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[musashi]

i accidentally got an ADHD diagnosis today

[vonpharma]

Will you guys still love me if I write nothing but Franmaya for Sicktember? I literally cannot force myself to care about anything else

[musashi]

hi!

tonight i was kicked from my primary social group and unfairly painted as a child predator by someone i thought was normal.

none of this is true and you will find absolutely no proof, but i am now at risk of losing contact with half my fucking friends as i was not allowed to get their usernames.

please send me an ask on here if you are one of the people interesting in remaining my friend! tons of people will vouch for the fact that i am not a fucking predator.

my discord is prosecutorvonkarma, feel free to add me too!

[musashi]

some day perhaps when I am less heartbroken I will write something up here on the uniquely cruel way autistic peoples' compassion is viewed as aggression. Even, apparently, by other autistics.

In the mean time, love an autistic person today for me. love them even when they are not convenient for you. Love them as they question you and love them as they talk too much and too loudly. Love them even if they don't have quirky hyperfixation autism. Please just love autistic people while they are still here.

Happy autism acceptance month. Two nights ago, my autism lost me months worth of memories.

[musashi]

I am trying not to post about it because I am a proper lady but I need you guys to know that right now at this very moment there is a whole group of grown ass adults who are claiming I am a pedo because I told a minor I liked a bikini she'd picked out for a future Halloween costume

[musashi]

anyways the last thing I have to say about this is that I will never ever say I am alone or have no friends again. I actually have the best friends in the entire world and I am going to spend the rest of my life kissing their fucking shoes

[musashi]

just wanna say the funniest thing about me getting banned from the server I spent all my time in is that I was streaming the big top anime at the time which is a case about an abrasive, annoying, egocentric, pink-haired narcissist getting framed for a crime he did not commit all the while the real culprit is the sweet uwu soft boy upstairs who is surrounded in birds like a Disney princess and has a Tragique Backstory. He almost gets away with it simply because he is a more pleasant person, and the whole world is biased in thinking that being A Pill makes you a criminal.

You cannot make this shit up. If I sent this to an editor as a manuscript they'd tell me to tone it down.

[musashi]

society if people acknowledged that sometimes autistics will not fucking understand things that seem "obvious" to you and when they are asking for help understanding it is meant to be compassionate not fucking an attempt to argue that they are somehow right for being ignorant or whatever

[musashi]

not everyone is either butch or femme actually. That's a false dykeotomy.

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[musashi]

i also heard my co worker say 'i dont read dead dove' the other day like what the FUCK does gen z think it means??? are they just, like, changing the meaning??? what do you mean you dont read dead dove. you don't read ANYTHING? cause dead dove is not a genre or a trope it's a tagging system fdghdfh like???

[musashi]

just realized i did not talk about The Name Thing in my fran video bites at the bars of my cage

[musashi]

co worker: why do you always type [other co-worker's] last name instead of his first when looking him up?

me: oh, uh, weird situation where i can just type that name faster. more efficient to go last name.

the last name: wright

[musashi]

ace attorney popped the fuck off by doing that thing where certain characters have ‘hidden’ sprites that you only see once in the whole game, usually it’s an emotionally closed off character offering a smile in the final hour of their story to show a sense of peace and closure, but ESPECIALLY they popped the fuck OFF by having franziska von karma break down crying in hers.

‘the angry/mean character is actually deeply emotional and using anger to keep it at bay’ is an incredibly common character archetype but it is so often done in a more shallow manner. like they will just bust out their tragic backstory in the 11th hour and we’re supposed to sympathize because awww they’re sad :( but we already know everything there is to know about franziska pretty much immediately. we know she is a child prodigy, we know she is a genius, we know she is fierce and dedicated and that she loves what she does. and we know she’s lost her father, and we know she’s upset with her brother and wants to see him again. but she does not invite pity, because she does not want it. she lays these details out clearly and concisely when they’re relevant to what is being discussed--they simply are. she remains as she is, and she fights the same way she always has, for what she believes in.

