as an invitation for you to join him. once you pluck the remote off the coffee table and fetch a blanket for the two of you, lando feels you nestle against him.
âwhatâre we watching?â he asks, eyes focused on you instead of the screen.Â
you shrug. âhorror movie?âÂ
âno,â he sternly says. âi hate them. rom-com, please.â
you stifle a laugh and focus back on the television. after skimming through the films, the two of you choose notting hill and cozy up to watch it.Â
about half an hour in, you notice landoâs heartbeat quicken underneath your cheek, but you decide to brush it off as nothing. eventually, he speaks up.Â
âso, iâve been thinking,â lando begins, his voice soft and cautious. his eyes search your face, looking for any sign that might stop him from saying whatâs on his mind. but all he sees is the face heâs grown to love and that only urges him to continue.
you slightly sit up, a little worried by what heâs going to say. âabout what?â
âus, our kids, you.â he reaches over to grab your hand in his. as his thumb gently caresses the back of your hand, his eyes rest on yours. âi love the way things are between us lately, and i like being around you and stevie, but i want to be more than just movie nights and playdates.âÂ
your heart skips a beat. âyou mean⊠like, officially? you want to be together?âÂ
he nods with that same smile youâve grown so fond of. âyeah, i mean, i know itâs a long-shot and itâs risky with our kidsâ friendship and all, but theo already loves you and iâm sure stevie adores me,â he jokes and you playfully roll your eyes. âbut it would make me the happiest man alive if you were my girlfriend.âÂ
âwow,â youâre speechless. âi didnât think iâd actually hear you say that.â
âiâve been overthinking it for days,â he laughs, anxiety riddled all across his face as he watches your expression. he canât exactly read it and that makes him even more nervous. ânot to pressure you or anything-â
âyes,â you cut him off, a wide grin on your face as he pulls you into a hug. âiâve never been so giddy about someone before.â
âyeah?â he flashes you that same, wide grin before pulling you in for a kiss.
âoh gosh, we have to tell the kids,â you gasp with a hand gently pushing landoâs kissy face away. he furrows his brows, confused as for why he canât kiss his girlfriend.
âtheo knows,â lando shrugs. âi told him that iâd be asking you to be my girlfriend and at first asked if heâd be okay with that.â
âand whatâd he say?â you lay your head in landoâs lap as he plays with your hair, a small smile on his face.Â
âhe asked if that means youâll be able to stay around more, and then said that you make the best pancakes.â
âoh, did he tell you about the dinosaur pancakes?â
lando nods. âhe asked me to make them the next morning and told me to take him to your house, because i didnât get them right.â
a laugh escapes your lips. âyou couldâve come over, you know? i wouldâve been happy to serve theo some more dino pancakes, and maybe taught you how to make them.â
âyeah?â he leans down to place a kiss on your lips, hoping that this time you donât push him away. and itâs quite the opposite actually, because he feels your hand on the back of his head, tugging gently at the curls cascading down his neck as you pull him in deeper.
despite having kissed you a couple times before, this kiss makes lando that much more excited to spend as much time with you as you and stevie were willing to grant him.Â
and heâll make sure itâs the most loved you two will ever feel.Â
àż àż*: december 14th
âtheo, watch your step.â
the young boy was carrying a box bigger than himself with stevie following right behind him, a smaller box of her stuff in hand.Â
today was the day you were moving into your new homeâ a home you and stevie will be sharing with the two most important boys in your lifeâ and you couldnât be more excited.Â
to some, it seemed like it all came too soonâ the relationship, the moving in together, caring for each otherâs child whenever the other needed it, but neither you nor lando cared what others thought.Â
it was clear from the first few months of knowing you that lando would be head over heels in love with you. he didnât care how quickly your lives entwined, instead he was excited to see what would grow from it.
you placed the last few boxes in the living room and stood in the doorframe to the dining room, watching as stevie and theo chased each other, their laughter echoing off of the walls.Â
landoâs hands creep around your waist as he pulls you in from behind. he places a gentle kiss against your hairline, âwelcome home, love.â
you turn around to face him, arms instinctively hugging his neck as your eyes well with tears.Â
âwelcome home to us.âÂ
àż àż*: two years later, june 26th
the sun peeked from behind the clouds, rays of light bouncing off of your face as the pinks, blues and oranges merged into a beautiful sunset above the water.Â
it was one of the warmer days and lando decided to take you all out for a picnic on the beach. it wasnât unusual for him to plan spontaneous activities, but still he was nervous you knew what he was up to.Â
the velvet box sat tucked away in the bag of stuff he packed, his heartbeat quickening every time you dove into it to find something you needed.Â
thatâs where theo came in.
ây/n,â he called out just as your hand was reaching into the exact corner the box was located in. you turned your attention to the boy, sitting up straight.Â
while theo was blowing your mind with his dinosaur facts, lando hastily stuck his hand into the bag and retrieved the ring box, immediately putting it into his pocket. when theo glanced back over to his dad, lando gave him a reassuring wink and the boy took off to play by the water with stevie, again.Â
âoh, guess thatâs all he wanted,â you shrugged before turning around to lando. âyou didnât pack any napkins?âÂ
âoh,â lando panicked. fuck, through all his meticulous planning with max and pietra, he forgot to pack the most important thing. how was he supposed to propose with his hands all messy? âuhm, no, mustâve forgot, sorry.â
you leaned over to place a gentle kiss on his cheek. âthatâs alright, iâll go splash around in the water with the kiddos and wash my hands then.âÂ
lando watched as you pulled yourself up and made your way towards the water, his heart pounding against his sternum. he took one last glance at the box that could make or break the future with you he had already planned out in his head, and followed your lead.Â
once he was close enough, stevie ran up to him. âlando! the water is so warm, come feel it.âÂ
he couldnât say no to the little girls pleading eyes and followed her as she dragged him to the water. he took that as one last chance to calm himself down and get it over with.Â
lando was only nervous because it wasnât just you heâs proposing to. stevie had become such an important part of his life that heâs afraid of ruining her perception of him if the proposal were to go wrong. and his mother already loved the girl, even after the handful of times theyâve met.Â
so, anxiety was understandable in his case.
he watched stevieâs wide grin as she looked out at the water, and then behind herself to where her mum and theo were chatting.Â
you had noticed landoâs behaviour change, ever since last night, but you figured it was something heâd bring up to you if he wanted to talk about it, so you havenât paid much thought to it.Â
landoâs made his to you, stevieâs small hand in his, and his other one on the box. his chest felt like it was getting smaller and smaller with each step he took towards you. the only thing that calmed him down was your smile while looking at them both.Â
you watched as stevie let go and ran towards you, yet quickly swerved to find where theo was. your eyes followed her to see that she wouldnât run into any trouble, and when you turned back around, you saw a nervous lando. âyou okay?â you nervously laugh. âyouâve been weird all day today.âÂ
âthereâs so many things i could say to you right now, but i think itâs better to save them for our vows.â
âvow- what?â you furrow your brows. thatâs when he sinks down to one knee and you feel your eyes well up with tears.
he took a breath, a small smile adorning his face, and then the words you had dreamed of hearing, ever since you were a little girl, left his mouth.
âwill you marry me?â
àż àż*: wedding day
you watched the on-going bustle of guests from the window of your lonesome dressing room.
the echoing sound of your heart pounding against your sternum was loud in your head as you tried to steady your breathing. this was actually, really happening.Â
you felt your hands shake with how nervous you were, albeit having practiced your vows in the mirror for the past two months, and knowing that lando is truly the one you wish to spend the rest of your life with.Â
your feet drag you across the hardwood floor of the dressing room, fingers nervously fiddling with one of the more textured parts of your dress. you could feel yourself getting more and more nervous as the clock on the wall ticked by, each second granting you a moment more of anxiety and stress.Â
your head whips towards the door when a knock echoes through the empty room. âuhm, who is it?âÂ
the door pries open to reveal a curly head of hair with a hand over his eyes. âme, may i come in?âÂ
âwhat the hell, no?!â you exclaim, panicking. âitâs bad luck for the groom to see his bride before the ceremony, we talked about this.âÂ
despite your best efforts to verbally usher him out, lando makes his way inside and shuts the door behind him, his eyelashes resting atop his cheeks as the green of his irises stay hidden behind eyelids.Â
âi know, i know,â he sighs in defeat. âbut i just had to come see you before the ceremony. well, not see you, exactly, but just, be in your presence, i guess.âÂ
you drop your arms by your sides, sulking a little. âiâm so nervous, lan,â lando could hear your pout and it made him smile.Â
âi know, me too,â he makes his way over to where he thinks you are and reaches a hand out to find the cusp of your waist. he can feel the fabric of the dress as it sits atop your skin, a smirk forming on his lips. âfeels pretty.â
âhey, no!â you swat his hand away. âiâll run away from the wedding if you do that again.â
âoh, câmon,â he defends, smiling underneath his palm. his eyes were still shut and his left hand covered them tightly, not a single space left between his fingers to ensure that he couldnât get even a glance. âi donât even get a feel?âÂ
ânot even a feel,â you cross your arms over your chest and realised he canât see your sassiness like he usually would. âi just crossed my arms, by the way.â
âi know,â lando shrugs. âi also know youâve been staring out the window and ogling at people like a psycho.â
you furrow your brows, âhowâd you know that?â
âcause i know you.âÂ
a shiver runs down your spine and you canât help but blush at what lando says, even after close to three years of being together. âwhat did you really come here for?â
âa good luck kiss?â he asks, so soft and hopeful, that it makes you give in. lando feels your hands gently guiding his face down towards yours, before your lips softly rest against his. he, of course, tries to kiss you like usualâ aggressive, long and sweet.Â
yet you pull away before he can even think of pulling you in by the chin. âthe better kiss is for the ceremony, babe,â
he sighs and drops his shoulders, his head dropping as he displays faux disappointment. âfine, whatever. saying you hate me would hurt less.â
âyeah, because i hate you so much that both me and my daughter are taking your last name,â you roll your eyes.Â
âour daughter,â his voice is stern when he corrects you. lando hears a noise outside the door, suddenly alert and tense. âi think itâs almost time.â
you take one last peek out the window and notice everyone in their seats. âoh, god, yeah. go, you canât be seen here.â
âalright, love you, see you out thereâ he turns around and reaches for the door. âpretend i winked at you when i said âsee you out thereâ, cause i couldnât actually wink an-â
âlando, go!â you step closer to him, your dress whispering beneath you as your hands gently urge him to leave.Â
âone more kiss?â he suddenly turns back around and you roll your eyes.Â
âyouâre impossible,â you cup his face again.
âso iâve been told,â he smirks against your lips. âand yet youâre marrying me, mrs. norris.â
âi wouldnât have it any other way,â you place another peck against his pursed lips before the door shuts in front of you, and youâre left alone with your thoughts, again.Â
you stand there for a moment, heart racing and palms sweating, yet still you were feeling more certain than ever that this was the best decision you ever couldâve made.
àż àż*:ïŸ
the ceremony has long passed and now you are in the middle of the dance floor, your hands held with theo.Â
the young boy expressed that he didnât want to dance anymore, so you brought him to the table where his plate sits. on it, of course, are the dinosaur shaped chicken nuggets you and lando specifically requested for theo to have.Â
your kids were now six and five, both very unique and yet somehow very similar.Â
theodore maxwell norris was a smart boy, interested in pretty much anything to do with dinosaurs, space or monster trucks. he requested to spend his sixth birthday at a museum, which stevie was absolutely thrilled with. the two young children had always known how to entertain each other, ever since they met.Â
stephanie jane norris, albeit a year younger than theo, was also quite smart for her age. she found interest in princesses, nature and most recently, karting. she accompanied theo to multiple of his races and took part in some practice laps, and found that itâs actually more fun than she remembered.Â
your eyes caught a glimpse of lando as he danced with stevie on the dance floor, the little girl actively shaking her head to a rock song and lando laughing at her with max. the girl then grabbed both of them by the hand and started dancing in a circle, in turn bringing a smile to your face.Â
ây/n?â theo poked your arm to catch your attention. you look down at him as heâs sat on the chair, eyes glaring up to yours. âdo i have to call you mum now?âÂ
you kneel down to be his height and place a reassuring hand on his shoulder, âyou donât have to do anything you donât feel comfortable with.âÂ
the little boy just shrugs before taking another chicken nugget off of his plate, âokay, mum.â
you felt your heart swell and eyes well with tears at the fact that he so casually called you mum. you had imagined that itâd take at least a few more years of getting more comfortable with you for that to happen, but the boy saw no reason not to call you that. stevie called lando dad, anyway, so it only seemed fair in his eyes.
what theodore failed to realise was that, without even knowing it, he managed to make extra room in your heart and build a pillow fort there, in which he and stevie resided. you had convinced yourself that stevie would be your only true love in this world, that you didnât need to meet anyone or have more kids.
itâs funny how a man and his son could waltz their way into your life, and turn it around for the better.Â
theo felt you place a gentle kiss to his head before you excused yourself to go dance with his dad. in the meanwhile, stevie had made her way behind theo and scared him.Â
âdonât do that, stevie,â theodore warns before picking up his apple juice box and taking a few gulps.Â
the girl shifts her weight from her heels to her toes. âsorry, theo. do you want to dance?âÂ
âcan i be a dancing t-rex?â he asked, an eyebrow rising with curiosity.Â
stevie giggled. âonly if i can be your sister t-rex. letâs go!â Â
he watched as you ran back towards the dance floor, his face still evidently confused as he mumbled to himself, âi thought she already was my sister?âÂ
àż àż*:ïŸinterview about max fewtrellâs wdc
âtheo! daddyâs on tv!â stevieâs voice echoed through the living room and theo came rushing in with a bowl of popcorn, as if the interview was some sort of movie.
you were sandwiched between the two kids, the bowl strategically placed in your lap so they donât have to strain too much to get their snack.Â
the television screen showed a clear shot of lando and max chatting, landoâs arm wrapped around his best friendâs shoulders as he congratulated him again.Â
the interviewerâ theo had informed you that he was a retired formula one driver, nico rosbergâ invited them in to chat and all three of you eagerly watched, waiting for them to start talking.Â
âlando! what a pleasant surprise to see you here,â his german, or maybe british, accent echoed in the living room. âhavenât seen you here since you left the sport.â
âyeah, yâknow,â lando flashed his wide, toothy grin, âlife had other plans.âÂ
âyeah?â nico tilted his head to the side. âhowâs your family? your son doing okay?â
lando pointed at the camera next to them. âtheyâre watching from our home back in england,â he turns his face towards the lens and waves at it. âhi guys.â
stevie and theo eagerly wave back. âhi dad!â they say, in unison, before breaking into a fit of giggles.Â
lando continued talking about personal matters, trying his best not to get too into it. he knew how the media was, and you had already had some encounters with less than pleasant fans.Â
finally, as nico was ready to wrap up the interview, he asked lando if there was anything he missed from his racing days.Â
âhonestly? no.â he shrugged. âi think quitting opened up a plethora of new opportunities for me, including growing my own little family. my wife and i are blessed to have each other and raise our daughter and sons.â
âsons?â nico furrows his brows. he lowers the microphone away from their faces and leans in cautiously. âi thought you had only theo?âÂ
theo looks up at you. âyouâre pregnant?âÂ
âiâm going to have another brother? awesome!â stevie jumped up on the couch, and your fingers found the bridge of your nose to pinch, in search of any comfort.Â
lando panicked. âi, uhm, max did great. heâs much stronger and tougher than he lets on, and maybe we should let the champion talk, yeah?â he blurted out all in one breath as he grabbed max by the shoulders and pulled him towards nico. max shook his head with confusion before turning towards the interviewer.Â
little did he know his best friend just announced your pregnancy to the entire world.Â
àż àż*: motherâs day
âmum!âÂ
you heard their fragile little voices from behind your closed bedroom door and tried your best to sit up, your pregnant belly making it that much harder to function.Â
youâve been on bedrest for the past week, and itâs been absolutely amazing getting to rest, but so boring. what does one do when forced to stay in bed all day?Â
stevie and theo knew the answer.
âcould we make motherâs day cards for mum?â theo asked lando over breakfast, just as he was making your oatmeal with berries.
the curly-haired man shrugged. âsure, but you only have until tomorrow morning.â
âooh! and can we get her heart balloons and flowers?â stevie muffled, as she finished up the last bites of her pancake. Â
âwe donât speak with our mouths full, love,â lando warns. âbut yes, we can also get her balloons and flowers. you guys think sheâll like that?âÂ
âand a kiss from dad,â stevie giggled before hopping off her chair and making her way to the dish washer. lando shook his head with a laugh.Â
in the very crack of morning, while all of you were sound asleep, lando had gone to the grocery store to buy all the necessitiesâ red roses, self care items, some sweets and, of course, heart balloons, as per stevieâs instructions.Â
when the kiddos woke up and when lando had made sure you were awake as well, they made their way to the master bedroom.Â
their small hands knocked a rhythm onto the door before they heard your silent âcome in!âÂ
your face lit up with a smile when your three favourite people made their way into the bedroom. âhappy motherâs day!â the three of them smiled at you and lando pouted when he saw your eyes well with tears.
you soundlessly said âhormonesâ before stretching your arms out to bring both of your little loves into a hug. Â
stevie presented you her card first. âitâs us! and weâre on an air balloon. and thatâs baby.âÂ
she pointed her little fingers at the five figures on the pageâ you were holding hands with lando and next to you stood your three children. the newborn baby was in a stroller, which you took as a sign that stevie hopes your son will be here soon.Â
next it was theoâs turn. he gave you the card without saying anything, instead offering you another hug when tears spilled down your cheeks as you read it. stars live in space and also in you! happy motherâs day. scribbled in the cutest six year old writing youâve ever read.Â
lando later explained that theo had watched a video about there, supposedly, being stardust in everyoneâs blood, which made you even more emotional.
âthank you, my loves,â you hugged them all once again before lando made his way over to give you a kiss and the flowers.Â
âthank you for being the best wife and mother to my kids that i could have asked for.â
àż àż*:ïŸwhere it all began.
baby noises and giggles fill your living room as you try to set up the camera to the best of your abilities.Â
âtheo, honey, could you hold henry more towards the middle?â you ask as you press your eye to the viewfinder eyepiece to check what the photo would look like.Â
stevie sat on the left side of the sofa, an empty space left on the edge for you, as your newest additionâ a six month old boy named henry parker norrisâ was snuggled between her and theo, with lando on the far right edge.Â
âbabe, just set it to video and come sit,â lando said, a little annoyed by how long the whole process is taking. âhenryâs getting fussy.âÂ
âheâs okay, lan,â you roll your eyes. âand this is going in stevieâs scrapbook, so it needs to be perfect.â
itâs a few more minutes before you finally sit down and wait for ten seconds before you hear the click of your camera. after close inspection, you realise that stevie was making a weird face, lando was mid-blink, your hair looked a mess and theo was looking at henry.Â
a sigh of defeat escapes your lips right as your front door opens and in comes pietra. âoh my god, thank god youâre here.â you exclaim, as if you hadnât invited her for coffee, and she looks at you with a confused smile. âcan you help with family photos?âÂ
she nodded and, without hesitation, followed you back to the living room. pietra stood behind the camera on the not-so-stable tripod and ordered you all around before snapping a few pictures. her logic was that if you take enough pictures in a set amount of time, at least a few of them are going to turn out good.Â
and, after inspecting the pictures closely once more and deciding that theyâre better than just good, you give her a hug and slump into it. âthank you, i was beginning to lose hope of making her a good scrapbook spread for her birthday.âÂ
pietra laughed. âsheâs lucky to have such a hard-working mum, so i doubt sheâd mind. but iâm happy to help!âÂ
after giving him the green light, lando helped the kids change and took care of henryâs feeding and diaper before packing them all up for a walk. âweâll go make dinner while you two take my little man on a walk, sound good?â
you nodded and gave him a soft peck, and pietra followed you out to the front yard. both of you watched as lando, stevie and theo walked towards the car, on their way to the grocery store, while little henry waited for you, snug in his stroller.Â
âi never imagined it,â pietra started. âlando being a dad to more than just theo, i mean. it suits him.âÂ
âyeah?â you turn your head towards her, a small and proud smile on your face as your fingers softly wrapped around the handle of the stroller. âi never imagined finding anyone else as important as stevie was to me. like i didnât know my heart could expand enough to fit more than just her in there, yâknow.âÂ
âyeah,â she nodded, following you as you made your way towards one of your favourite places in the world. âi mean, i guess that makes sense since you were each otherâs biggest love for three years.â
âyeah, but now sheâs a lot more loving to lando than meâ a laugh leaves your lips. the chilly spring air caressed your cheeks as you pushed the beige coloured stroller. your little newborn lay peacefully in it, little eyes curiously wandering around.Â
he was barely six and a half months old, but already so attentive, responsive and curious, and looked just like stevie when she was this age. he was a peaceful baby so farâ not much fussing during the day and he slept well at nights. on the few occasions that he didnât, lando would be up in a flash to take care of your little henryâs needs.
it was endearing to watch him explore fatherhood with three kids now, as opposed to when it was just him and theo. you admired how sweet he was with stevie while explaining why he does what he does when changing diapers or fixing bottles, or how he intently listened to theoâs explanation on how to properly burp a baby.Â
âis this the place?â pietra nudged her chin at the playground thatâs slowly coming more into view. itâs a little more worn nowâ the paint had chipped off the bars where theo used to pretend he was a monkey on, and the slide had little divots, yet it used to be smooth and barely worn out when stevie used to insist on taking it backwards, with her belly to the metal.
it brought back some nostalgia to when you first met lando. it was on the very same bench that pietra was sitting on right now. you watched the playground with a small smile on your lips, a tear threatening to spill from your eye.
henry fussed in the stroller and immediately calmed down when you placed a gentle hand on his tummy to steady him. âweâre at the playground. youâll get to play here with your brother and sister when youâre a little older.â
pietra silently watched as you picked him up and gently laid his cheek to rest on yours, his little eyes adjusting to the light around him. henry looked around, the plethora of colours elicited a few excited oohâs from his little body. âthis is where i met your dada,â you smiled at henry.Â
henry cooed as you pointed to things at the playground and explained each ones significance. you knew he didnât understand it yet, but you were willing to tell him the story over and over again. it was the biggest twist of fate you had ever experiencedâ that very morning, stevie had begged you to finally take a walk since it had been too cold for months now, and you agreed.
if you had been just a little more careful and told her to wait another day, week or month, chances are you wouldnât be holding your baby while your husband made dinner at home with your other two kids.Â
pietra perked up when you walked over to her and she immediately extended her hands to take henry from you. âcome to auntie p,â she baby talked as you handed her your son. âhe has a nose just like landoâs.â
âhe has the neck strength like landoâs, too.â you sit down beside her and closely watch as she gently bounced henry on her knees. just then, you blurted something that had been on your mind for a while. âdo you think itâs weird that lando and i are together?â
âexcuse me?â she turns to you with a confused face. âwhy would anyone think that?â
âi donât know, i mean, likeâŠâ you take a second to collect your thoughts. it was starting to sound like you were regretting this life, meanwhile it was the complete opposite. âlike the way we met, it was random.â
âitâs not random, love,â pietra rolls her eyes. âitâs something called fate.â
henry let out a happy noise at your question, his tiny fingers reaching out to poke at pietraâs face. âyou agree, huh, lilâ man?â she asks as he pushes his whole hand to her cheek, and you canât help but laugh at the unfolding scene in front of you.
after a few moments, when henry was back in his stroller and you two were on your way back home, you looked back to the area behind you with a sentimental look in your eye. âwho knew playgrounds and playdates would bring me the loveliest life i couldâve imagined?â
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Iâm obsessed with Nick from My Fault London đ„° Heâs so cute and kind. A lot better than the Spanish one. I need some fics with this guy

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MAIN MASTERLIST
pairing: XO, Kitty's Min Ho x Female Reader
genre: Fluff, angst, enemies-to-lovers, slow burn, coming-of-age.
warnings: Swearing, mentions of lying, mentions of drinking, mentions of death. (also, gives major 13 year-old wattpad story vibes)
summary: Transferring to KISS was the last thing you had asked for and, yet, a certain tall boy made it seem both worse and better than you expected.
status: Complete. (31.8k words total)
a/n: This is either my best or my worst work ever. I'm still giving it a shot because this show had a bigger impact on me than it should have.

Teaser.
Episode one.
Episode two.
Episode three.
Episode four.
Episode five.
Episode six.
Episode seven.
Episode eight.
Episode nine.
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This is amazing đ„° i love this story đ

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chapter 5 - last part !
chapter 4
chapter 3
chapter 2
chapter 1
â heyoooo !! actually so excited to write conclusion to this story, even though the ending leaves it open for more. which I would totally write if people want?? idk. lots of angst and sappy-ness in this, as per usual. Declan and Bobbie just being obsessed with each other. tw for mentions of substance abuse, cheating, & emotional neglect. thatâs kind of all Iâve got. this was the first fic Iâve written that I finished so I hope yâall enjoyed! also including the song from the title for this chapterâŠcause I love that song. ok here we go.
ââ àż ââ àż ââ àż ââ àż ââ àż ââ àż ââ àż ââ àż
Bobbie had hoped that the night before the wedding, she might get a decent nightâs sleep, but she should have learned by this point that hope was stupid to have. Her stress dreams kept her waking up throughout the night, and then Graemeâs monstrously loud snores would keep her up for a few hours at a time.
