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Can you post about Soren from the artbook?

Coming right up! I've always loved how dynamic his Radiant Dawn artwork is.

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4/27/2025

I remember last year when my law professor saw me drawing on an exam and tried to recommend some calarts professors to me. (he knew them because of lawsuit stuff with workshop equipment)

I refused because I felt my parents would not like this decision and would be disappointed in me if I chose art over a stable business career (which is understandable).

I somewhat remember my law professor saying (after I explained my parents want me to do business school): "You might regret not following your passion in life" or somethin.

Now I'm wondering if I should've accepted the connections. The professor was one of the nicest business professors I met (the bar is pretty low). Then again, as someone living in California where rent and a lot of basic needs are overpriced, art won't pay enough.

I need to do a business job to survive.

as much as art school sounds great, I can't afford it. (Supplies is extra and art supplies ain't cheap).

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My fic for @ikesorenbigbang !!!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64829644/chapters/166610056

It's about Magical Boys!!

Summary:

On the surface, Soren is an average college student. At his part-time job, he becomes the tacky motorcycle-wearing menace: Rune Ruby! Under his mad father's commands, he sends out a new cosmical monster every week for his father's one goal: CHAOS! However, where there is evil, a hero rises! And that happens to be...Ike? His childhood friend? Will both men face each other in battle? Or will friendships be burned? Or will the two of them keep...secret journals?

Art by:

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4/12/25

I always think how I cannot properly socialize with my own peers.

LIke, whenever I'm out socializing online or physically, I try to think 10 steps ahead when interacting or talking.

To put it simply: It's overthinking.

At a very early age, i wasn't let out of the house a lot and was undersocialized as a young kid. So those early building blocks for social skills you are supposed to obtain at first grade to fifth grade aren't exactly stable for me. When I moved to a new school in sixth grade, I had difficulty assimilating and figuring out the "norm" in social circles. I still have this difficulty now, and as an adult,t it's obviously gotten somewhat better, so I try my best not to talk too much and observe others to pick up cues.

I have had slip-ups where I misread situations and have learned not what to do, but socializing is a never-ending learning curve.

To be honest, my family expects me to know what the "norm" is, like I wasn't taken out of the house that often.?????? Now, they try to encourage me to "be normal" and say I am "young in the mind." It doesn't make sense to me since I still can't define what "normal" is.

Today, I do go out with my same group of close friends, and it's great but, "getting a clue" is often an issue with me.

Sometimes, I do not want to go outside and socialize a lot. All the social calculations I have to do are very tiring. I'm ranting about this since I hear people around my age want to start a family or have kids. I do not get this because I am in my early 20s.

I just want future parents to:

Not treat their kid as an accessory

Over-coddle them and keep them too close

please let them have friends and don't talk shit about the friends (this made me feel bad for making friends growing up)

Let them touch grass with other children their age

I don't know, make a lot of socializing mistakes at an early age so they don't fuck it up badly in the future.

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3/27/2025

My birthday is tomorrow.

I always wonder how i made it to 20+ years. Wild crap. As a kid, I imagined I'd be working in Cartoon Network making my own official series but right now I am set in a path that doesn't do any of that. Honestly one of the things that irk me growing up is the message to chase one's passion. Well, that phrase only applies if that passion makes money.

Given this age and AI n what not, it's been a bit more difficult to make money off one's craft.

I mostly just did business not because I HAD a passion of it, I am only in here because I have the skills to do it. I've never felt a sense of enjoyment walking into business classes and couldn't relate to the peers who had the passion for this industry.

I only chose that major to play it safe and make a stable living.

Really, I can't understand people who are super passionate in their careers at times. While these people are very nice individuals, I do not appreciate them pushing their business passions onto me. It almost feels obnoxious. I really don't get those people at all. But, we shared a few meals here and there so it's cool, fun to talk to overall.

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3/18/2025

I am looking over jobs on linked in as I do classes and try to complete my licensing exam.

Okay, I've been in university for about five years right?

Why these professional careers that require you to study for a long time have questionable wages?

like they are about $16-$20 per hour.

I know I shouldn't expect my first out of university job to pay a lot, but like, with that wage? I don't know if I can afford groceries and basic needs without parental help.

If wages do not change, then I do not think it will be possible to move out asap and what not.

Oh well. It is what it is.

I hope te job i get will be good for my resume and hopefully, the next job in the years to come will pay better.

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3/15/25

I know i said blogs be scary earlier, but I think I'll try it. With trying to keep my privacy In check too.

i kinda finished my business degree and I'm taking one last class for my minor.

after that University is done. I'm completely an adult (oh man)

but, i'm like studying for another exam to get a job (one that is directed towards my major n stuff)

the crash course I'm doing is pretty long and tedious but I am a bit annoyed when people think I can just easily cheese through exam prep and get to the exam asap. (note: I am not very academically smart) problem is this exam is charging me like $100 USD to take it, so if I fail I kinda have to cough up another $100 to retake it. I am trying to look for some part time jobs/full time to apply to while studying for the exam (it's to get a license for the job I need) but a lot of jobs out right now favor licensed employee which is understandable. I could try working at fast food places again because I am tired of being broke. But, man that major wasn't cheap and I feel pressured to pursue something related to that major (by fam).

ugh man I REALLY WANT POCKET MONEY!! I have considered selling the clothes I don't wear, but dumping it to a thrift store or good will won't get me money these days. I could try Mercari or online stuff, but I do not feel comfortable meeting up with people by myself. So, I should probably try a yard sale next month.

oh but on the bright side i can still use my uni's pool and free food, so I guess that's good.

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i wanna try doing blog entries but the fact people can dig up old information and possibly use it against me is kind of a fear.

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Jackbox

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It's time to morb (keychain make)

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JP ONLY STREAM!! IF I SPEAK ENGLISH I END STREAM!!

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IS THAT THE KIMI WA NE GUY

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Working.

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Ikesoren Mermaid Au update

WE COOKIN

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The title card of Sgt. Frog (Keroro Gunso), Encounter 6. I kid you not.

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