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mkcjndt7-blog · 3 years
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If I close my eyes I can imagine the times when I felt safe, complete, and as though I was the luckiest girl in the world. I can hear the pure laughter and long fulfilling conversations. I can remember being able to breathe so effortlessly while looking into the eyes of the man of my dreams. I had this expectation of him and that wasn't fair. Having this false fantasy of a prince in a fairy tale actually coming into my life and being real left so much room for disappointment that it was almost inevitable. I find myself regretting my decision to stay without answers more often as time passes. And I don't think I can do it much longer. I will be sacrificing everything accept my mind and heart. Which sounds like bliss because it would be the first time in my life that I choose my heart and mind. My looks and body have always been a tool for me, like a prop. I've sold pieces of my soul, and have been left broken. How could I believe that my "prince charming" would really want to be with a broken soul who had chose to hurt him and self destruct in his presence. Of course, he would have to make me feel the shattering pain I had caused him. I just never thought he was as broken as I was. I just never thought he was capable of destroying me the way I had destroyed him. That was my mistaking being so blinded by his love for me, I didn't see that, that love he had for me changed after all I had done. And he was ready to prove that to me with one single action and knew he was risking everything we had the same way I had done to him. After so much time had passed I believed the healing had been done and we had made it through the worst of things and would still have our happy ending. Not knowing he hadn't healed and would make me pay for everything in the worst way possible. Thinking I knew him and what he was capable of influenced my heart in believing he would never hurt me. I have never been so wrong and I've chosen to relive this pain everyday for the rest of my life by not knowing the truth about any of it and I'll continue to feel like this until I choose to face my fears no matter the sacrifice or consequences. My heart feels like it's no longer a part of me, as though he has possession of it and I won't be able to be okay until somehow I reclaim it as my own. I will admit it's easier letting him hold onto it but I also know it's not safe in his hands. I learned that 7 months ago. Still this fantasy of my fairytale prince remains.
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mkcjndt7-blog · 9 years
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:#ttue
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“Connections” nr hart
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mkcjndt7-blog · 9 years
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“soul mate”. people often hear these two words and automatically think of a significant other. well, what if I told you that soul mates can be so much more than that? your soul mate could be your bestfriend that you met in 7th grade, or your sister that’s been there to hold you every time she hears you sobbing and heaving two doors down in the middle of the night. your soul mate could be your mom who carried you for nine months and has devoted her entire life to giving you anything and everything. your soul mate could be anyone, but our soul mates all serve the same purpose. a soul mate is someone that you connect with in a way that is indescribable and truly extraordinary. from the moment you meet, it will be clear that the two of you belong together as lovers, or friends, or family, or maybe even something entirely different. your life will be better from the moment you meet them. they will make you feel something beautiful, something new. you’ll know when you meet these people in your life. don’t ever let these people go. you will regret it every day for the remainder of your existence. these people are made for you, and you for them. don’t take that for granted. give them everything you can and they will always give you the same.
alyssa scheuerman // 4.5.15 (via lovelyymistakess)
#Soulmates
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mkcjndt7-blog · 9 years
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Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soulmate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.
Bob Marley (via yesiamarebelliousflower)
Breathtaking
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That day is now #soulmate #mygreg
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Maybe, someday.
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I never thought of it this way...
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Daily dose of love quotes here
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More inspiring quotes here
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#Ain't that the truth
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#dreaming
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At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone.Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.
Quotes about moving on and letting go (via thelovewhisperer)
#Goodbye#fornow
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mkcjndt7-blog · 9 years
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He showed me one important thing that no one has ever been able to show me. Not that I’m beautiful, not that I’m smart, not that I’m sweet. None of that. He showed me something more important than any of those things. He showed me that I’m important, that there’s a reason I’m here. He made me feel like the world is lucky to have me. And I don’t know if anyone will ever make me feel that way again.
The sweetest quotes for him (via thelovewhisperer)
#Greg
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#Love#2014
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