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HII!!! I may be a bit drunk and wrote the first 2 chapters of a stsg fic. Would anyone plsssss like to proof read it pls pls pls????

[modelofamodernmajormonogram]

I’ve seen a lot of Aziraphale hate over the last couple months about how at the end he was selfish or his actions were mean spirited, not saying the people who see it this way are wrong, but those post never sit right with me.

Love is a concept that is never defined for us but rather defined by our experience, more so than any other emotion. For instance if you were to ask 100 people what feeling sad was like for them, most people would give a similar description along the lines of ‘being upset’ ‘feeling done/low’ regardless of their background. But, if you asked the same people what love was to them you would get a 100 different answers. Some positive, some negative. Love’s meaning to each of us is forever evolving based on our exposure to it, or lack there of.

Now imagine you are Azi. Your only experience of love (pre-the agreement) is toxic and cruel, which in time you internalise and make your point of reference. The bar for what constitutes as love has been lowered so much that real love is unrecognisable - Crowley’s love.

In the real world, people can take years to fully reconcile the damage done by abusive parental figures before being able to finally redefine their meaning of love and enter healthy relationships. In Azi’s case, that abuse lasted 6000 years and, although his concept of love was slowly evolving into something healthier, his main point of reference was still Heaven.

So when The Metatron asked Azi back to Heaven but this time it will be ‘better’, there would be no reason in his head to refuse, especially as I don’t think he even fully recognised that Crowley loved him and thought he was going with him anyway. It was an obvious no from Crowley as he had been away from Heaven long enough to reflect on how he was treated and see the abuse - but Azi hadn’t.

In conclusion, leave Azi alone. There is plenty more growing he needs to do that I’m sure we’ll see in S3 or the book if there’s no S3.

Thanks for reading if you got this far!!!!