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Today's Seal Is: Ball Of Sand

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I like the way kanade’s main and secondary vocaloid (luka and kaito respectively) contrast each other. not just in personality but also in the way they go about things. luka talks in an almost cryptic tone, using analogies instead of saying things literally, leaving kanade to figure out what she means by herself. while kaito says things as directly as possible to get through to her

they both desire immediate change as seen in their actions (luka's persistence and kaito's bluntness) but they go about it in opposite ways. choosing these two for their respective events is kinda perfect. in carnation kanade's ego warps the way she creates songs but she doesn't realize this so by having luka's words be vague it forces kanade to think long and hard about what she meant which she did via her own self reflection which is how she realized why her songs failing and in turn realizing it was her ego that was getting in the way. while in kana4 kanade is trying to run away from her pain that comes from her endless composing, she feels it but she's trying not because she believes that's all she's good for for she's trying to get used to it. the blunt approach kaito uses works well because it's what she needed to have it get through her head, because deep down she knows what she's feeling but is pretending that feeling isn't there. having him bring up mafuyu was also genius because it shows that kanade knows what the healthy thing to do is, she's just not doing it herself. she'll go out of her way to help others but never herself and this was a clever way of expressing that. if kanade were to ever get a big arc ender event it would be cool if these two were the main vocaloids to play a big role to have everything come full circle.

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Leaked Brand New World N25 Luka design

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Wearing a t-shirt that says "I THINK ABOUT N25 A NORMAL AMOUNT"

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start with a dead variable

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a simple spell but quite unbreakable

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best trope and you can fight me over it (i abuse this so hard with my ocs)

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hi mommey 1 quastian

MOMMEY ONE QUASTIAN PLEAS

wen wil u kis fewix

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I’ve been crying laughing at this video all day…SHE ROLL HER BABY LIKE BALL…

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Putting Mafuyu in situations

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sillies 2

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As always.

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"i'm niigo's number one fan!" well you better get through them first...

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kanade's new health watch (sends alerts directly to nightcord👍)

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thinking about the vbs sleepover after rad blast when ken made the boys sleep downstairs as if an has any interest in those two whatsoever

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in all the years I've had kanade as my special interest I have seen a plethora of bad takes about her but besides the more obvious ones another really bad one I've seen recently is that kanade has one of the most stable mental health because "she does what she feels like and doesn't hide her true feelings" which has got to be the single most surface level reading of her character I have ever seen. it goes back to this pattern I see in which prsk fans can't pick up on when a character is sad unless they show it as clearly as possible because what even is subtly. kanade hides her negative emotions just as much as mafuyu and mizuki do but the difference between her and them is that she hasn't slipped up yet. we've seen this as early on since kana1 where she does it twice; when she quickly leaves the hospital after finding out her dad doenst remember her and later on when she recalls her childhood picnic and cries because of how bittersweet it is and it's very clear that she was trying not to cry in both scenes just from the tone of her voice. this is seen again in kana4 where rushes to leave the sekai after telling rin the story about when she made her first song but then remembers what happened to her father, rin points out that she looks upset but kanade doesn't wanna admit it because she believes her problems aren't that serious (which apparently is a sentiment that the fandom agrees with). these aren't even subtle anyone who bothers to pay attention to any of these can pick up on kanades habit of repressing her negative emotion. and while yes she does love music, her dedication to composing isn't as simple as "I make music because it's fun and I like it :)" it's also somewhat of a job to her, a thing she does to give herself a purpose which she believe she needs to deserve a place on this earth. kanade’s saviour complex has been misunderstood in many different ways and one if them is this aspect with how much it's negatively affected her life both physically and mentally but it's been watered down to the simplest degree possible. it's why I hate the notion of "kanade can't heal until mafuyu does" when if anything that would just send her into an emotional spiral and an existential crisis because while kanade's desire to save people applies to everyone (its why n25 was created) it would still leave her feeling useless and therefore worthless as a person we've seen this in kana2, the event where kanade is at her lowest (and also hasn't met mafuyu yet), is still overworking herself to death despite how many times she's gotten comments from people saying her songs have saved them because in her eyes she will never be enough. to this day she still has this mentality, ena and mizuki have told her multiple times that she's gotten them out of rough periods in their lives and kanade’s saviour complex still lingers because it was never about just mafuyu. once mafuyu is out of the picture she'll just find someone else to latch onto for the desire of approval and it'll just be an endless cycle of misery until she breaks out of this mentality. saving mafuyu isn't the thing that's gonna heal her, she needs to let go of her guilt, realize that it was never her fault, and by proxy detaching herself from the desire to be useful. to live because she wants to, not because she needs to. so no, she's not "doing whatever she feels like" she's fulfilling an impossible goal she set for herself in an attempts to make herself happy but hasn't realized that it's the very thing that's been making her miserable

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really obsessed with early kanade’s "the friend who doesn't like anything" personality. what was her deal

I'm glad she's not like this anymore but it's funny seeing what she used to be like back them comparing it to how she is now