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Four Years Later

Have you ever felt the satisfaction when you want something for a very long time and you finally got it? Have you ever felt an itch gushing through your body and it felt good when you scratch it? And of course, have you ever felt hungry and crave for that food that you've been eyeing for a very very long time, and you finally got to eat it?

I waited and waited and waited for this moment to happen. It might be cliche to say, but if true love has indeed a habit of coming back, then could it be you?

Then I realized, this blog was not intended for me, for my heartaches. It was intended for you, on how you walk into my life again and how you wanted this to work. How you tell me stories from those years we've been apart. How you've been with other girls but thought of me the whole time. How you miss me and how you think of me when celebrating life events, especially our birthday. If you were to ask me about going back to the start. I will say no, because what we have right now is much better than we already had before. I love how this moments with each other isn't tainted and you alone are prestine. Besides, having you by my side always feels like the first time.

I will always have questions in mind, there will be no days that I don't. I know you felt the same way. But I will always be ready to answer and I will always be ready to meet you half way.

"And I was thinking maybe later on we could get together for a while. It's been such a long time and I really do miss your smile. I'm not talking 'bout moving in and I don't want to change your life. But there's a warm wind blowing the stars around and I'd really love to see you tonight. "

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Five Straight Days

The first thing I want to say is that you snore when you sleep sidewards, and it heals my soul and I wanted this moment to last forever.

Spending my days with you is like a time bomb, every explosion comes with a series of emotions that I never thought I wanted, that up until now, I am denying it. Every time you walk, my world turns up. Every time you look at me, it felt home. And every time you kiss me, it felt like this is where I am really supposed to be. This is what I've always wanted. I know deep down my mind, it is you that I always think about.

I've always hated the idea of you leaving me and choosing someone that we all know is beyond and below better than me. I hate to admit that you chose someone else rather than having a miserable life with me. Either way, we both did so why not with me? I hated the idea of you sacrificing yourself because I already did. I hated the idea of you having bad days and bad dreams because I already had given up mine. And now that you're here, I can give the protection and security that I always wanted to give you. The love you supposed to feel a long time ago. The butterflies you radiate when you can't sleep. Im here now, there's nothing else to worry about. Being with you is like dreaming. It's like floating and you are surreal. Its just that when I think of you, I have to think twice, I have to look twice.

Its just to good to be true.

"I could stay awake just to hear you breathing. Watch you smile while you are sleeping while you're far away and dreaming. I could spend my life in this sweet surrender, I could stay lost in this moment forever. Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure. Don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep cause I'd miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing. "

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"Eh ako? Anong meron sakin?"

When I met you, I never thought that life could be that exciting. The innocense I had partnered with the love and life I felt for you was... simply happy. When I met you, I never thought that you would be the most relevant and impactful person in my love life. You taught me how to love irrevocably, it felt surreal. I knew that I was capable of loving that hard. The love that I felt for you was as strong as the wind blowing when it rains and the feeling that I exerted for you is as heavy as it pours. Oh, I couldn't help myself looking at your eyes and realizing that am I deeply inlove and I will do what ever it takes for you to be mine.

I did a little sacrifice and little of letting go to show you how massive my heart and how big my love is for you. I mean, small gestures, right?

But after all these years, after every storm and rain, after every earthquakes and hurricanes, after every virus that spread to thousands and thousands of people, my love for you didn't perish. I guess it got its way back? What do you think?

And now, you're asking me "eh ako? anong meron sakin?" I guess you really don't know how you look good into my eyes. You don't know how Im amazed when you eat your food with your whiskers showing and how that made me feel alive. You didn't know how my heart flutters when you pout your lips and when you laugh while speaking heals my wounded heart. Guess you dont need to say anything, your isophoric eyes communicates how happy you are with the way we're together at every moment. And I love you, and I knew what was the answer if you would ask me once again.

You asked me shallowly and I answered you jokingly.

Ano nga bang meron sayo? You we're more than just a crush, a fling. You we're more than just a girl that I usually used to know. You are my love, my great love. You turned my world in many different ways, hence I love you. That never changed. We might just add a little something to make this stronger and a lot firmer like building a house for our own. We might just add a little time to figure out this together.

“I was your piñata, she was a star-charter, glad she gave it to you real hard, but I loved you harder.”