At one point, sometime past three in the morning, when he stopped snoring for a moment, she managed to whisper the words into the temporary silence: âI canât go through with this.â Even though she knew in her heart he had heard her, there was no response, other than his eventual snoring when he returned to sleep. And as per usual, Bobbie was left alone to her worries.
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Despite always looking like she could use a day off from work, she was terrible at not working. Sheâd arrived hours earlier than Graeme, to make sure nothing had gone awry. And it hadnât. Every light was just as perfectly prepped and positioned as promised. Joan Sterling was tuning her violin already, the lone musician, just as she had dreamt for her wedding. Her motherâs white, flowing gown was being delicately steamed, brighter and cleaner than sheâd ever seen it. She won so many small battles, and only because of Declan OâHara. Her knight in shining armor, somehow more available than ever and also more untouchable. He and Tony were already on the verge of brawling every other day, and if she called off the wedding for him, he could kiss his work goodbye. Declanâs work meant the world to him. Bobbie had never seen him care for anything else that much.
Well, except maybe one thing.
But none of that would matter in a few hours. This wretched deal would be over with, and their futures safe. Maybe theyâd both be torn up, but surely it would be for the best in the long run. By the time it became clear that her patrolling wasnât necessary, the production assistants working the event lead her to the room for talent. Half-asleep and knowing what kind of a day was ahead, she pleaded for a coffee, anything with strength. When they asked if she wanted it Irish, she had to bite down the laugh of irony bubbling in her throat. Absolutely, she did.
Not too long after that, she was all dressed up for the scene. Because thatâs what this was: not a wedding, a performance, and she was to be the best actor possible, if she wanted this to go well. And it was already slipping downhill. Despite being in her motherâs gown, fitted to her perfectly, her hair was being fussed over to no end. Layered, curled, and huge, but still never quite sitting just how Cameron liked it. âSheâs not a damn nun. People tuning in are expecting some kind of sex appeal, just make her lookâŠhot. Is it really that hard?â She snapped at the stylist, which made Bobbie flush bright red. Her hair ended up in some kind of updo, but the moment she was left alone, rebel pieces were falling out over her forehead. Her veil tilted, crooked, as she heard one of the producers mention that her father had missed his bus, that he wouldnât make it to the ceremony after all. This was a problem to the production, and a killing blow to her heart. She had stopped counting cups of Irish Coffee that kept being brought to her, but she was buzzed and distraught when she saw him by the door way. Of course, that him.
âThought you might need some coffeeâŠâ Declan seemed at a loss for words, paper cups in his hands.
âDeclan, you shouldnât have.â Her voice came out like a pathetic whine, blinking furiously as she felt her eyes getting misty. She waved the production assistants out of the dressing room, her movements jerky and abrupt. âI know. Itâs absurd. All of this. I look absurd. I feel absurd.â
âNo.â Declan said, all too quickly. His eyes were misty as well, he realized, when he managed to break the spell enough to talk. âNo, good lord, Barbie, you lookâŠJesus, I thought you were stunning on the show, but right now, IâŠyou look like heaven on earth.â He murmured, mustache quivering in his awe.
That look in his eyes, those sweet words, the buzz, and the whole day, was enough to make a tear finally fall from her eye. Declan was in front of her, handkerchief in one hand, coffee in the other, in an instant. âHe doesnât think so. He seems to think itâs hell to try and make me look good.â Bobbie whimpered out, as Declan brushed away a few of those tears.
âBabs, look at me.â Declanâs voice was soft but serious, cupping her cheek in one of his large hands. âYou are beautiful enough to make a man go mad for you. You already have, but you know that.â His frown was deep, his eyes searching hers for secrets she was too cowardly to speak. His ringless finger stroked her cheek. âButâŠIâve told you how I feel. Today isnât about me. Today is supposed to be the start of a new chapter of life for you, itâs supposed to be one you can fondly ramble to your grandkids about. And I happen to know you arenât goinâ into this for your own happiness.â
âHe would fire the both of us, if I called it off now. Iâd ruin your show, everyone would think Iâm some evil temptress. Your children, Dec.â She murmured, words slightly slurred.
âPatrick and my girls love you almost as much as I do. And fock the show. Fock all of Corinium, if it means I canât have the one part that matters.â He stopped himself, closing his eyes. âBut this isnât even about that. I donât think you should marry the bastard, but donât call it off for me, stop it for yourself. For your wonderful, loving, hardworking self. Take it as someone whoâs made the mistake before, and who also thought he could find the solution at the bottom of a bottle.â He murmured, gently taking the cup from her, close enough to smell the drink on her breath. âI might understand you now more than I ever did before. I donât want that for you.â
âDeclan.â Both her voice and Cameronâs said his name, the producer watching from the doorway, her usual calm scowl on her face. âItâs time. Youâve got a seat to take, sheâs got an aisle to walk.â
There was a suffocatingly long silence as Declan watched her, a worried look in his eye. When she didnât object, he bowed his head, mourning in his expression when he passed Cameron to leave.
The two ladies walked down the hallway, toward the soundstage. She was supposed to be nervous, but Bobbie only felt a dreadful sense of acceptance. This was better for everyone involved. She shouldnât make a mess.
âBastard must be good in bed, putting you through all this just to shit on you in your wedding dress before the ceremony. I wouldâve smacked him, if I didnât think the bruising would look bad on camera.â Cameron grumbled, fixing Bobbieâs veil as they walked.
Bobbie snorted softly, raising her brows. She hadnât thought Cameron had seen that, but she was right, he hadnât said a kind thing all day. Probably for months now. âHeâs a dick, butâŠheâs easier than some men, in some ways. Consistent.â She reasoned, though even she didnât like her reasoning when she heard it out loud. âItâs awful, but Tony promised me Iâd be promoted, maybe running some projects if this went well.â
This time, Cameron was the one who scoffed, just as they reached the doors that would lead to the aisle. Bridesmaids that Bobbie didnât know walked down the aisle, mostly just Corinium stars. She could hear Sarah and James prattling on their microphones. âThat Graeme really doesnât tell you shit, does he?â She stopped, her snarky look turning more serious. âGraemeâs signed a contract to host some kind of local-art-critique show next season on the channel. Snotty stuff, just him pretending he knows the value of everyoneâs work. Never mind the fact that I still havenât seen anything this guyâs made of any real talent.â
The revelation made Bobbie roll her eyes, but it didnât change her mind. âGood for him. At least heâll have some kind of work.â She took a deep breath, steeling herself as she heard the crowd cheer at the description of the bride and groom.
âYou donât get it: thatâs your promotion. I heard Graeme and Tony meeting, heâs gonna stick you on production for that show just to get you out of the way.â Cameron shook her head. âTony doesnât intend to let you work on any other projects, and Graeme just wants to be able to boss you around in your own field. If you thought you were at a dead end before, wellâŠâ She trailed off, leaving Bobbie shellshocked.
It was all just a ploy. She was just a tool, now more so than before. Sheâd work for a show that seemed destined to get no viewers, itâd probably get canned, and her with it. Or worse, it did well, and she lived under Graemeâs thumb, night and day. âButâŠyouâŠwhy would you tell me this?â
âHonestly? âCause it sounds like a waste of Coriniumâs money. Also, youâre a total wuss, but youâre way too good of an assistant to be working for a tasteless bum like that.â Cameronâs lip curled in distaste, giving Bobbieâs makeup a few final touches. With one last nod, she called for the cameras to go, and the doors opened.
As soon as they saw her, the audience roared with delight. Bobbie stood for a long time, frozen like a deer in headlights. Her white dress pooled around her feet as she slowly forced herself to take a step forward.
Walking down the aisle between the lines of the audience, she saw them all. Daysee, her best friend, sniffling proudly but with worry. Tony, raising his hand with a smirk. Taggie had made it, by some luck, and offered a friendly (but concerned) smile. Declan was with her, his somber look still somehow gentle and understanding. Her father was missing, not walking her down the aisle, like sheâd always dreamt of.
And she reached him at the end of the aisle, the redheaded man of her worst dreams. He leaned forward, as if to kiss her ear, but only to murmur a quiet: âYour chest looks better when you donât slouch.â He motioned for her to straighten up, and all she could do was stare at him, seething.
James and Sarah were starting the ceremony, a priest was next to them. He went on with words that would change her life, but all she could think about was how ready she had been to spend her life giving up her joy for a job and a husband that would mistreat her alike. What was she doing there?
â...and should anyone present know of any reason that this couple should not be joined in holy matrimony, speak now or forever hold your peace.â The audience fell silent. Declan stiffened, as if ready to speak, but he knew it wasnât his call, now, and Tony watched him like a hawk.
But for once, none of that mattered. âIâŠactually might. Have several, actually.â Bobbie almost didnât realize it was her own voice speaking up. A shocked gasp rippled through the audience, peppered with some nervous laughter.
âDucky, this isnât the timeâŠâ Graeme grabbed her wrist, and she ripped herself out of his grasp.
âI always hated that nickname. I told you a lot, too, but you didnât listen. Just like you didnât listen to me aboutâŠany of this. Which hurts a little, but not as much as it should, because, well, I donât love you Graeme. I donât even think I like you.â She paused, sighing with relief now that the words were out. âIâve carried you for so long now, I forgot how much stronger I am without that extra weight.â
She watched as the crowd began rumbling in confusion, Graeme standing there in fury. Tony was getting up, hissing into some headpiece. Cameras were still rolling, but for once, Bobbie didnât give a shit. âI went along with this wedding and this work, for years now, because I thought I could make something that really matters, with Corinium. Thatâs never going to happen. I can either be the one making work I care about, or the person waiting around for someone to give me the work I want. So yeahâŠI quit.â She laughed giddily, throwing her bouquet out carelessly. âIâll keep looking for the work and the love I deserve. Itâs still out there, waiting for me.â
By now, James and Sarah were getting in front of the cameras, trying to wrap things up. Believing them distracted, Graeme grabbed her by the arm again, yanking her over. âYou stupid, insensitive, crazyâŠdo you know how this makes me look?â
âConceited, probably?â Barbara replied with a snarl. She hardly had a second to struggle against him, before a fist had collided with his jaw. She hadnât even seen Declan get up.
The force was enough to send Graeme stumbling back into the flowery arch behind him, falling back, and taking a good chunk of the set with him. He mightâve lost a tooth, Bobbie wasnât sure. He groaned from the ground, as Barbara looked up at Declan, a gleam in her eyes as she grinned at him. âDec, your jobâŠâ
He was panting as he looked down at her, finding it harder to catch his breath as he saw her up close in that dress again. His hair looked wild, and he looked ridiculously good in that suit, as he shook off his knuckles. âYou know, Iâve only met one person whoâs as obsessed with work as me. I found her very annoying at first.â He grumbled, ignoring the chaos around them.
âOh really? What changed?â Bobbie asked, hands shaking with adrenaline.
âI realized she might just be what Iâm missing. In work, in life.â The man scooped her up with such little effort, rushing them toward the back of the studio, ignoring Tonyâs shouting after them. âWhat do you say we start building something better out of all this crap, Barbie? You and I?â
She didnât have to ask, she knew he meant in their careers, in their relationship. She knew they looked crazy to the rest of the world, but that nobody would understand each other the way they did. âI think youâve got yourself a partner.â Her voice broke off into shrieking giggles as he set her down in his passenger seat. She felt his force against her as he kissed her, leaning over her like he wanted to absorb her. Her lips parted to taste him, just a moment longer, before she shoved him off. âNow, seriously, get us out of here.â
âAnything you want, Barbie.â Declan replied, starting the car, and for the first time in ages, she knew her words had made a dent.
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Summary: Jake 'Hangman' Seresin x Fe!Reader -> When Jake gets a call asking to pick you up from the hospital, it's safe to say he's confused. Especially considering neither of you were known for getting along with the other.
Disclaimer: Enemies to lovers, brother's best friend, descriptions of being ill (nothing fully specified, just fainting a lot, low blood sugar and hormones), swearing, fluff, steamy moments, he takes care of you. This has been in my w.i.p for a while now so it's kinda a long one. Not Proof Read.
It was safe to say Jake was confused to find out he was your emergency contact.Â
It was known to most people in the town that you and Jake werenât exactly the best of friends. The hatred started all back when he was brought into Top Gun the first time round. Before he suddenly became the best, of the best of the best. And each year he came back, it only got worse.Â
Neither of you would be surprised if everyone in San Diego knew about how much you and Jake didnât get along.Â
So, yeah. Getting a call from a Nurse called Emma telling him he needed to come and pick you up from the hospitalâŠhe was confused.Â
Heâd spent most of the day training the new recruits at Top Gun. He was on base when he got the call, but twenty minutes later, he was parked outside the hospital and was being shown to your room.Â
âSheâs to take two of these every six hours for the next three days. If she has any drastic changes; dizziness, nausea, vomiting, etc. Bring her back. But she should be okay.â
He hadnât even been told what had happened.Â
Then he saw you.Â
On a typical day, your hair was either up or down. You typically wore bright colours since the kids in your class like to point them out and name them. And even at the end of the week when youâd walk into the Hard Deck, Penny already having your drink waiting for you, and youâd look tired and ready to go to bed, you were stillâŠbright. Put together.Â
But from where he was standing, you were dressed in grey sweats and a Top-Gun hoodie. Most likely, you thought it was your brotherâs. But from the worn hole around the edge of it let Jake know it was his. One your brother had never returned to him.Â
You lookedâŠlike you needed to be comforted.Â
Your hair was pulled back into a messy ponytail at the base of your skull. Any hints of make-up had been long washed away. Your nail polish was chipped, if not already peeled from your nails.Â
Finally slipping your shoes on, you stood slowly. You looked like you needed to sleep for a year, and maybe take another nap for eight months.Â
âJust sign here and here and then youâre free to go.â
Jake watched as the nurseâs words just about registered in your ears before you slowly picked the pen up from her hand and signed your name at the bottom of the paper.Â
Reaching to grab the rest of your stuff, Jake almost swooped forwards. âIâve got it.â
You just nodded. âThanks.â
Any other day, you would have told him you could do it yourself and tell him to fuck off.Â
He picked up your overnight bag and, with a hand at the bottom of your back, led you out of the hospital.Â
âThis way.â
You followed him back to his car and once he knew you were safe inside the passenger seat, he rounded the car and got into his seat.Â
âI did tell them just to call me a cab. You can just drop me off down the road. You donât need to-â
âIâm not letting you walk home.â He told you. âWhatâs your address?â
Part of Jake wished youâd fight him more about walking home. At least that way heâd know you were actually okay. He still would have driven you home, butâŠhe wanted you back.Â
Typing your address into his phone, he followed the sat-nav.Â
By the time he pulled up outside your house, you were asleep. He waited for five minutes, letting you sleep whilst he researched and read the prescription youâd been given.Â
Then he looked up at your house. You had to have a spare key.Â
Carefully, he left his car and walked up your path. He looked in all the typical places until he found a small patch of wood from your porch coming loose. Inside was your key.Â
So, opening your door and carrying your things inside, he came back for you.Â
Unbuckling your seatbelt, he placed one of your arms around his neck before placing his own arms around your back and under your legs.Â
âItâs okay. Go back to sleep.â
And you did.Â
Shutting the door to his car with his back, he carried you into your house, shutting your front door with his foot before taking you into your bedroom and laying you on top of your sheets. Looking around, he found a basket of blankets just under your window.Â
However, as he covered you up, he checked your temp with the back of his hand. You seemed okay.Â
Then you reached for him.Â
It was only for a few seconds, but you held his hand before your body fell back to sleep.Â
Before he left your room, Jake got you a glass of water and left your window on a latch. And then he stayed.Â
Kicking off his boots by the door, he locked everything up around your home before laying down on top of the guest bed with a million and one questions circling around his head.Â
Why was he your emergency contact? What had happened? Why didnât anyone else tell him you were in the hospital for, clearly, more than a couple of hours?Â
You spent the next two days in and out of consciousness. The hospital told Jake not to worry and that it was a good sign you were sleeping. Heâd wake you every couple of hours and give you your tablets.Â
And each time, youâd wake up with the same confusion of how and why he was in your house. And then youâd remember. And apologise. And thank him. Before heâd tell you to lay back down and get some rest.Â
By the time you came round, you woke up to texts pinging on your phone.Â
How could you not tell me you were dating someone?
We SERIOUSLY need to catch up about this when youâre back in.Â
Your boyfriend called the school. Why is this how Iâm finding out youâre sick?
Get better soon, honey xoxo
Also, donât worry about the kids. Iâve got your class covered.Â
One of your fellow-teacher best friends. You and her had joined the school as teachers in the same year. She had been away on a cruise for the last two weeks.Â
Slowly, everything that had happened over the last two days came flooding back to you. They had called Jake. He had come to get you at the hospital. He kept waking you up. Had he stayed that whole time? Was he the one to call your school?
Pulling yourself from your bed and heading to the bathroom, you caught a look of yourself in the mirror. You lookedâŠrough. And also the exact same as you had when youâd left the hospital. Maybe there was a little more colour in your cheeks.Â
And you did feel better.Â
The room felt still and you didnât feel like throwing up all your insides out, despite being unable to do so.Â
Drying your hands on the towel, you made your way through your home. Things wereâŠtidy. Militarily so. The last time your place, although tidy, had looked militarily tidy had been when your brother had visited you before he got deployed again.Â
So, either, he was here now. Jake was still here. Or you had a ghost haunting your house that just so happened to be in the Navy.Â
Walking down the stairs, you found a pair of boots at the bottom of your stairs. They definitely werenât yours.Â
Then you heard someone in the kitchen. The smell of fresh bread and chicken noodle soup wafted through your home.Â
It was a minute or two before Jake spotted you. It felt like a fever dream, watching him in your kitchen, dressed normally, a towel slung over his shoulder as he slid the bread buns from the tray to a cooling rack.Â
âOh, hey. Youâre awake.â
You nodded. âDid you cook?â
âHow are you feeling?â Jake made his way over to you, his hand coming to touch your forehead and cheeks. You swatted his hands away. You could have sworn you saw him smile after you did it.Â
âGet off me, Iâm fine.â
Jake smiled as he watched you make your way to sit down on the opposite side of the kitchen island. You looked way better than you had done when he saw you in the hospital.Â
âWhat day is it?â
âTuesday.â He told you, continuing to slide all but one of the bread buns onto the cooling back. The final one, he dropped onto a plate before dishing out a bowl of the soup.Â
âEat up. Youâre gonna need your strength.â
You looked at the food in front of you. âYou made this?â
âI made it.â
You looked at him sceptically. âIs this how you plan to kill me? She was weak, your honour. I just wanted to help her.â
âWhy would I take care of you for three days and then kill you? Itâd be easier if I did it in three days.â
âSo you did think about it.â
Jake rolled his eyes and handed you a fork. âJust eat.â
You couldnât lie, it was one of the best mealâs youâd had in a long time. And as you ate, you looked around your home. Your books had been tidied away and back onto your shelves. All except two. One you were part way through reading and one that wasâŠalmost finished. But not by you.Â
You didnât notice as Jake watched you take everything in. Your books, your pots of pens. You dish towels, your spices and other baking ingredients. Some had even been put into the jars you had been meaning to fill back up. Then you noticed the smaller things. Like how heâd put up the wooden signs in your kitchen youâd been planning to do for months, and how heâd cleanedâŠeverything.Â
It looked like heâd done a complete renovation of your place whilst youâd been knocked out.Â
Then you noticed the pile of papers on your kitchen counter.Â
The English and maths tests youâd given to your class a few weeks ago. You hadnât finished marking them.Â
But Jake had.Â
You took the top paper and looked it over.Â
âDid you mark these?â You flipped through the pages. Not only were they marked, but they were marked correctly. They even had a sticker on each of âwell doneâ or âgreat stuffâ.Â
You heard Jake chuckle. âI am a teacher, too, you know.â
âYouâre aâŠTop Gun instructor. Not a third-grade teacher.â
âI do suppose I am over qualified to help but-â
You shook your head. You hadnât meant for it to sound so insulting.
âNo, I-I mean, thank you. But you didnât have to do this. Any of this.â You gestured around your home. âYou already did enough bringing me home.â
âI wanted to ask you about that. Why was it me that brought you home? Surely you have people who you actually like, to be your emergency contact?â
Tyler watched as you fell silent and searched for the words to tell him.Â
âYouâreâŠnot.â Taking a breath, you looked up at him. âTheyâŠthey tried a couple of people. They couldnât make it. One of the nurses knows Penny so called and asked if she had anyoneâs number who I knew. I did try and tell them to just call me a cab.â
He let your words settle over him.Â
âWho?â
âWhat?â
âWho else did you call? Who didnât pick up?â
You listed them off. Most were people in your family and a couple of friends.Â
âI would have fought them on it but-â
âIâm glad you called me.â Jake admitted you. And it struck you. âGive me your phone.â
You slid it over to him. And he called his number from your phone.Â
âIf anything like that happens again, I want you to call me.â
âJake-â
He shook his head. âYouâre not fighting me on this. Fight me on everything else. Anything else. But not this. Call me.â
So you just nodded. âOkay.â
âGood. And eat up, too.â
You did. âYou say that as if weâve got some place to be.â
âWe do.â
âWhere?â
âYouâll see.â
Twenty minutes later he practically shoved you into your bathroom en-suit telling you to shower and get changed.Â
âI thought my nurse was meant to be kind.â
âI am kind!â He said. âAnd Iâm not a nurse. And Iâm a friend.â
You laughed a little at that one.Â
âIâve seen the inside of your junk drawer. Iâm your friend. I have to be, or else I donât have a word for it.â
He did have a point on that. Your junk drawerâŠeven you hadnât seen the inside of that thing in at least a year.Â
So, after getting dressed, taking the last of your antibiotic and forcing some kind of health smoothie Hangman had made you with the blender he found at the back of your cupboard, you found yourself back in the passenger seat of his car.Â
âWhere are we going?â
He said nothing, just smiled and pulled the aviators from his collar and put them on before starting his engine and for a moment you wondered if that was what he did when he got into his jet. Flash his million-dollar smile before starting his jet engine and taking off into the sky. For a moment you wondered what it would be like to watch him land and look over at you just like he did.Â
But then you forced yourself back to reality.Â
This was Jake Seresin, aka Hangman. Given that name because he hangs his team out to dry.Â
But he didnât leave you.Â
In fact, he was the only one to show up.Â
And the first to stay.Â
You read the road signs as best as you could until you realised where he was taking you.Â
âYou know there is a beach like ten minutes from my house.â
He nodded. âI know. But youâre there all the time. Youâve seen that patch a thousand times. This is different.â
âHow? Isnât all sand the same?â
He shrugged, still smiling. âMaybe. But they always say the beach can work a thousand miracles. Come on.â
It was a five minute walk to the bottom.Â
âIs it usually this empty?â
He looked around. âThereâs usually a couple more people, but yeah. This is usually it. Not many people drive this far down. They think itâs not the best but to meâŠcouldnât be more perfect.â
âHuh.â
âWhat?â Jake asked, looking at you.Â
You continued looking out to the water. You shook your head. âNo, nothing. JustâŠnever thought youâd be the sentimental type.â
âWellâŠIâm not.âÂ
You looked at him.Â
âTo most people.â
It was at that moment you felt a small crackle. Either in your chest or your gut, something crackled. And you felt the blanket of hatred you had for Jake Seresin start to fade.Â
His call sign might be âHangmanâ, but you had a strong feeling that when it came to those he cared aboutâŠhe tried his best to stick around. And even if he couldnât, heâd make a memory of them to last a lifetime.Â
 For the rest of the day, you spent most of your time lying on the beach watching the waves or reading your book, which he had packed. And it wasâŠone of the best days youâd had in a long time.Â
âWhy are you doing this?â
âWhat?â Moving the book from his face, Jake looked at you from beneath his shades as you lay on your stomach beside him.Â
âThis? Less than a week ago Iâm pretty sure people would have made money on you and I killing each other. Why are you helping me?â
âBecause you need it. And Iâm pretty sure anyone else would believe you when you say that you donât.â
âAnd you donât believe me?â
He shook his head. âNo.â
âWhy not?â
âBecause I know you.â
You scoffed. âWhat do you mean you know me?â
You watched as he smiled and tried to kill the butterflies in your stomach.Â
âY/n.â
You were still getting used to the fact he was using your first name. Usually it was your last, or some sweet nickname like âSweetheartâ that would grate through your entire body.Â
âYou spend most of your time making sure everyone feels okay and is doing okay. The only time you actually let your feelings know is when youâre taking shit to me. You deserve a break. You deserve to take one before your body forces you to have one.â
Hearing his words as he spoke, you slowly sat up until your back was to the water and you were fully facing him.Â
âPlus, your brother asked me to look out for you. And Iâd rather not suffer his wrath again.â
Okay, that had to be complete bull. Your brotherâs wrath when it came to protecting you, that was true. But why ask Jake of all people given he knew your history and track record with him.Â
And what did he mean by again?
