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whoops lost myself for about eight years there

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I am made of dreams and this world is not made for me.

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no i have not revisited the graveyard scene ten billion times

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ive taken up a new hobby called standing in the kitchen and yearning. the yearning part isnt new but im standing in the kitchen this time

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oh, i am finally old enough to know why my parents took so long to grab their coats. why they would ask us to get ready to go only to sit down for another round of coffee. what would i tell myself, at 10 years old? it’s okay. sit down with them too. take in the extra hour with your friend and her family. when you get home, write down every moment in your diary. one day you will be older and you will be waving goodbye to your best friend, and you will turn the key to start your beat up little car engine, and you will look back over your shoulder. her hair will be blowing in the wind and she will be beautiful and you will be, for a moment, struck by all of it. what you will feel is so wide and nameless that it will engulf you. and you will think of being 14 and kicking her under the table in math every time you wanted to whisper something behind the teacher’s back. you will think about how long the days felt, and how you could hold her hand whenever you wished, but you didn’t. and you will think about all of the people you could have lingered with. and you will wish, more than you have ever felt a wish, that the universe just gave you that - more time to linger. more time to say - i love you. i know i need to leave, but i don’t want to leave you. and when i go, i am leaving a piece of my heart that lingers too. 

one more round of coffee. the days are so short, and you are so lovely.

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born to always mourn the present like it’s already become a memory

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A mid-day date with Roxanne and Amaryl, commissioned from the ever amazing Dead-Ghouls!

(His commissions are currently open and a full sketch page with a couple like this was just $100. Can’t recommend him enough, this is like my 3rd commission from him.)

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✅ tortured by Voices

✅ cursed by god

✅ small waist

✅ criminal record

✅ died once

Diagnosis: babygirl

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-Bylthe baird, if my body could speak

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things are endurable when you love and let yourself be loved

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im just some woman. i don't know why i feel the shame of a thousand murderers on my shoulders at all times

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i hope you find some peace of mind in this lifetime

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watering my plants is when i am my own therapist.

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can’t wait to be a 40 year old woman who’s healed from her trauma and loves going grocery shopping and lives with lifelong but manageable mental illness. and gives people nice presents on their birthdays. and I’m looking forward to being 75 and sitting on the porch in the summer when the sun is shining.