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[mushroom-loser]

my love, you are the sun rays

that bestows its warmth in

the cold winters.

the moonlight shining

on the darkest of nights.

the cool, crisp air in the

beginning of fall.

the warm, gentle breeze

on those summer nights.

the flowers that blossom

in the early spring.

you, my love, are

my one and only.

[mushroom-loser]

i wished i didn’t love you so much to the point where everything i do reminds me of you. you said you would be better, but i don’t even think you had yourself convinced. i did everything i possibly could, but you just left me in the cold like i meant nothing to you.

[mushroom-loser]

why can’t you love me?

[mushroom-loser]

you leave me in the dark, saying it’s for the best. baby, i want the worst. i want the storm. i never asked to be in the eye of the hurricane. you should’ve known that because why else would you be talking to me.

[mushroom-loser]

i wished for happiness,

self-love, and stability.

and i threw it all away

for you.

[mushroom-loser]

please tell me you felt something. tell me that i at least meant something to you. that you felt some type of spark in the air. tell me that our relationship was real. please tell me you didn’t give up half way through. i need the comfort of your smiles, kisses, and hugs. just please, don’t say that it was a mistake.

[mushroom-loser]

is it true? that the only reason why you come to me is solely for the purpose of your own benefit? it hurts because i don’t mind, not one bit. i love your presence and touch too much that i can’t let go. i’d rather be used by a beauty like you than to start all over again. you, my love, are holding me by my throat, and i can’t help but feel loved.