You barely had time to ask all of your questions before you watched him stand up, throwing his book closed to the ground. You mentally scolded yourself for letting your eyes wander all over him.Â
You werenât blind to the fact Hangman looked, well, like him. A daring smile, enough charm to charm even the most sourest of people and the body to go with it. But before today, you had been immune. At least, you considered yourself immune since the blanket of hatred that you held for him seemed to block plenty out.Â
Worst of all, he caught you.Â
You knew he caught you because of the smirk on his face and the chuckle that escaped his broad chest.Â
âShut up.â You groaned, forcing yourself to stand. âIâve been in the hospital. My immune system is temporarily weakened.â
âIt isnât the first time Iâve caught you, Sweetheart.â Seresin drawled just as you looked at him both annoyed and confused. And maybe slightly offended that he thought you had, before today, purposefully checked him out.Â
But he just laughed. âCome on, I want to show you something.â
âBut what about our stuff?â
âItâll be safe. I know most of the people on this beach, theyâll make sure nothing happens to it.â
Taking your hand in his, he led you down the beach, under a small cove and through to the otherside where some rocks were covered in seaweed and sand.Â
And for a while, you and Jake explored the place. Youâd never been this far down the beach so finding out it existed was a bonus. Finding seaweed to pop and watching the crabs crawl across some of the rocks was fun.Â
Youâd never stop to take a break. Straight out of college, youâd begun teaching. It had been in your home town until your brother got accepted into Top Gun. And, with an internalised fear of losing him, you moved out to San Diego. You knew after a while heâd be stationed somewhere else, but youâd managed to find a home there. And when your brother was stationed not too far from his Top Gun base, the rest of your family moved closer.Â
Since then, it has been helping them get settled, tutoring their children after spending all day teaching. It was sleepless nights spent alone at home, living off the quickest food you could make because you simply didnât have time to cook. It was running yourself so far into the ground that the one person who you never thought would even step foot into your home was the only one to show up and give you enough space to actually relax.Â
So watching crabs walk along the rocks was fun.Â
And hearing your name, and calling out his name above the waves, without hatred or malice behind it, was fun, too.Â
âCome and look at this.â
Carefully, you made your way over the rocks, trying your best not to slip and hit your head. And you did so, until the last rock before you joined him.Â
Letting out a small yell as you reached out to try and catch yourself, he threw out his hand and caught you.Â
âYou okay?â
âFine.â
âCan you stand?â
You lowered yourself to a lower rock, still holding onto his arms before letting go and allowing yourself to take his hand and help you up the rest of the way.Â
âWhat am I looking at?â
It was a starfish.Â
The rest of the day, you and Jake explored the shore, skipped rocks on the calming water, sunbathed and even took a swim in the water.Â
By the time the sun had set, you found yourself sitting with him on the hood of his car, a pizza box between you both, watching the planes fly from the airport.Â
A week ago, if anyone had told you that you would have done any of this, especially with Hangman, you would never have believed them.Â
âThank you, for your help.â You blurted out as you watched another plane fly into the sky.Â
âYou donât have to thank me.â
âYes, I do.â You wanted him to listen to you. âGiven our track record for being nice to each other, I wouldnât have been surprised if you didnât turn up at the hospital to bring me home. But you did. And you made sure I didnât fall into some kind of coma after it. And today you gave me the first day, I think, ever, where Iâve not done a thousand things for somebody else and enjoyed what I was doing. So, I do need to thank you for that.â
âAre you sayingâŠyouâŠlike me?â
You couldnât stop the smile on your face, but you tried to force it away. âOkay.â
âNo, no. I mean, this is a miracle.â
âYouâre tolerable.â You corrected him.Â
Smiling, he took another slice of pizza. âYou like me.â
âNo, I donât.â
âYou like me. I am now your friend. We are now friends.â
You shook your head, holding in a laugh. âJust shut up and eat your pizza.â
It was safe to say after that, that everyone was shocked at the dynamic between both you and Hangman.Â
They had all gotten so used to the insults and borderline flirty comments youâd both sling each other's way, it had become like white noise. So, when it was gone and replaced with laughter and smiling, it gave everyone a terrified feeling.Â
âIâm guessing theyâre not here yet.â
Penny shook her head as she poured another pint. With a smile, she nodded over to the other end of the bar. âTheyâre over there.â
Twenty minutes later, it had become like a social study for everyone in the bar to watch you and Jake.Â
âDo you think they fucked? Got all that pent up energy out?â
Coyote shook his head. âNo, he would have told me. How long have they been like this? Maybe theyâve been hypnotised into liking each other?â
Rooster shook his head. âThe hypnotist left like three months ago. Maybe theyâreâŠfaking it. Do you think they heard us talking about them last week? About who would kill who first? Maybe theyâre teaming up so nobody wins?â
Penny shook her head as she wiped down the bar. âWell, whatever it is, itâs a nice change. She looks a lot happier. They both do. Who knows, maybe next weâll be holding a wedding here.â
âNot their wedding?â Rooster seemed shocked. âPenny, they were about three insults away from killing each other three weeks ago.â
âLove is blind, as they say.â
For the rest of the night, people watched you and Jake sat together. Seresin and Y/l/n. Hangman and Sweetheart.Â
And then they watched as you walked home.Â
Together.Â
It was safe to say everyone was shocked to their core. For the first time ever, there had been a night where both you and Jake had not only been in the bar at the same time but had also sat together for the whole night, and not once killed each other.Â
Verbally or otherwise.Â
âYou know, youâre not as big of a dick as I thought you were Seresin. Tonight was a nice change.â
âI have been known to be kind once in a while.â
âKeep this up, you might be fit to see another day.â
âSo might you.â Jake replied as he watched you climb the steps of your front porch. âI meant what I said, about taking a break. You deserve one, Y/n.â
You took in what he said with a small nod before adding. âYou know, itâs still freaking me out, you even know my first name.â
âIf it helps, the nurse had to tell me.â He said. âGuess Iâve called you by your last name so much, I forgot your first.â
âIs that why you keep saying it? So you donât forget?â
He shrugged, a slight smirk on his face. âMaybe. Maybe not.â
âYou know, it is okay if you forget it once in a while.â
Jake smiled a little at that. âHow could I forget the name of the woman who once dumped three shots of tabasco sauce into my drink?â
âHey, you canât prove that was me.â
âHey, the bottle was in your hand.â
You unlocked your door. âI still plead not guilty.â
âWhatever you say, Sweetheart. Sure youâre okay on your own?â
You nodded. âIâll be fine. Besides, donât you have an early start in the morning?â
He nodded. âEven so. Call me.â
âGoodnight, Jake.â
âNight, Sweetheart.â
He waited for you to lock your doors before he got into his car and drove back home.Â
The following weeks continued the same way. If anybody who was anybody saw you and Jake âHangmanâ Seresin together, in the same room, talking. They would stop and watch.Â
Never in a million years did anyone expect you and Jake to talk, never mind actually become friends.Â
Each Friday, you met each other at the bar. You both have a drink. Youâd both sit and talk. Maybe some of your old ways were still there with each other, but there was less â25 to lifeâ about it and more âaffectionâ in the words you both said.Â
However, it nearly gave people an aneurysm when they thought you were both actually dating.Â
Two people who were thirty seconds away from physically fighting each other every day had gone from, well, that, toâŠtoâŠto dating?
It couldnât beâŠcould it?
And the rumours that had been spread by one of the bar regulars, after sheâd spotted both of you grocery shopping together before spotting Jakeâs car leave from the top of your road hours later, were only fueled when they heard about what happened at the school.Â
It had been months since you fainted and you had been getting better. You felt better, you felt like you had more energy. And with Jakeâs help you started to feel like a person again. A person who wasnât wholly consumed by their work constantly, whether they were ten miles from the building or not.Â
Except, one morning, you woke up and feltâŠoff.Â
Something wasnât right. You couldnât put your finger on it, but something didnât feel right. Maybe your period was coming early. It has been doing that lately. Surprising you when you least expected or wanted it.Â
Just a few weeks ago, it had arrived early once again. And the pain youâd felt in the days before nearly floored you. And when you hadnât showed up at the bar like youâd agreed to with Jake, he came looking for you. That night heâd taken a quick trip to the grocery store after you told him what happened. He looked after you. Made sure you were okay. The next day, he drove you back to the store and you stocked up on supplies and snacks.Â
It was also later that night when he surprised you by making dinner.Â
Opening up your fridge, you took one of the healthy smoothies that Jake had left you the last time heâd come round, before packing it into your bag and heading to work.Â
Your queasy feelings only got worse. And thenâŠyou felt it.Â
Sticking on a documentary for your class, you took your phone and slowly made your way towards the teachers bathroom, stopping off at the next class.Â
âCan you keep an eye on them for a couple of minutes?âÂ
Your best friend nodded. âCourseâ honey.â Before asking her TA to go next door.Â
âYou okay?â
You tried your best to look okay, despite everything you were feeling inside.Â
âYeah. Yeah. I will be.â
As the TA headed next door, you made your way towards the bathroom, then dialled his number.Â
âHey,â Jake said as he answered. âJust about to call you. Theyâve got a showing of The Wizard of Oz tonight at the theatre, if you wanted to go-â
âJake.â
âAre you okay? Whatâs happened? Is everything okay? Is it your brother-â
âEveryâŠâ You swallowed thickly before carefully lowering yourself onto the floor with your back against the wall, and unlocking the door. âEverythingâs okay, itâs justâŠâ
Jake had a strong feeling he knew what was happening. âIâm on my way. Where are you?â
âSchool bathroom. Teacherâs.â
âOkay.â You could hear him leaving his office and getting into his car. âIs the door unlocked?â
You didnât answer.Â
âY/n.â
âIâm here.â
Jake breathed. âY/n, Sweetheart. Is the door unlocked to the bathroom?â
âYes.â
âDoes anyone else know youâre there?â
You explained what happened as best as you could.Â
âJust, please get here soon?â
âI will, Sweetheart. I promise. Iâm almost there.â
You didnât know how long had passed but it wasnât long before you heard your name being called out by Jake.Â
Pulling the door open a little from the floor, Jake ran towards it and peeked inside. There you were, sat with your knees close to your chest, against the wall.Â
He stepped inside before crouching down.Â
âI-Iâm sorry I called. I just-â
Checking you over, Jake cupped your face. âHey, no. No. Iâm glad you called me. You can always call me. How are you feeling?â
âDizzy. Itâs better now but still like the room is spinning. And Iâm not harnessed in.â
âOkay. Do you think you can stand?â
You gave a small nod. âMaybe.â
Helping you up, Jake took your hands in his and you stood up.Â
âCome on, weâre getting you checked out at the ER.â
You would have fought him on it but considering the last time it happened they kept you in overnight, you went willingly.Â
Thankfully, you didnât pass out even when the dizziness and the nausea felt like they were getting worse.Â
By the time the doctor saw you, she did all of the routine checks before turning and looking at Jake and back to you.Â
âIs there a possibility you could be pregnant? Iâve seen a lot of couples come in here with similar symptoms and-â
Oh shit.Â
âOh, no. I-Iâm not. And heâs not-â
âWeâre- Weâre not together.â
A few more awkward moments like that filled the next couple of hours until both yourself and Jake seemed to give up on correcting people.Â
By the time they discharged you, they told you your blood sugar levels had dropped and your hormones were beginning to change with your cycle. Along with the advice to try and reduce stress.Â
Driving you home that night, Jake made a detour. Towards the diner and then towards the beach along The Hard Deck.Â
It was quiet for a Tuesday evening, but yourself and Jake just sat and ate dinner whilst watching the water push in and pull out constantly across the sand until eventually, laying your head on his shoulder, he placed his arm around your own.Â
âThank you. For everything youâve done for me.â
âThank you for calling me. Are you feeling any better?â
You nodded, gratefully. âJust a little tired, that's all.â
âIâll drop you off at home, soon, if youâd like.â
You nodded then looked at him. And before you could stop yourself, you asked him; âWould you stay with me? Tonight? If you canât- or if you donât want to-â
âIâll stay.â
âA-are youâŠsure?â
Jake nodded, a faint smile on his lips. âIâll stay with you.â
You didnât know what else to say other than thank you, so pressing a light kiss to his cheek, you said as much. âThank you.â
You could have sworn you saw him blush as he smiled and looked down. âAnytime.â
It was odd really, laying beside the man you thought youâd be telling your kids about when you were older. About how much you hated him and how much he hated you, and why neither of you could sit next to each other at the Thanksgiving table every year.Â
Jake had decided to stay in your guest bedroom, but the minute you heard him lay down in his bed, you feltâŠawake. Not wide awake. You were still tired. But you werenât settled. Something inside of you wanted to be closer to him.Â
So, after an hour of laying on your back, staring at your ceiling and listening to the distant shore line, with the odd rumble of a carâs engine running up and down the road every now and again, you got up.Â
Jake had left his door open. If you shouted for him, or needed him, he would be able to hear you. Usually, heâd be out like a light, waking up at the smallest of noises. But this time, he couldnât sleep.Â
Instead, his mind was going over the fact you had called him when you were at work. And the fact that he enjoyed it when you were with him. That he was the one you chose to lean on. And the fact that he wished he was down the hall with you at that moment, then lay alone in the dark in your guest bedroom.Â
Then he heard you.Â
From the dim, moonlit hallway, he saw you.Â
âHey, everything-â
âCan I stay with you?â
Already half way up, Jake paused for a second. Then nodded. ââCourse. Come âere.â
Walking over, Jake pulled the covers back and you climbed under them before feeling his arm wrap around you. And your arms came around him, one over his shoulder and round his neck, the other by his side.Â
Instinctively, he pulled one of your legs across him and held it there whilst his other arm remained securely around your back, holding you to him.Â
âIs this okay?â
He felt you nod and he nervously swallowed.Â
âAre you okay, Sweetheart?â
In a quiet voice, your breath against his neck, you answered. âBetter now.â
Pressing a kiss to your head, you nuzzled into each other.Â
âGood.â
Not too long after that, you both fell asleep.Â
And when you both woke up, neither of you wanted to move.Â
If this had somehow happened six months ago, you probably would have thrown each other to the other side of the room. But it wasnât six months ago. And youâd come to know Jake asâŠJake. Who took care of his friends, and made sure everyone was okay and was kind and caring andâŠa lot of other things you didnât want to think about at six oâclock in the morning.Â
And the way he was looking at you at that moment made you think about other things that you didnât want to think about.Â
âWhat are you thinking about?â Jake asked after a few moments of watching you study him.Â
âThat you need to stop looking at me like that.â
âLike what?â
âLike youâŠlike me.â
Jake smiled. âI do like you, Sweetheart.â
âJake.â
Then, for a moment, everything feltâŠserious. His tired smile dropped a little from his lips as he looked at you.Â
âDo you trust me?â
You felt your heartbeat pick up in your chest and for a moment, you wondered if he could hear it.Â
âYes.â
Tucking your hair behind your ear, you felt him cup your cheek. âY/nâŠâ
He seemed nervous.Â
âCan I kiss you?â
If you had let yourself think about it long enough, you never would have guessed Jake âHangmanâ Seresin, who went after whatever, and usually whoever he wanted, would ask if he could kiss. Youâd always assumed that he was so confident in life and with women that heâd know. That heâd see the small signals. Or even the loud ones. And justâŠkiss a girl.Â
But no.Â
He asked.Â
And something in your gut jumped.Â
So you answered; âYes.â
Nervously, he licked his lips before he leaned in. And kissing him feltâŠweird. Because it feltâŠnormal. Unlike anything else youâd felt in your life.Â
You managed to pull him closer, until he was leaning above you. âIs this okay?â
âYes.â
From there, the softer, searching kisses slowly faded away and turned into something more. More wanting, more needing. Feeling his hands move down your body before he gripped your hips, and pulled you closer to him and carefully slid them back up until the fabric of your t-shirt began to bunch together.Â
Feeling him press into your thigh, you let out a small noise that was only swallowed by his kiss. Swiftly, he pulled you across him, your legs straddling his lap before he sat up. Once more, he pushed the hair from your face and took you in, in the rising daylight.Â
No words were spoken out loud, but everything was said.Â
Leaning down, you kissed him again before letting your own hands move down his chest and towards the hem of his t-shirt. Except, just as he pulled you closer by your waist, his hips rocking into you, you both jolted at the sound of his alarm.Â
âSorry.â Jake quickly turned and switched it off. You were both going to be late for work.Â
âIf we donât get ready now, weâre gonna be late.â
Looking at him, you didnât know fully what to say. It had just been the hottest make out session of your life, with a guy six months ago people would have bet money on you killing. And youâd both been cock-blocked by his alarm.Â
âIâll meet you here, after work?â
That made you smile. âOkay.â
Then he did, too. âOkay.â Before throwing his phone to the side and pulling you down to kiss him. But as you pulled away, he groaned, trying to pull you back to continue but you walked a good three feet away from the bed.Â
âCanât be late, Hangman. Youâve got pilots to teach.â
With a coy smile, he was standing in front of you within seconds before lifting you onto the dresser behind you. This time, it was you trying to pull him back when he stopped kissing you. But he just stood back and let out a small chuckle.Â
âWeâve both got students to teach, Sweetheart. We stay here any longer, theyâre both gonna miss us.â
One final kiss to your lips, he stood back and practically ran away before you could grab hold of him.Â
Twenty minutes later, he was showered and dressed for the day and had poured you a coffee to-go as well as packed you another smoothie and grabbed your lunch for you before youâd come downstairs, dressed and began loading the last of the exam papers into your bags.Â
He dropped you back off at work, however, when you realised he was waiting in the parking lot for you to enter, you left your bags by the pillar and walked back. With his window already being down, you leaned in and kissed him, feeling his hand cup the back of your head.Â
âSee you tonight?â
âSee you tonight.â
The day for either of you couldnât have felt longer. And by the time Jake came walking through your back door, dropping his bag onto one of the pantry hooks, he couldnât have been more relieved to see you.Â
And for a moment, he just watched you as you sat on the sofa with crossed legs, flipping through a textbook and making notes. Softly, he approached you from behind before wrapping his arms around your shoulders.Â
You smiled.Â
âHey, Sweetheart.â
âYouâre back.â
You felt him relax against you. âFinally.â
âThereâs some food. I made you a plate in the oven.â
He pressed a kiss to your head before walking towards the kitchen. âI would have cooked.â
âI know, but I needed the distraction.â
Waltzing back inside holding onto the warm plate, he smirked as he popped a fork-full of veg into his mouth. You could already feel your cheeks heating and from the look on his face, he could see it clear as day.Â
âDistraction from what?â
âNothing in particular.â
âNothing, huh?â
At some point, he put down his plate and rounded back to the sofa, standing behind you before pressing soft kisses into the side of your neck.Â
âJake.â
The way you said his name went straight to his dick.Â
As he moved your hair, you leaned to grant him more access. A satisfied smirk came to his lips as he watched your legs move to straighten out.Â
âIâve been thinking about you all day, Sweetheart.â
Eventually, you felt Jake move away but he appeared again, lowering himself in front of you. Taking the textbooks and notes from you and placing them on the coffee table behind him, he leaned forward and pulled you in to kiss him.Â
âHave you been thinking about me?â
Feeling his hand move up your thigh and towards your shorts, you leaned in closer. âHave you, Sweetheart?â
âYes,â your voice came out breathy.Â
âIs this okay?â
You nodded.Â
âI need words, darlinâ.â
âYes. Yes, itâs okay.â
As time passed, the small part of you that was still able to function started to ask questions. Like why you had hated him so much in the first place? And how you almost missedâŠhim.Â
And by the time you woke up in the morning, Jake practically wrapped around you like a boa constrictor, you had come to a new conclusion.Â
You didnât hate him anymore.Â
You hadnât hated him for a long time.Â
All opinions you had of him, especially after a night of mindblowing sex, had been shot out of the water.Â
Jake âHangmanâ Seresin was no longer the man you thought he was. The man you had come to know and lo-Â
The man you had come to know was a man that showed up. And stayed. He was someone that took care of the people he cared about. He was someone that would fix things in your home without you asking. He was someone that cooked meals, even if it was almost one oâclock in the morning and you were craving a grilled cheese. He was someone that, even after sex, took care of you in a way nobody had ever even thought about doing before. He was someone that you could trust and respect, and did so.Â
Jake âHangmanâ Seresin was a man that had proved your theories wrong and he was a man that you realised you were falling for.Â
And in some ways, that scared you. And in some ways, it didnât.Â
Because, for as much as he could be so sure of himself. So bold. So confident, it bordered on cocky. You were also sure of him. Sure that, if he was feeling the same things you felt, that he wouldnât let you hurt yourself when you fell, but rather heâd catch you.Â
And it, surprisingly, didnât take him very long.Â
By the time you woke up in the morning and headed downstairs, freshly dressed in a worn Top Gun hoodie and a pair of sleep shorts, you started making breakfast. However, as you stood at the stove, flipping the bacon, you felt a newly familiar pair of arms wrap around your waist from behind.Â
Dropping his chin to your shoulder, Jake pulled you close to his chest.Â
âGood morning.â
âMorningâ.â He drawled. âWhatchaâ cookinâ?â
âBacon and eggs. Thereâs also toast in the toaster.â
With a smile, Jake pressed a kiss to your exposed collar which caused you to let out a small giggle before quickly turning the stove off.Â
âYouâve gotta be careful, Hangman. Youâll make me burn breakfast.â
He hummed a response. âI had a couple other meals in mind.â
âOh really? Like what?â
With his hands on your hips and his lips on your neck where you suspected heâd just left another hickey, he slowly turned you around. âI can think of one.â
Finally facing him, he kissed you as you fumbled with the last temperature gauge and turned it off. Picking you up, he carried you away from the counter near the stove to the one complete opposite.Â
âYouâre driving me insane dressed like this.â He mumbled against your kiss. âWearing my shirt.â
âYour shirt?â You asked as his lips moved to your neck.Â
Looking at you for a moment, half drunk on your kiss, he nodded. âDidnât you know, Sweetheart? This here is mine.â Pinching some of the fabric between his fingers he shook it as he told you so.Â
You laughed. âNo itâs not.â
He nodded. âGod's honest truth. Your brother stayed at mine one night after heâd gone out drinking. Lost his shirt, donât ask me how. Stole one of my hoodies. Never got it back.â
âHow do you know this is yours?â
With a smile, Jake showed you the small hole that youâd made a little bigger over the years from when youâd get nervous. âThis right here. Loose thread got caught in a cabinet I was fixing in my room. Pulled at it too hard. AndâŠâ
Jake watched as your expression changed a little, hungry for more of his touches, as he pushed his hand slowly up the inside of your- his hoodie.Â
A slight smirk, he pulled at the side tag and showed you. And it baffled you how youâd never noticed before.Â
J.H.S
âSee. But, I have to say, Sweetheart. It looks better on you than it ever did me.â
And as he was looking at you, he asked you something else. âLet me take you out on a date. A real one. You know, seeing you like thisâŠI never want to see anyone else like this but you.â
âJakeâŠâ
âIâm being serious. Sweetheart, I want you. And not just temporarily.â Then he looked away as he said the next part. âIâd get itâŠif you didnât want that. God knows you and I donât have the best history when it comes to even getting along but-â
âI want to date you.â
He looked up at you.Â
âI want to date you,â you repeated. âBelieve me, half of the time I donât get it myself. How weâve gone from one extreme to the other, but I knowâŠI know I want you around.â
âI want you around, too.â
âSo, yes.â
Jake smiled. âYes?â
You smiled back. âYes. Take me out on a date, Jake Seresin.â
Leaning forwards, he kissed you. And before long, your hands started to feel for the hem of his shirt before pulling it over his head.Â
It was safe to say, when you and Jake walked into The Hard Deck in the evening after your official first date, hand in hand before he pressed a kiss to your lips, a lot of people were shocked.Â
And lost a lot of money.Â
But Penny won it all.Â
She knew the minute Jake saw you, and your brother scolded him, that something would happen. After all, Hangman was known for going after what he wanted. She just never expected to have to be the one to force you to be in the same room and for that room to be a hospital.
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Lando Norris (McLaren) - Two Hands pt. I
Requested: yes
Prompt: this ask
Warnings: tensionnn and Im making this a two part series
Part 2
The sun was barely peeking over the Hollywood skyline when Y/n arrived on set, coffee in hand and a spark of excitement in her step. The concept for her and Tate McRaeâs new music video, Two Hands, had come together beautifully, sleek visuals, a sultry tone, and a storyline that mirrored the tension in their song. Y/n adjusted the strap of her dress as she walked onto the music video set, the sound of crew members shouting instructions filling the air. Tate McRae was standing off to the side, scrolling through her phone. She looked up and waved, her usual bright smile lighting up her face. "Hey, you made it!" Tate greeted as Y/n approached.
"Yeah, traffic was insane, but I'm here." Y/n replied, setting her bag down on a nearby chair. "What's the plan for today?" Before Tate could answer, a familiar voice cut through the air. "Y/n?" Her heart dropped as she turned around to see him. And there he stood, hands casually tucked into his hoodie pockets, his signature grin plastered on his face.
Lando fucking Norris.
Her breath hitched at the sight of him, his familiar mischievous grin lighting up as he looked her up and down. "Itâs been a while." He said, striding toward her. Y/n froze, coffee nearly slipping from her grip as her mind flashing back to the string of nights theyâd spent together during last season. Miami. Montreal. Silverstone. Austin. Vegas. Each memory was vivid and unshakable, and now here he was, standing on the set of her music video like it was the most normal thing in the world. "Uh, yeah, it has." She replied, attempting nonchalance.