franziska goes through it. we watch her go through it. we watch her lose everything, and then we watch her have to be confronted with the fact that her brother disappeared on her and is utterly remorseless about it aloud. and then we watch her get shot by a violent hitman, and kick and scream and fight while she’s bleeding out because she wants to go to court. she has to be dragged to the hospital by force. never once does she back down an never once does she present anything other than this steely determination and resolve. until the very, VERY end. until POST CREDITS. she doesn’t even crack until AFTER THE CREDITS HAVE ROLLED!

and it is KINDNESS that breaks her! it is softness that makes her cry. i feel like to a lot of people what miles says to her in that scene might seem cruel, but it isn’t about what he says, it’s about what he does.

by franziska’s own admission she has abandonment issues. one of the few single insights we get into her pain is that people tend to discard her and make her feel left behind. miles fled back to his home country and left her all alone in germany to pursue his career, and he wasn’t wrong to do that, but it obviously hurt franziska and she felt neglected and like he didn’t bother to keep up with her. and then when he took his dramatic fucking sabbatical, he refused to loop her into that, too. miles decided without the consent of the people who love him that he was not worth it. he was unbelievably selfish to disappear the way he did, blinded by this idea that he is not loved or worth love. franziska loves him more than anything, and he did that to her on the tail end of her father’s incarceration. she lost both of her favourite people in the span of a few months. 

she ran away at the end of JFA and intended to give up on everything. and she ran away from him because if she abandons him first, he cannot abandon her. but nothing miles says in that scene undermines the fact that he chased after her. he could look her in the eyes and tell her she was scum to him but the fact of the matter is he followed her. he loved her enough to not be content just letting her give up and run away. he chased after her. can you imagine what that must’ve meant to her? 

he didn’t have to chase her. and he didn’t have to bring her whip back. and when he said ‘if you stop being a prosecutor, this is where we part ways’ i think we all knew he was not being literal. i think we all knew he was full of shit. i think what miles meant by that was to light a fire beneath her. to say that he had no intention of stopping, that he would keep on fighting, and that he wanted her to fight alongside him. they’ve always been rivals and they have always pushed each other to do better and be better, and miles knows that rivalry drives franziska unlike anything else. she doesn’t actually want to stop prosecuting, she’s just emotionally vulnerable and struggling to cope and throwing a bit of a tantrum about it, and so he pokes at an old button he knows will clear her head. franziska is a difficult person, but miles edgeworth knows her more than any person in the world, he knows how to love her and he does. he loves her so much.

she has seen a lot of pain in JFA. she has seen a lot of wicked words thrown her way, a lot of pushback, a lot of antagonism and banter and bickering, but the one thing no one shows her is kindness and love. phoenix tries, when he brings her flowers, but he gets nervous and backs out at the last second. gumshoe tries, but he does it out of earshot where she can’t hear. every nice thing someone says about franziska, they say while she is not there to listen. miles is the only person who looks her in the face and says he loves her. 

it is love that allows her the space to fall to pieces. it is love that shatters her veneer and turns her into a sobbing mess. she’s literally just a little girl who was forced to grow up too fast. she’s 18 years old and everything’s so hard. she just needed a fucking hug. 

no scene in ace attorney will ever, ever, EVER mean more to me.

[musashi]

pvp is enabled in the aablr server and i am. not enjoying it

[musashi]

It must be hell on earth to be Manfred von Karma like imagine you fucking stub your toe on your 74000€ Victorian table and when you're done screaming bloody murder the haunted orphan in your house is like "where were you on December 28th 2001" and you have to sic your elementary aged attack daughter on him to distract him

[musashi]

I always love it when a new person comes into the AA fandom because without fail every time they actually understand the characters and their fanworks reflect that. They're actually in character.

Could you imagine how good the fandom would be if others revisited the source material instead of playing fanon telephone all the time? Instead of always relying on vague impressions of what they remember? God it drives me so crazy but it's such a high when a noobie crashes in. He WOULD fucking say that.