myairlain

[myairlain]

I'm done

I had too much to drink, and even now, I know that the wisest thing to do is to let you go.

I'm not gonna fight or beg anymore. I'm not going to put any more effort.

If you wanted to, you would.

And you didn't.

[myairlain]

I'm feeling like I'm going deaf

Your breath was wet

With little preasures on my ear

That somebody dared to call them kisses once

You were telling me, time and time again

How good you were going to be for me

How I should forget about that stupid asshole

And how much pleasure you were going to give to me

Your hand traveled through my thigh

And rested on another place

Which wanted to explore

Which I almost let you

I followed you

Where no one could see

You asked me to stay one minute

"I have something to show you"

I still feel your touch on my breast

Or the pressure on my back and my hand

Your face when you were going to kiss me

And the rum that now burns the top of my mouth

Don't you dare to touch me again

[myairlain]

5 more minutes...

I'm begging you...

5 more minutes of us laying on the bed, with your heavy arms crushing my chest, and our legs entangled.

5 more minutes of us laughing in the shower, while we play with the water and my make up runs down my face.

5 more minutes of kissing under the sun and the moon, as the heat push us closer together.

5 more minutes of pretending...

I'm begging you

5 more minutes until we become complete strangers.

Just 5 more minutes...

Please

[myairlain]

But when he loved me, I felt like I was floating

When he called me pretty, I felt like somebody

Even when we faded eventually to nothing

You will always be my favorite form of loving

[myairlain]

Coming back to post how good I look and I don't have anybody else to share it with

[myairlain]

Can't believe I'm posting this much on here, I haven't been feeling my best, and I don't think I can talk about it anywhere but here.

Guess this place gives me the freedom that I have been longing for. Everywhere else, I have to put on a mask (not really hard because of covid XD).

Thanks for being the friend that I needed.

[myairlain]

I didn't crave love, I craved her

[myairlain]

Can't stop picturing her

How her scent clouds my judgment

And how her lips say my name

Can't stop thinking about her

How she holds me, how she cares

And how her lips touch my face

Can't stop imagining being with her

When I shouldn't

Wanting her lips, when I wouldn't dare

[myairlain]

I love being alone, I need to be alone, because I always feel lonely, and loneliness is what I deserve

I don't crave love, I stopped feeling it a long time ago, I'm just there

I want to let you go, because I don't know how to live without you

Just some thoughts that kept my mind busy today

[myairlain]

Wishing things were different

[myairlain]

I put the record on

Wait 'til I hear our song

Every night I'm dancing with your ghost

[myairlain]

Leave,

like you always do

[myairlain]

I rather not have you at all than missing you with every breath I take

[myairlain]

Tonight I'll burn the lyrics

'Cause every chorus was your name

[myairlain]

I was falling in love in a backseat

Giving it away

Like my heart won't ever break

[myairlain]

So tell me to leave

I'll pack my bags, get on the road

Find someone that loves you

Better than I do, darling, I know

'Cause you remind me every day

I'm not enough, but I still stay

[myairlain]

My nights are so blue...