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the most aware yet unaware person.

I am aware about the community that i live in , the family structures i am born into and all the flaws of my entire being.

I am aware of the horrid events that happen in this world. From a women’s dignity being taken away from her daily to ancestral homes of people being shattered in the name of principles and morality. This makes me ponder of it happening to me and my kin. My 20 year old home that my parents bought with their hard earned pennies, could shatter tomorrow because one powerful man may not like this place and its ways.. or i could be stripped of my dignity by some perverted devil just because the skin of my arms flashed. How one simpleton teenager could destroy a life because of one’s different ways, like these weren’t the companions you grew up with. I am aware of despair in my family, fighting one another like animals in the wild and abandoning each other at the first signn of danger. I am aware of the mistakes made by the adults of the family that flow through generations, leaving each one maimed and injured. I am quite aware of my flaws and afraid that everyone else knows them too. I often get anxious in the littlest change of tone, slight change of actions and small promises being broken. I think to myself, “oh maybe they found out.. they found out that i am an imposter.. they found out my worst qualities and now they will leave”. Then i wait until the world ends and it’s just me in midst of the apocalypse.

However,

I am unaware about the community that i live in , the family structures i am born into and all the flaws of my entire being.

I am unaware about brave strangers that make the good of humanity their purpose, the kind strangers making an extra effort for prevention of the horrid things and passionate community standing together for protection of its history. How taking a moment to learn patience and kindness will never go to waste. I am unaware about struggles of my father and mother who realise the hurt and despair and take efforts to stop the flow of trauma. How their inner child is still trying. I am also unaware of the complicated bond one shares, how it may be difficult to express love but they would give up the world to save their kin. I am unaware about how no one cares about my flaws because they are too busy drowning in their own thoughts like me. That maybe the slight change in behaviour is them being hit by the thought of their flaws that i may notice. I am unaware that in the world where communication is everywhere, all i need to do is ask and speak. All i need to do is be kind with myself. Give a hand to my family and kind strangers to lift each other up.

-ARC

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the series went downhill after S1 but they really picked up with No humanity Hope

Danielle served🤌🏻🤌🏻

HOPE MIKAELSON Legacies 4x12 - Not All Those Who Wander Are Lost

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she’s so pretty, i wanna cry.

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on my knees for her.only.

Hope and Lizzie and whatever this is

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dave rygalski read the entire bible in one night for lane and jess mariano annotated an entire book for rory after just meeting her for the first time and I'm supposed to settle for anything less. I think not!!

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On my bed, in such a dread

Air is filled with familiar noises, wish i could stop the voices

Under the existential stress, god i’m such a mess

the exterior is bold & brave, interior is cold & gray

I am trying to rhyme, i don’t remember when i last saw the sun shine

Sanity is time bound, always lost never found

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Do you ever feel like?

Do you ever feel like you are sad and down but you don’t know whom to talk to ?

You have friends, you have friends you can talk to, new-old-separated- but you just can’t speak to them. because you can’t get the words out and you will just burden them. or maybe they won’t understand.

Even talking to people who talk to you about their stufff won’t work. They might think you are just saying stuff for attention or ruin their moments ?

When you have been having the worst year but everyone around you had a whole different year, so talking about how your year sucked seems selfish.

worst, they won’t even reply ? That among all you are truly alone.

( i won’t add tags, i hope this reaches people who feel like it and know that you are not really alone)

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It’s been months since i have played Reputation because it’s not TV, @taylorswift Please mom i beg please release this masterpiece 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

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still salty over this 😡✋🏻

you know what we were robbed of?

this fucking trio right here.

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waves crash on shore, i dash to the door

you don’t knock anymore and i always knew it

that my life would be ruineddddd

tick tock on the clock i paced down your block i broke my own heart cause you were too polite to do it. btw

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all of my three personalities in a single frame

literally my top three albums by taylor 🫶🏻

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Folklore will always hold a special place in my heart and my mind.

folklore🪷

@taylorswift @taylornation

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missing the folklore era