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The truth.

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haven't drawn in a while so here is the best from today's lot of sketches

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nothing strange happening here folks. just two men headbonking and sharing a breath like cats tend to do. normal gar activities if i ever saw one.

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IT FEELS SO GOOD TO NOT BE ALONE IN THIS, THANK YOU! @agender-wolfie

Genuinely why do some fic writers say GN!reader but then the tags say PiV Sex or the reader is called a gendered term?

That's not gender neutral.

I'm saying this as a trans masc, non-binary person.

I'm not saying you can't be non binary and call yourself or be called a Gendered term and I'm not saying genitals are gendered.

But isn't the whole POINT of GN!Reader that EVERYONE can relate and put themselves in that story?

I look for GN!reader because I can't relate with F!Reader and then so many of those are just F!Reader in disguise.

Just write for Women and girls if that's what you want and can do. No shame.

Stop queerbaiting and virtue signaling in your fics!

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ℑ 𝔞𝔪 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔣𝔦𝔫𝔞𝔩 𝔡𝔞𝔴𝔫

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Genuinely why do some fic writers say GN!reader but then the tags say PiV Sex or the reader is called a gendered term?

That's not gender neutral.

I'm saying this as a trans masc, non-binary person.

I'm not saying you can't be non binary and call yourself or be called a Gendered term and I'm not saying genitals are gendered.

But isn't the whole POINT of GN!Reader that EVERYONE can relate and put themselves in that story?

I look for GN!reader because I can't relate with F!Reader and then so many of those are just F!Reader in disguise.

Just write for Women and girls if that's what you want and can do. No shame.

Stop queerbaiting and virtue signaling in your fics!

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But now to the million dollar question:

HOW DO I KEEP WRITING DESPITE THOSE 80%???

Reading my own fanfiction is basically just a rollercoaster of emotional whiplash.

20% of the time: “Hold on. I wrote this? This is fire. This is emotionally devastating in the best way. This scene is dripping with tension. I’m a literary perfectionist. Someone give me a book deal.”

80% of the time: “Straight to jail. Immediate prison. Why is everyone’s breath hitching?. I used the word ‘gaze’ three times in one paragraph like I was possessed. Did I think 'his eyes darkened' was profound? Why is everyone clenching their jaws? Why is someone whispering 'their name like a prayer' again?? No one talks like this. What is this dialogue. Why are there so many weird metaphors and em-dashes…”

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Captain Sexy- um Rex anyone?

Tysm for this beautiful commission. I LOVE him! @pinkiemme

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I'm chiming in here to say to anyone: there's also a FUCKING AMAZING howzer long fic that needs to be read!

Don't sell quantum entanglement short 🥹 i loved that fic so much! 🩵

I'm lobbing this right back to your ask box, because the questions were great, and I'd love to know your answers!

Ok. So. If someone wanted to read your works…

Which do you think is your best piece and why? You can split the answer into short and long fics if you want. 😜

Which do you think is your most delicious, sexy, satisfying piece of smut?

Which do you think has the most intimate/immersive POV of a character, like really takes you in their heart and mind and makes you feel what they feel? Takes you on the ride with them?

And which one do you think everyone should read? I know, choosing one is torture. 😉😘

I should be going to bed right now but my brain is a steam engine and this train of thought is CHUGGIN. 😂 So. Since you had such amazing answers for your own...

Which do you think is your best piece and why?

Honestly... Beyond the Shadow of a Doubt, the Hunter x OC longfic that I worked on for 9+ months, because it's intricately cohesive, intentionally structured from start to finish, and amazingly enriched with fanart, mood boards, and other stuff that makes it completely immersive. I'm really proud of it. 🥹 It's got plot twists but doesn't leave the reader feeling stupid (*coughTBB*), has fully developed and very unique characters that are also relatable (I hope), and I think (and have been told, lol) that the characterization of the Batch is dead-on and their family dynamics are absolutely delightful. It feels weird to speak freely about its strengths, but we should be able to do that without it being braggy. So, it's amazing in a lot of areas and definitely needs work in others (like me, ha).

