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The one about KBBQ girl

I liked hanging out with you. I liked how funny you are and we connect on certain things. That even if you don’t like coffee, you still go with me. I love our love for KBBQ and how your choice of restaurant is far better than mine.

I like how fast you respond to my messages. I like you choices in music. You’re really a fun person to be with.

But then, you’ve told me you liked me and even more as a friend. I’ve explained myself, how I am now and my current space. I knew you understood.

I’m conflicted now. As much as I like hanging out with you, I cannot put more gas in that light. It’s not that I’m conceited that I’m too sure about you feeling something for me, it’s just me protecting myself from catching any feelings for you too.

I’ve removed myself from FB and it’s been nice. I give it a few more days. But then, I now check your public IG and I feel pathetic about it. When I want to share songs I’ve just found, stories or trivias about shows, I have to stop myself. Otherwise, this whole FB recluse has been useless.

I may ask for a reading though.

I just hope wherever you are, you are having a lot of fun. Living your life to the fullest and loving all the important people in your life.

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Why am I still awake

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I miss my car.

I miss driving.

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“Bad things do happen; how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have—life itself.”

— Walter Anderson

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When people bestowed with beauty are driven, by unresolved family and existential issues, to make their lives complicated and play with the hearts of those who love them.

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The one about SK girl

I took advantage of your attention and affection to fill the dull moments of my days.

I admit that how I think of you was swayed by the truth about how you are and where you came from. Your cousin have put that flashlight way up in my face. And from what I was able to connect, it explained why I kept getting this odd energy from you.

And despite my attempts to put some distance, it was too late and I still ended up hurting you.

I am sorry for hurting you the way I did. But I’m trusting my instincts and will continue to stay away. I know that if I stay any longer, I might get sucked into this unending need of “fixing” you.

I’m not in the right space to do that, nor am I responsible for it in any way.

May you find the happiness you need.

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I wonder if I should deact my IG and FB

I’m back again with this obsessive habit of checking them both every 20f minutes

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“You are not a reflection of the people who can’t love you.”

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Caitlyn Siehl

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Dear 2018 me, we made it!

Thank you for focusing on your growth, health, happiness and more meaningful relationships.

Thank you for rekindling with the things that spark joy in you.

Thank you for seeing what you were meant to learn from every moment, situation or person.

Thank you for constantly surrounding yourself with what is good for you emotionally, physically, spiritually, energetically and mentally.

Thank you for striving to be constantly better than who you were.

Most of all, thank you for being in the now and seeing what’s meant to be appreciated.

Hello, my dear 2019. Excited for better and greater things with you. 😊

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This.

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“Hating seems to be our idea of recovering, but all hate does is engrave situations and people into our hearts so that they become impossible to move away from.”

— tara love / there’s no “forgive and hate”

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