Tate, always attuned to Y/nâs moods, sidled up beside her. "Y/n? You good?" She whispered. "Can we- can you come with me real quick?" Y/n asked, dragging Tate along to the other side of the parking lot. "Dude. Whatâs wrong?" Tate asked. "What's wrong?" Y/n hissed back. "Whatâs wrong is that Lando Norris is here, and I wasnât told heâd be in this video." Tate smirked. "Heâs the cameo. PR gold. You didnât know?"
"No!" Y/n exclaimed under her breath. "And, oh my god- jesus- Tate, weâve slept together!" Tateâs eyes widened before her lips curled into a sly grin. "Oh my god! Like a one might stand sorta thing?" She chuckled. "More like five seperate nights." Tate raised an eyebrow. "Five? Wow, okay, overachiever."
"This isnât funny." Y/n groaned. "What are we supposed to do now?" Tate sighed. "Itâs a little late to change things. Heâs already here. Besides, weâll just cut his scenes later if itâs too weird. PR can spin some excuse for why heâs missing in the final cut." Y/n groaned but nodded reluctantly. "Fine. But if this blows up, you owe me."
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The shoot began smoothly enough. The video was set to showcase Tate and Y/n doing what they do best; giving their fans an iconic music video, with a storyline involving sleek cars, night drives, and bold choreography. Lando's role was to add a touch of glamour as a cameo, driving a papaya McLaren around the streets at night.
The day progressed faster than Y/n anticipated. Tate was her usual cheeky self, keeping the mood light despite the awkward tension simmering whenever Lando was around. The big moment came as the crew prepped the McLaren for a scene where Y/n would ride in the passenger seat while Lando drove through neon-lit streets. "Just lipsync the lyrics while he drives." The director instructed. "Weâre going for sexy but understated." Understated. Sure. Y/n climbed into the car, her heart pounding.
The beat thumped in her ears as the car accelerated. She turned to Lando, his hands confidently gripping the steering wheel. His smirk was still there, but something new flickered in his gaze as her lips curled into the sultry line: "I want them all to see, you look good on top of me." Landoâs jaw tightened, his eyes darting to hers as she sang. "At this time, at night I need. Not one, not three." Y/n caught the way his lips twitched, almost imperceptibly, and then, he bit his lip.
Oh, so weâre doing this?
Fine. If he was flustered, sheâd make it worth his discomfort. Y/n leaned in, her hand sliding up to tangle in his hair as she pulled his face toward her. Their eyes locked, her lips barely brushing his ear as she whispered the lyrics. "Just your two hands on me. Like my life needs saving." His breath hitched audibly, and for a split second, she wondered if he might slam on the brakes. "Let 'em all know. Can you do it like that?"
"Cut!" The directorâs voice crackled through the radio. They broke apart instantly, and the silence that followed was deafening. Y/n avoided his gaze, fixing her hair and pretending nothing had happened. When she returned to set for the dance break, Tate was waiting with her arms crossed and a knowing smirk. "You two looked awfully comfortable." Tate teased, bumping Y/nâs shoulder. "Almost like youâve done it before."
Y/n shot her a withering glare. "Shut up."
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The buzz of the set hummed around Y/n as she sat on the sidelines, watching Tate film her solo dance scene. The spotlight followed Tateâs movements, her fluidity captivating, but Y/nâs focus wavered when she caught a glimpse of Lando approaching out of the corner of her eye.
Damn it.
"Fancy seeing you here." Lando said, casually sliding into the chair beside her. His voice was light, but his eyes held an intensity that made her pulse quicken. "Itâs not like I had a choice." Y/n replied flatly, crossing her arms. "I have a job to do and you just so happen to be here." He chuckled softly, the sound low and familiar. "Still, feels like fate."
"More like bad luck." She shot back, keeping her tone cool even as her stomach fluttered. Lando leaned in slightly, his cologne teasing her senses. "Youâre as sharp as ever." He murmured, a smile tugging at his lips. "I missed you." Y/n snorted, more out of defense than amusement. "Missed me? Please. You missed me in your bed, maybe." His grin faltered, replaced by something more serious, more vulnerable. "To be fair, you never gave me the chance to miss you anywhere else."
The weight of his words hung in the air, and Y/nâs breath caught in her throat. She turned to look at him, his face so close she could see the faint stubble on his jaw. He wasnât joking. "Look, I know this is...complicated. But I want to see you. Away from all this; no racing, no music videos, just us." Y/n blinked, stunned. Her lips parted to respond, but before she could form the words, Sean, the choreographer, clapped his hands loudly from across the set. "Y/n! Letâs go! Dance break!" She exhaled sharply, grateful for the reprieve, and turned on her heel. "Duty calls." She said briskly, walking away before Lando could reply.
As she approached the center of the set, Tate intercepted her, her eyes twinkling with curiosity. "You okay? You look like youâve seen a ghost."
"Iâm fine." Y/n lied, waving a dismissive hand. Tateâs smirk told her she wasnât convinced, but she didnât push. Instead, she gestured toward the floor. "Alright, letâs get this over with. Seanâs in full perfectionist mode." Y/n nodded, forcing herself to focus as Sean began shouting instructions, his energy bouncing around the room. She positioned herself in front of the camera, her muscles tightening in anticipation.
The music started, the beat pounding through her body, and she threw herself into the choreography, letting the rhythm drown out the lingering tension in her chest. But as her feet moved and her body swayed, her mind betrayed her, replaying Landoâs words over and over like a melody she couldnât shake.
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summary: your stunt-driver pulled out the day before the shoot, good thing you're dating an f1 driver.
pairing: lando norris x fem! singer! reader
a/n: I, like everyone else, was convinced he'd be in the music video, but alas, no. so here's this to hopefully make up for that :)
kind of smut so 18+
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âFuck,â you groaned, flinging yourself onto your bed.Â
âYou alright baby?â Lando asked, putting his phone down and looking at you. He very much appreciated the sight in front of him, his girlfriend in nothing but tiny sleep shorts and an old quadrant hoodie. He smiled as you crawled into bed with him.Â
âThe stunt driver for the shoot tomorrow just cancelled,â you frowned, cuddling up to his side. âWeâll have to reschedule, so then the release date of the song will be pushed back, and the release of the tour dates, and-â
âI can do it,â he offered.Â
You snapped your head to look at him. âSeriously?â
âYeah,â he shrugged. âWhat kind of car is it?â
âA McLaren,â you nodded and he smiled. âThis is genius, and we donât even have to show your face so it wonât reveal anything-â
âWe could show my face and just tell people weâre together,â he shrugged, pulling you onto his lap so that you were straddling him. âIt has been 2 years, and this song is about me,â he smirked.Â
You rolled your eyes but nodded all the same. âI have an idea! Let me call the director!â you smiled, jumping off his lap as he frowned at the loss of contact. You quickly ran into your office to start making plans for the next day, excited at your new idea.Â
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You had entirely rewritten the script for the video, but everyone was much more into the new version, so no one was that upset. Also, everyone was ecstatic that youâd finally decided to include Lando in a video, finally showing the public that you two were together.Â
The first scene you two had to film was in the car dealership where you were buying a McLaren. You were wearing a simple but pretty dress with a black leather racing jacket. You caught Landoâs eye as he was reading over the script and he smirked, smacking your ass as you went by. You chuckled and hit his hand back, effectively shooing him away so you could get to your spot.
When you got to your spot, the cameras rolled and the director shouted action, and off you went.Â
âSo whatâre you looking for?â Max F, the âactorâ playing the car salesman, smirked. Yes, youâd gotten Max in on it too.
âSomething fast.âÂ
The camera flashed between the two of you, then to the orange McLaren behind you.Â
âIâll need a test drive,â you smirked, and the camera panned to Lando, clad in a beautiful purple and orange racing suit tied around his waist, a shirt with the car dealerships logo on it, and a smirk on his face. He jingled the keys and the intro to the song started playing, then they cut.Â
âPerfect!â Kyle, the director, shouted. âWeâll get it from a few more angles, then move on.â
Next was a shot of the two of you in the car, Lando wearing sunglasses as he drove through the LA streets as you lip synced to the first verse of the song, the angles changing every few words. After shooting that a couple of times, you two got a break.Â
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âYou look fucking incredible,â he muttered, pressing kiss after kiss along your next as you two sat in your trailer. âSo fucking sexy.â
You chuckled,slightly pushing him off of you. âCalm down, Megan will kill me if I have any more âaccidentsâ to cover up.â
He shook his head, watching you as you got up. âYouâre so beautiful,â he smiled. âSo smart too.â
âWell, thank you baby,â you smiled. âReady to take your shirt off?âÂ
He chuckled. âOh yeah.â
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The next scene was pretty risque, it was the two of you in a motel bed âmaking outâ as you sang the chorus, his â2 handsâ all over you. On top of that, his hands were covered in lipstick kisses as well as the majority of his neck and chest, which you happily did. Youâd both gone through a costume change, now you were wearing a black lacy bra and he was wearing no shirt, the both of you looking stunning (and slightly funny considering the fact that you were both just wearing sweats under the covers).Â
âT-5 to action,â Kyle shouted, counting you two in.Â
He pressed open mouthed kisses to your neck as you lip-synced the song to the camera over his shoulder, a sultry look in your eyes as you embodied the lyrics, grinding down on him slightly. After shooting it from a few different angles, you and the team called it a day, ready to come back tomorrow and finish it up.Â
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Lando all but threw you on the bed when you got home that night, insatiable after a day of being teased.Â
You giggled as he pulled your pants off, pressing kisses up your legs as he unclothed himself, muttering the whole way up to your lips. âSo fuckinâ perfect baby,â he grunted. âTeasinâ me all day,â he bit into your shoulder and you moaned, making him smirk. âSuch a bad girl.â
âYou love it,â you smirked, wrapping your hands around his forearms and flipping the position so that you were straddling him, holding his arms to the bed. âYou fucking loved it today.â
âDamn right I did,â he smirked. You let go of his hands to pull off your final item of clothing (your shirt) and his hands immediately went to caressing your thighs. His eyes grew wide as he watched you pull your shirt off, and you knew it would be a long night, but you werenât complaining.Â
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When you got to set the next day, you had an apologetic look on your face as Megan frowned, seeing the next hickeys on your neck.
âIs he a fucking vampire or something?â she scoffed, getting to work on covering them up.Â
âYâknow what, donât cover them,â Kyle interjected. âIt makes sense with the video for her to have them.â
âThanks Kyle,â Lando smiled, feeling like he was on his side. You laughed when Kyle rolled his eyes at him.Â
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The next scene was just shots of the car driving through the LA streets, which Lando perfectly executed. He seemed to really be enjoying himself and the shots of the car were perfect, so you moved on to the next scene, which was you two at a gas station, dancing to the song as you lip-synced. It wasnât difficult choreography by any means (Or else Lando wouldnât have been able to do it), but it was a bit raunchy. Mostly just you dancing on his as he smirked or you pulling him closer and almost kissing him, but then just turning back to the camera and singing the next lyric. You were wearing the car dealership shirt with tiny shorts, and he was wearing a new collection quadrant hoodie and a pair of black jeans.Â
You watched as he looked you up and down while everyone else was resetting the shot to film again because Lando ended up laughing.Â
âLike what you see?â you smirked.Â
âMore than you know,â he smiled, grabbing a handful of your ass and pulling you in for a kiss. The kiss was hot and heavy with a promise of something more beneath, it made you excited for the rest of the day.Â
After refilming that a couple of times, you moved onto one of the last shots of the video, you just lip-syncing the words as you sat on top of the car, Lando in various different positions. One of him pumping the gas, one of him opening the door for you, one of him in the driver's seat, one of him beside you on the hood of the car, another of the two of you making out against the door. Moving on from that, Lando went off to film some more of the car scene while you stayed back and filmed the dance break of the song. Those were the last things that needed filming, so you all wrapped up and thanked the crew, going back home after a gruelling day to get fucked by your hot boyfriend.Â
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The video came out and fans went wild. They edited it, they started fanpages, they stalked your socials, and everything in between. You both decided to make a post.
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liked by pierregasly, landonorris, yourusername and 8,029,238 others
yourusername: 2 hands out now.
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landonorris: y r u so hot??? -> yourusername: idk come cool me down -> landonorris: RUNNING
mclaren: stream 2 hands for win in LVđ§Ąđ§Ąđ§Ą
user83: BI PANIC WTF
user29: THE BED SCENE HELLO????
carlossainz: lando is no longer a little boy? -> yourusername: bro was never 'little' -> user21: WTF WTF WTF WTF
user6: MY OTP
user33: My ship is alive!!!!!!!
user74: ewww a vroom vroom guy??
user46: no way lando no- rizz bagged THE Y/N Y/L/N -> yourusername: it's a sad truth... -> oscarpiastri: @.landonorris you're going to take that? -> landonorris: yes. look at her. -> landonorris: actually don't. don't look at her. she's mine
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Aaaa I was waiting for something like that đ„°đ„°đ„°
2 HANDS - LN4



summary : In a world where Lando was actually in Tateâs music video (except tate is y/n) Landoâs hands stray for a bit too long and the tension seems a bit too thick for them to be faking it.
listen up : SMAU!!! suggestive content! swearing. some mean things commented.
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You knew the music video would be good. You didnât know it would be a worldwide hit and rack millions of views each day.
Lando Norris putting his â2 handsâ on you wasnât just for show but the public didnât know any better. But everyone knows the internet⊠they love to speculate.
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yourusername 2 HANDS IS OUT NOW AHHHH!!!! Hereâs some flicks from filming <33
username36 : SCREAMING IM SO OBSESSED
yourfan77 : F1 AND Y/N??? MY TWO WORLDSđ§Ąđđđââïžâš
username92 : the zoom on his TWO HANDS people died
âł landofan44 : (it was me, i died.)
sabrinacarpenter : pop princess omg
landonorris : you said you wouldnât post the last pic.
âł yourusername : I liedđ
âłusername55 : holy i need them together now.
landonorris : an honor serving an icon
usernamelame : How much do we think she paid Lando to be in her music video??đ€Ł
âł username15 : However much face card is
gracieabrams : QUEEN IM SO PROUD!!
carlossainz : @//landonorris the one time iâm going to tell you that you were sort of cool
username69 : IS THIS A HARD LAUNCH?? TELL ME THIS IS A HARD LAUNCH.
âł username : if you have to ask that then itâs definitely not a hard launch.
âł username23 : Theyâre together 10000% DID YOU SEE HIS HAND PLACEMENT???
INTERVIEW FROM THE BRAZILIAN GRAND PRIX

y/n âĄïž lando

LANDONORRIS YOURUSERNAME

DISCUSSED IN Y/NLANDO FANDOMS <3
username61 : I KNOW YOU GUYS SEE Y/NS STORY WITH THE âsee you in vegasâ AND A HEART HAND. WITH WHO YOU MAY ASK?? LANDO NORRIS I KNOW THAT RING.
landofan772 : yeah theyâre dating and iâm hella jealous but also happy
kikagomez : i ship it.
âł username : KIKA???
âł y/nfan : KIKA WHAT
username01 : the girl in his story?? HAS to be y/n.
âł username27 : they could just be friends
âł username92 : donât ruin the fantasy and delusion of love.
y/nfan444 : THE FLOWERS!!! our girl deserves the world.
MAX FEWTRELLS STEAM

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landonorris LANDO NORRIS AND Y/N L/N MAKE THEIR OFFICAL COUPLE DEBUT!! Jk itâs just y/n and I looking hot and sexy together as two people very much in love. Proud of my girl đ§Ą
yourusername : hey thatâs me!!
âł landonorris :đđ
yourusername : lover era!
âł landonorris : MUAH
yourusername : fav pair of hands
âł landonorris : đđ»
âł carlossainz : WOAHH
âł maxfewtrell : keep it pg you two.
username44 : IM ACTUALLY IN TEARS
y/nfanforever : LOVE IS REAL
âł username61 : for them maybe, iâm still single af.
landofan78 : on MY cellular device??
romeobeckham : i knew you seemed happier recently
pietrapalio : DOUBLE DATE TIME!!
âł yourusername : YAYAYAY
âł landonorris : @//maxfewtrell say what now
username434 : I KNEW THAT MUSIC VIDEO WAS TOO DAMN SEXY FOR TWO PEOPLE WHO JUST MET
landoandy/nfan : thinking about how he felt her up in that car on camera FOR REAL
username000 : I feel so privileged that I live in a time where Y/n and Lando are together. A victorian child would never understand.
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Sickeningly Sweet [Scott Miller x Reader - Twisters]
summary: You are Tyler Owens' childhood best friend and member of his storm chasing crew. A storm outbreak means you and the gang cross paths with Storm Par on more than one occasion, and your sweet southern charm drives Scott crazy (in more than one way).
content warnings: somewhat heated kissing, no use of y/n, light name-calling/teasing, not proofread/bad writing (I have not written a fanfic in forever), bad taste in candy, & i think that is all!
word count: 3.5k
a/n: I have not written or posted on tumblr in SO long but I saw Twisters for the glenn powell craze and left with a scott/david corenswet obsession and these thoughts must come out of my head.
Shoutout to @hederasgarden and @sailor-aviator for leading the charge for the Scott girlies. All of their writings and drabbles inspired me to write this one, so check them out!
If people like this I might do a smutty part 2! I don't mind writing smut I just feel like it's not very good hahaha but let me know what you think!
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You heavily resented the idea that guys and girls could not just be friends, because you'd be damned if Tyler Owens wasn't the best friend you ever had.
You met on the playground in Kindergarten. A boy pushed you off a swing, Tyler defended your honor, and the rest was history.
Tyler's overprotective streak made you view him like the brother you never had, and that's how your relationship remained. He was family, and that was that.
Tyler had always been interested in tornadoes, more specifically, how to track and predict them. You, on the other hand, hated science, including weather, but you loved the thrill of the chase.
In college, you studied marketing while Tyler studied meteorology. So, when Tyler had the idea to start streaming his storm chases, you were right there with him to help grow his brand.
Tyler knows he would be stupid not to credit you with all his success. You set up his streaming account, you edited all the clips and drone footage to post to his social media after the fact, and you even gave him the idea for the "Tornado Wrangler" nickname.
Now that everything was off the ground, you mostly put together streaming highlights and designed the merch, but you were right there in the backseat for every single chase, soaking up all the thrills.
This particular storm outbreak was expected to be a big one, so the whole crew strapped in for a week of bad weather, cheap motel rooms, and of course, a few run-ins with other chasers, including the guys from Storm Par.
"Storm Par's here." You said, gesturing to the fleet of white vans parked at the gas station you had just pulled up to.
"Of course they are." Tyler sighed. "There's probably going to be a lot of damage done by these storms for them to swoop in on. Just ignore them."
"No, we should be polite." You chastised him. "I'm gonna go say hi. Will you get me a cherry coke please?"
Tyler fought back an eye-roll, but nodded with a smile as you both got out of the car. "Of course."
Like everyone else in the crew, the Storm Par guys got on your last nerve. They were all a bunch of Ivy League grads who thought a more expensive degree made them better than everyone else.
However, being raised by your Mama, the epitome of Southern grace and charm, you always put a smile on your face and treated them with kindness. You even occasionally brought them food or coffee if you ran into them in the aftermath of a storm.
And even though you were blissfully unaware of the fact, this drove Scott absolutely mad.
"Hi Scott, Javi." You said cheerfully to the two boys in charge.
Scott replied with a grunt, but Javi was quick to greet you with genuine enthusiasm. "Hey! How are you?"
"I'm doing well." You nodded, smoothing your hands over your athleisure skirt. "Excited for a good chase today. How about you guys?"
"Us too." Javi nodded. "We're hoping to finally get some solid data collection today."
"Ah." You nodded, unsure what to say. You hated the idea of what they were collecting data for, but Javi seemed like a nice enough guy, and Tyler ripped on them enough for the both of you.
"Something on your mind there, princess?" Scott finally spoke, glancing away from his tablet to look down on you (literally and figuratively).
You rolled your eyes. While you would normally love to be called a princess, it always sounded like an insult coming from Scott, his voice always laced with a touch of venom.
"No, nothing at all." You smiled. "Just wondering if we'll see you guys in the aftermath if there's any damage done?"
"Why? Are you looking to increase your t-shirt sales?"
You bit your tongue, doing your best to hold your composure and not let him get to you.
"Nope, just trying to figure out if we need to make some extra to-go boxes for you guys." You decided to focus your gaze on Javi instead, finding him less intimidating.
Javi opened his mouth to speak, but Scott beat him to the punch. "I think we can find food on our own, thanks."
You took a deep breath, choosing your next words carefully. "Okay, well, the offer always stands if you change your mind."
Javi smiled and nodded. "As much as I want to see a good storm today, let's hope we don't have a ton of damage clean up."
You smiled. You knew he had a heart.
"That's something we both can agree on." You grinned. "Stay safe out there you guys!"
With that, you turned and walked away. Scott watched you go, your hair and skirt blowing side to side in the wind.
"Stay safe out there you guys." Scott mocked you under his breath.
"Yo, you don't always have to be a jerk to her, you know."
Scott gave him an unamused look. "She comes out here with her little boyfriend, selling his t-shirts and shit, and then skips over here like we're the best of friends with her thick southern accent. It's all fake."
"For one, I don't think Owens is her boyfriend." Javi corrected. "And two, I think she's just a genuinely nice person. She always says hello, even when everyone else in their crew ignores us like the plague."
"Whatever." Scott mumbled.
As you reached the truck, you took the ice-cold Coca-Cola bottle from Tyler's outstretched hand.
"Thank you!" You said excitedly, twisting the cap off to take a sip.
"How are dumb and dumber?" Tyler teased.
"Javi was nice." You informed him. "Scott was... there."
"Ah, yes." Tyler laughed. "Word on the street is he's a man of many words."
"Right." You agreed sarcastically. "But, when he does speak to me, he always calls me princess, and it drives me crazy."
"In what way?" Tyler said, failing to hold back a smirk.
It took you a moment to realize what he was implying, but when you did, you were mortified,
"Tyler Owens!" You gasped, your face flushing red with embarrassment.
""I'm just teasing you! You make it too easy." He laughed loudly. "In my defense, he looks like exactly like every boyfriend you've ever had."
Your face got even warmer, because he was exactly right. You had a weakness for tall, muscular, dark-haired men, and you especially loved a man who was a challenge.
"That is...irrelevant." You said, covering your face in your hands out of pure embarrassment.
Tyler held his hands up in surrender, as you rushed to talk about anything but Scott. "Let's just figure out what storm we're going after, you jerk." You insulted Tyler, but the smile on your face was ear to ear.
Scott watched the interaction from afar, and his chest twisted at your sickeningly sweet smile. Even if you weren't Owens' girlfriend, your closeness was evident. He ignored the burning feeling that was rising within him, not wanting to question why it was there in the first place.
Tornadoes were scary, but trying to understand how he felt about you? Terrifying.
"Alright, boss man, which storm are we chasing?" Javi pulled him out of his thoughts with a hand clapped on his shoulder, and he finally pulled his gaze away from your smile, the sound of your laughter fading into the background.
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The storm was bad.
It hit a small town of about 3,000 people, and you estimated based on the initial damage scene that it was an EF3 at best, maybe even an EF4.
You were currently handing out anything that might be helpful to families who had been impacted by the tornado - blankets, water, heat lamps. pre-made sandwiches and cookies. You tried to offer them any comfort you could with a smile and hug, but you understood the devastation they felt all too well.
In the early days, you would try to help with the damage cleanup, but Tyler insisted that you stay back at the camper and talk to the families.
At first, you were insulted, and you thought that Tyler was insinuating you weren't strong enough to move heavy tree limbs or pieces of drywall. You finally asked him about it one day, and he laughed.
"Absolutely not!" He insisted. "You just have this energy around you that's calming, and these families need that. Your empathy and kindness are doing much more for them right now than cleaning up a bunch of rubble would."
You had never thought of it like that, but once Tyler pointed it out, it became your mission to be the solace that these families in crisis needed.
"Is there anything else we can do for you, Mrs. Smith?" You asked, rubbing the arms of a middle-aged woman who you had been speaking to for a few minutes now.
"No, thank you." She sniffled. "I really appreciate you guys being here. God bless you."
You smiled, giving her another hug. "Please let us know if there's anything more we can do to help."
She nodded, walking away to join her family, who were staring at the remains of their house.
You pushed back tears, feeling silly that this never got any easier for you, but also focused on being the anchor that these folks needed.
Scott saw you before you saw him. He watched you from afar as you did your work. He watched you force a smile and hold these people as they cried. He also watched you look up to blink back the tears before taking a deep breath and moving on to the next.
And damn if it didn't drive him nuts.
This job is easier when he doesn't get involved with the people impacted. It's easier to pretend not to care. But watching you pour your heart out to strangers, just because it's the right thing to do? It made his heart jump, and that scared him.
Ignoring the people involved and ignoring his feelings for you had become increasingly more difficult with every chase.
"Scott!" You called, approaching him with a styrofoam container in your hand.
He sighed, mentally preparing himself as you literally bounced over to him.
How the hell does someone look this good after taking on a tornado?
"Here." You offered him the container. "It's just a ham and cheese sandwich and a cookie."
"I'm really not hungry." He responded.