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" Gusto ko'ng pigilan ang ulan, nag papaalam na ang Tag-Araw. " - Sitti 2022

Imagine finding someone who loves you like they love their new fresh pair of shoes. Finding someone who loves you like they can't control the flow of your pee, the way you inhale and the uncontrolable exhale of your air. Having feelings like the comfort of your freshly washed blanket, the smell and the softness of it. The feeling of someone who will wait, care and think of you. The feeling of home inside of your own little house, the warmth and safetiness you deserve to feel.

How about craving the little world you expect to go home with, the little universe you both made in time of being together, the world where you can be yourself and you will always feel loved, accepted and understood. That world when you both can call "ours".

In this world, we always expect good things that the universe will give us. But having someone who knows your expectations, your desires and your love before you even think of it-- is a priceless gift from the stars. A lot of people met and they will just see the puddle of the importance of being together, having each other, and love. But some people already found it. That's what we envy, two individuals who already found what they're looking for, who is already successful both in life and love.

Maybe some people are meant to be with someone, some are meant to be alone. But a lot of people are good in radiating and finding what's for them. Sadly, some are not.

Maybe in time, we'll find the answers why most of us are alone. Is it because of ourselves? Is it because we're not enough? Too much to handle? Is it because we always give so much to the point that we don't let them see our worth? We'll never know... they will never let us know...

Sabi ko nga, "career na lang. okay na yun. Wag na lang ako masaktan. I can't go through this again."

But again, the universe has its own ways. Maybe we don't know the reason why all of this is happening, but someday, we will. And it will be the perfect timing to realise why we need to go through everything that hurt us and ripped us apart.

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IF IM NOT INLOVE WITH YOU. -Kathy Troccoli 1994

What if you fall in love with someone who makes you laugh, then what happens when you no longer find them funny? What if you fall in love with someone who is beautiful, then what happens when the beauty fades? What if you fall in love with someone who is wealthy enough to provide, then what happens when they lose wealth? What if you fall in love with someone who's only good with words, what if she/ he ran out of words to say? Love tends to defy all reasons, and when you truly love someone, you do not look for reasons. You see beyond reasons.

Fall in love with someone who wants to make you happy, who takes good care of you, who understands and wait for you. A good foundation in a relationship comes with time and patience. Fall in love with someone who supports you, who think about how you feel and fall in love with someone who is your hope. Fall in love with someone who is your peace of mind in the midst of your own war.

"Mahal mo ako, pero mabuti ka ba para sa akin?"

"You can rush something you want to last forever."

Don't rush.

Maybe you're too excited with all those butterflies in your belly. You're too excited to know how does it feel to be in love or in a relationship again. But what if you're only ready with the good-cheesy ones. What if you're not ready with the storms and hindrances you two will about to experience. A good foundation is when two people helps each other to grow and knows how to encourage each other's future.

Don't rush.

Find a partner that will encourage you to grow at the same time will love and support you. Will let you go out into the world, and trust that you will come back. Fall in love with someone who trusts you even when you're not around. Find a partner who you'll be sleeping to not wondering if she/he still loves you tomorrow. This is what true love is all about. Found-ations.

"Marry me, today and everyday."

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FL10

嗨，自我们上次交谈以来已经过了几天。你好吗？事情进展顺利吗？我希望你没事. 我不再怀疑和思考你，因为我不想再受伤害了。我知道你幸福，无论你现在在哪里。我会说实话。我真的很想你。我真的是。回忆，梦想和诺言。但是我知道你不��得一件事。我也知道，你真的已经忘记了我。真的很难前进，因为我真的很爱你。在我心中，您将永远是我的挚爱。 我知道您不会看到此信息，如果您看到了，您将忽略它。因为你的重点是你的女朋友，而不是其他类似的事情。我只是想说我想你。我一直在这里为您服务。我希望你的每一天都好 babu. 我希望你幸福快乐。不像我们在一起时。我可以看到您因这种情况而受苦，这就是为什么我选择让您离开。永远怀念我们在一起的回忆。我一直在为你祈祷。所有的运气和对你的爱。为了你们两个 :)

Thank you Mam Lee, for teaching me Mandarin. I learned alot.

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Sana bago mo isiping binalewala at kinalimutan na kita. Sana isipin mo rin ilang beses ako nag pigil hanapin at kausapin ka.

Kasi yun yung hiniling mo diba?

