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https://twitter.com/isabelunraveled

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you’re going to hurt people in life. it’s unavoidable. apologize and do better next time.

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that’s a really interesting interpretation of this character. i actually hadn’t seen it that way before. unfortunately you are wrong and stupid but i think it’s great that you tried.

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There'll be a post like, "ableism is bad" and all the comments will be "yeah! Ableists are all sociopaths and narcissists!" "Ableists all live in their moms basements and don't contribute anything to society!"

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get fran'd

omg that's my good friend fran ??? can u say hi to fran from me

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I'd like to test a theory.

(Feel free to reblog for a larger sample size.)

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this is assuming its on art you normally wouldn't jump to reblog. i myself only rb stuff i really really like so .

The 'rude/demanding' tone would be stuff along the lines of "if you like but don't reblog I'll [threat]" which i see surprisingly often, both serious and more silly

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to put it simply, the right people will get you. you will not have to fight for breadcrumbs of love. you will not have to beg for attention. the right people will love you freely and easily, and will carve out space in their life for you. the right people will check up on you on your bad days & laugh with you on your good. you will find friends who embrace every part of you, and who will push you to grow. someday, any trace of those who hurt you will be filled with warmth from those who never will.

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Also on topic of Consent: whenever somebody says "Kids should have bodily autonomy!" some guy always is like "You are too unrealistic. What will you do when a kid is seeing the doctor and doesn't want to get a shot? Would you just let them refuse the shot?"

Yeah I probably would. You're straight up asking the wrong person if you want the nice normal answer here. Doctors and nurses forcibly doing (relatively routine) things to my body against my protests when I was a small kid fucked me up so bad that as an adult anything medical related is a huge trigger for me, I've had persistent intrusive thoughts and recurring nightmares about medical procedures, and I can't have even the most basic tests and health checks done on top of it.

I hate talking about it because I can't get comfortable calling it "trauma" and I don't have any other words that are useful, but it's made my life so much harder and really scary since if I start having a weird symptom, there's nothing I can move myself to do about it.

I figured out a loophole where going to a pharmacy instead of a doctor's office for vaccines reduces some of the stress, but I was still in stress and misery for days before I went to get my tetanus shot. The repulsion is so intense it feels like I literally don't have control over myself, it feels like I can't make appointments or plans about such things out of my own free will, and so every year I have guilt guilt guilt guilt guilt about how I should get the flu shot, and it does nothing but ineffectually hurt me.

Vaccines save lives and all that, but when it comes right down to it, I don't think it's actually a net benefit to public health to give any percentage of kids lifelong psychological scars so deep and painful they're almost completely barred from accessing health care as adults.

I know I'm not the only one, far from it.

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The prosecutor family would like to give you a friendly reminder that there is no age limit for taking comfort from a stuffed animal.

(Slightly based off my Miitopia play through, they keep giving each other plushies)

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I massively respect your ability to roll with the punches here. I wasn’t part of that server but the ability to take that accusation and decide “fuck it and fuck you I’m making my own server” is really impressive to me.

Anyway, what features/layout are you planning for the server you’re starting up?

i have a long, repetitive history of being unfairly smeared. to a bitch with a kiwifarms thread and a ptsd diagnosis, this is something i am already prepared for. i would not survive if not for my ability to let it pass through me.

it's a direct clone of the aablr server. just, you know, with actual mods who do their jobs instead of whatever the fuck that was haha.

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World may seem a fuck. But. Onion love u

thank god. for onion

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the shit people make up about you is always so batshit insane! why are people like this so damn much

im hot and confident and stand up for myself and am upfront and blunt and have no secrets to exploit. this makes people very jealous and insecure and, failing to find any "dirt" on me to use to justify their dislike of me & get other people on board, they go fucking insane and jump on whatever they can find / make shit up.

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society if people acknowledged that sometimes autistics will not fucking understand things that seem "obvious" to you and when they are asking for help understanding it is meant to be compassionate not fucking an attempt to argue that they are somehow right for being ignorant or whatever

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speaking as an autistic just turned adult (like. just turned 18) i feel your comment towards that minor was severely inappropriate. it makes me incredibly uncomfortable and you as an adult should know better than to have nsfw conversations with kids. there’s lines you shouldn’t cross and you should know better. you’re 27. you have so much power over them. you scare me

im 28

i did not have any nsfw conversations with kids. im being lied about

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Was in the server you're talking about, and even though wasn't all too active / didnt know personally, I am genuinely shocked by how things are being handled and have been confused overall. Rather than a clear message being given about the reasons for the ban the announcement was a bit vague and staff keep just keep making threads to explain themselves or going to random channels for damage control making it difficult for me to parse their reasoning for the ban. And now they're shutting down the whole server which. Is a choice. However from the times I've seen you on the server you have been a very kind and fun person and am sorry you're going through all this. Hope you can reconnect with others!

thanks! i am obviously heartbroken but everyone has been coming out in droves to show their support. there is so much love to find in this horrible situation and i am looking wherever i can for it.

the mod team of aablr have always been a shit show and a huge reason they are banning me is apparently because i am "combative" and "argumentative." their evidence for this is a bunch of screencaps of me literally just asking clarification questions about certain rules. i had no idea any of those conversations were adversarial or combative, i thought we were just talking things out. basically, i got banned for the usual ableism autistics face--we ask questions, and allistic people view the questions (which come from a place of compassion and a need to understand) as arguing.

one of the mods has a lot of the same brain stuff as me, outright said 'hey, i think this is whats happening' and the mods response to that was 'its easier to just ban wendy than to have you come in here and translate what theyre saying.'

they have basically admitted they just did not like my vibe and were looking for a reason to get rid of me. they tried to hide it behind thinly veiled accusations that i was soliciting sex from minors (again, i cannot stress enough how fucking untrue this is. i made a passing, inelegant comment about a halloween costume that shows some skin and didn't realize it could be taken inappropriately because i don't think about teenagers in a sexual context, which apparently makes me the weird one)

they were hoping if they framed me as a predator, it would be an easy way to get rid of me without eliciting too much sympathy to my plight.

it did not work. i have been kind to people, and i have been compassionate, and now i receive that threefold.

courtside, they call me Karma.