"Seriously?" You asked, not buying it. "We've all been chasing since 10 AM and it's nearly 8, you have to be hungry."
Scott shrugged, trying to hold back the things he really wanted to say.
"Fine." You sighed. "We're right over here if you change your mind."
"Yeah, I know princess. It's hard to miss you being the town's savior over there."
Scott watched you visibly retract and he internally screamed as his heart dropped. You probably hated him, but it didn't matter anyway. You were far too sweet for him, so putting a wedge between the two of you seemed to be the smartest way to outrun his feelings.
"Wow." You spoke, your voice much smaller and shakier than usual. "I knew you were sarcastic and maybe even a little mean, but I never thought you were actually cruel. So, thanks, for enlightening me."
And with that, you turned and strutted off. This time, you failed to fight back the tears as you returned to the camper.
And to your horror, Tyler was there, taking a break from clean up for some water.
When Tyler sees you cry, his overprotective streak comes out instantly, and right now you didn't want to be protected, because you were so embarrassed that he finally got to you. You were even more embarrassed that you thought that just maybe, he might be a good person under that scowl and hard facade.
"Hey, hey, hey, are you okay?" Tyler rushed up to meet you.
You nodded, trying to stop sniffling. "I'm fine."
Tyler looked behind you to see Scott watching you closely, with a look that almost mimicked longing, and he quickly put two and two together.
"Let me handle this." He insisted.
You shook your head in protest. "No, Tyler, please, he thinks I'm a waste of time anyways, it's not worth it."
"Trust me, he doesn't," Tyler reassured you. "Let me handle this, and if it goes badly, I'll edit all the stream highlights for the next two weeks, okay?"
"Deal." You nodded.
You truly did trust him more than anyone in your life, so you opted to go inside the camper and dry up your tears while he went to speak to Scott. You would let Tyler handle it, but no way were you going to stand there and watch, looking like a puppy who just got kicked.
"Coming to defend your girlfriend's honor?" Scott said sarcastically, trying to mask any emotion he was feeling.
"Dude, seriously." Tyler glared at him. "If you want her attention being a complete and total asshole is not the way you get it."
"Is that what you think? That I want her 'attention'?" He said, framing the last word in air quotes.
"Yeah, I do." Tyler nodded. "I saw the look you gave her as she walked away."
"Okay, so what?" Scott shrugged. "You might be surprised to know I am human and I didn't mean to make her cry."
"Sure." Tyler nodded. "So, what about all the other times I've caught you staring at her, hm?"
Scott stayed silent, stunned speechless.
"Ah, you thought you were better at hiding it, didn't you?" Tyler said with a smug grin. "Every time we end up at the same gas station, restaurant, bar, or motel, your eyes follow her nearly the whole time. And don't even get me started on the holes you burn into my head when I'm talking to her."
"Alright, fine." Scott snapped angrily. "Here to rub it in my face then?"
Tyler sighed in frustration. "No."
"Then what?"
"I'm going to give you a piece of advice."
"Why?" Scott scoffed. "It's no secret that we aren't friends."
"I know her better than anyone else, do you want my help or not?" Tyler asked, his patience nearing its limit.
Scott didn't protest this time.
"Look, no matter what I think about you, you're pretty much exactly her type," Tyler said, much to Scott's surprise. "So if you want her, apologize and tell her how you feel."
"She's not going to feel the same, and she deserves much better than me." Scott retorted. "C'mon Owens, you know what we do. When she comes floating into these broken towns like a heaven-sent angel, I'm collecting data for the devil."
"That doesn't have to be a permanent problem." Tyler pointed out. "Plus, she likes a challenge, and she's definitely brave enough to think she can fix you."
That cracked a smile from both of them, followed by a moment of silence.
"218." Tyler said.
"What?"
"That's the room she's staying in tonight." Tyler said, starting to walk away. "Apologize."
Scott nodded, beginning to formulate a plan on how the hell he was going to get you to forgive him.
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You were snug under your blanket in the motel room watching reruns of Modern Family when the knock came.
You sighed and got up, not bothering to check the peephole as you assumed it was just Tyler coming to talk about the day's events.
So when you opened the door to see Scott standing there, you couldn't be more surprised.
"What are you doing here?" You said quietly, nearly breathless at the sight of him.
It wasn't the first time you had seen him outside of that stupid Storm Par white jumpsuit, but it was the first time you had seen him in gray sweatpants and a tight black long-sleeve shirt that clung to his muscles in a way that you could only describe as sinful.
He towered over you, leaning against the frame of the doorway, and you nearly shuddered when you looked up to meet the intense gaze in his eyes.
"I brought you something. As an apology for being an ass earlier today."
"Oh, and what did you bring for all the other times?" You spat back, no longer in the mood to play nice with him.
"I deserve that." He sighed. "Can I come in?"
"Depends." You responded, and he raised an eyebrow. "What did you bring me?"
He handed you a plastic bag, and you opened it to find a Cherry Coke, Sour Patch Kids, and a Honey Bun.
All of your favorites.
"How did you know what I like?" You asked, curious to know if Tyler was behind this.
"You always get some combination of the three at any local gas station." He shrugged.
He remembered because the first time he saw you buy all three he physically rolled his eyes, because, of course, you would buy snacks just as sickeningly sweet as you.
"I didn't know you paid this much attention to me." You said softly.
"Yeah." Scott inhaled a sharp breath. "That's what I wanted to talk to you about. Can I please come in?"
You opened the door, inviting him in with the gesture. The door shut behind you, and there was a brief moment of silence between you two.
"I'm sorry, for being a jerk today and every other time I'm around you." Scott started, visibly nervous as he ran a hand through his hair. "I wish I had a better explanation for why I've been such an ass."
"Yeah, so let's hear it." You said, hands on your hips. "Because I have been nothing but nice to you, even though I don't like who you work for and what they stand for."
"I know." He nodded. "At first, I thought you were being fake or sarcastic because it was unfathomable to me that you would be nice to us when you have absolutely no reason to be."
You nodded, encouraging him to continue.
"But once I learned more about you, and I realized you were being genuinely nice," Scott took a deep breath, building up all his courage. "It knocked me off my feet."
"What do you mean?" You asked, confused at what he was getting at
"I spend most of my time pretending that I don't care about the people that are devastated by all of this, because it's easier that way. But watching you bear your heart and soul to all of these people, just because you can?" Scott scoffed. "It makes it hard to pretend like I don't care about them, or more importantly, about you."
"You care about me?"
"I do." He nodded. "And I was a jerk to you because I thought it would be easier to make you hate me than it would be to admit that I have feelings for you, when you're far too good for me."
His admission stunned you. You can feel your heart thumping out of your chest as you look into his eyes, which look painstakingly vulnerable.
"I completely understand if you don't feel the same way, but I couldn't outrun these feelings anymore, and I wanted to at least let you know that I'm sorry."
The room fell silent as you processed everything he just told you. Scott was panicking inside, waiting for what felt like years for you to say something, anything.
"Do you know why I was always nice to you?" You asked him. "Because I was hoping that somewhere in there you had a good side. I needed to know that you had a heart before I could admit to myself that I felt drawn to you."
"Do you still? Feel drawn to me?"
You nodded. Stepping closer to him so that you were nearly face to face.
"Can I kiss you?"
"Please." You nodded desperately, your words barely above a whisper.
His lips were on yours in a flash, and the pure intensity of the kiss nearly knocked you off your feet. It was heated and rough, but somehow gentle and passionate at the same time. His thumb grazed your cheek as he pulled you closer, and every spot his fingers touched made your skin feel like it was on fire. You couldn't get enough of him.
Once he knew you were comfortable, he took the liberty of exploring you more. His tongue slipped into your mouth gently and his teeth caught your bottom lip, causing a small whimper to come from the back of your throat.
Scott groaned at the sound, letting his mind imagine (not for the first time) all of the sounds he could pull from you.
When the two of you finally pulled away for air, he kept you close, his hands ghosting under your chin around your neck, forcing you to meet his eyes.
"You taste just as sweet as I thought you would," Scott said with a smirk.
"Shut up and kiss me again."
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FC43: CONSEJOS DE AMOR
pairing: haas driver!reader x franco colapinto
summary: youâve been friends with franco for a long time. but after a post-race interview clip of the two of you starts making rounds on social media, things might not be as clear cut as they seem.

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ynracing it was a tough race and i gave it my all. feeling immensely happy with that p10! now itâs time to regroup and prepare for baku. congrats to charles for the win and franco for his debut! grazie mille monza! đźđč
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user1 haas domination could bore fans đ„±
user2 đ«¶đ«¶
user3 this might just be the first good news haas has gotten in a WHILE
user4 oh definitely
user5 donât you love it when women
haasf1team onwards for more points! đ
user6 @haasf1team girl arenât you like 7 million dollars in debt đ
user7 @haasf1team your other driver is literally banned from the next race
user8 @haasf1team didnât you get your assets seized like last week
user9 @haasf1team iâm gonna hold your hand when i say thisâŠ.
user11 everyone dragging haas in the comments đđ
kevinmagnussen great job there đđ well-deserved â„ïž liked by ynracing
user12 WOHOOO P10 BABYY
francolapinto VAMOSS sos una genia!!!!!!
ynracing idk what that means BUT IâLL TAKE IT đ«¶
user13 @/mercedesamgf1 sheâs single you know â„ïž liked by francolapinto
user13 not the point i was trying to make but HOLD ON
user14 SCREAMING ariana what are you doing here
user15 đđ€ đ€šđ¶ïžđ€
user16 can we talk about franco and y/n racing together again after all this time?? we used to pray for times like these đ€Čđ€Č
user17 franco read sheâs single and all the pr training left his body đ
user18 was there really any pr training to begin with?
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francolapinto que dĂa inolvidable. lo que disfrutĂ© mi primera carrera en f1 no les puedo explicar!! hay que seguir trabajando⊠pero no se dan cuenta de lo que me duele el cuerpo đ«
what an unforgettable day. i canât explain how much i enjoyed my first race in f1!! time to keep working⊠but youâve got no idea how much my body hurts đ«
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user18 GRANDE FRANQUITOOO
ynracing congrats fran!!!!!! what a great way to start off đ©” estoy muy orgullosa de ti â„ïž liked by francolapinto
francolapinto JAJA did you google translate that?
ynracing âŠâŠâŠno
user19 i love argentina, it looks like such a great country with amazing drivers. greetings from argentina
williamsracing đđđ
user20 @wiIIiamsracing OUT youâre not allowed to celebrate with us đđȘ
user21 oh no heâs endeared himself to me what now
user22 đŠđ·đ
user23 the utter lack of pr training of this man during the interviews had me screaming
user24 GREAT JOB FRANCO
user25 why am i growing attached to a driver that will only be here for 9 races đ
user26 wait i think i love him i fear
user27 are we just all gonna fake dementia over that post race interview orâŠâŠâŠ
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ynracing this idiot shouldâve known flowers are much more effective
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user35 OH MY GOD
user36 NO WAY NO WAY SAY SIKE RN
user37 somebody SEDATE ME
carlossainz55 this idiot shouldâve opened google translate before
ynracing OUT đ«”đȘ
user38 does this make franco a wag
user39 i meanâŠâŠâŠ
francolapinto yes :)
user40 TRULY INSANE BEHAVIOR
francolapinto si igual te encanta cuando hablo español (you still love it when i speak spanish)
ynracing yes i do âșïž
landonorris @ynracing đ«” SIMP
user41 NO WAY THIS ACTUALLY WORKED FOR HIM đđ
user42 he has too much charm someone has to put him down
francolapinto what
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francolapinto dijo que si đ (she said yes)
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user42 does this make fernando alonso a multi-millionaire match maker
user43 THE HAND PLACEMENT
user44 OH WEâVE BEEN PRAYING FOR TIMES LIKE THESE đ€§đ€§đ€§
user45 y/n amiga ya sos argentina đââïžđ§
user46 ABOUT DAMN TIME
user47 đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶
user48 what a time to ALIVE đ
ynracing awww do you like have a crush on me or something
francolapinto weâre literally holding hands right now
ynracing i know đ„° te quiero corazĂłn
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a/n: social media aus take SO LONG to make oh my god?? why did i think this would be easy. i feel this is good for a first attempt though? also i hope none of the spanish comes off as cringeyâŠ.. i very much had forgotten how much second hand embarrassment it gives me to use petnames in spanish (read: spanish is my first language)
i hope you enjoyed!!!!! reblogs and comments are always appreciated :)
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đ„° lando norris masterlist đ„°


personal faves f contains smut(ty parts) s
âš Series âš
s KINDA HOT THO ; part one
In which your brother has the most awful new teammate, but you keep finding yourself closer and closer to him. It's only sex - right?
s ROOMMATES (finished) ; part one / part two / part three / part four / part five / part six / part seven / part eight / part nine / part ten
In which you have to live with your brothers best friend who you really don't like, Lando Norris, and his many 'girlfriends' for a while, but there's always a thin line between love and hate.
f & s MORE THAN FRIENDS (finished) ; part one / part two / part three / part four / part five / part six / part seven / part eight / part nine / part ten / part eleven / part twelve
In which your best friend is going to help you to gain more sexual experience and say goodbye to your insecurities, but he's quick to discover that he never wants to share you and your new experiences with others - the only problem being, him having to confess his feelings.
s HIS TEAMMATE (finished) ; part one / part two / part three / part four / part five / part six / part seven / part eight / part nine / part ten / part eleven / part twelve / part thirteen
In which you find yourself getting closer to your brothers new teammate who's a total dick.
THE RACE LOSER (finished); part one / part two
In which you see your ex best friend again, after he cut off contact between you to because he needed to focus on racing
f & s MISTAKE(S) (finished); part one / part two / part three / part four / part five / part six / part seven / part eight / part nine
In which you keep making the same mistake over and over again by fucking the boy you hate the most
INTO IT (finished) ; part one / part two / part three / part four / part five / part six / part seven / part eight / part nine / part ten / part eleven
In which you really, really dislike your brothers new found best friend - Lando Norris - but you keep finding your way back to him
f&s FWB (finished) ; part one / part two / part three / part four / part five / part six / part seven / part eight / part nine / part ten / part eleven
In which you decide to become friends with benefits with Lando Norris, that can't be a bad idea right?
THE SISTER (finished) ; part one / part two / part three / part four / part five / part six / part seven / part eight / part nine / part ten
In which your the little sister of Max Verstappen and you meet Lando Norris, who quickly turns in to one of your best friends. But there's a thin line between friends & lovers
f&s BREAKING THE RULES (finished) ; part one / part two / part three / part four / part five / part six / part seven
In which Lando is your brothers rival during the championship, but you can't seem to stay away from him
âš One shots âš
s His stripper ; In which Lando his friends take him to a stripclub, where he meets you. He's quick to come back weekly, every Tuesday you're his. But when he comes another day and finds you on the lap of some other guy, something in him snaps.
s Not a chance ; In which Lando thinks he's going to win a race, to which you tell him the chances of you two fucking are as low as him winning a race - so what happens when he wins?
Regret ; In which Lando breaks up with you, but starts to regret it even more when he sees you back on the racetrack. Can he still fix things?
f Fake date ; In which Lando helps you piss of your ex boyfriend by acting like your fake new boyfriend
His masseur ; In which you're Lando his best friend and masseur, but your feelings start to cause a bit of trouble
s Crazy ; in which Lando and you are crazy for each other without knowing it from each other, until Lando loses his temper while seeing you with another
f Date ; in which Lando needs an awful push from his friends to finally ask you out
Afterparty ; in which you and Lando are oblivious idiots & you go to the afterparty with someone else after Lando told you it was no big deal, spoiler: it was a big deal
Little game ; in which you and Lando are fighting, so you decide to test his feelings for you with a little game
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Fandom: Bridgerton
Pairing: Benedict Bridgerton x F!Reader
Summary: After your father finds out you've been writing under a male pseudonym, he threatens to marry you off to an atrocious man unless you find yourself a husband within a month's time.
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I WILL NOT BE TAKING TAGS FOR THIS SERIES! THERE WILL NOT BE A TAGLIST!
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My heart is broken đ„Č I canât imagine a race without you and your big smile đ

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Aaa this is beautiful đ
Origin [Logan Howlett]
Summary: Two people, one shared past, and decades apart.
Warnings: fem!reader, angst, fluff, longing, things get bad before they get better! WC: 14k - MASTERLIST
A/N: there are plot points that are inspired by Logan's origin story (thank u marvelwiki), but they are so non-canon compliant its funny so don't call me out tyyy đ
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Before he was known as Logan, or as Wolverine, he was James.Â
Your James.Â
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Itâs quiet in the Howlett estate, the kind of stillness that only comes when everyone has long retired for the night. But while the rest of the mansion sleeps, you remain wide awake. Dressed in your nightgown and nestled under the blankets, you glance at the small, brass pocketwatch resting on your bedside table. The hands read 10:22 PM. Any minute now, you think to yourself.Â
Then, like clockwork, you hear itâa faint knock on your door. Three slow, deliberate taps, followed by two quick ones. The secret signal never fails to make you smile. You spring from the bed, feet softly padding across the floor as you hurry to the door. You open it as quietly as possible, your grin widening the moment you see whoâs waiting on the other side.
James.
He stands there, dark tousled hair and that familiar mischievous smile that always manages to light up the dim hallway. Youâve known him your entire life, growing up together under the roof of the Howlett estate. Your parents, both loyal servants to the Howlett family, were fortunate enough to be granted permission raise you alongside their son.
From the moment you could walk, you and James were inseparable, sharing countless adventures in the woods, running across the estateâs gardens, and whispering secrets to one another under moonlit skies.
"About time," you whisper, teasing him with a playful glint in your eyes. "You really know how to keep a lady waiting, donât you?"
A soft snort escapes his lips as he grabs your hand, pulling you gently into the hallway. "My deepest apologies, Mâlady," he replies with mock formality, the corners of his mouth twitching in amusement. "I had to... attend to urgent business in the necessary."
You snicker, giving his hand a gentle squeeze. "Ah, I see. Was it a fulfilling experience, sir Howlett?"
He glances over his shoulder, rolling his eyes with exaggerated exasperation, though you catch the small smirk tugging at his lips. He doesnât respond, but his silence confirms everything. It was.
The rest of the trip is quiet, the two of you moving stealthily through the darkened corridors, careful not to disturb anyone or draw unwanted attention. After all, your mother would certainly disapprove of such late-night rendezvous. It is improper, she would say.
But what choice did you have? The day offered no time for moments like this. You were busy training to take over as the next chief maid, learning the endless routines of the household, while James spent his time with his family or other highborn friends. It was only after hours, when the mansion finally settled, that the two of you could steal away for these secret meetings.
Finally, you reach the gardens. The crisp night air greets you as you slip away from any prying eyes. Thereâs a familiar sense of peace here, among the fragrant flowers and the towering trees that shield you from the world. James leads you to your usual spot, a stone bench tucked beneath the shadow of the hedges. Wordlessly, he slips off his jacket, draping it over your shoulders before taking a dramatic bow.
"To keep you warm, Mâlady," he says softly.
"Hush, James," you laugh, finding his antics endearing.Â
Youâre grateful, especially as the cool night air nips at your exposed skin. The nightgown, while comfortable, offers little protection against the chill. You pull his jacket tighter around yourself, then pat the empty spot next to you, gesturing to him to sit, to which he does.
âHow was your day?" you prompt.
James sighs, leaning back on the bench, his hand casually resting behind you as he stares up at the sky. "Same old, same old," he starts, a familiar twinge of annoyance creeping into his voice. "You know how it is. Dinners with my parents, listeninâ to old men talk about businesses I'll never care about, trying not to fall asleep while they drone on about investments or land expansions. Itâs all so posh."
You stifle a giggle, nudging him playfully with your elbow. "Posh? You sound like you're living the dream."
He rolls his eyes dramatically. "If by 'dream,' you mean sitting there pretending to care while wonderinâ how quickly I can escape to see you, then yeah, it's an absolute dream," he quips sarcastically.
Sniggering, you bring your hand up to your forehead, acting distressed. "Oh, how tragic. The poor Lord James Howlett, trapped in a world of lavish dinners and fancy wine. Whatever will you do?"
"Mock me all you want, but itâs unbearable," he groans, leaning forward, his elbows resting on his knees. "I hate it. All the stuffy clothes, the fake smiles, the way everyone acts like they're better than everyone else." He pauses for a moment, then glances sideways at you. "You're the only real thing here."
The sincerity in his words makes your heart flutter, and youâre suddenly grateful for the darkness hiding the faint blush creeping up your cheeks. Looking away, you try to play it off. "Well, if thatâs the case, I guess I should charge you for my company," you tease coyly.
He lets out a huff of amusement, shaking his head. "I'll pay whatever price you want.â
There's a pause as you both sit in comfortable silence. Just then, a soft breeze sweeps through the garden, catching the edges of your nightgown and fanning it up slightly. Before you can even react, he swiftly moves his jacket from your shoulders to your lap, covering your legs. His hand lingers, making sure you're covered before he hastily wraps his arm around your shoulders and pulls you close against him.
The warmth from his body contrasts with the cool air, and you can't help but laugh softly at his sudden behaviour. "Wow, you really are a gentleman, James."
He tenses slightly, his grip on your shoulder loosening as he looks away, clearly flustered. "IâI just didnât want you to get cold," he mumbles, his usual confidence faltering.
You smile at how shy he suddenly seems, leaning your head against his shoulder. "Thank you. Itâs sweet."
For a brief second, he says nothing, but you can feel the way his heartbeat picks up just a little. Then, almost too quietly, he mutters, "Iâd do anythinâ for you."
Your breath catches in your throat, and you tilt your head to look up at him. But you canât respond, because he clears his throat, looking down at you with a small, sheepish smile. "What about you? Any exciting adventures in the life of a future chief maid?"
Grinning, you recognize his attempt to shift the conversation, and decide to let it go for now. "Oh, you know, the usual. A thrilling day of dusting, folding linens, and trying not to spill tea on your motherâs favourite rug."
He chuckles, pulling you a little closer. "Sounds way more exciting than my day."
You hum in acknowledgement, letting the moment linger. Neither of you speak for a bit, just relishing being in each otherâs presence.Â
"So, do tell," you say after a while, breaking the silence, "if you could get away from all the fancy dinners and boring conversations, what would you do?"
He smiles slightly, his gaze still fixed on the star-filled sky. "Iâd leave. Go far away from here, maybe somewhere quiet. Live in the countryside, where no one cares about wealth or titles." His eyes drop to meet yours. "Maybe youâd come with me."
You laugh gently. "And who would take care of your family if we both ran off?"
Shrugging, his expression grows more serious. "They donât need me. They need someone whoâll do what they wantâsomeone to follow in their footsteps. Thatâs never been me."
Thereâs a weight in his words, and you feel a pang of sympathy for him. Youâre about to respond, to tell him you understand more than he realizes, whenâ
BANG.
Your body stiffens instantly, heart beginning to pound in your chest as you straighten up, eyes wide.
"What the hell was that?" James asks sharply. He turns to you, his face mirroring the confusion and unease you're feeling.
Shaking your head, you swallow the lump thatâs forming in your throat. "It sounded like a gunshot."
The two of you stare at each other for a beat, then, right when youâre going to speak again, you hear itâhis motherâs scream. Itâs high-pitched, panicked, and it sends a jolt of fear through you both.
"Help!" she shrieks from inside the mansion. "James, help!"
Without a word, you bolt to your feet, the peaceful night forgotten as you rush back inside. Your heart is racing as your bare feet fly across the grass, nightgown fluttering behind you. James is ahead of you, moving fast, his expression shifting from confusion to pure fear.
As you reach the back entrance, your mind races with possibilities, none of them good. You burst through the door into the hallway, your breathing laboured from the sudden sprint. Something is terribly wrong.
"Mother!" He calls, his voice sharp with panic as he leads the way toward the main staircase. You follow close behind, anxiety coiling tight in your chest.
Once you get to the bottom of the stairs, you hear footstepsâheavy, hurriedâand then you see her. Mrs. Howlett, wide-eyed and pale, comes hurrying down from the upper floor, clutching the banister for support. Her hands are trembling.
"James!" she cries. "Your fatherâheâs been shot!"
The boy beside you freezes, face going white. "What?" he breathes, disbelief etched into every syllable.
"Heâhe was in his study, and IâI heard the gunfire. IâI donât know what happened. I donât know whoâ" Her voice breaks, and tears stream down her face as she struggles to speak. "We need to get help!"
He doesnât waste another second, taking off up the stairs, his long strides making quick work of the distance. You trail after him. How could this happen? Who couldâve done this?
When you reach the second floor, you see the study door slightly ajar, light spilling out into the dark hallway. James' hand wavers over the doorknob for only a moment before pushing the it open wide.
Inside, the scene is worse than you imagined.
There, slumped over his desk, is Mr. Howlett. His once pristine office now looks chaoticâpapers scattered, a window broken, and blood, so much blood. A crimson stain is spreading across his shirt.
"Father," James chokes out, rushing to his side, his hands shaking as he reaches for him.
You stand paralyzed for a moment, the sight rendering you speechless, but then the adrenaline kicks in, and you move further into the room. Your mind is screaming at you to do something, anything, but all you can do is watch as James desperately tries to wake his father, calling his name again and again.