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Sometimes you have to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve. 🌸✨

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"To love yourself is to Move Forward"

Wala naman sa oras ang pag mo-move on. Nasa tao. Choice mo naman yan kung pipiliin mong mag mukmok sa kama mo mag hapon. Mag backread ng chats niyo, tignan yung mga pictures niyo ng paulit ulit, i-search ang mga sweet messages at pangakong binitawan niya sayo nung panahon niyo pa, tignan ng paulit ulit ung closure niyo. Choice mo naman yun kung mag hapon ka nakatulala at iniisip mo ung what ifs. What if kung lumaban ka pa, what if kung kinaya mo pa. Palagi mo namang choice kung habang nag huhugas ka ng plato, iniisip mo lahat ng sinabi niya sayo. Lahat ng pangako niya sayo'ng sainyo lahat ng bukas. Na kaya ka niya ipag laban sa lahat. Na hindi ka niya bibitawan kahit anong mangyari. Choice mo rin kung papakinggan mo lahat ng kantang dinedicate niya sayo at sinend para pakinggan mo, kasi lahat ng kantang yun kinilig ka at umasa ka talagang makaka relate kayong dalawa. Choice mo din kung iiyak ka na lang ba pag gising hanggang sa pag tulog. Maiinggit sa mga naiisip mong possibleng mangyari. At ang pinaka masakit, ay yung hinihintay mo kung babalik pa siya. Ung nag babaka sakali kang kahit sa huling sandali.... Baka ikaw na ang piliin niya...

Pero kasi, hindi ko pinili lahat yun. Mas choice ko'ng bumangon. (Isang araw lang ako nag mukmok. After nun, tuloy ang buhay) Mas pinili kong bumangon at mag ayos ng sarili. Mas pinili kong punasan lahat ng niluha ko. Nag palit ng punda ng unan dahil sa mga luhang tumulo. At inisip ko, ano nga ba yung deserve ko. Sobrang daming dahilan para maging masaya. Mas pinili kong maging masaya kesa maging malungkot sa bagay na alam kong hindi na babalik, hindi na mababago, at hinding hindi na magiging akin. Sa pag mamahal, okay na yung minsan minahal natin sila higit pa sa pag mamahal natin sa sarili natin. Okay na ung minsan, naging mundo natin ang mga taong dapat tao lang. Kahit kailan naman, hindi mo masisisi ang sarili mo kapag nag mahal ka ng sobra. Atleast masasabi mo sa sarili mo na minsan, minahal mo siya ng totoo at walang kapantay. Okay na yun. Sapat na para mahalin mo naman yung sarili mo. Piliin mo naman yung sarili mo. Hanapin mo yung sarili mong nawala kaka hanap sa taong minahal mo. Punan mo sa sarili mo ung blankong ikaw dahil na blanko ka kaka puno sa taong minahal mo. Gawin mo naman sa sarili mo yung mga bagay na ginagawa mo sakaniya noon. Noong nag titiis ka sa pag mamahal na dapat kusang binibigay sayo. Noong nag hihintay ka sa dapat na deserve mo. Bumangon ka. Mahirap oo, pero para sa sarili mo yan. Kapag ikaw ang nalungkot ikaw ang talo. Ikaw ang kawawa.

Hindi naman sukatan yan kung mahal ka niya o hindi. Kasi may mga taong kahit hindi na nila mahal, pinipili pa din nila. Kaya nga may mga taong nag titiis at nag ttyaga. Kasi its a matter of "pag pili" yung tipong kahit nag aaway kayo sa araw araw. Kahit ang hirap hirap ng sitwasyon niyo. Kahit ang layo layo niyo sa isat isa at madami namang iba dyan. Kahit na sobrang hirap at sakit na ng mga bagay bagay. Pinipili mo pa din yung taong yun para makasama hindi lang sa saya pero sa lahat ng hirap at sakit. Palaging its a matter of "pag pili" kasi pag mamahal yun. Ngayon, kung hindi ka pinili. Edi okay? Kung hindi ka mahal. Edi okay? Ang dami daming tao sa mundo bakit ka nag papaka sasa sa taong hindi ka kayang mahalin? Oh kung mahal ka man, hindi kaya ipag laban ung pagmamahal niya sayo? Tumingin ka sa paligid. Madaming nag mamahal sayo higit pa sa hinahanap mo. Hindi mo lang nakikita dahil naka focus ka sa taong walang ginawa kundi pahirapan at saktan ka.

