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i posted a lil while ago talking abt the hol i have to go on with my partners family.

well i’ve given myself a two week cvt off (funny pun) before the hol so i don’t have any healing scars (as it might be triggering for my partners sister if i have open wounds lol)

but that deadline is getting so close, but no cut atm seems good enough

i’m going fucking crazy and i’m running out of time

8th june is the cvt off and i have to be sober for a month!! i haven’t done that since nov last year pls kill me

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yk when you cry and feel 1000 times better afterwards, that’s how i feel when i cut deep enough

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pls… i can’t even relapse anymore bc it’s never good enough…

like i always want smt so much worse and know im not gonna get it so just don’t bother

unrealistic expectations might be the key to recovery 💀💀

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why is it never deep enough.

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Why is living so fucking hard?

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i’m going away with my partners family in july so i have to be clean by then:

game plan is to cvt as much as possible until like late june and hope they heal in time!!

don’t think i can stop but scars aren’t gonna go away lol