Trying to make sense of the horrific scene, your attention is dragged away by the sound of footsteps shuffling behind you. Thomas Logan, the groundskeeper, stumbles in, his movements clumsy, his face twisted with drunkenness. His bloodshot eyes are manic, and in his trembling hand, heâs clutching a gunâthe same one that must have been used to end Mr. Howlettâs life.
"Thomas!" Mrs. Howlett yelps. "What are you doing?"
James turns sharply, still kneeling beside his fatherâs body, his expression hardening immediately. "What the hell are you doing here?"
Thomas lets out a low, slurred laugh, staggering further into the room. His eyes flick between you, James, and Mrs. Howlett, but his focus remains hazy. "Iâve had enough of this, enough of all of it," he mutters, waving the gun in the air. "Your precious mother thought she could keep the truth from you. But itâs time you knew the truth, boy."
"What truth?" The younger man demands harshly.
Swaying on his feet, he points the gun directly at James, his finger twitching dangerously on the trigger. "Iâm not just the groundskeeper, you idiot," he snarls venomously, "Iâm your damn father."
Itâs as if the room has been put on pause. You feel the air leave your lungs, your mind scrambling to make sense of what you just heard. Glancing at your friend, you see the disbelief wash over his features, his eyes widening with shock, denial.
"No," he whispers, shaking his head, backing away slightly. "You're lying. Youâre drunk."
But the older man just laughs, the sound hollow and bitter. "You think John Howlett was your father? That man never wanted you! He raised you because he had to, not because you were his. Youâre mine, boy. My flesh and blood,â he jerks his head in the direction of Mrs. Howlett. âGo ahead, ask your mama."
You hear Mrs. Howlett begin to blubber in the background at the accusation, but your attention is solely on the boy in front of you.
Betrayal is written all over his face.
His breath quickens, and his hands clench into fists at his sides. You want to reach out to him, concern puling you forward, but then he lets out a screamâa sound so full of pain that you stop in your tracks.
"James!" you cry, but he doesnât seem to hear you. His eyes squeeze shut, and his body convulses, as though something inside him is tearing him apart from the inside out.
The sickening sound of skin breaking fills your ears, and bone claws shoot out from his knuckles. They gleam in the dim light of the room, sharp and lethal. The sight of them is nauseating, but youâre unable to look away as James blinks, gazing down at his hands, dumbfounded.
"Whatâ" he rasps, his chest heaving. "Whatâs happening to me?"
âWhat the hell is this?â Thomas sneers in disgust. He stumbles, reaching for the wall to steady himself. âFigures... Of course my sonâs a freak.â
âYou were always a fuck-up,â he continues in his drunken rage. âUseless, soft... a disappointment from the start. Just like your mother. Look at you now, boy.â
âIâm not your boy,â James snarls through gritted teeth, rage building inside him. His eyes flash dangerously. Itâs as if something inside him has snapped, some deep, instinctual part of him that has been lying dormant, waiting for this very moment.
âYouâre right. Youâre no son of mine. Just a goddamn mistake. Shouldâve left you in the dirt with yourâ"
Before he can finish, a roar rips from Jamesâs throat. So raw, so animalistic, you get goosebumps. His entire body tenses, muscles coiled, and then, with terrifying speed, he lunges.
In an instant, his claws sink deep into Thomasâs chest with a thunk. The force of the blow sends the older man crashing back, disbelief and agony seizing his face as blood sprays across the room, spattering the walls and floor. His body thrashes, his hands weakly grasping at his sonâs wrists, but thereâs no strength left in him.Â
A gurgling gasp bubbles from his throat, and then it's over. He collapses to the ground, lifeless, as James stands over him, claws retreating back into his skin.Â
"James!" Mrs. Howlett screams, her voice piercing. "What have you done?!"
You donât know how to react. You canât process it, canât breathe. All you know is that you need to get out of hereâget James out of here, away from this nightmare before it consumes him. Without thinking, you rush to his side, grabbing his bloodied hand.
"We have to go!" you say urgently.
His eyes dart to you, frantic and unfocused but he doesnât resist as you pull him toward the door. His mother's cries echo behind you, but you canât stop, canât look back.
You runâboth of youâthrough the hallways, out the back door, and into the dark of night. The wind whips around you, stinging your face, but you donât stop. You run until your legs burn, until youâve entered the surrounding forest, and the Howlett estate is nothing but a distant shadow behind you.Â
All the while, Jamesâs hand stays locked in yours.
Branches scratch everywhere, at your arms, your face, and the underbrush tugs at your clothes as if trying to hold you back, but you push on. Only after the first light of dawn begins to creep in, does the exhaustion hit. Bodies aching and bruised, the two of you collapse beside a small stream.Â
Youâre on your back, catching you breath, when you tilt to your head to look over at your friend. Heâs sitting down, with his hands out in front of him, leering at them. He struggles for air, his breaths coming in short, panicked bursts, and his clothes are torn, stained with bloodâhis fatherâs blood, Thomasâ blood.Â
His claws are long retracted, but the scars of where they came out of his skin are there, fresh.Â
"James," you whisper, but he doesnât respond. Slowly, you crawl over to his side, pain flaring with each movement. When you reach him, you sit on your knees, looking up at him, trying to meet his gaze. You repeat his name, more firmly this time.
He finally looks at you, but heâs broken. His lips tremble as he opens his mouth to speak, but all that comes out is a choked, almost inaudible, "What did I do?"
Your heart aches for him. Reaching out, you gently take one of his bloodied hands in yours, and as soon as your skin touches his, he flinches, pulling back slightly. "I killed him." he whispers, more to himself than anything. âIâI didnât mean to, I swear I didnât mean to!"
"Hey, listen to me," you say. "You didnât know. You couldnât have known this would happen."
"I killed him," he repeats. "I killed Thomas. Iâ" He glances down at his hands, at the scars along his knuckles, and his expression crumples completely. âHe was my father.â
You donât know what to say, donât know how to fix this, but you know you have to try, so you wrap your arms around him. At first, he stiffens, but then he collapses to the ground, pulling you down with him. You land on top, your chest pressed against his as the weight of your bodies crashes into the soft earth. He squeezes you like youâre the only thing keeping him grounded, his face buried in your shoulder as his breath comes in short, broken sobs.
"I didnât mean to do it," he repeats, the words muffled against your skin. "Something just changed inside me. What am I? What am I turning into?"
âHush," you whisper, moving one of your hands to brush his hair. "Look at me. Just breathe, okay? Youâre not alone in this. Weâll figure it out together, I promise."
His arms tighten around you, pulling you even closer. Itâs overwhelming, but you donât push him away. Instead, you let him hold you as tightly as he needs, your fingers gently stroking the back of his head, trying to console him in any way you can.
"Iâm a monster," he whimpers. "What if I hurt you, too?"
"You wonât," you affirm, lips brushing against his ear as you whisper. "Youâre not a monster. This⊠this thing that happened, it doesnât change who you are. Youâre still you."
Beneath you, his body shakes, overcome by emotion he holds onto you. Your forehead is pressed to against his, your breath mingling with his while you continue to whisper reassurances, telling him over and over that itâs going to be okay, that heâs not alone.
Minutes pass, maybe longerâyou lose track of time as you lie there together. Gradually, his cries begin to quiet, his breathing slowing as the storm inside him starts to subside. His grip on you loosens slightly, but he doesnât let go fully, still cradling you in his arms.
Shifting, you raise your head to look at him. His eyes are red, his face pale, but heâs calmer. You start to pull yourself off of him, but as you're standing up, he grasps your hand again, and he looks at you with a tired, grateful expression, squeezing it gently as if to say everything he canât put into words yet.
Then, you continue. Hand in hand, you move deeper into the forest. And finally, after a few more hours, you notice something in the distance. Through the trees, there are rooftops, small and clustered together, their chimneys trailing thin lines of smoke into the evening sky.
âA town,â you whisper, the first word youâve spoken in hours.
He follows your gaze, his eyes narrowing slightly as he takes in the sight of the small mining town nestled in the valley.
In it, the peopleâs faces are etched with lines of hard labour and even harder lives, but still, you know youâll be safe there.Â
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Initially, itâs difficultâthis new life you and James have carved out is a far cry from the comforts of the Howlett estate. The town youâve settled in is rough and unpolished. You both share a modest shack on the outskirts, a place that feels foreign and strange, but over time, it starts to become home.
He finds work in the mines almost immediately. The foreman takes one look at him, his broad shoulders and strong arms, and practically shoves a shovel in his hand without asking any questions. The job is tough, but it suits him.Â
Every evening, he comes back to you covered in soot and dirt, his hands rough and calloused, his face lined with exhaustion. You can see the toll the work takes on him, how his body aches, but thereâs something else tooâa measure of peace that wasnât there before. Itâs as if heâs found a way to silence the chaos inside him, at least for a little while.
Itâs not long before everyone in town begins to call him Logan, a name he offers with indifference when asked.
A new identity.Â
Logan is a man who works hard, who keeps to himself, who doesnât ask for anything more than a paycheck at the end of the week.Â
Logan is a man who doesnât need anyone, who can survive on his own.Â
To you, heâs still James.Â
In the quiet moments, when itâs just the two of you, he lets down the walls, lets you see through the façade. And when you whisper his nameâJamesâhe closes his eyes as if that one word alone soothes something deep in his soul.
After weeks of watching him silently carry the weight of the world on his shoulders, you offer him a rag to wipe his face as he sits down at the small table youâve cobbled together from scraps. He takes it without a word, rubbing at the grime on his skin.
âYou donât have to do this forever, you know,â you say softly, leaning against the table as he tosses the rag aside. "Thereâs more to life than breaking your back underground."
He glances at you. "Itâs all Iâm good for now."
"Youâre good for more than that," you reply walking up to him, reaching for his hand. He lets you take it, like he always does. "You canât let what happened define you."
His jaw tightens, but he doesnât pull away. Instead, he gives your hand a small squeeze, his eyes drifting to the floor as he mumbles, "Whatâs inside me⊠itâs different. You donât know what itâs like."
You donât argue. How could you?
The changes in him, the way his strength has grown, how his senses have sharpened, it all impacts him. He can hear things no one else can, smell the rain long before it falls, and even in complete darkness, he sees as clearly as if it were day. His powers are evolving, changing him.
But you know, deep down, that the man sitting in front of you is your friendâyour Jamesâno matter what heâs become.
Youâve seen him wrestle with the fear of what he might turn into, the fear of losing control, but you also see the man who leans into your touch, who lets you bandage his hands after long days in the mines, who presses his forehead to yours when the nights grow too heavy with silence.
And as your time together in the town goes by, there is a shift.
It starts with small thingsâa lingering glance, a brush of your fingers as you pass each other in the kitchen, the way he looks at you when he thinks youâre not paying attention.
Then, it moves to bigger gestures. When youâd pack him his lunch fo the day, you slip in a small piece of parchment with a heart hastily drawn on it, or at night time, instead of falling asleep backs turned toward each other, awkwardly trying to ignore whatever tension is brewing, you fall asleep in his arms, and wake up the same way.
It gets to a point where you can neither of you can deny it.Â
Youâve fallen in love.
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Itâs late, and youâre sitting by the fire outside the small cabin, waiting for him to return from one of his now-frequent disappearances into the woods. You used to worry about where he went, afraid he was distancing himself from you, so one night you followed him. What you found took your breath awayâhim, sitting out on a ledge, with some wild animals surrounding him. There was something in him that they must have recognized, a mutual respect that seemed to transcend anything human.
Since then, youâve let him go without asking questions, trusting that those nights in the woods bring him the peace he canât find anywhere else. But tonight, when he returns, heâs different. He doesnât just brush past you to head inside. Instead, he sits beside you by the fire.
You turn to him, about to ask if everythingâs alright, but the words catch in your throat when his hand cups your jaw. His grip is gentle, hesitant, as if heâs afraid to break the moment, but in his eyes, you find a longing, a yearning, that mirrors your own.Â
His thumb brushes over your cheek, and for the first time in a long time, thereâs no hesitation in his movements. Your heart stutters, and when he pulls you closer, you let him. His lips meet yours, careful at first, but as you kiss him back, you feel the stress drain from his body.Â
The kiss deepens, slow, tender, and everything youâve ever wanted.
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The next few years are a kind of peaceful bliss you never expected. With each passing day, you and Logan seem to fall deeper into each other, the bond you share growing stronger, more intimate, like youâve finally found the rhythm of the life you were always meant to have together.
Mornings are your favourite. He always wakes up first, moving quietly so as not to wake you, and heâs gotten into the habit of making you breakfast. You always sneak out of bed and snake your arms around him from behind, pressing your face into his back as he grumbles about you not getting enough sleep. âYouâre always up too early,â heâd say.Â
âI like being up with you,â youâd mumble in response, and heâll turn around, his hands coming up to cradle your face, his eyes soft and full of that quiet, steady love heâs never really put into words. And then heâd kiss you like he has all the time in the world, even if he has to head over to the mines.Â
On your days off from your job at the pub, youâll spend hours together, finding little ways to enjoy the simplicity of your life. He will sometimes take you out to the woods behind the house, where youâd walk the trails together. He points out the different wildlife, the plants you donât recognize, and you tease him about being a mountain man. Heâd smirk, giving you that low, raspy chuckle that never fails to make your heart seize in your chest, and tug you closer to his side.
In the evenings, oftentimes, you sit together while you knit, something that started as a hobby but quickly became one of your preferred pastimes. He always pretends to be uninterested, but heâll watch you anyway. âYouâre getting good at that,â heâd say gruffly.Â
âWant me to make you a sweater?â You smirk, raising an eyebrow.
âMaybe,â heâd grumble, but you can tell heâs secretly pleased at the idea.
The town itself becomes part of your life together, too. Youâve made friends with the locals, joining a small knitting club. If he has time, Logan drops by the pub on your shifts just to check in, sitting at the bar with a beer and watching you work. When your gazes connect very now and then, he gives you that lookâthe one that says heâs proud of you, that heâs content.
âWeâve got a good thing here,â he murmurs one night, holding you close.Â
âYeah,â you agree softly, kissing his cheek. âWe really do.â
But, all good things must come to an end.Â
The mining town, though small and isolated, isnât immune to the tensions that fester beneath the surface. Harsh conditions, grueling work, and the endless grind wear people down, turning frustration into anger, and anger into violence. Fights break out often, especially in the saloon after a long day when men try to drown their sorrows in whiskey. You both have learned to keep your distance from such skirmishes, knowing nothing good ever comes from getting involved.
Still, one night, as you return home from your evening shift at the pub, you hear the unmistakable sounds of a brawl breaking out in the middle of the street. Shouts reverberate through the cold air, followed by the crash of breaking glass. Your heart races as you recognize the deep, guttural growl cutting through the noiseâa sound you know all too well.
On impulse, you rush toward the commotion, dread pooling in your stomach. You know this wonât end well. Not here. Not for him.
When you reach the scene, your worst fears are confirmed. He stands in the centre of the chaos, fists clenched at his sides. Two men circle him, their faces twisted with drunken aggression, goading him. The small crowd thatâs gathered seems almost entertained, too caught up in the spectacle to understand the true danger festering.
âJames!â you shout, trying to get his attention, but to no avail.
One of the menâa burly miner youâve seen around town a few times, always looking for troubleâlunges forward, his fist swinging. The punch connects with your manâs jaw, hard enough to stagger him back, but instead of falling, you see something shift in Loganâs expression. His eyes darken, his jaw tightens. Then, his claws slowly begin sliding out of his knuckles.
The crowd gasps, and the laughter dies immediately.
âDonât come any closer,â he growls, his voice low and full of warning. His chest heaves as he struggles to keep control, but you can see the fire burning behind his eyes. Heâs on the edge, teetering dangerously close to losing himself.
But the miner, too drunk and furious to notice or care, spits on the ground. âFreak!â he slurs, venom lacing every word. âYou think you scare me?â
He charges at Logan again, fists swinging recklessly. Your heart leaps into your throat, and you scream for him to stop. But itâs too late. Logan tries to pull back, to stop whatâs about to happen, but the man is too close, too fast.
Everything slows down, the world moving in fractured seconds. Claws slice through the air, meeting flesh with a sickening thud. The miner gasps, his eyes widening in shock as he stumbles, clutching at his chest where the claws have sunk deep. Blood blooms around his hands, staining the dirt beneath his feet.
And suddenly, youâre thrust back into the past. You see James as he was all those years ago, his claws dripping with blood after killing Thomas. The memory crashes into youâthe look of fear on his face, the horror in his eyes, the way he stumbled back, realizing what heâd done.
Just like now.
Loganâs eyes go wide, his expression mirroring that same devastation. He steps back, staring at the miner who crumples to the ground, gasping for breath. What follows is a deafening silence, the air thick with shock and disbelief. The townspeople that had been so eager for a show now stand frozen, eyes wide, faces pale.
The man gasps one last breath, then goes still.
Logan stares at the body at his feet, his claws still extended, still dripping with the manâs blood. His chest heaves, his breath shallow, and he mutters under his breath, barely audible, "Oh god⊠Not again."
You rush to his side, grabbing his arm in desperation. "Come on, letâs go home."
He doesnât move. Heâs locked in place, staring at the man heâs just killed. His hands tremble, the claws still out, and you can see the raw pain in his eyes as the reality of whatâs just happened sinks in.
"I didnât mean to," he whispers again, his voice cracking. "I didnât⊠I didnât mean toâŠ"
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That night, while you're sleeping, Logan makes his decision.
And when you wake up the next day, the space beside you is cold.
The shack feels too quiet, too still.Â
All you can do is stare at the empty spot in your bed. You tell yourself that maybe heâs outside, chopping wood or heâs already left for work. But deep down, you know.Â
Throwing on your boots, you donât bother to change out of your nightclothes, and rush outside. His name is the first thing out of your mouth, sharp and desperate. "James! Logan!" Your voice barrels through the small yard, bouncing off the trees and fading into the cool morning air.Â
Thereâs no answer.
Panic grips you as you search the familiar placesâaround the shack, the small trail he likes to take into the woods, by the creek where he often spends time when he needs to clear his head. Thereâs no sign of him.
No footprints, no lingering scent. Nothing.
The townspeople stare as you move through the streets. They know what happened. They saw the claws, the blood. And now, they see youâa reminder of the violence that tore through their quiet lives. But you donât care about their judgment right now. Youâre too focused looking for him, too frantic to worry about the whispers that follow in your wake.
"Have you seen him?" you ask one of the miners who had once shared a drink with him, but he shakes his head and pulls away from you, muttering something under his breath. Everybody keeps their distance, their faces closed off, avoiding your gaze.Â
By the time the sun climbs higher in the sky, the truth settles in your chest like a heavy stone. He left. You wander the streets a little longer, until exhaustion finally forces you back to the shack.
He didnât say goodbye. He didnât even leave a note. The man who you shared your life with, who you fell in love with, is goneâand he isnât coming back.
In the days that follow, everything changes. The people who once greeted you with a nod or a smile now avert their eyes when you walk by. They speak in hushed tones, voices thick with suspicion and disdain.Â
Nobody cares that you had nothing to do with what happened in the street that night. To them, youâre guilty by association.
It starts slowly, but the gossip spreads like wildfire. Saying thinks like: you knew what Logan was all along, that you hid his secret, allowed him to kill their men. Their anger turns to you, and before long, you become the pariahâcut off, unwelcome, the person responsible for the death of one of their own.
The day they decide to exile you is gray and heavy, the sky thick with the promise of rain. No one has the decency to say it to your face. Instead, you wake to a note slipped under your door, the word leave scrawled across it in angry, uneven letters.
You pack what little belongings you haveâa few clothes, some keepsakes from the life you left behind at the Howlett estateâand sling a small bag over your shoulder. Then, you walk away without looking back.
Stretching out before you is a desolate, abandoned looking road. Your legs ache with every step, your feet blistering inside your boots, but you donât stop. The memories of Logan, the town, the life you tried to build together swirl in your mind.
The sound of a a horse whinnying pulls you from your thoughts, and you turn to see a carriage approaching. The coachmanâa man with kind eyes and a weathered faceâslows as he pulls alongside you. His voice soft and cautious as he asks, "Need a ride?"
Nodding, youâre too exhausted to respond with words, and climb into the passenger seat. He doesnât ask many questions, sensing perhaps that youâre a soul in need of silence more than conversation. He drives in quiet companionship, the horses' feet against the dirt the only sound breaking the stillness.
He takes you to the nearest town, dropping you off with a quiet wish for better days ahead. You thank him and give him a few coins. Youâre standing on the edge of a new beginning, unsure of where to go next but knowing, with painful certainty, that the past is behind you now.
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In this new place, you slowly begin to rebuild what youâve lost. It isnât easyâthere are nights when the loneliness threatens to swallow you whole and days when the weight of losing your best friend feels too much to bear. Still, you find work at a small shop, rent a modest room in the quieter part of town, and painstakingly, you carve out a new existence.Â
Though no matter how hard you try to move forward, heâs always there. A shadow, lingering in the corners of your mind. You canât forget himâthe way he looked at you with those intense, searching eyes, the way he held you like you were the only thing keeping him tethered to this world, the way he left without a word. Your entire childhood, your early adulthood, revolved around him. He was the best part of your life. Every moment spent with him was cherished, imprinted in your memory like a brand you canât erase.
Nights are the hardest. When the world is quiet, and itâs just you and your thoughts, thatâs when the ache becomes unbearable. Each night, your mind drifts back to him. You tell yourself it wasnât his faultâhe must have believed he was protecting you by leaving.Â
Maybe he thought you would hate him for killing another man with his claws, for unleashing the violence he tried so hard to contain. Maybe he thought you could never forgive him.
But the more you think about it, the more you realize: if he truly believed that, then he didnât know you at all.
And that hurts. A lot.
You start to feel like him in some ways, burdened by secrets and anger with nowhere to go. More often than not, you slip out of the town in your nightgown and into the nearby forest, hoping the solitude will offer some kind of peace. It doesnât, not really, but itâs better than suffocating in your room, choking on memories of what was and what could have been.
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A year passes since the night he left, and you find yourself standing among the trees once again, lost in thought. Itâs not fairânone of it is. You lost everything, and for what? Because you loved him? Because you could look past his mutation?
All of the emotions youâve done a decent job at managing bubble to the surface, a torrent of grief and rage with nowhere to go. Mindlessly, you draw back your fist and slam it into the trunk of a nearby tree. The impact shoots a sharp pain through your arm, but itâs fleeting, drowned out by the rush of anger. You pull back to punch the tree again, harder this time, desperate for some kind of release.
But the tree doesnât just splinter. It explodes.Â
The force of your punch obliterates the trunk, sending shards of wood flying in all directions. You stagger back, staring at the destruction, stunned. What was just a tall, beautiful arbor is now reduced to nothing but rubble, the strength of your blow far beyond anything a normal person could achieve.
Your breath hitches when it dawns on you. Youâre standing in the middle of the forest, surrounded by the evidence of your newfound power. You arenât just grieving the loss of Logan anymore; youâre discovering that you are, just like him, a mutant.
Except, unlike him, youâre alone.
Heâs not here to hold you, to help you make sense of whatâs happening. Heâs not here to run away with you like you once ran away with him. You have no one to share this terrifying revelation with. You have only yourself.
Looking down at your trembling hands, the faint ache in your knuckles nothing compared to the pain in your chest. Itâs as if your heart is breaking all over again.
If you had knownâif you had discovered this power when he was still with youâwould things have been different? Would he have taken you with him? Would you still be together?
You canât stop the questions, canât silence the what-ifs that plague you.
Finally, the dam breaks, and you cry.
Pressing your fists against your eyes, you try to stifle the sobs, but itâs no use. The grief crashes over you in waves as the life you tried to build together all plays out in your mind like some twisted, unending loop.
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The days bleed into one another.
Each is marked by the slow, steady march of time. You continue to live, to survive, but the discovery of your mutant powers changes everything, setting you on a path you had never imagined.
You learn that you can channel energy through your body, whether that be your emotions, or external, and then amplify it for your own gain. Itâs a power that protects you, that makes you feel invincible, but the more you use it, the more distant you become from the life you once knew.Â
And then thereâs the other side of your mutationâthe ability to heal others by absorbing their injuries.Â
The first time you did it, it was an accident.Â
You were closing up shop, and as you walked along the cobblestone roads, you saw a man lying face down. Instinctively, you quickened your pace, and crouched down beside him. Was he drunk? Dead? Gently, almost hesitantly, you reached out, placing your hand on his back with the faint hope that he was simply unconscious. Your intention was simpleâjust to check if he was breathing, to see if he would stir at your touch.
But the moment your fingers brushed his coat, a violent surge of pain exploded in your mind, like a thunderclap within your skull. The agony was so sudden, so sharp, that it nearly knocked you off your feet.Â
It was more than painâit was as though the manâs suffering had become yours, pulling you into his darkness. Your vision blurred, and for an instant, you could feel it. Blood. Hot and sticky, trickling down your forehead in a slow, steady stream. You raised a trembling hand to wipe it away, expecting to feel the warmth of it on your fingertips.
But there was nothing. No blood. No wound.
Just the phantom sensation of pain that wasnât your own.
Then, just as suddenly as it had come, the pain vanished. You blinked, gasping for air, trying to steady yourself. When you looked down at the man again, he was stirring, groaning softly. His eyes fluttered open, and he sat up, as if waking from a long sleep. He looked up at you, confused but grateful, oblivious to the power you had just unleashed.