Bumangon ka. Hindi para sa iba, kundi para sa sarili mo. At walang panahon o oras ang pag mo-move on. Yung iba nga ilang taon na hindi pa din sila nakaka move on. Dahil choice nila yun. Choice nilang hindi kalimutan at mamuhay sa nakaraan. May iba iba naman tayong dahilan eh. Pero ako? Mas pinipili kong tignan yung positive side ng buhay. Bumangon ka hindi para ipakita na hindi ka nasaktan. Bumangon ka kasi hindi habang buhay masasaktan ka. Deserve mo sumaya. Maaring may magugulat at hindi maniniwala dahil sobrang bilis mo mag hilom. Pero sino bang may pake sakanila? Sarili mo yan. Palagi mong piliin ang sarili mo. Kahapon pinili mo siya, ngayon ikaw naman. Hindi lang sa isang tao iikot ang mundo mo. Akapin mo lahat ng opportunity para maging masaya. Sobrang daming nag mamahal sayo hindi lang siya. Isa lang siya sa mga nawala compare sa kung akong meron ka at kung sino ang mga nag mamahal sayo.

Para sa mga iniwan ng walang dahilan, okay lang yan. Hanapin mo lang yung sarili mo. Kung hindi man naituloy yung pangako niya sayo na sainyo ang mundo. Edi ikaw angkinin mo ng mag isa ang mundo. Hindi mo siya kailangan para mag patuloy. Para naman sa iniwan dahil mayron ng iba, okay lang yan. May mga taong binibigay saatin para maging lesson lang. may mga taong binibigay saatin para matuto tayo at maging better sa mga mamahalin natin talaga. Hayaan mo na sila, hindi mo na enkargado kung magiging masaya sila o hindi. Ibang kwento naman na kasi yun. Ikaw mag move on ka at ipakita mo na deserving ka mahalin higit pa sa binigay niya at sa pinili niya. Para sa mga taong hindi pinili. Okay lang yan, may taong darating sa buhay mo na pipiliin ka ng paulit ulit at walang sawa kahit anong hindrances at hardships ang dumating sainyo. Yung tipong kayong dalawa laban sa lahat. At kapag dumating yung tao na yun. Hindi mo na kailangan mag alinlangan kasi kahit hindi mo sabihin. Alam niyo sa isat isa na araw araw, kahit anong delubyo mangyari. Hawak niyo ang kamay ng isa't isa at alam niyong pipiliin niyo parin yung kayo.

Bumangon ka, hindi para sa iba pero para sayo.

Kapag nag kita ulit kayo, maaring tanungin ka niya...

"Kamusta ka na?"

"Malaya na, masaya."

"Bakit ang bilis mo maka move on?"

....at ang sagot mo lang.

"Pinili ko yun, pinili ko yung desisyon na alam kong magiging masaya ako bumalik ka man o hindi."

Move on!! Self Love muna!💓

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"PERSONAL BLOG"

To my hatdog/future MD squad!💕 I owe you guys alot of kaharutan, kwentos and chikas!! Grabe i dont know what i am today without you. I dont know what will be my college life without you guys. Kudos sa lahat ng breakdowns natin sa iba't ibang units. Sa lahat ng breakdowns sa library pero kailangan 20mins lang ang duration kasi may next class pa after. Sa lahat ng away nating walo kung saan kakain kasi madaming tao sa jollibee, malayo ang bonchon, mainit sa mcdo at sarado pa ang inasal. 😂 sa lahat ng advices niyo sa akin. Sa pag tulak sakin sa mga crush ko, sa pag support sa mga desisyon ko sa buhay at sa pag tahan natin sa isat isa kapag bagsak tayo sa quiz sa zoology. Buti na lang i took BSMT course. Nakilala ko kayo. Wouldn't have it any other way!! I love you all FUTURE RMT's!!💚

To Karizza, my college best-bestfriend. Ano nga ba ang gagawin ko kapag nawala ka sakin? 😅 ikaw yung nandiyan nung mga panahong hindi ko maintindihan ung sarili ko. Ikaw ung taong walang sawa akong sinasamahan, pinapayuhan, minamahal at pinag papasensiyahan. Paulit ulit mo ko pinag ttygaan kahit na alam mo na marupok ako (NOON) na kahit alam mong babalik ako sa pagiging tanga. Hindi ka napapagod sabihan ako ng "boi ignore mo na" ☹️💖 ikaw ung taong literal, mawala na lahat wag lang ikaw. HAHAHAHAHAHA you got a friend in me boi!!!💓 to more inuman, iyakan, hanap ng kalandian, kaharutan and to more memories with you!!! Hindi ka man nila favourite, ako favourite na favourite kita!!! Iloveyousomuch!❤️ Hindi mag babago. 💕

