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sorry ive been dead but today R said something rlly sweet n gosh its so hard for me not to be attracted to him

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i havent been updating lately and im sorry, but here is all that’s happened since i last posted

- R randomly greeted me when i walked into his class?

- when i was leaving he said bye and i did some dumb thing thats like my instinct n he did it back at me like 😳

- he laughed at my really really dumb joke

anyways im not gonna see him until next week so rip

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hey guys i know ive been really inactive, i just had time to think about it and i thought i didnt like R anymore but when i saw him i just felt the same way. so i guess im back

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bye i was in hall & i saw R and i was talking to myself and he saw and me n i just wanted to cry

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R kept looking at me today skjdowjdownd ?? also i asked him a question and i maintained eye contact but he didnt like pls look at me 😭 then he eavesdropped on my convo with my friends PLSSS & he came into my other class n i was so nervous he was like just watching me like R ur gonna make me mess up 😐 ugh break is soon so im rlly sad & imma miss him

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sometimes i check my heartbeat when he’s around just to see if it speeds up because i know i get hella nervous around him

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i didnt see R today 😭😭😭😭😭

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i hope i see R tomorrow even if its just me going in the route where i pass by his class because it ‘gets me to my class faster’

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I think next thursday is gonna be the best day of my entire life tbh

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R told a story about his teen years & honestly idk why it made me feel special but like he’s such a dork n thats what i love about him

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R looked so good today like his hair was messy UGH he just kills me

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bro R’s outfit today ... chefs kiss... anyways he came up to my table and my friend and i were telling him a story and his hands were on my table and he was close to me isisjwhfwojxoabcis!!!!! also at lunch he was talking to somebody and i looked over at him and he was looking at me & then when i was with my friend i did the same thing like stop looking at me R im nervous 😳

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ok so today i made 😳 eye contact 😳 with R.... also he came into one of my classes & my friend n i were joking about him n he looked so mad skdjsixbowcbwo

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ive come to love the little things about you like the way you write, or that little smile you do when you know you’ve made a corny joke.

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i wonder if he ever notices that i look at him with heart eyes whenever he speaks