It feels like a curse, the pain of others transferring to you in ways that leave you gasping for breath. But over time, you learn to control it, to take on only as much as you can handle, and to let the rest fade away.
You never stay too long in one place. Town after town, you move, always careful to keep your powers hidden. The people you encounter are kind enough, but you never allow yourself to get close. You canât afford toânot when the memory of him still haunts you, his absence a constant ache in your heart.Â
What if they leave you too?
Every now and then, there are some nights of passion with a stranger, but you never find another lover, never allow yourself to even consider it.Â
As the years slip by, and you move through life like a ghost, always on the fringes, never fully there. In the beginning, you donât notice itâtime is something you stopped paying attention to long ago. But then, one day, nearly ten years after he left, you catch sight of yourself in a mirror.
Your reflection stares back at you, unchanged, unmarked by the years that have passed. Itâs as if time has forgotten you, leaving you suspended in a state of perpetual youth. This knowledgeâthat you could live indefinitelyâfills you with a sense of purpose you havenât felt in years.
So, when the First World War breaks out, you volunteer as a nurse, determined to use your abilities to save as many lives as you can. The troops who come to you are broken, their bodies ravaged by the horrors of war. You take their pain into yourself, healing them with a touch, until there is nothing left but faint scarsâa reminder of what they have survived.
Itâs during the Second World War that you first hear the rumours. Injured men speak in hushed tones of a man they sawâa soldier who seemed invincible, fighting with a ferocity that borders on the inhuman. They talk of clawsâlong, sharp claws that can cut through anything, and a healing ability that allows him to shrug off injuries that would kill anyone else.
Could it be him? Could he still be out there, after all these years?
You dismiss the thought almost as quickly as it comes. It canât be. He would be dead by now, just like everyone else from your past.Â
He is gone, and you are aloneâthatâs the truth youâve come to accept.
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Somewhere along the way, you meet Charles Xavier. You donât know how, but he knows you. He knows youâre a mutantâhow you helped in the war. And he wants you to join his team.
Youâve spent so long on your own, relying on your powers to survive, that the idea of joining a team feels foreign, almost impossible. But thereâs something in his eyes, something in the way he speaks of his vision for the future, that resonates with you. This isnât just about survivalâitâs about making a difference, about using your powers to protect those who canât protect themselves.Â
And, perhaps, itâs also about finding closure.
Maybe you can help mutants who struggle with their identity, like he did. Maybe this time, you can stop them from running away from themselves, the way you wish you could have stopped him.
So you agree.
And when you arrive at the mansion, youâre introduced to the others who will become your teammatesâJean Grey, Scott Summers, Hank McCoy, and Ororo Munroe.
The early days are challenging. Learning to work as a team, to trust one another, isnât easy, especially for you, after so many years of solitude. But a camaraderie that develops between all of you, and it feels right. Youâre no longer just a group of shunned mutantsâyouâre a family, united by a common goal.
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This mission is supposed to be simpleâinvestigate a remote facility rumoured to have ties to illegal mutant experimentation. Charles had briefed the team before sending you out, warning that there might be danger but nothing you couldnât handle as a group. Youâve faced threats before, so when you arrive at the facility, itâs with the usual caution but no real alarm.
The structure looks forsaken at first glance, the exterior covered in years of grime, windows cracked and dark. But as you all approach, something feels wrong. Thereâs an energy in the air, a hum of activity beneath the surface. You can sense it, and by the looks of the others, they feel it too.
âWe should be careful,â Scott mutters lowly as his hand hovers near his visor.
Jean furrows her brows. âIâm sensing...something. There are people here. This place isnât emptyâ
Your stomach twists, and once the team cautiously makes its way deeper into the facility, you start to hear itâthe muffled sounds of machinery, the low hum of voices, and then...a scream.
You freeze.
Youâve heard that scream before, in the dead of night, in memories youâve tried to bury.
James.
Without thinking, you push forward, your body moving on instinct as you race toward the source of the sound. The others call after you, but their voices fade into the background as panic claws at your chest.
The scream grows louder, more desperate, until you burst into a large chamber. And there, in the center of the room, suspended in a tank of bubbling liquid, he is.
His body is thrashing against the restraints that bind him, wires and tubes connected to his skin. Machines whir around him, injecting something into his bodyâsomething molten, silvery.Â
A team of scientists in lab coats and armed guards surround the tank, all of them focused on the cruel procedure unfolding before your eyes.
You can barely breathe. The sight of him, after all these yearsâbeing tortured like this is too much. Pain and rage surge through you, and before you realize whatâs happening, youâre moving again.
âWhat the hell are you doing?!â you scream.
The guards whirl toward you, but youâre already on them. The first one goes down with a single blow, your fist connecting with his chest and sending him flying into the wall. You barely register his body crumpling to the floor before you move on to the next.Â
Behind you, Jean and Scott rush in, their powers flashing as they help subdue the remaining guards, but your focus is on the man in the tank, whose eyes are squeezed shut in pain, body convulsing. You canât think straightâyou can only feel the overwhelming need to make this stop, to save him before the experiment finishes.Â
But itâs too late.
In a roar of destruction, he breaks free from the tank, glass and metal exploding outward in every direction. His eyes are wild, erratic, his mind lost to the pain and the transformationâheâs a force of nature now. A whirlwind of violence and fury.
You try to reach him, but Jean steps forward, her eyes glowing as she raises a hand. âIâm sorry,â she strains. Her telekinetic force slams into him, knocking him off his feet, and his body crumples to the ground, unconscious, the rage finally quieted.
Standing there, panting, your hands are shaking as you stare at his still form. Youâre overwhelmedâby the sight of him after so many years, by the pain of seeing him like this, by the fear that you might lose him before you even got him back.
Scott places a hand on your shoulder, his voice gentle. âWe need to get him out of here.â
You nod, unable to speak, and together, the team lifts Loganâs unconscious body and carries him out of the facility. The entire time, you keep your eyes on him, terrified that if you look away for even a second, heâll disappear. When you finally make it back to the jet, Jean lays him on a stretcher, her powers keeping him sedated for the trip back to the X-Mansion. You sit beside him, your hand hovering just above his, too afraid to touch, too afraid to hope.
The jet lifts off, and your mind races with a thousand questions.Â
How did he end up here? Why did they do this to him?Â
But above all, one thought consumes you: Heâs alive.
After all these years, after all the heartache and loss, LoganâJamesâis still here.
â
He remains unconscious for three days, his body healing from the horrific procedure he endured. You barely leave his side, watching over him as if your presence alone could somehow anchor him back to himself. His breathing is steady, but his faceâitâs both exactly the same and entirely foreign to you. He looks like the man youâve known and loved, but itâs what is on the inside that worries you.
You swallow hard, your gaze tracing the familiar lines on his skin. Where are you, James? you think. Are you still in there?
Jean had done a body scan soon after you brought him back to the mansion, and the results confirmed your worst fears: theyâve bound adamantium to his bones and buried his personality underneath the most powerful brainwashing youâve ever heard of.
Itâs devastating. Whatever relief youâd feltâif any at allâat finding him alive is now eclipsed by the crushing reality of what heâs become.
The day he is scheduled to wake, Charles calls a meeting. The team gathers in the briefing room, and you sit quietly in your chair, replaying everything that led up to this moment.
Following a seemingly endless stretch of silence from you, Charles clears his throat. âIf youâre ready, perhaps you could tell us more about your history with him. It might help us understand what weâre dealing with.â
A deep breath fills your lungs as your hands clutch the tableâs edge tightly. Talking about him, about everything youâve been through together, feels like peeling at old wounds that never really healed. But you know itâs necessary. If anyone is going to help him, they need to know the truth.
âI met LoganâJames, as I used to call himâover a hundred years ago, when I was very youngâ you begin, and you can see the surprise ripple through the room at the admission of your age. âWe grew up together. My parents were servants at the Howlett estate, and I spent most of my childhood by his side. He was my best friend⊠and eventually, he became so much more.â Your voice cracks, and you pause for a moment, collecting yourself.
âAfter a tragedy involving his family, we ran away together. We lived in a small mining town for years, trying to find some semblance of a life, but things fell apart. He left, and IâI spent years trying to forget him, but I never could. He wasâisâeverything to me."
Jean leans forward. âI canât imagine how hard this has been for you,â she says softly. âBut you need to prepare yourself for the possibility that when he wakes up⊠he may not be the man you remember, and not just because of how much time passed.â
You look up at her in confusion. âWhat do you mean?â
She hesitates, exchanging a glance with Charles before continuing. âThe brainwashing they used on him wasnât just designed to make him forget. It was meant to strip away his sense of self entirely. His mind was⊠broken down, piece by piece. What you saw back at the facilityâhis rage, his lack of controlâthatâs whatâs left of him right now.â
Hank speaks next. âWeâll do everything we can to help him, but Jeanâs right. You need to be ready for the possibility that he wonât recognize you. He might not even recognize himself.â
Nodding slowly, your heart sinks further and further with each word.Â
âWe have tools, ways to work through the brainwashing,â he continues, âbut it will take time. And patience.â
âTime,â you echo quietly. âIâve already waited so long.â
Ororo reaches across the table, her hand hovering near yours. âI know this is overwhelming. But you donât have to do this alone. Weâre here to help.â
âI need to see him,â you whisper, your voice firmer than before. âWhen he wakes up, I need to be there.â
Charles nods gently. âOf course.â
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When he finally stirs, itâs not a gentle awakening. His whole body jerks, his head whipping around in wild confusion. His breaths come in sharp, uneven gasps, and his eyes dart frantically across the room, taking in his unfamiliar surroundings, and just as his eyes finally land on you, he freezes.
And for a long moment, neither of you speak.
Thereâs a lump in your throat, and you wait with a bated breath for some flicker of recognition in his eyes, some sign that he remembers youâthat he knows you.
But it never comes.
Instead, his gaze narrows, studying you. âWhere the hell am I?â he grunts. âAnd who are you?â
It hurts more than you expected. You knew this might happenâJean and Charles had warned youâand you thought you had prepared yourself, but it doesnât make hearing it any easier.Â
He doesnât remember you.Â
âJust take it easy,â you manage to say softly. âYouâve been through a lot, James.â
His eyes flicker with confusion as he shifts in the bed, wincing at the movement. "James?" he questions.
You quickly correct yourself. "Logan."
His hand instinctively goes to his chest, fingers brushing against his side as if testing for wounds that arenât there anymore. âWhat is this place?â he asks again.Â
âYouâre at the X-Mansion,â you explain. âYou were... rescued. We brought you here to heal.â
âRescued.â he repeats dryly. âFrom what?â
You hesitate, unsure how much to tell him. How do you explain everythingâthe horrors of Weapon X, the brutal experiments, the torture that nearly destroyed him? You canât even bring yourself to speak the full truth, not yet.Â
âYou were taken,â you say carefully. âBy people who wanted to use you for something terrible. But we got to you before they could. Youâre safe now.â
Logan lets out a short, bitter laugh, though thereâs no humour in it. âSafe,â he mutters, his voice low and sarcastic. âRight.â He rubs a hand across his face.
âWhy do I feel like Iâm missing somethinâ?â he mutters, his irritation growing. âLike... like thereâs something important I should remember.â
Swallowing hard, your heart twists at his words. He is missing something. But you wonât tell him that now. Heâs already grappling with so much, and the last thing he needs is the weight of your shared past thrust upon him before heâs ready.
âDonât worry about it.â Your voice is gentle, coaxing. âItâs... normal to feel confused right now.â
Frowning, he runs a hand through his hair. âLike Iâm supposed to believe that.â
âI know itâs hard to understand,â you say softly. âBut itâll get better. Youâll remember in time.â
He doesnât respond right away, his gaze drifting toward the ceiling as if heâs searching for answers that arenât there. After a moment, he sighs, his eyes returning to yours. âAlright. Who are you, really?â he asks. âWhy do I feel like I should know you?â
Because we grew up together.Â
Because we were everything to each other.Â
Because you were the one person I never stopped loving.Â
âJust focus on resting,â you say, forcing a soft smile.Â
He studies you briefly, as if trying to figure out whether or not to trust you. Then finally, he nods, thought you can tell heâs still wary âYeah... okay.â
The awkward silence returns.Â
âI should go,â you murmur, standing abruptly. The chair scrapes against the floor, the sound jarring in the quiet room. âYou need rest.â
He doesnât stop you, doesnât ask you to stay. He just watches as you turn toward the door, and leave.
Your chest tightens painfully as you walk out of the room, the familiar ache of loss settling in once more. Itâs worse this time, thoughâworse because heâs alive, and yet, in every way that matters, heâs gone.
You leave the room in a daze, your mind swirling with a storm of emotions. Your feet carry you down the hall, and before you realize whatâs happening, you find yourself in the washroom.Â
The moment the door clicks shut, your stomach lurches. You barely make it a toilet before youâre retching. Tears sting your eyes, and you brace yourself against the cold porcelain, gasping for breath as your body shakes with sobs.
Standing up and flushing, you walk over to the sink, and press your forehead against the mirror. How did it come to this? You found him, after all these years, but the person in that bed isnât the Loganâit isnât the Jamesâyou once knew.Â
Wiping your mouth with the back of your hand, you close your eyes, taking a deep breath as you try to pull yourself together. It's not the time to breakdown, you think, and after splashing some water on your face, you turn toward the exit.
Pushing open the door, youâre met with the familiar gaze of Ororo. She stands in the hallway, her white hair cascading down her shoulders, her eyes filled with something that feels like both understanding and pity.
Your eyes widen, caught off guard, not expecting to see anyone, least of all her.
âI saw you come in here,â she whispers empathetically, âbut thought you might need a moment.â
You pause, trying to blink away the redness in your eyes, trying to pretend youâre stronger than you feel. But she sees through it. She always has.
âIâm fine,â you say, the words slipping out automatically.
Stepping closer, her gaze softens as she studies your face. âNo,â she disagrees, âyouâre not.â
The vulnerability youâve been trying to keep at bay rushes forward again, threatening to swallow you whole. You open your mouth to argue, to brush it off, but the moment you meet her eyes, the words die in your throat. The pity, the compassionâitâs too much.
Silently, she reaches out, her hand resting lightly on your arm. Itâs a small gesture, but it feels grounding.
âI saw him,â you whisper, your voice trembling. âHe doesnât remember me.â
âI know,â she says quietly. âIâm so sorry.âÂ
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The next few days are a blur. You keep yourself busyâtoo busyâhoping that constant movement will keep the gnawing ache at bay. If you let yourself stop, if you let yourself think about whatâs happened, the hurt would consume you, so you donât stop.
Most of your time is spent in your room or the garden, taking refuge in the places where you can hide from everything, everyone.
Sometimes, you train, pushing your body past its limits in a desperate attempt to silence your thoughts. Every hit you land, every punch you throw, never feels like enough.
Itâs easier this way, you tell yourself. Easier to avoid him, to pretend he never came back into your life. Because the alternativeâwatching him live here, knowing he doesnât remember you, doesnât understand what you once sharedâthatâs too painful.
Youâd rather pretend heâs still a memory than face the reality that the man you love is here, but not really.
When you walk through the mansion, you see him from afar. You canât help but notice how heâs begun to soften around the others, how the confused man who woke up in that bed is slowly adjusting to life at the mansion. He has daily appointments with Charles, who you imagine is sifting through his mind, doing his very best to retrieve something, anything.
While there is still a distance in his eyes, still a guarded edge to him, but you can see the small shiftsâthe way he listens when someone speaks, the faintest hint of a smile when Hank tries to crack a joke.
And sometimes, your eyes meet.
From across the room, youâll catch him watching you. In those moments, your heart skips a beat, wondering if thereâs a reason why heâs zeroed in on you specifically, but then he looks away, and it passes. You never approach him, never ask him how heâs feeling or if heâs starting to remember anything. Youâre too afraid of the answer.
One night, you sit in the garden, letting the soft breeze play with your hair, eyes closed.Â
âMind if I sit here?â
The voice startles you, pulling you from your thoughts. Your eyelids flutter, and as you turn, your heart jolts upon seeing Logan standing at above you. And momentarily, itâs like youâre teenagers againâsneaking out at night into the gardens to talk.Â
âSure,â you nod, gently patting the space beside you, as you always did.Â
He steps closer and sits down, though not without leaving a small space between the two of you. âIâve been seeing you around,â he says after a beat.. He doesnât look at you, his gaze focused on the flowers in front of him. âBut... youâve been avoidinâ me, havenât you?â
A small laugh escapes you, bitter and self-deprecating. âYou noticed, huh?â
âYeah, not much gets past me. Even that one guyâs attempts at being a leader.â
Despite yourself, you snort. âScott?â
He chuckles, shaking his head. âHeâs too easy. Guy looks like a human stoplight with those stupid glasses.â
You bite back a snicker, feeling like a teenager again. The banter, the lighthearted teasingâit makes it seem like maybe, just maybe, thereâs still something left of the man you knew.
He turns his head slightly, his expression growing more serious. âYou know, Iâve been trying to figure it out,â he says, quieter now. âWhy it feels like somethingâs missing. Every time I see you... I know youâre related to it.â
Shifting a little to look at him, you take in the way his facial hair is a little bit more kempt, how he still has his hair tufts. You miss him, and heâs right here with you.Â
âI... thought it would be easier,â you admit, staring down at your hands. âFor both of us. If I kept my distance. I didnât want to add to your stress.â
Frowning, his brows furrow as he processes your words. âAdd to it? How?â
âBecause you donât remember me,â you say softly. âAnd I didnât want to be a reminder of something you canât recall.â
He stares at you for a long moment. Then, âyouâre right. I donât remember everything,â he says slowly, âbut I know thereâs something about you.â
You nod, your throat tight, but you donât push him. You know itâs only a matter of time before the pieces fall into place. âYouâll remember,â you whisper. âI know it.â
He grunts. âI donât want you to keep your distance.â
âI wonât. Not anymore.â The idea of him wanting to spend more time with you, fills you with joy.
â
For the next few weeks, it becomes a quiet routineâthe nightly conversations in the garden. Itâs like slipping into an old rhythm, the two of you always finding a way to gravitate toward each other once the sun goes down. You talk about small things, but it's never too heavy. Sometimes he teases you, and you tease him back, exchanging sarcastic quips. Nothing and everything has changed at the same time.
Youâve started training together too, spending more and more time together each day. Itâs almost as if thereâs a magnet between you that not even time could weaken.
This night, youâre in the gym together on the sparring mat. Itâs the usual scenario playing outâdodging, blocking, throwing punches. Heâs fast and strong. And it means a lot to see you see him finally embrace his mutant powers and use them, rather than try to hide and run.Â
Youâre both breathing hard, the exertion pushing your bodies to their limits. You land a solid kick to his side, and he grunts, stepping back for a moment. Without warning, his claws extend, and your gaze locks in on them.
Of course you know about the adamantium, but seeing it like this, so up close, itâs different.Â
âWhat?â Logan asks, noticing your sudden stillness. His brow furrows, and he glances down at his claws, as if heâs only just realizing theyâre out. âWhat are you staring at?â
âDoes it hurt?â you question, clearing your throat. âWhen they come out?â
He tilts his head, his gaze flicking between you and his claws. âEverytimeâ he sighs. âBut not as much as the old ones.â
Your eyes snap up from his claws to meet his. â... What?â you ask. The old ones?
âThey were bone,â he continues, âHurt like a bitch.â
Your heart starts pounding in your chest. Could this be it? Could he be remembering?
Stepping closer, your voice trembles slightly as you push for more. âWhat else do you remember?â
His eyes widen, and then he blinks, his stare glazing over for a second, like heâs trying to chase down a memory thatâs just out of reach.
âI⊠I donât know,â he admits with a bit of frustration. His claws retract, his hand flexing unconsciously as he stares at the empty space where the blades once were. âItâs all bits and pieces. I get these flashes, but nothing sticks. Charles said... he said the barriers in my mind are cominâ down, but itâs slow. Like finding a damn needle in a haystack.â
But the fact that he remembers even a sliver, is enough to fill you with hope.
â
This continues, the small fragments of memories coming back to him. They come unexpectedly, at random times in the day. Itâs never anything big, never the full flood of memories youâre hoping for, but each time it happens, it feels like another piece of the puzzle falling into place.
You suggest a walk one afternoon. The mansion has felt a little too closed in lately, and you think maybe the fresh air might help clear his mind. Together, you wander along a little pathway that connects the mansion to a nearby river, the sound of the water in the distance a soothing backdrop as you walk side by side. Heâs quiet, more so than usual, and as you glance at him, you notice his expression has grown distant.
âLogan?â you ask softly, nudging his arm. âWhatâs on your mind?â
He doesnât answer immediately, his gaze fixed on the path ahead. His brow is furrowed, like heâs trying to fit together pieces of a puzzle, his thoughts distant, swirling. âI rememberâŠâ he starts, his voice quiet, as if heâs speaking more to himself than to you.
Your fingers begin to twitch at your side. Every time he remembers something, it feels like youâre standing on the edge of a cliff, waiting to see if heâll fall into the past, if this will be the moment he remembers it all.
âA cabin,â he says finally, his voice rough but certain. âThere was a shack. In a small town. I used to stay there.â
You nod, urging him to continue, anticipated building within your chest. âGo on.â
âIt was small. Cold most of the time. But I donât think I cared.â He lets a chuckle. âI liked it. Felt... peaceful.â
You canât help but smile a little at the memories heâs bringing up. His steps falter, and he stops in the middle of the path, turning to look at you. âMining,â he mutters, as if the word itself is triggering something. âI remember mining.â
âThatâs good,â you say. âIâm happy for you.â
â
The memories keep coming.
Youâre in the mansion, passing through one of the long hallways together on your way to eat, when he suddenly stops, his hand reaching out to steady himself against the wall. You turn, concern flooding through you. âAre you okay? What is it?â
He frowns, his eyes narrowing as if heâs trying to force something into focus. âThere was a girl.â
âA girl?â you repeat, not wanting to push him but unable to stop the question from spilling out.
âYeah,â he confirms. âIn a big houseâlike a mansion, I think. We'd play together. She was... she was always following me around. Always gettinâ into trouble.â
You know exactly who heâs talking about.
âDo you remember her name?âÂ
Shaking his head, you can see the frustration etched onto his face. âNo. But she must have been important, I can feel it.â
Tears prick at the corners of your eyes as you try to hold yourself together. It was me, you want to say. That little girl was me.
âItâs okay,â you say instead, your hand reaching out to touch his arm. âYouâll remember. Youâre already so close.â
He looks at you then, his eyes searching yours for somethingâanswers, reassurance. Once a few seconds pass, he sighs and shakes his head.
âI donât know how you put up with this,â he grumbles lowly. âWith me.â
âBecause I know you,â you whisper back.Â
To have a chance at another lifetime with him, youâd put up with anything.Â
â
Heâs busy with Jean and Charles this morning, the duo having started to work together last week, trying to finally break down the wall stopping Logan from recovering his memories. With nothing else to occupy you, youâve retreated to the mansionâs library, seeking solace in the endless rows of books. The familiar smell of paper and ink is comforting, and for a while, you manage to lose yourself in the words on the page.Â
Youâre curled up in one of the oversized armchairs, a book resting in your lap, when your ears pick up the sound of heavy footstepsâfast, purposeful, ringing out through the mansionâs quiet halls.
Concern rises in your chest. Those footsteps arenât casual; someone is rushing, and youâve been around long enough to know that in here, that usually means somethingâs wrong.
Setting the book down on the small table beside you, you stand and head toward the entrance of the library. The sound grows louder, the footsteps coming closer, and just as you reach the doorway, you collide with a solid wall of muscle.
"Hoâholy shâ" you gasp, stumbling back, startled. Your hands fly to steady yourself, and you look up, wide-eyed, to see Logan standing there. "Logan, you scared mâ"
âJames.â
You still.Â
"What?" you whisper, your mind racing as you stare at him. His face is differentânot just the usual irritated-by-himself expression heâs been wearing lately, but something else. Thereâs a certainty in his eyes, relief and maybe evenâ
âMy name is James,â he repeats. âI was born in Alberta. We grew up together. I... I killed my father.â His voice falters slightly at that, but he pushes through, his gaze locked on yours, unwavering. âYou were the little girl in the mansion. Youâve always been there. And Iââ His eyes brim with emotion. âI love you.â
The words slam into you, leaving you breathless. You can feel the blood drain from your face, your heart jumping so hard it feels like it might burst. âYou... you remember?â Youâre barely able to get the words out.
LoganâJamesâstares at you. âI remember everything.â
A sob escapes your throat, and you throw your arms around him, burying your face in his chest as the floodgates open. His arms come around you immediately, holding you tight, his chin resting on the top of your head.
âIâm sorry,â he murmurs. âIâm so damn sorry. I should have never left. I should have gone back to find you.â
You shake your head, tears soaking into his shirt. âIt doesnât matter,â your voice breaks. âNone of that matters anymore. Weâre together now. Thatâs all I care about.â
He pulls back slightly, just enough to cup your face in his hands, his thumbs brushing away the tears that wonât stop falling. Thereâs so much loveâso much everythingâin his eyes, your knees nearly buckle. All you do is hold on to him, as tightly as you can, afraid that if you let go, this moment will slip away.
