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Happy Friday

Happy Friday here comes the weekend …… happy occasion but for me, it also makes me sad. weird I know! but it makes me sad because I wish I was heading on an adventure somewhere this weekend – even a short one to somewhere close – but a new place I can explore. I’ve always wanted to visit Chicago again

and I love New York so these would have been good options. But alas, I am not going anywhere 😦 I…

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Saturday Thoughts

‘You must not lose faith in humanity.

Humanity is like an ocean;

If a few drops of the ocean are dirty

The ocean does not become dirty.’ Mahatma Gandhi 🙏♥️🦋📘

Such wise words, so relevant today.

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Negativity be GONE!

There has been a lot of negativity going about lately…not just in my life, but in the lives of the people around me and in our country.

Negativity is a sneaky bastard…it creeps in and takes route in your soul turning everything into a black hole. It sucks the good out of everything and then it sinks you. Because before you know it, you have become this negative…thing and you don’t know how that…

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Stop re-reading the last chapterp

Stop re-reading the last chapterp

You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one

  I’m beginning to think that the reason I keep feeling like I’m being blocked from moving on and starting over is that I’m actually just not yet properly ready to do so.  I’m possibly the world’s worst at ‘letting go’.  I’ve struggled previously to move on from relationships, job loss, friendships that haven’t…

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Things....

Things….

I feel things too deeply.

I either love with every cell in my body or hate as hard as the blood that pounds in my veins. Sadness is injected into me like a pandemic virus and happiness has me overdosed on ecstasy.

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Because I'm Happpppyyyyy

Because I’m Happpppyyyyy

One thing that my mom kept telling me over and over again, is that all she just wanted me to be is happy. Happy.

And you know what? Today I woke up incredibly happy! I am happy with where my life is going, I am happy with how I look and feel and above all else, I am so incredibly happy with the people I have in my life!

My family, for one…my family makes me so happy and when they are happy it…

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LOVE~FOREVER TEMPORARY?? “People are temporary- but I want to love you forever, and so I write love poems in places no one but the universe will ever see, and hope they last long after we’re gone” —poetic, forever a beautiful lie.

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The Adult Conundrum

This morning while doing my normal morning ritual…I realised that I had run out of toilet paper. Again. I say again because this is not the first time this has happened to me and it probably won’t be the last time that it will happen to me. That is why I have a stash of serviettes in my bathroom…for such moments of brief panic. I mean, who wants to have a heart attack at 6 in the morning…

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Kindly...F#ck Off

Kindly…F#ck Off

    So it has been a hot minute since I have posted. I don’t really have any real excuse other than just the person I am trying to move beyond in me still has a hold on me…Old habits die hard I suppose.  Shit has gotten more intense on the home front.  The office abusiver  has gotten more vocal in her opinion of my faults.  Bordering on the mentally abusive end.  At one point I have quit my job. …

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If it makes you happy, then it can't be all that bad

If it makes you happy, then it can’t be all that bad

I have a dream!!

No, I don’t have a dream. I have many dreams actually. But that is not the point of this. I just had Martin Luther King going through my head when I started this.

So I made a list. As with most things in my life, I like making lists. I list things I want to do, things I have to buy, to do lists, goal lists, pro and con lists…you name it I’ve probably put it in a list.

This is…

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Purim/Lent: What's your Sacrifice?

Purim/Lent: What’s your Sacrifice?

Purim/Lent: What are you giving up?

Purim: Wednesday, March 20

Lent: Wednesday, March 6-Saturday, April 20

Men. I have decided that this is what needs to happen.

Being a good Jewish/Catholic women, solemn penitence and mask and party, that’s what these 2 holidays are but its more than that. It’s giving up on what you desire the most then after you search your soul then rejoice and have a party…

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A haunting of memories

A haunting of memories

You never really completely lose someone. They are always with you. Be it in the crashing waves of an angry ocean that reminds you of their piercing green/blue eyes, or the way the stranger in line before you ordered their coffee the exact same way. The ones we love become memories etched in our minds long after their physical forms have left us. They are constantly haunting us.

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Looking for Extraordinary Life

Looking for Extraordinary Life

This quote is probably one of the most relevant statements for my life at this exact moment. At this moment that I am sitting in front of my computer, procrastinating with regards to my work, but completely and utterly exhausted emotionally. Or not emotionally…I actually don’t know how to explain it. Is it hopeless? Is it resentment? Is it anger? sadness? Or is it resignation?

There are so many…

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Ramblings of a Melancholy Muse

Ramblings of a Melancholy Muse

As I am sitting here, I am frustrated to no end with the slowness of the machine I am working on…I have created a WiFi hotspot with my phone to try and get some internet access as I am currently without internet seeing as I am poor and unemployed and can only depend on the data on my phone and the WiFi at the apt. But…these are all things that can be sorted out and things I can work with.  I am…

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It's 2019 WooHoo!

It’s 2019 WooHoo!

   It be 2019 yo!

This holiday was way too short. I feel like it was just yesterday I was walking out the office with a spring in my step and the promise of a long summer holiday filled with tanning, chilling and training…next thing I know its Monday morning, overcast and my alarm is singing me the songs of its people. Which is basically the song of the devil.

  I have no…

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Death, Beauty and Melancholy in Between

Death, Beauty and Melancholy in Between

I felt melancholy, I felt joy, I felt dread, I felt a sadness so deep it cannot be described in words.

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Risk It

  I have been quiet for a while and it is due to a number of reasons…

Mainly due to the fact that I no longer have a job and no longer have steady internet access. I am currently sitting in the apt and quickly typing this out just so that if there is anyone out there who reads my blog that they can know I am still alive and well…If anything, I am more than alive and well.

I took a risk. I quit…