To my super duper ultra mega elctro crush, DOC!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA SHEEEEMS DOC!!☹️😫 Minsan naiisip ko doc, sa dinami dami ng makikilala ko nung Aug, bakit ikaw pa? Na goyo ako ng pagiging malambing mo. ISSA SCAAAAAAM!!! HAHAHHAHAHA CHAROOT!!! Doc thankyou!💓 Sabi ko sayo hindi ko na iniisip kung kailan mo ko matututunan mahalin, basta mahal kita okay na yon. HAHAHAHAHHAA YAAAK!! Pero seriously doc, the gift of friendship is what am I really thankful for. You became my inspiration, my happy crush and lastly, my unexpected friend. How can I ask for more?😫 Salamat sa lahat ng advices lahat ng pagalit kapag marupok ako (NOON). Sa lahat ng pag tatanggol sakin. Sa lahat ng moments na naging masaya ako. Never ko inisip na magiging close tayo to the point na kapag nag send ako ng "K" mag ssend ka ng period kasi mas mataas pride mo ganon ayaw mo mag patalo. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH Doc sa lahat ng naging crush ko. Ikaw lang ung worthy ng heartaches ko. Kasi kahit ang sakit sakit, kinikilig pa din ako sayo. HAHAHAHHAHAH BWISIT!!! Hindi mo alam kung ano ung saya na nabibigay mo sa akin. Yung kilig ganun di mo alam yon doc!! Kaya sana ikaw, wag ka ng malulungkot kasi malungkot ako kapag malungkot ka. Sana sa araw araw piliin ka ng taong pinipili mo. Kasi deserve mo yun. Yung saya ma binibigay mo sa akin, deserve mo maramdaman din yon. Lahat yon. Sobrang bait mong tao and super focused ka sa lahat ng bagay ganon. Sa araw araw, pilitin mo maging masaya. Deserve mo maging masaya palagi. Thankyou for inspiring me. Sabe ko sayo humihinga ka lang inspired nako 😂 You dont know how much i looked up to you and how i idolized you. Doc balik nako sayo? Atleast sayo kapag nasaktan ako, dahil lang sa pambubully mo. HAHAHAHAHHAHA kaso hindi na kita crush eh :( sana crush na lang ulit kita doc. HAHAHAHAHHA Im always here for you. Kahit gaano ako kalayo kahit nasan ka man. Gagawan ko palagi ng paraan yan. Alam mo naman yon kahit walang kapalit doc ya know daaTTT!! 😉 Isang chat mo lang sa akin!! Di ka pa nga nag chachat may reply nako. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH thankyou doc!!! Konting kendeng na lang OD naaaaa!!! Shems! Proud na proud nako sayo agad!! LEZZGOEE TOP 1 OLE 2021!!!❤️ goodluck doc!!! Mahal na mahal talaga kita napatunayan ko na sa sarili ko yan !!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH 😘💯 to more demonyohan with uuu!!! 💕

To Aicca and Razeth, my roots and my home. Kayo yung mga taong alam ko kapag pinalayas ako sa bahay, alam kong may uuwian ako sainyo😂 pamilya ko pamilya niyo na rin. Sobrang mahal na mahal ko kayong dalawa. Kayo nag turo sakin pano tumayo sa sariling paa. Nung nawala kasi kayo, nahirapan ako. Ang hirap pala kapag di tayo buong tatlo. Pero hehe here we are now. Kinakaya lahat ng hamon sa buhay. Andito lang ako palagi para sainyong dalawa. Madami na tayong pinag daanan. Pero mas madami pa tayong pag dadaanan tatlo. At ready nako kasi kasama ko naman kayo🙈❤️ I LOVE YOU BOTH!😭💖

Lastly, to my Family. My source of strength and my life. The reason why I am strong today. Sa lahat ng pag suporta sa akin. Sa lahat ng pag kunsinte at pag payo sa walking moments ng buhay ko. Sa lahat ng pag aaruga at pag mamahal na sobra sobra higit pa sa kailangan ng isang anak. Sa lahat ng sakripisyo niyo sa aming mag kapatid para mapag aral at mabuhay kami. Sa mommy ko'ng walang ibang ginawa kundi suportahan ako sa lahat ng desisyon ko sa buhay. Sa walang sawang pakikinig kapag umuuwi akong umiiyak. Sa mga yakap na nag papa okey ng lahat kahit sobrang sakit na. Sa daddy kong walang ibang ginawa kundi mag trabaho para mabuhay kaming pamilya. Sa pag titiis niya araw araw para may makain kami. Sa pag papanatiling buo kami kahit ang hirap hirap na. Masasabi kong napaka galing niyo mag palaki, kasi eto ung napa laki niyong tao. Sobrang strong at sobrang independent. Binabaon ko sa araw araw lahat ng turo niyo sa akin mag mula sa pag mamahal sa sarili hanggang sa pakikipag kapwa tao. Na wag mag bababa ng kapwa at wag gaganti kahit na sobrang sakit na yung ginagawa sakin. Mommy, Daddy. Salamat sa lahat lahat. Lakas ko kayo. At sa kapatid kong nag papawi ng lahat ng pagod ko pag uwi ko kasi sobrang lambing at mahal na mahal ako. Utang ko lahat sainyo ang mayron ako ngayon. Balang araw, ako na ang tatayo para sa pamilya. Ako na ang kililos sa lahat at ako na ang babawi para sa mga bagay na wala tayo ngayon. Ang importante buo tayong pamilya. Mahal na mahal ko kayong tatlo. Thank you Lord for my family. Thankyou Lord for everything!☹️💖

