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What you want for yourself is someone loving and caring. Someone who listens the way you do. Someone who isn’t afraid to start an argument for the sake of reaching an understanding and gaining respect for each other. You want someone who is emotionally aware and intelligent. Someone who can verbalize their feelings and feel their feelings. Someone who will be good, not perfect by any means, but good. You will be with someone who may be just as nitpicky as you, but at the end of the day understands you. You are going to be happy. You are going to be loved. You are going to be with someone who loves you more than anything. Who loves you 10x more than you love them. You aren’t going to fight and think about breaking up every week. You aren’t just going to love them, but like them as a person as well. You are going to be with someone committed to making things work no matter what. You are going to be with a healthy, handsome, non quitter. You are beautiful and young and have so so much time. Things are going to be hard for a little bit but that’s okay. You aren’t going to hold resentment. You’re going to let things pass and go. You aren’t going to check up on them. You’re gonna be ok. Time heals all wounds and I love you so so much. Please don’t hold resentment. Always wish everyone the best. Be beautiful inside and out. Love even when it’s hard. Understand even when you shouldn’t. He is a person too, going through things that you have no control over but that’s okay. You have your own needs and expectations that you need to hold yourself to. You deserve so much more in this lifetime and so many others. Things are going to be okay and one day you’ll look back and say ‘I can’t believe I ever stressed and worried about this’. One day it’s gonna all be worth it and you’ll be happy again and someone will fall in love with you over and over and over again. You were born into this world to experience all forms of love. You will receive it in the purest forms possible. I love you and I wish the best for you the most of all.

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writing down feelings to not go crazy. Please do not go back to that. You do not want to spend the rest of your life with a man baby that needs to be coddled and lacks emotional maturity and self awareness. You do not want to be reminded of every single nice act they’ve ever done for you when you’re fighting. You do not want to be stonewalled for hours and days when you get into an argument. You do not want to be with a mamas boy that can’t see how unhealthily their attachment has made him. You do not want to spend your life with someone that never initiates conflict resolution. You do not want to be with someone who relates with and mostly sees Tom’s side from 500 days of summer. You do not want to be with someone whose friends also lack emotional maturity. You do not want to be with someone who constantly plays victim and never ever takes responsibility when telling the story. You do not want to be with someone who can’t communicate properly and makes you over exhaust your need to reach out and reassure. You do not want to be with someone you can’t talk to when out in public. You do not want to be with someone you can’t enjoy meals with. You do not want to be with someone you have to worry about wether we are going to have a good day out or not because if he isn’t then you will be anxious and looking stupid all day. You do not want to be with someone who brings out this hyper vigilant, nitpicky evil version of yourself that you don’t even recognize. You do not want to be with someone that initiates a crash out 3 times a week.

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girl help i’m starting over again for the 1000th time & i’m beginning to think that life is a never-ending cycle of starting over & i actually have to make peace with that in order to move forward

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Margartia Karapanou, tr. by Karen Emmerich, from Rien ne va plus

[Text ID: “I would have preferred if you had loved me less and understood me more.”]

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how it feels to not care about something that used to drive you insane

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We should wear each other's clothes...

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Day 1 of watching Silver Linings Playbook until a mutually mentally ill person comes along and we fall in love yet live in denial until the last possible second.

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something genuinely insane about going somewhere and getting to feel “i had some of the worst years of my life here” and “i was loved here, once” simultaneously.

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i know it's over and it never really began but in my heart it was so real