But it wonât, because heâs really here, he remembers, and he still loves you.
For what feels like hours, you stand there in the hallway, wrapped in each otherâs arms. Eventually, you take a small step back, unwrapping your arms and instead grabbing his hands, squeezing them. âWe have a lot to talk about.â
He squeezes your hands back in return. âYeah, we do.â
â
You sniffle, wiping away the last of your tears as you lie in bed with him, pressed so close it feels like youâre trying to merge into one person. His warmth surrounds you, his arm wrapped protectively around your waist, hands drawing small circles. Itâs like all the years apart never happened, like youâre finally back where youâre meant to be.
âSo, what made it all come back to you?â you ask softly, your voice a bit hoarsefrom all the crying youâve done in the last hour.
James takes a deep breath, his chest rising and falling slowly. âI guess having two strong telepaths digginâ around in your mind will do the trick,â he responds. âShit was brutal, but... worth it.â
Tilting his head down, he presses a small kiss to your temple. If even possible, you nestle yourself further into his hold.Â
âI thought Iâd lost you forever,â you whisper. âAll those years... I never thought Iâd see you again.â
âSame for me. Thought I lost you too,â James murmurs, his hand running gently up and down your back. âAfter I left the cabin, I tried to forget. Tried to convince myself you were better off without me, but...â He trails off. âI was wrongâa coward. I shouldnât have been runninâ away. Especially from you.â
You look up at him, your eyes searching his. âWhat did you do all those years? Where did you go?â
He lets out a heavy sigh, closing his eyes. âI wandered. For a long time, I didnât stay in one place. Fought when I had to, drank when I couldnât forget. Got into a lot of trouble.â He grimaces slightly.Â
You frown. âWhat kind of trouble?â
âThe kind where people like me arenât supposed to be walking free,â he remarks bitterly. âI gave into the monster I thought I was.â
His words sink in, and you can feel the toll those years took on him, the way they left him scarred, not just physically, but emotionally. âIt must have been so hard,â you whisper, your hand reaching up to cup his cheek. âLiving like that, without... anyone.â
Leaning into your touch, âYeah,â he admits. âIt was. But... I didnât know how to live any other way. Not after everything that happened.â
Thereâs a long pause, the two of you lying there, bodies tangled together as you both process the weight of whatâs been lost and whatâs been found. Then, he kisses the inside of your hand, looking at you with a faint, curious smile.
âWhat about you?â he asks softly, tugging you closer. âWhen did you... ya know, find out you were a mutant?â
The question catches you off guard, and for a moment, you donât know how to respond. Youâve never really talked about that part of your life to anyone, at least not in detail.Â
âI didnât know for about a year,â you begin. âAfter you left, I was... lost. And then one day... I punched a tree.â
James raises an eyebrow, clearly not expecting that. âA tree?â
You nod, a small smile tugging at your lips despite the seriousness of the memory. âYeah. I was angryâangry at everything. And when I punched it... the damn thing exploded.â
He stares at you for a moment, processing your words. Then, a slow, amused grin spreads across his face. âExploded, huh? Guess thatâs one way to find out youâre not normal.â
You chuckle softly, shaking your head. âYeah, it wasnât exactly subtle.â
His smile fades slightly. âWhat did you do after that?â
Taking a deep breath, you let the memories of those early days as a mutant flood back. âI tried to keep it hidden for a while. Didnât really know what to do with it. But then... the wars started.â
Eyes narrowing, his expression changes instantly. âThe wars?â
Nodding, you continue. âYeah, the First and Second. I volunteered as a nurse. I figured if I could use my powers to help people, then maybe I could make up for everything I lost. I moved station to station, healing soldiers. I couldnât save everyone, but I tried.â
Heâs momentarily quiet, gaze never leaving yours, even as he processes what youâre telling him. Then, slowly, his features shift into disbelief.
âYou were on the frontlines?â His voice low, almost incredulous. He reaches out to brush a few strands of hair out of your face.Â
âYeah. I wanted to make a difference.â
Letting out a sharp breath, James sits up slightly in bed as he stares at you. âHoly shit,â he mutters. âI fought in those wars, too. In the trenches.â
Youâre speechless, and the realization washes over you slowly. The whisperings youâd heard from the troops, the rumours youâd chalked up to be nothing more than drunken tales, suddenly come flooding back. A man who couldnât be killed, who healed from every injury, who fought with claws that could tear through anything.
It was him.
It was always him.
âOh my god,â you breathe. âSo it was trueâŠall those rumours about the man who couldnât die... that was you.â
âYeah,â he says quietly. âGuess it was.â
All those years, all those battles... and you were both there, so close, yet so far apart.Â
âWe were so close,â you say, moving forward in to give him a kiss. âAnd we didnât even know it.â
He kisses you back, his grip on you tightening. Then, when you pull away, he sighs, leaning back against the headboard. âItâs all so different now,â he begins gruffly. âYouâre not the little maid in training anymore, runninâ around that mansion, worried about getting caughtâ
You smile faintly at the memories of your younger selves, the girl you used to be, and the boy who was so much more to you than just a young lord.Â
âAnd youâre not sir James Howlett or whateverâLordâanymoreâ you tease. âYouâve come a long way from the boy who used to sulk in the garden because he had to attend another dinner party.â
He lets out a noise that sounds like a mix between a huff and a laugh âYeah,â he agrees. âThat feels like a lifetime ago. And in a way, I guess it was.â
While neither of you are the same people you once were, in this moment, you can feel that connectionâthe one that has always been there.
âIâve thought about you every day,â he speaks up again. âAll those years.â
âJamesâŠâ
âI love you,â he confesses. âAnd Iâve loved you my whole life. Before we ran away, after I left, even after I thought you were gone... I couldnât forget. Didnât want to.â He sucks in a harsh breath, grabbing your hand once more. âI shouldnât have left. I should have stayed. We couldâve figured it out together, but I was so... so damn scared. I thought if I stayed, Iâd only hurt you.â
You feel tears welling up in your eyes again. âYou did what you thought was right,â you whisper, intertwining your fingers. âYou were scared, and so was I.â
âI wish I could take it all back,â he says, regret bleeding into his tone. âI wish I couldâve been there for you... We couldâve had so many more years together.â
âWe have time now,â you say softly, assuring him. âWe have all the time in the world to make up for it.â
He doesnât respond verbally, but rather he edges forward, brushing his lips softly against yours. âI love you,â he murmurs before closing the gap completely, kissing you passionately.
You smile against his lips, because while he may be known as logan, or Wolverine, heâs still James.
Your James.Â
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A/N: I'm going to have to either write some crazy smut or excessive fluff now because this took it out of me LOL also I hope none of you got confused with the name switching! Thank you so much for reading <3
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Her Driver, His Boss - C. Leclerc
Summary: After the Dutch Grand Prix, Verstappen invites his friends over to a bar in Amsterdam. Y/n, the new team principal of Ferrari, and Charles are attending the party and grow closer to each other durning the night.
Max Verstappen private: Are you almost there yet?
Y/n privé: Almost! Just getting out of the metro
When she heard the announcer say they've arrived at 'De Pijp' she stood up and waited for the metro to stop. Along with some F1 fans, who just came back from Zandvoort, she stepped out of the metro and took the escalator upstairs. She checked out with her debit card and walked out of the metro station. Luckily for Y/n, the fans didn't seem to recognize her. She was the team principal of Ferrari after all. While walking towards the bar where she was supposed to meet with Max, she looked around and took in the typical architecture of Amsterdam.
After a short walk, she saw the bar and made her way to the entrance. A man stood next to the door and he eyed her up and down. A slightly uncomfortable feeling washed over her and she tried to shake off the feeling. He had a drink in his hand and a cigarette in his other hand.
"Y/n?" he said.
"Yes?" she answered, slightly unsure. She didn't know how to respond correctly.
"Great, come on in," he told her and he laughed. "I just had to make sure that you aren't a fan."
Y/n smiled as well. This man was probably a bouncer that Max had hired to ensure no fans would disturb his night out after the race. She opened the door and stepped into a hallway and after opening the next door, she was welcomed with the music and the chatter from the people inside. Before she had the time to properly look around, a piercing scream filled her ears.
"Y/n!"
Many people looked at the entrance, to see Y/n looking like she wished the ground would swallow her up. Charles was one of those people who looked at her, the shout by Max' engineer, and Y/n's former colleague, GP pulled him out of his conversation with Pierre Gasly. He recognised his team principal and turned his head back to Pierre to finish his sentence. However, the image of Y/n in a dress, made him forget all the words and he had to look back at her.
There she stood, smiling widely and pointing at GP. She rolled her eyes, took off her blazer and made her way to him. Charles' eyes kept following her. This was the first time he saw her in a dress. The dress hugged her curves perfectly. The light green colour fitted her skin tone and her light coloured hair - which was now in a loose braid which resulted in an exposed neck. She had never looked like this before.
Pierre looked besides Charles and followed his eye sight to see who took Charles' attention. A smirk grew on Pierre's lips when he saw her. He looked back at Charles; a soft look glazed in his eyes. "Hello," Pierre said and punched Charles' shoulder.
"What the fuck," Charles mumbled and he glanced at Pierre.
"Are you going to finish your story or what?" Pierre grinned.
Charles rolled his eyes and punched Pierre back, he tried to remember the conversation they just had, so that he could continue the conversation.
On the other side of the room, Y/n had finally found her friend Max and they were having a gin and tonic together. The whole place was crowded with drivers, colleagues and other people who were important to Max. Y/n had to raise her voice at Max to make herself heard.
"Where did you find all these people?" Y/n asked with a smile on her face.
"Oh, most of them are paid actors," Max casually said and he took a sip of his cocktail.
Y/n shook her head. "Who is the most expensive?"
"You."
"When can I expect the payment?"
"You receive my love; that's enough," he replied. He wrapped his arm around Y/n's neck, bringing her closer to him, and kissed her cheek.
A laugh rolled over her lips and right at that moment, a photo was made of them. Gemma stepped towards the two friends and showed the picture on her phone.
"This is so cute!" Y/n yelled enthusiastically and looked at Max.
The corners of Max' mouth were about to curl up, but he straightened his face on purpose. "I've seen cuter photos of us before," he said and walked away, welcoming the next guest. While he walked away, he looked over his shoulder and smirked at Y/n and Gemma.
Gemma's jaw dropped and looked in disbelief at Y/n.
Y/n squeezed her eyebrows together and looked at Gemma while bursting into laughter. "What a fucking dickhead," she laughed.
"I..." Gemma looked perplexed. Y/n figured out that Gemma already had a few drinks in. "A huge dickhead, jeez man." She put her phone away and hugged Y/n tightly. "Where is your juichcape?"
"My what?"
"Juichcape? That orange cape with a lion on it? That thing you wore today before the race?"
"Ooo, yeah, Ferrari took it from me, party poopers," Y/n playfully smiled.
Gemma frowned. "That is ridiculous. I hope you will get it back and wear it at Monza."
A laugh rolled over Y/n's lips. "We will see."
As the evening progressed, the atmosphere in the bar grew livelier with each passing moment. Y/n found herself caught up in the whirlwind of conversations, laughter and the occasional clinking of glasses. At the beginning, she stayed with the same group; GP, Gemma and Max, who had a pitstop at the group every now and then. Later on, she bumped into familiar faces from the grid, moved through the crowd, exchanged greetings and engaged in light-hearted conversations. For a moment, she had forgotten that she was a team principal; she was just Y/n.
Y/n walked past the bar and kitchen to the toilets. There was peace - as far as possible. The banter was in the distance. Y/n washed her hands and looked in the mirror, the baby hairs around her skin started the curl up, to her annoyance. A sigh left her mouth and she tried to smoothen the hairs, but she realised it wouldn't do anything to her hair since water would only make it worse and without any product it wouldn't do anything. But whatever, she thought, she didn't have to look at it.
Her eyes shot up in the mirror when someone walked behind her. "Oh, hey," she smiled and turned around.
Charles stopped walking and looked over his shoulder. "Hey," he smiled.
"I didn't know you were here," she mentioned.
"Yeah," he chuckled. "Small bar, but so many people."
Y/n chuckled and agreed with him. Charles stepped into the men's bathroom. Y/n turned back to the mirror and took a deep breath: 'I didn't know you were here', an enthusiastic move. Disappointedly, she put on some tinted lip balm and was about to go back when Charles stepped out of the bathroom.
"Max surely knows how to throw a party," Charles said and washed his hands. "Is it a party?" He looked at Y/n.
"It's a party, but I get what you mean," she replied. When someone said a party, she would think of a birthday party, but this was a casual party in a local, modern, typical bar in Amsterdam. "I like this bar, it's so typical Amsterdam." They weren't in an old brown bar, but more the modern version of it. If she remembered it correctly, it used to be a brewery.
He nodded and dried his hands. "It is surely different from Monaco," he agreed. "How do they do it in Denmark?"
"Monaco is fancy, huh?" A playful smile played on her lips. Charles rolled his eyes. "Copenhagen has the same vibes, but I like it more there." They walked back to the bar. "Have you ever been to Denmark?"
They were welcomed by a lot of noise again; people who were talking, laughing and some music.
"Do you have something to drink?" Charles asked, almost raising his voice. He didn't wait for an answer. "What do you want?"
Y/n read the menu above the bar. "I will take a Radler." Charles nodded and went to the bar to order a Radler for Y/n and a glass of white wine for himself. "Thanks," she smiled when Charles handed her the beer with lemonade. They moved through the people towards the back of the space.
"Sante," Charles said.
"SkÄl," Y/n said and clinked her glass against his.
He took a sip. "But I have never been to Denmark. I've been to Finland, though."
A chuckle left her mouth. "Yeah, but that's not Denmark. It's far from Denmark." She took another sip from her beer. "I've never been to Monaco, but I've been to France," she cheekily said and winked.
"But you have bee- oh, come on, Y/n. Don't be ridiculous."
"Don't call out the wrong counties."
Their conversation flowed effortlessly, punctuated by shared jokes and teasing. Even though they shared their love for racing, they didn't talk about it. They were interested in each other. Being in an unfamiliar, non motorsport area - besides being surrounded by people of motorsport, gave them the shot to get to know each other on a different level. Unnoticeably, Charles stepped closer to Y/n to hear her more properly. The music became louder, which caused everyone to raise their voice to make themselves understandable. Y/n leaned in to him when she shared her words and to listen to her words. Her arm touched his arm and he sometimes felt an electric shock through their arms. Y/n looked down when she felt her cheeks heating up, because she realised what was happening. She bit her lip and placed a lost piece of hair behind her ear.
"Hello."
Y/n looked up and Kevin Magnussen, her Danish friend on the grid, was standing in front of her and Charles. The shy look on her face changed to a confused, but surprised look. "Hej."
"I'm gonna steal her from you," Kevin informed Charles while smiling. His eyes shot from Charles to Y/n, who couldn't hide her blushes, Y/n followed Kevin to the bar, where they both ordered sparkling water. "How much did you drink?"
Y/n squinted her eyes and leaned against the bar. "Gin & Tonic and a Radler beer. Why? You? How did you even get here? Since when are you friends with Max?"
"Only a beer," he replied. "And Max invited Nico and Nico took me with him. Anyway, you're going to Denmark next week, right?"
"You know, Kevin, your conversation skills turned into detective skills," she mentioned. A smile curved on her lips. "But yes, after Monza."
"Do you have a free evering that week?" Before he let her say anything, he accepted her feedback by turning his question into a conversation. "Because next month is my birthday and you are busy so I was thinking of going out for dinner with Louise, some friends, and you to celebrate it ahead."
"Yes, that sounds amazing," she said. "Of course, I will be there."
A happy smile came on Kevin's face. "For how long will you be home?"
"The entire week, I'm working from home," she shared. "I have a few meetings in Copenhagen, management wise, a media training and a masterclass for students of the uni."
He nodded impressed. "Ready to leave it all behind for a week?"
"No, but if they fuck it up, they fuck it up," she shrugged. They both laughed. "I'm still working from home, though."
As Y/n and Kevin continued their conversation at the bar, Charles watched them from a distance, a twinge of jealousy tugging at his heart. He knew Kevin had a wife and children, and he knew that he was just friends with Y/n and that she knew his wife as well. But he couldn't help but feel a pang of disappointment at the interruption, wishing he could have more time alone with Y/n. Despite his initial jealousy, Charles felt happy for Y/n that she had a good friendship with Kevin. It was always a nice feeling to have someone in the same world that came from the same country. He had always been on her side.
The night was nearing, and many people decided to leave and the bar was about to close in twenty minutes. Just like Y/n and Charles, who happened to stay in the same hotel, so they decided to leave together - well, Charles insisted on leaving together since he didn't feel comfortable with Y/n walking back to the hotel on her own.
Y/n grabbed her blazer from the rack and was about to put it on, but a familiar tune entered her ear. She looked into the crowd, finding Gemma. Gemma looked up from her phone, looking for Y/n. A smile grew on Y/n's face and she looked at Charles, who raised his eyebrows by her glance. "Hold on," she said to Charles and pushed her blazer and purse into his hands. She made her way back into the crowd.
"I am unwritten. Can't read my mind," Gemma sang dramatically, singing along with Natasha Bedingfield's 90s hit song Unwritten.
A laugh left Y/n's mouth. "I'm undefined. I'm just beginning. The pen's in my hand. Ending unplanned," she sang along.
Gemma's eyes lit up as Y/n joined the duet. The surrounding crowd turned to watch as the two friends lost themselves in the moment, their laughter filling the air as they sang. As they reached the chorus, Gemma threw her arm around Y/n's shoulder and they began to jump.
"Feel the rain on your skin. No one else can feel it for you. Only you can let it in. No one else, no one else. Can speak the words on your lips. Drench yourself in words unspoken. Live your life. with arms wide open. Today is where your book begins. The rest is still unwritten."
For a brief moment, everything else faded away as they revelled in the simple pleasure of music and friendship. It was a happy moment for them, but it even made the others in the bar happy. The two women were enjoying life and the moment. And as the song came to an end, they hugged tightly, their smiles reflecting the pure happiness.
On the side, close to the exit, Charles was watching the two women. He adored Y/n's spontaneity and her happiness. With a smile on his face, he leant against a table and waited for her. During the song, his eyes scanned the people around them; Max was grinning and silently singing along, Kevin was sitting at the bar and was also singing along and many more people enjoyed the song. It was just a happy moment.
With a big smile on her face, Y/n walked back to Charles. "Sorry, I just needed to do that with Gemma," she said.
Charles held the blazer behind Y/n so he could help her with putting the blazer on. "No worries, enjoy the moment."
"Happiest three minutes of the night," she breathed.
They made eye contact with Max and he waved at them. Y/n waved at Kevin as well. Before the song came on, they said goodbye to everyone, so their wave was just a final goodbye for now. They stepped outside, facing the chill but stuffy weather. Charles put his hands in his pockets and got surprised when Y/n hooked her arm in his.
"I wish I had a bike right now," Y/n mentioned when she was looking at one of the twenty bikes in the street. "My feet are killing me."
He looked down at her feet; she was wearing heels, low heels. They looked comfortable to him. "I can book an Uber," he offered.
"Meh, that's not necessary," she replied. "As long as we do not get recognised, we can just walk." She looked around. "It's funny how some countries are bicycle counties and others are not."
"It's so weird to look around and see at least one bike here."
"I believe there are more bikes in The Netherlands than people."
Charles smirked, the random facts Y/n shared was precious. "How is that even possible?"
"I don't know," she shrugged. "So... Are there more wheels or doors?"
He let go of her because there was an obstacle on the pavement. However, he hooked his fingers into hers and walked in front of her. "When seeing all these bikes... Wheels. What do you think?"
"Definitely wheels," she answered. "I don't know why, but wheels." When they could walk next to each other, Charles made sure Y/n was walking on the inside of him. Neither one of them let go of the other's hand. "Did you enjoy this evening?"
He nodded. "I did. You?"
"Good. And I did too. I enjoyed how casual it was, no fancy dancy talk, just casual talk," she replied.
"But Max and gin & tonics..."
Y/n stopped walking and did the move: Max was holding his hands in the air and his index fingers were pointed to the top, and then he would move them up and down. Charles did the same and they both started to laugh. "Such a dad move," she laughed.
Charles clapped his hands and couldn't stop laughing at the impression. "That is a classic Max move," he laughed.
"It's just sweet," she commented and smiled. However, it quickly faded away when she felt the irritated sensation around her feet. Those sandal heels looked cute, it was simple, elegant, chic, but a feet killer. They were mid heeled, not even that high, but that didn't matter. "You know what," she said and looked at Charles.
"Hmm, what?" Charles said, waiting for a serious answer since she had a stern look on her face.
"I am gonna take off these heels because I can't do this anymore," she revealed and grabbed Charles' arm for support. She took off her heels.
"Y/n, stop," he advised her sternly. "Don't do that."
"What? It's so fucking painful."
"Don't go barefoot, that's fucking disgusting."
"I would rather have dirty feet than painful feet."
"What about glass? Or... cigarettes. They will end up in your feet and then I have to bring you to the hospital for treatment," he told her and raised his eyebrows.
Y/n thought about it and nodded. "Uh, no. That will not happen," she convincingly smiled and stepped away from him, resuming her way to the hotel.
"Y/n," Charles warned her and wrapped his hand around her wrist. He pulled her back to him. He would not let her stubbornness get the best of her.
"Charles," Y/n copied his tone and stood in front of him, she was not amused.
Y/n's lips were set in a stubborn line while Charles wore a disapproving expression.
"You don't know what could be on the ground," he said, his grip on her wrist firm but gentle. "Let me call an Uber."
"The hotel is literally there," she replied and pointed at a building a kilometre away. She knew he was right, but calling an Uber for a short ride was not necessary. And many people lived barefoot. So what could happen to her? "I'll be careful."
Charles studied her for a moment, his gaze softening when he recognised the stubborn streak in her eyes. He knew he couldn't force her to do anything she didn't want to, but he didn't want her to feel uncomfortable either.
Their eyes locked in a silent battle of wills, each refusing to back down. They just stood there, somewhere in Amsterdam, grumbling about heels and the pavement. They were centimetres apart from each other. Charles felt a surge of protectiveness wash over him, the feeling became stronger after the incident in Silverstone. Y/n's gaze softened as she scanned his face, she could see the concern etched in his features, the worry lines that creased his forehead and she couldn't help but feel a flutter of warmth in her chest.
Charles closed the remaining distance between them, his hand reaching up to her cheekbone. He stroked a piece of hair behind her ear and looked at her lips briefly. When he looked back into her eyes, he saw a sparkle. He leaned in, his lips brushing against hers in a sweet kiss.
Time stood still as they savoured the sweetness of the moment. Y/n's heart fluttered in her chest as she melted into his touch, the sensation sending shivers down her spine. Her hands tenderly touched his chest. The kiss was soft, yet filled with desire, longing and a sense of belonging.
When they pulled away, Y/n leaned her forehead against his, their breaths mingling in the night air. Her heart was racing. She could feel the warmth of his breath against her skin, sending more shivers down her spine.
"Let me take you to the hotel," Charles whispered, his voice barely audible over the pounding of their hearts. "I don't want you to get hurt."
She lifted her head, meeting his gaze with a soft smile. "How?"
"Here, hold this," he said and handed over the purse he had been holding. "And jump on my back."
"Charles," she giggled and covered her mouth with her hand. "Are you sure?"
"Yes," he smiled and turned around.
Y/n jumped on his back and wrapped one of her arms carefully around his neck. Charles put his hands around her legs and started to walk to the hotel. "You smell nice," she whispered. She wanted to make a comment about how men's cologne would stay on them for days and women's perfume for a second, but knew it was better to keep her mouth shut.
"Thank you," he softly chuckled. As he was walking, he felt a sense of peace wash over him, a feeling of contentment settling in his mind and heart.
As Charles carried Y/n on his back through the streets of Amsterdam, a sense of warmth enveloped them, cocooning them in their own little world. Y/n rested her head against his shoulder, her heart filled with gratitude for his caring gesture. She could feel the steady rhythm of his footsteps beneath her, each step bringing them closer to the hotel.
The hotel staff didn't look up when they entered the hotel. Charles made his way to the lift and Y/n pressed the button, calling the lift. There was silence between them when they stepped into the lift and made their way to the right floor. Charles walked to Y/n's room after she told him which number she had.
Charles gently lowered Y/n to her feet. Their eyes met and in that fleeting moment, a silent understanding passed between them. They shared a smile.
"Thank you," she whispered, her voice barely audible in the stillness of the hotel.
Charles smiled, his eyes reflecting the warmth of his heart. "Anytime," he replied softly. "Sleep well," he said, knowing it was the right decision to leave for now.
"Good night, Charles," she smiled satisfied and opened her room door. Before stepping inside, she turned around and quickly pecked his lips. Then, she entered her room and closed the door behind her.
When she walked to the bathroom, a smile was resting on her face. What a man could do... Y/n looked at herself in the mirror, she looked so stupid for smiling this big. What he could do... A soft giggle left her mouth and she shook her head.
What Charles could make her feel like... Wrong.
Y/n straightened her face and stared at herself. What she just did was wrong, very wrong. It shouldn't have happened. It was disgusting. Tears filled her eyes, she was disappointed in herself.
She was his boss.
He was her driver.
"Fuck."
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