mydemonsdrivealimo - Tumblr blog

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

them <3

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

guys can we talk ab the band era. or just jensen playing bass. specifically doing full queen covers on bass And piano And picking up clarinet for fun. like mans spent 4 years straight studying music and he has so many skills and so much knowledge and he doesn't get to use it until after the oph timeline and before edenbrook he didn't use it for like. 6 years or smthn. wtf

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

my queer hcs for the main OH cast bc if you think they're not in my hc i will literally implode

sienna: cis, she/her; straight; ace and alloro

elijah: trans, he/him; straight; demisexual and alloro

jackie: cis, she/her; lesbian; allosexual and grayro

bryce: cis, he/him; pan; allosexual and demiro

aurora: demigirl, she/they; lesbian; allosexual and alloro

raf: queer, he/they; bi; demisexual and alloro

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

happy lesbian week to aurora and jackie <3

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

5, 10, 15 for bryce lore

ty <3333

5. Who are they loyal to? Why?

bryce is loyal to his friends 100%. theyre the people he chooses to have in his life so that means a lot to him. he has been burned on it before, but thats not going to stop him, if anything it just takes him longer to trust people. but yeah mainly friends/the people he chooses to keep in his life

10. What are their emotional triggers?

kinda talked ab this in my last ask but bryce being yelled at is a big one for him. like fighting/arguments in general. he and his dad used to have it out OFTEN esp as he got older and it was just brutal. he was not a sit still and be quiet kinda person though, he would argue back. as much as he has tried to get rid of that trait over the years, if hes getting yelled at, theres a 99% chance he will be fighting back. so arguments in general are just not great for him bc he has a hard time letting them go. as much as he can let go of things that dont matter, stuff like that just kills him. it totally puts him back into that headspace of feeling unloved and like garbage so thats a big trigger for him

15. What do they like/dislike about themselves?

when bryce is in a bad mental space he can really beat himself up for being annoying. normally he loves that he has the confidence to do things and just be himself, and hes very very proud of himself for getting to that point in his life (considering that he was not always like that), but when hes feeling like shit he just feels like he is the worlds biggest nuisance. just made a post ab this earlier--how his love language is "being annoying"--but really it is. bc it means hes w someone where hes comfortable enough to be like that all the time and knows that they love it regardless

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

i love the self-reflection going on in regards to checking yourselves for your own internal biases and in the spirit of that- i want to address one last thing.

the FIRST step in taking accountability is admitting what you've done is wrong. fully and transparently. apologies are a commitment made to those who have been wronged that you'll do better. they need to explicitly showcase what was wrong and who needs to own up to their wrongdoings (if you know anyone who needs to, ofc). otherwise it's only an apology made to save face so you can feel better and move on. not for the people affected.

so as someone done wrong, hear me when i say this:

whitewashing any canonically poc character is racist. supporting content that whitewashes poc characters is racist. and if you genuinely want to take accountability, you'll need to admit this out loud. fully and transparently for everyone to see:

bryce lahela from open heart was whitewashed. bryce lahela is an indigenous hawaiian person. [insert your name here] endorsed/supported fanart that whitewashed bryce lahela by [insert what you did here].

and before y'all start with the "i want to protect people's privacy" or "allow people the opportunity to acknowledge it themselves"--

being vague in your apology does no one any favors. it gives people an out. a reason to believe that whatever it is you're saying sorry for doesn't involve them. if they genuinely are unaware, you saying it out loud point blank period will go a long way.

thank you for listening 🖤

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

What emotions or situations do they try to avoid? Why? — For Bryce! ❤️

ah ty!!!!! <333333

bryce def avoids conflict, but in His way. conflict for him is more Actual arguments and confronting others just bc he doesnt like fighting. hes fine telling someone they got his order wrong, but thats bc he knows how to phrase it and be super sweet about it, so it's no big deal. same for when he knows others are in the wrong, he has no problem. but when its issues where he knows they may fight him on it, or be rude to him about it, he tends to stay away from it. he always fought a LOT with his dad growing up, so he knows how to argue, but it just puts him in a bad headspace

as for emotions, he will do Anything to avoid feeling lonely or isolated. bryce has dysthymia in my hc, which is a more mild but long-term form of depression, and being alone has a huge impact on that. for a very long time, bryce didnt have any close friends. hed have a few relationships here and there too, but oftentimes theyd want something he didnt (given that hes demiro) which could put a big strain on him. like he was being forced to be close with them. then for friends hes just never really found a solid group that he clicks with. he can get along w anyone, but hes never really found His People that just get him. so he tends to spend a lot of time adventuring the city, going out shopping, running errands that dont need to be done yet, etc etc just to keep himself busy and out of the house

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

Get to Know Your Character

Here are some questions to consider for character development:

What parts of their childhood trigger them?

