mx-dorkboy

[mx-dorkboy]

I swear to gxd once I reconnect with this friend on discord I am deleting Tumblr. Nice app, mostly great people, but fuck it's terrible for our mental health. Especially for our fictives and Introjects, especially those who have source trauma. /Srs

I leave front for a few months and this is what happens /lh

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God is a 11 year old closeted transmale with repressed childhood trauma and I am his edgy vent OC

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nooo mutual nooooo don’t reblog that yet, i haven’t edited out my spelling mistakes on basic words

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what do you want?

you ask the girl with pink hair and a torn coat, and she says “closure.”

you ask the boy with a shaven head and two toned eyes, and he says “companionship.”

you ask the fox with white-streaked hair, and he says “acceptance.”

you ask the king with blank eyes and a shining crown, and they say “to help.”

you ask the winged boy with a scar over his eye and a beanie, and he says “freedom.”

you ask the sheep wearing a pirate’s coat, and she says “peace.”

you ask the warden with green hair, and he says “safety.”

you ask the demon wearing a bleached coat, and he says “love.”

you ask the pig wearing a royal’s garb, and he says “equality.”

you ask the short boy with antennae and bee wings, and he says “security.”

you ask the man with torn wings in a green cape, and he says “unity.”

you ask the boy with messy hair and a red shirt, and he says “rest.”

you ask the hybrid boy wearing a suit slightly too small, and he says “a home.”

what do you want?

you ask the faceless man in the prison of his own design.

he laughs at you.

“control.”

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Im still so sad over them

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I am so sad

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Doodles from Tommy's modded minecraft vids

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what do you want?

you ask the girl with pink hair and a torn coat, and she says “closure.”

you ask the boy with a shaven head and two toned eyes, and he says “companionship.”

you ask the fox with white-streaked hair, and he says “acceptance.”

you ask the king with blank eyes and a shining crown, and they say “to help.”

you ask the winged boy with a scar over his eye and a beanie, and he says “freedom.”

you ask the sheep wearing a pirate’s coat, and she says “peace.”

you ask the warden with green hair, and he says “safety.”

you ask the demon wearing a bleached coat, and he says “love.”

you ask the pig wearing a royal’s garb, and he says “equality.”

you ask the short boy with antennae and bee wings, and he says “security.”

you ask the man with torn wings in a green cape, and he says “unity.”

you ask the boy with messy hair and a red shirt, and he says “rest.”

you ask the hybrid boy wearing a suit slightly too small, and he says “a home.”

what do you want?

you ask the faceless man in the prison of his own design.

he laughs at you.

“control.”

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white people, i’m going to need you to change the way you react to poc calling you out on racism, or telling you not to say something because it’s racially inappropriate:

apologize and do better, but don’t repeatedly apologize and put it on the poc to forgive you over and over again

don’t make it personal. don’t make this about how you’re Oh So Socially Awkward and treat this as a form of social rejection. retract statements, decide to do better in the future, and move on

in the context of online spaces, if a mutual calls you out on racism, don’t go crying all over the dash about how worthless and stupid you are etc etc and making yourself the victim. this is especially rude when your mutual of color can see it!!

whether intentional or not, repeatedly bringing the incident up where the poc who called you out can see it - is a form of guilt tripping. don’t do that

don’t make excuses. yes, you did something wrong. no it does not mean you are irredeemable garbage and that the poc who called you out hates you and doesn’t want to be friends anymore. again, Do Not treat this as a form of social rejection. it cheapens what happened and what could’ve been a fruitful lesson on being better about race becomes about your white tears

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People who love cold weather are fucking weird. You like to freeze? You like to shiver?? You like when you take a step outside and the air stings your skin???

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“You’re Not a Good Writer.”

I once received a DM comprised of just that sentence. Nothing else. No constructive criticism or any reason as to why this person clearly agreed with my own view of myself.

For someone who has never told anyone in their real life that they write anything, reading something like this from an anonymous user only solidified in my mind the fact that this person was right.

I’m not a good writer.

After an embarrassing amount of minutes passed, in which I thought about deleting every story I ever posted, I decided to delete the message instead. Unfortunately, that didn’t mean I could delete the feelings it caused or change the fact that I’m not a good writer.

Two weeks went by and I didn’t write anything, let alone post. Then I received a comment on a story I had posted three years prior, one I’d written after a death in our family. The comment read, “Thank you for sharing this heartfelt story. I really needed this. I just lost my mom and this really got me today.”

I stopped thinking about being a good writer after that. I thought instead, “what if I had deleted my stories and that one person three years later hadn’t read it that day?”

Here’s what I realized: no one is a good writer.

Good means to be approved of, but stories aren’t created from approval. They’re built from life experiences, feelings, and emotions Therefore, the impact of anyone’s story isn’t good or bad. It’s a million other things.

Heartfelt.

Sad.

Funny.

Inspiring.

Romantic.

So to all the story writers out there, hold your head up, write what is in your heart, and never doubt that there isn’t at least one person out there that needs to read your story.

So, no.

We’re not good writers, but why would we want to be?

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today is trans day of fuck

shit fuck damn

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Lil Nas X really knows what the people want