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Kudos, Self. ✨👑

I just want to pat myself at the back for being this strong. Now, finally I can say. I'm a strong, independent woman. Despite all the challenges and hardships I've been through, still here I am. Fighting, being thankful and grateful for everyday that God has given me. All the heartaches and headaches I've been through. I surpassed everything by myself. And I think that is something myself I can be proud of. Its funny how people been testing me, but I handled situations calmly and classy. People have been bad and rough but still I stood up strong and straight for what is right and for what is just. For what is fair and unprejudiced. Despite all of this, Im still here. With a whole soul and a pure whole heart.

2019 thought me many things. I've learned alot from different experiences and different challenges. Met alot of people that has different point of views in life, and understood them. But most importantly what I've learn from them and from myself is self love. You can't love someone if you don't love yourself. You can't start to love someone if you dont embrace yourself. Because having self love is another meaning of you are ready to give love to people because there is so much love to give from you. I pity people who beg for love. Love shouldn't be that way. Love should be given naturally and love shouldn't be asked for. I pity people who cry for love. Ang panginoon nga nag bigay ng pagmamahal kahit hindi natin hiningi. Bakit ka mag mamaka awa sa pag mamahal na ayaw ibigay sayo? Bakit pinipilit mo yung pag mamahal na dapat natural na binibigay sayo? Naisip mo ba yun?

As i look to the people who beg for love. I thought they were pathetic. But no, nakaka awa sila. Kasi unang una hindi nila mahal ang sarili nila kaya nag mamaka awa sila sa pag ibig ng iba. Pilit nila sinisiksik ang sarili nila kasi they are too weak to handle themselves because they know hindi nila mahal or kulang ang pag mamahal nila sa sarili nila. Hindi nila kaya mag isa para mag patuloy sa araw araw, kailangan pa nila ng ibang tao para maging masaya. Yung naka depende sila sa ibang tao para maging masaya. At yung mga taong yun ang dapat natin intindihin. Dahil nakaka awa sila. Sobrang nakaka awa... Love is earned, not asked. Kaya nga may mga taong nag mamahal unconditionally diba? Yung tipong kahit walang kapalit, nag mamahal sila ng tahimik at patas. Kasi kapag mahal mo, pabor sakaniya lahat kasi ayaw mo siya mahirapan at masaktan. Kahit ikaw pa ang mahirapan at masaktan.

It takes courage and a strong soul to understand this kind of matter in life and I can say that i have that courage and strong soul because i chose to let go and understand things for the sake of other people. Maybe others won't understand and be selfish about love. Pero diba nga? "Kung sino ang mas nakaka pag isip, siya'ng dapat umintindi". My advice for those kind of people. Guys, love yourself first. Then, only by then the rest will follow.

And lastly, surrender everything to the Lord. He won't let you down. Tell everything to Him and trust him with all your heart. 2019 led me to the path which i took to be close to the Lord. There comes a moment in my life where everything is failing and everything hurts. But then, God never let me down. He never left my side. Always believe even if you dont see. Have faith of what the Lord can do. He can take as much as what you have right now and give as much as you dont have at this very moment. God is Good all the time. Trust him.

Thank you 2019! Its was indeed a roller coaster ride. But at the end of the day, What is important is I learned something and I know for a fact the things that I will do and won't this 2020. Another decade of blissful moments and wonderful blessings the Lord will give. And from 2019 I can say, Im Ready.

[monqqq]

There is a voice that doesn't use words.

[monqqq]

Now that I've spent my nights without you far too long, darkness doesn't scare me anymore. Nothing scares me anymore...

[monqqq]

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