How do they treat themselves when they're feeling sad?

What parts of themselves do they tend to hide?

How do they punish themselves when they make mistakes?

Who are they loyal to? Why?

Who do they avoid? Why?

What emotions or situations do they try to avoid? Why?

What angers them?

What are their insecurities?

What are their emotional triggers?

How do they feel about love?

What are their fears?

What is their relationship with their family like?

What kind of people do they tend to gravitate towards?

What do they like/dislike about themselves?

Happy writing ❤

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

bryces love language is just being annoying as fuck btw

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

*in my hc he did

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

"There's millions of Tumblr users" to you. To me There's only about 12 and we all reblog the same five posts from each other

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

hello im here to talk ab this too

this is literally the problem with all of these "apologies". maybe if it were one that wasnt acknowledging the problem, itd be different. but every one so far has been reluctant or refused to acknowledge the problem at hand

its beyond me how it could go "unnoticed" that bryce was whitewashed. he AND KEIKI were paler than the white people depicted in the art. but clearly thats what some of you are saying happened, and i dont have a reason not to believe you. so, in the case that you didn't notice now is your time to acknowledge it.

being vague in your apology does no one any favors. it gives people an out. a reason to believe that whatever it is you're saying sorry for doesn't involve them. if they genuinely are unaware, you saying it out loud point blank period will go a long way.

^^ this is exactly what i mean. because clearly if every person so far didn't notice it, then others need it pointed out, too. this is the way to do that. not being vague, not avoiding the specific problem. being complete and outright in your apology

and for those of you trying to "keep the peace",

racism is not drama. it is a real, consistent, damaging issue faced by many across all fandoms, but especially choices. representation is of the utmost importance, and that being taken away to present a white version of a character of color is blatant racism

i am tired of seeing people who supported that post and art go on to like and comment on posts me and others working against this event have reblogged and used to spread awareness. if you liked the whitewashed art of bryce and keiki you are part of the problem, and liking posts about how whitewashing is racist does not take the place of your apology

i love the self-reflection going on in regards to checking yourselves for your own internal biases and in the spirit of that- i want to address one last thing.

the FIRST step in taking accountability is admitting what you've done is wrong. fully and transparently. apologies are a commitment made to those who have been wronged that you'll do better. they need to explicitly showcase what was wrong and who needs to own up to their wrongdoings (if you know anyone who needs to, ofc). otherwise it's only an apology made to save face so you can feel better and move on. not for the people affected.

so as someone done wrong, hear me when i say this:

whitewashing any canonically poc character is racist. supporting content that whitewashes poc characters is racist. and if you genuinely want to take accountability, you'll need to admit this out loud. fully and transparently for everyone to see:

bryce lahela from open heart was whitewashed. bryce lahela is an indigenous hawaiian person. [insert your name here] endorsed/supported fanart that whitewashed bryce lahela by [insert what you did here].

and before y'all start with the "i want to protect people's privacy" or "allow people the opportunity to acknowledge it themselves"--

being vague in your apology does no one any favors. it gives people an out. a reason to believe that whatever it is you're saying sorry for doesn't involve them. if they genuinely are unaware, you saying it out loud point blank period will go a long way.

thank you for listening 🖤

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

*in my hc he did

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

+1 hc addition at least one of the the places bryce bartended at was a strip club

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

was playing w some mock up design options for jensens book yesterday <3

despite being about medicine, the heart is non-anatomical bc its meant to represent more of the societal and human aspects of healthcare. it's more than just science. the syringe is meant to represent the "traditions" and information often fed to new doctors when going through their medical education which is often outdated and more or less bs atp (which is why its an old syringe model)

jensen explains how the evolution of the healthcare system includes a lot of systemic issues and hatred against certain groups, which makes healthcare relatively unhelpful to them as their issues are usually brushed off. he speaks on his experiences both as someone who grew up unable to access healthcare due to the cost and as someone who now works in the system. he acknowledges the pretentiousness around medicine while keeping the book relatively simple in language bc people without a college degree get health care, so they should be able to understand information about it

he addresses issues around language barriers, bias in doctors, and bigoted criticism he's faced as a queer autistic poc in medicine

also the title is based on that one chappell roan song. idk if that would actually be the title but it fits in this version. theres a section of the book where jensen explains that he and others in his position (queer, nd, poc, etc) really are not prepared for how the healthcare system treats them, both as patients and doctors, so in a sense it's referencing that they're on their own and all they get is a wish good luck before being thrown in, rather than any helpful guidance. esp in his position he was never really prepared for how the world was going to treat him (thanks mom) so it applies here, too

anyway this project has helped me a lot to get out of the bs part of fandom and just appreciate my characters so no im not good at graphic design but trust n believe i had a lot of fun w this project