Which do you think is your most delicious, sexy, satisfying piece of smut?

*dons monocle to consult @spicy-clones master list*

Shoot, I guess I have to say Sharp Edges, the Crosshair x Reader longfic I wrote with @lightwise. There are quite a few smut scenes, but what makes it fantastic is that it starts off hot and shallow, then evolves and deepens in areas beyond just the physical to lead to a really satisfying climax (hahaha). And it's a really good story -- after all, when you get two author brains on a project, it's that much better! Tons of character development, funny dialogue, and an excellent fix-it ending. 😉

Which do you think has the most intimate/immersive POV of a character, like really takes you in their heart and mind and makes you feel what they feel? Takes you on the ride with them?

I guess I'm gonna be really redundant here... The Hunter one, because readers experience the story through his eyes (where other works are from a reader, OC, or omniscient POV). So they were hopefully just as surprised as he was at sudden plot twists, but I also tried to add just enough detail and subtle lil winks to the reader to "let them in" on some of the secrets so that they could feel shrewd and insightful without just having it all out there plainly so Hunter's the only one and the rest of us are rolling our eyes and smacking our foreheads at him the whole time. 😜 I mean, there was some of that too. 😂

And which one do you think everyone should read?

If the two pitches above for Beyond the Shadow of a Doubt didn't seal the deal, then that one is lost beyond redemption. 😜 So I have two shorties...

This Pets 4 Vets story featuring Jesse is long enough to create some chemistry, have some funny ups and downs, and enjoy a satisfying connection at the end (and some hot bangin' in the bonus chapter, LOL). I love the trope of being let in by someone who hides behind a front and this one was really enjoyable that way.

And lastly, this Tup x Reader keeps coming to mind. Idk why, but it's playful, awkward, satisfying, and sweet. The dialogue prompt was "Don't ever do that again! ...you have no idea what it does to me." And it involves his hair, surprise surprise. 😉 PLUS, I love writing "the boys", whether it's the Batch or the 501st, cause those dynamics seem to really enrich the whole thing.

Thanks for letting me ramble. 💕

AND FOR ANYONE ELSE READING, hahah, I feel like I write almost the same trope over and over, so if you have some requests that you'd like to hear in my style, but are different in content than my usual stuff, drop em in my asks!

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from ‘rain’ @ download ‘25!

🎥: @ paralysedwill

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thinking about how one theme in EIA is healing, but more specifically how no one can save you but yourself

in LTW - you wish that you could make me whole

in which the narrator recognizes that this person can’t save him. not completely. it is still him with the sword, him treading water, gasping that first breath. there may be hands outstretched to help you but you have to first reach up and take that hand

nothing else is quite the same as how it feels when I am at your side

plus

taking it stride by stride together

and even

walk beside me

in that the narrator isn’t asking for someone to save him. just for a companion. to make the road less lonely, not to be carried down it.

culminating in infinite baths — I have fought so long to be here

*he* has fought to get this far. yes, he isn’t alone now, but ultimately this was something that he overcame, his own battle to fight, his own triumph.

this album as a whole is a lot more introspective and reflective, and I think it shows a contrast from the songs in specifically sundowning and tomb, where the narrators focus is solely another person, their presence and absence and actions. we see the first shift in TMBTE (in either granite or aqua regia, I would argue — he really is done dancing to alarm bells and oops this needs to be its own post lol) towards this recognition of the narrator having value just as himself, without everything being in relation to this other person.

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100/10 video footage, highly recommend! ivy touching iii's ass. ves having a moment with his mic stand. happy dancey dance and smiles. ii feeling himself in the back. VOCALS from both ves & espera. ivy playing with ves. it truly has it all. <3

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H𝙚𝙮, 𝙙𝙞𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙚𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩?

📸 : 𝕏 @.hearts4iv

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smiles, hugs, and bum pats

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the worst part about ocd and ocd-like tendencies is that you think hyper-analyzing your thoughts and constantly psychoanalyzing yourself will fix you but that's actually part of the disorder. it's the disorder. disordering.