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[morningstar-darling]

in the mood to make a man moan and cuss

[morningstar-darling]

come into bed and listen to the rain with me

[morningstar-darling]

In her ear like …. Do you wanna get some iced coffee then go see some highland cows sweet angel ?

[morningstar-darling]

my ass is so grabable spankable squeezable if u even care

[morningstar-darling]

Ive kissed my own shoulder during a hot jack off sesh so what? Not like im gonna run for president

[morningstar-darling]

Want to be naked on my knees adoringly looking up at you instead of dealing with all silly daily stress going on right now. just saying.

[morningstar-darling]

I decided I'm going to try and edge from June 1 until his boyfriend is done visiting this month and god. man. it's day five and eleven a.m. and I am squirming

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play fighting is so fucking hot, oh no I got pinned down by you on the bed we better not fuck or anything that would be crazy

[morningstar-darling]

send him nudes on company time

[morningstar-darling]

girls are soft and warm like fresh baked bread

[morningstar-darling]

I want you to fuck my throat while we’re smoking, holding me down on your cock till I’m on the verge of passing out while you prep a bowl for me. You let me up and before I can even gasp for air you’re holding the bong to my lips and lighting it for me so I take a niceee big hit before forcing your cock back down my throat.

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when will fitbit be brave and add jerkin' it as an official workout activity

[morningstar-darling]

he called me "doll" the other day and I'm sure he meant it in a degrading fuckdoll kind of way, but the part of me that adores being a cherished pet and being called pet names literally got stunned speechless with pleasure about it 🥹💕

[morningstar-darling]

I have a bit of a dillemma...

I fucking love edging and denial. It gets me wet and needy like nothing else (aside from maybe anal) but everytime I edge/do denial I mentally crash so fucking hard a few days later like someone stole every bit of dopamine I had and the only way to get myself out of that pit is to cum four or five times in fairly rapid succession...

You got any tips on how to avoid a crash like that? Or should I just stop with it until I have a partner/Dom(me) who can help me through those bouts?

tbh it sounds a bit like a sub drop!!! which is normal to have with denial, it’s normal to have with any type of kinky stuff and tbh it’s almost more common with denial than an orgasm bc rather than all the sexy hormones getting resolved u work urself up without release 😞 (⬅️is turned on by this but understands how it can turn into a physiologic nightmare)

my tip would be to do some kind of aftercare!!!! after any kind of play whether i came or not i used to always immediately just clean up and go back to whatever i was doing and pretend it hadnt happened. but i’d always feel a lil depressed/weird/ashamed/altered ranging in severity for a period after. i had to finally have a rly bad crash after a piss scene (bc ukno…. more shame lol) to realize u still need to do some self care to ur body and mind after playing even if ur alone!!

what i do now is stay where i am for a few minutes, i dont immediately rush to clean up and move on. i relax and catch my breath and just let myself feel the comedown, and i run/pet my hands along my body like someone else would soothing me, and tell myself (or imagine someone saying) in stern soothing authority voice like: “Ur okay, u did good, this is normal and fun, this was nice, ur okayyyyyy silly goose. Relax, ur okay” etc. the touching is good for nervous system (u can also look up vagus nerve stimulation, there’s a lot of exercises u can do with just ur hands to reset ur nervous system any time ur anxious! not just in kink) + self reassurance rly helps mentally. there’s also like, u can google Aftercare ASMR which is what i do sometimes to listen for a few mins when i feel anxious after play lol, im not rly an asmr person so idk if it has been any more effective for me than the self-talk but some ppl like it so im mentioning it!!!!

moving on from that initial check-in, i start slowly moving (move around legs first, like testing movement, then i stretch) and i drink lots of water, breathe deep for a bit, keep stretching for whatever position u were in. only then do i start cleaning up. i also try to reward myself after cleanup, like snuggling under soft blankets with a good book or mindless feelgood show (mine is like………….. Animal Information videos. clickbait shit like The Top Ten Dinosaurs Ranked lmao) and a nice snack!!!!

that is my lil routine and it has rly helped me with the shame/crash/bad feelings i used to have after both edging or cumming!! modify for whatever helps you, it sounds corny but it rly has made me feel better than i used to (and then im also feeling better again faster to go at myself all over again sooner 😎) it can also help if u have someone to talk to, i have an intermittent fwb who’s kinky so there’s been times it helped me to text and say like Omg im feeling bad😞 bc I did x gross thing 😞😞😞 and get reassurance lol

i hope this helps, drop/crash sucks!! best of luck 💕

[morningstar-darling]

"can you behave" yes, if I wanted to, but this is so much funnier

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rape and nonconsensual touching but it extends into the aftercare.

youre angry at them and scared and flinching and after what they just did to your body you can barely stand on your own but when you can you try to shuffle and crawl away from them. you dont WANT them to bathe you, theyre probably just trying to wash evidence off but youre weak and shaking, you cant really fight them off. they grab you by the crook of your elbow and drag you to your feet, hauling you into the bathroom while you stumble or even drag uselessly behind them. you curse at them half heartedly when they drop you into their shower. you sputter as the water comes on, too cold and unexpected. they set up a chair near where youre sitting and roll up their sleeves, take a handful of your now wet hair and drag you to them. you shake and flinch as they drag you over, hands covering your face like theyre going to hit you. instead they just start to wash your hair. you freeze under the gentle touching, struggle to connect this behavior with everything else thats happened tonight. the water is warm now and theyre cooing at you and telling you you were good, you didnt behave yourself but you still made them feel so good and youre such a good pet, or you will be once they break you a little further. you sit there dumbfounded and humiliated as they talk to you like a child or a scared animal. you dont notice your shoulders relax or how youve started leaning into their hands, but they do. they mutter vague sounds of approval at your submission, the first time youve behaved all fucking night. as soon as they finish with your hair they move to your body, gently lathering you with soap while you try to hide yourself. one smack to one of your bruised wrists is all it takes to get you to stop covering up now. the violence, the violation, the beating, the tears, and now the warm water, the whiplash, the soft touching, the confusion, its all made you so pliant. you dont say anything when they take extra care to wash your holes. you only shoot them a look when they say “good as new, like nothing ever happened.” they turn off the water and wrap you in a soft, fluffy towel. you look shell shocked and they cant help but laugh that now and only now is when you want to disconnect from your body. once it feels safe. they scoop you up and take you back to the bed you were just violated on. talking down to you as they put you in pajamas and bottle feed you water like a sick lamb, first manhandling your limp spacey body into some underwear youve never seen before (did they have that waiting for you? how long have they planned to do this to you), then a tshirt. they chide you when you dont move to help get it on yourself. clicking their tongue and telling you “arms up” like a child. you move sluggishly and hesitantly but do as they say. they put the shirt on you and kiss your head, thanking you for being so good. you feel sick. they maneuver you into their bed finally so that they can hold you to their chest. as you start to drift off in spite of yourself, they whisper “dont even think about running off tonight. you havent seen anything yet.” in your ear

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30 y/o dudes w a porn blog on here be like “get yourself an experienced older man” like…and is the experienced older man in the room with us right now ?